Wednesday, March 16, 2005

09:15

Been +28 hours now in my sealed bubble. Been working remotely via my workstation, set up in the bubble, through the small hours and so not had much time to monitor and record how I feel till now.

Pulse 70BPM, which is slower than it was midday yesterday. Breathing rate is somewhere near normal – at least when I am at rest. Although far from gasping or panting, I am more aware of my breathing and there is some irregularity to it’s pattern. I often feel like I am taking a slightly deeper breath, along the lines of a yawn – the impulse for which feels good – sort of cross between exciting and sexually stimulating.

When not at rest, even moderate movement can cause some feeling of breathlessness. Again, this is far from difficult to control and recovery is reasonably swift. However, the feeling is still very noticeable and quite delicious.

My body has a strange ache in it from head to foot, which is most noticeable at my extremities and down my sides. It’s not at all unpleasant and can only describe it as the feeling you get just before and during the time you feel you need to stretch (and yawn) when waking first thing in the morning – only this is a near constant feeling. I absolutely love this feeling.

Other than that I feel OK, although in need of some rest and possibly sleep. Of course all the above contributes to a near constant rock hard erection…

My ‘captor’ has now actually locked me in a couple of hours ago and will not return for some hour (hinted at early afternoon). I think surviving in here for a few more hours will be fun! Of course if things get desperate, I could always call them on the mobile, but then I would have to wait for maybe 30 minutes for them to make there way back. False alarms would not be kindly taken to. The element of calculated risk, danger and dependence is quite a turn on.

12:00 +29:45

I caught up on some sleep and had some nice dreams… Even when awake, I found it easy to be in half awake state with daydreams not far from my mind.

Pulse approx 70BPM

Been through several more periods of what I call re-adjustments. Where my body increases it respiratory rate to deal with the changes in the atmosphere and then gets used to it and returns to normal. The last time I was aware of this last evening, but these were slightly more noticeable.

I have entered another longer period reprise where everything returns to normal. Not sure if how long this will last. This pattern is fairly typical from my experiences, a series re-adjustment session going on to a full-on continuous breathlessness and gasping, increasing in rate. The fun start to wane somewhere in the later stages and that’s the time to bail out – while you still can!

14:15 +32hrs

Went through longer period of re-adjustment and now again in a lull – but this time the reprise is not quite as to the same extent as before.

Rather unexpectedly my captor rang (rather then call by) to say that they would not be returning until 18:30 unless things had got desperate [I said they had not] and that they would only call once more to check in hour or so. Committing for such a long extension was quite a decision to have to make. Not that I was given that much choice!

One strange thing is dealing with being so detached from the daily cycles. I went into this small lightproof airtight bubble just before dawn and spent over one and a half days and 1 full night in here while working very unusual hours and untypical sleeping patterns. My only window on the world is my computer screen. To say I am messed up and confused would be a major understatement. This has led to several times wanting to leave, so I can re-sync. So far I have avoided this temptation – but (surprisingly) it has been much harder to deal with than the current levels of O2 and inevitable CO2 build up.
16:30 +34:15hrs

My respiration rate has very slowly been increasing since last entry. Not the cycles of increase and decrease as previously. Still well under control and far from frantic, but noticeably constant and increased above the norm.

I have been able to do some quite reasonable work over last few hours, but starting to find it difficult to concentrate. Other than that I feel ok – as long as I don’t move around too much. Think I will have a rest now and maybe meditate about my situation. I will have to know in a couple of hours what to tell ask captor – do I want out, or should I ask them to keep me in for another two hours. Even if I want out, I wonder if they are going to make it that easy?

18:15 +36:00hrs

Although not completely out of control, my respiration rate is increased and I generally have a feel that I am suffocating (which you could say has been true for some time!). But know, I am feeling like I am on a slow downward cycle that will end in unconsciousness. I feel very drowsy and cannot concentrate on anything other than my breathing for any length of time and moving around is difficult. The sexual thrill is still there but probably well past it’s peak. I don’t think I want to take on another 2 hours, so will ask to be let out soon.

18:30 +36:15

I knew it was possible, but didn’t really believe it would happen. My captor will not let me out “just yet”! No word on when I will be let out, so I will have to conserve my energy, in case it turns out to be another 2 hours – which would be desperate.

19:00 +36:45

My situation is quite desperate. I don’t have energy or concentration for anything other than very gently pleasuring myself. Even with minimal effort, this keeps me just out of breath and the fear of using up all the air before I am let out stops me using sufficient effort to come.

I have considered tearing my own way out early – but this bubble is made of very strong plastic (much much stronger than the thickest plastic bag you see. Even stronger than those designed to carry rubble) and I am very weak. I have no tools and my rubber clad fingers are useless for gripping or tearing, even if had the strength. Getting out of my rubber suit would be very expensive on energy and I don’t think it would do me any good…

On the whole I am going to have to trust my captor’s judgment and just enjoy the ride. The rides not bad after all…

19:30 +37:15

My captor returned about 10 minutes ago and said I would be let out in 10. Suddenly I had plenty of energy to use up some valuable air. I did get very frantic and out of breath in the following few minutes of ‘going for it’. Knowing I didn’t have to ration the air, allowed me work myself up into a frenzy. Slapping my rubber clad form & rubbing myself into the strong material of the bubble. Really getting off on the achievement and relief. Making the most of my last chance for fun in the bubble. I was almost weeping by the time my body released it’s last load.

Now I have had time to recover, I find my breathing is just about under control and not that much above normal rates. I feel washed out, but realize that I probably would have managed to make it if it had been two hour – or even longer. The bubble is so big, the atmosphere depletes in O2 and become polluted with CO2 so slowly, that you don’t get that sudden desperate speeding up of breath, but a slow spiral of adjustment that ware you down. So, although I could go on for hours, the fun is all behind me and I am looking forward to seeing the outside world. Staying awake is the major challenge now.

I hear them coming, better late then never…

Written After The Event…

Lessons learnt.
1. 250 Micron plastic is very heavy (18Kg or 40lbs) and will squeeze air out of any microscopic holes in the seams or seam tape. So maybe supporting the weight from above with guy wires would help (as I previously tried).

2. There is a max size that is fun in practice, this bubble’s golden period was the 8 hours around the +24 hour mark, even though it was a only a quarter full after the first few hours.

3. Dehumidifiers really works well in a bubble if you don’t want to be dripping in condensation. Essential if you are going to have electrical devices in the bubble (like heating or computer terminals). Not an ounce of condensation was seen on the bubble and there were pints in the dehumidifier’s container.

4. You really do need surprising little volume of air to survive for even long periods stretching into days. Will aim to actually quantify this some time by looking through logs and experimentation.

The 37 and quarter hour experience was great and you rarely get that amount of contiguous time to dedicate to your sexual fetishes. Being captive in the bubble I had lots of time to relax, contemplate and use my imagination.