Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Opportunity For An Experiment During A Slight Longer Session

This year, in addition to taking advantage of every day where I am able to work in rubber, I am also aiming to have a few extra-long sessions being locked in rubber total enclosure (my favourite treat!). My recent session did not allow as much time as I would have liked, but even this had been a long time in the planning. I had also had spent time considered how I might make best use of the opportunity of a longer period totally encased in rubber. This is the log of how it turned out.

0 hour

Just completed my slightly more elaborate total enclosure dressing after a few modifications which required a several hours of prep this evening.

Over the years, I have been trying develop "personal plumbing" solutions to facilitate natural functions without any compromise to total enclosure for the entire duration of a session. This is more difficult than you would think as the solution must remain comfortable, functional and acceptably hygienic throughout the long sessions. Over the last few months I think I am close to a solution that will work for longer sessions, but although I have worn it many times, so far I have only tested it for up to about 8 hours duration.

The idea of this session is to go little bit further than previous sessions. In this case, be even more totally sealed in that previously and more self-contained. With the personal plumbing, there will not be even the slightest break in my total enclosure for a pee break. Certainly there are no zippers or any openings in my outfit. I will am totally sealed air-tight for the duration with no compromises.

As it will involve new arrangements of rubber in sensitive areas, I am not thinking of breaking any new endurance records. In the past, I have occasionally made myself VERY sore while trying out new rubber arrangements which were fine for anything up to 8 hours, but became uncomfortable after ~20 hours and close to unbearable after 36 hours! So the modest aim is for 18 hours, which although it might turn out to be challenging, is a target I feel should not leave me uncomfortable for long if things do not work out well.

To keep me on track and keep things feeling intense, I am going for some comprehensive self-bondage so I am locked into rubber head to foot, complete with time-lock. There is nothing quite like being locked in for the duration! Knowing that to enjoy the experience and not have it turned into a living hell, you have to pace yourself. And also knowing, that even if you don't manage to pace yourself, your still in there for the duration, no matter how much you want out - like it or not!

Again, the time lock idea has become almost routine this year, but usually only for sessions of 7 or so hours. So although I am acclimatised to being locked in rubber all day, doubling the duration of this session will surely make this a totally different experience. Potentially it could get very challenging but equally it could be very satisfying.

When I have been able to get the pace right and acclimation to the experience, it has become very magical. When things go well, the first 7 to 10 hours is intensely stimulating, but something special seems to happen after this, where I seem to experience a transition to a sexually more subtle but strongly sensual existence. Having said that, every long session has the potential to be a totally unique experience, occasionally ending with being desperate for escape – but maybe this is half the charm? So here we go again!

+2 Hours

It’s been a very long day of travelling and then fine tuning my suit and plumbing.
I have set time lock now, so total time I will be forced to be total sealed in rubber will be 18 hours minimum.

I am shattered and its time for some rest soon. As part of the session, I will be sleeping the night in rubber. This is often challenging, especially when breathing through a respirator mask…


+9 hours

I had a reasonable night sleep last night, when considering that I was totally enclosed, but I did have a few episodes of sleep apnoea which woke me up with a start. This seems to be due to the slight negative pressure while breathing through my S6 gas mask, which is bonded to my rubber hood (and locked on). Despite this, my sleep breathing these days is much better than was in the early days when I started sleeping in this mask. Practice obviously helps.

I still feeling very comfortable in my rubber, dry and no real pinch points or pressure points. This is despite my more intricate rubber plumbing arrangements, which inherently are more challenging to wear than just my plain suit. I am only 10 hours in, but the early signs are good. Actually, to say I am comfortable is an understatement. I feel totally fab! I feel so at home and relieved to be sealed in my rubber skin. At the moment, it just feels like the perfect state to be in.

To explain my adaptions to my normal daily total enclosure suit: I have a hydration system which feeds me fluid nutrition via a narrow plastic pipe and I have plumbing to take urine away. I do not have anything for solid wastes and am relying on Loperamide to temporarily decrease intestinal movement (and just in case, a butt plug for the duration!).

The urine system consists of 3 layers of rubber under-garments. The innermost are Cocoon sheath pants, complete with a small but plug. The tip of the sheath is cut off to allow fluid out, and its main purpose is to form a comfortable rubber layer between skin and the next layer. Over this I wear a shaped tube of ABS made from plastic plumbing (it is a sawn-off section of part of sink waste trap / u-bend). The shape is similar to some male chastity devices, but a little longer and open ended. When worn it curves out from the body and then downwards. The ABS tube is kept in place with a second pair of rubber sheath pants over the tube, again open tipped to allow fluids to escape with gravity.

Over all this I wear a third pair of latex pants. Sold as “pissing pants”, they are a pair of briefs with (effectively) a collector bag made of clear latex attached at the groin with a drain tube at the lowest point. (for a picture of a very similar pair, see http://shop.marquis.de/en/534-pisshose-fur-damen.html).

Really they are intended to be worn by women. When worn by a man, although everything fits into the bag easily, it becomes impossible to have a “conventional” erection, as everything is held in a downwards direction. When worn by me over my other layers, it holds my ABS tube very firmly in place on my rubber sheathed penis and provides a collection system for my urine to drain away via a small bore rubber tube. Meanwhile the inner layers keep me clean in a dry latex layer and away from the wet plastic and rubber of the outer layers.

The whole idea did start out partly as an experiment in chastity too. In reality my adaption is not a true chastity system but is both a turn on and partial inhibitor for me. The origin of the tube idea was from a suggestion by Ataraxia (IAR founder) who employs a similar system. Having my penis held by this ultra-strong but wide tube (while wearing rubber sheath beneath) is very noticeable all the time and quite a turn on most of the time. Then it strongly prevents a “conventional” upwards erection with what feels like a cast iron grip. This is slightly uncomfortable at first, but (perversely) can become a turn-on for me. There is enough movement in the whole thing for it to become possible to work up a stimulating stroke, but it does take a lot more work and slight discomfort to get beyond first base and get to climax. The results tend to be a cycle between stimulating and comfortable semi-hard state and a fully hard deliciously uncomfortable non-erect “erection”. The more erect, the more difficult it is to experience stimulation and this coupled with the slight discomfort tends to plateau things for a while before repeating the cycle.

I have tried out the arrangement many times on shorter sessions, but of course I am worried such an extreme arrangement could become a major nightmare before my 18+ hours are up. Watch this space!

+17.5 hours

Before long, the time lock will expire and I then I will be free to exit my suit. As it is, I am keen to do this, but only because of unfortunate “real world” pressures and nothing to do with my rubber encasement, which I wish I had time to continue and enjoy. As it is, there are things on my mind that would spoil the experience if I did attempt to stay in here much longer.

So am I still comfortable? The over-simple answer is a qualified “yes”. I have successfully avoided overheating/sweating for the entire time and I am fairy dry. In general, my skin feels in good shape and the rubber still feels very comfortable against my skin. There is no soreness, pressure points or pinching that is causing me any major discomfort. That said, “comfortable” is a subjective term and what I find comfortable in the context of a long total-rubber enclosure session may include aspect which might be described in other contexts (or by others) as less than ideal.

I have to admit there is a small amount of pinching in the area of my waist where 5 layers of rubber meet (3 under-garments for the plumbing and the point where top & bottom of my Hydroglove dry-suit seal together). I think this could be improved with a little attention during the dressing stage, but from my perspective it is perfectly tolerable and I estimate it would not have become a cause for concern until sometime 24+ hours into a session.

The butt plug certainly makes its presence known when I wear it for such long periods, despite is small size. Having said that, there was a time when it would have been almost intolerable after just a few hours. Now the plug is a bitter-sweet presence that serves to remind me of my totally sealed, invaded and locked-in status. It does make it difficult or even impossible to concentrate for more than a few minutes on anything other than my fetish situation – which has become a little difficult to cope with after 17 hours when I am trying to find time complete some non-fetish actions.

As an aside, for those considering a similar plugged experience, make sure u consider your diet for a good period before a long plugged session. Being plugged means that there can be a significant build-up of gas over that amount to time, which can be uncomfortable as the plug makes it totally impossible to pass wind…

My mask/hood combination is again tolerable, but not 100% comfortable. There is just a little too much pressure here and there, especially on the temples. I think the nutrition/hydration system add-on is not helping, with the pipe pushing things a little out of shape. I think I will be looking out for a new hood/mask with hydration system built-in. On the subject of hydration, I think the nutrition mix did work very well, but it did leave my mouth feeling a little sticky so may reduce the glucose element next time.

And then there is the question of the personal plumbing. It would be very inaccurate for me to claim that having my penis firmly held in a downward shape by rubber and hard ABS plastic when it is trying to become erect is actually “comfortable”. Looking at it literally, it can better be described as uncomfortable. This is particular inaccurate when approaching/achieving climax and yet, perversely, I can also find it stimulating to have the natural progression to erect stance tamed. Even when not fighting an erection (which was rare today!), it is still a noticeably odd and incarcerating sensation. In all circumstances, everything (cock & balls) are very much held firmly in place with an uncompromising and inescapable grip. However even after all this time there is no chaffing or soreness, although I think this is a marginal thing and relied on good lubrication with two separate grades of lube (thin silicone oil and thicker silicone grease). I think it will take more experiments and refinements before I could be confident that, say, 24 hours plus would not cause any issues.

+18 hours

From a plumbing perspective, the session is a total success. With exception to air coming via my respirator, fluid entering via nutrition system and waste fluid leaving by my urination plumbing, I have managed to stay 100% totally sealed in rubber for the entire time, which I think is a good achievement and not easy, even if it was for just a 18 hour session. This is, of course the most satisfying and stimulating side of it for me and now the time has come I am dreading having to break the seal at the same time that I highly driven to strip off my rubber in order to be able to deal with my non-fetish commitments. I feel so safe and at home in my rubber skin and yet I know I want to remove my rubber in order to deal with the “real world” in what will quickly feel like an alien environment without the protection and support of my hermetic rubber seal. Ironically, I know that within just a few hours I will be counting the minutes before I can be sealed back up again. Desperate for total enclosure.

I admit, I feel out of balance. Right now, I need to be out of my rubber: I need more time out of rubber to deal with things, yet I need also strongly feel I need to somehow work towards allocating much more time being in rubber. Such a strong feeling of dilemma: I have got it bad!


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Tuesday, May 06, 2014

Spring & Routinely Being Locked Into Total Rubber Enclosure

Spring is well advanced in the UK and I have a terrible admission: there is a good part of me that is dreading the warmer weather! For me, heat makes spending all day in rubber total enclosure more challenging. At the moment its only supposed to be high teens centigrade outside, but I already starting to feel a little too warm in my home, given I am locked into my rubber for the rest of the day.

Shortly after donning my rubber in the morning, I have started a routine of taking a cold shower to start off as cool as possible. As I wear a hydroglove latex dry suit it feels “interesting”: none of the cold shower water can ever touch my skin so just the cooling effect is felt. I stay in the shower for some time until the feeling of cold slowly spread over my body and then makes its way from the outside layer, deeper and deeper into my rubber encased body. I find it is important to not rush the process otherwise the cooling effect is just skin deep and does not last. Although it adds yet another time consuming step to my morning routine, it is such a great feeling I just have to revel in it. It is such a refreshing experience yet allows me to stay totally dry and sealed. Also, with hours of enforced encasement still to go, I find it a great comfort to know I could repeat the experience to cool down if I did overheat later.

My new routine of always locking into my suit still feels novel. I adopted time-locked self-bondage as the rule rather than the exception earlier this year and it seems to work for me, even though there have been some times when I find myself desperate to be free…

This morning, my “sensible head” had some severe doubts that I would really want to be locked into my rubber skin for the day. I knew it would be a hot sunny day and that could make life in rubber uncomfortable as the hours ticked by. However, first thing in the morning my will power is at its highest, my fetish craving most keen and my self-conditioning most potent. Helpfully my “sensible head” is at its most suggestible at this stage, so the fetish side of my mind always wins the argument. Once locked in, I find the great thing is that I can relax my resolve to some extent as I know I will just have to make the best of the situation. For example, I realised there is little point in dwelling on the wisdom of being locked in rubber today the moment the locks clicked shut and the keys were safely in the time-lock safe…

It’s not that I did not realise that there is a good chance that later today that I will look forward to being released. I entered into my rubber bondage knowing that this is quite likely today. I know it may even get so bad that there may be a time when I deeply wish I could be released at that very moment, although luckily I also know that in my experience this strong (sometime close to panic) instinct usually passes… eventually. I realise that time may come and yet I time-lock myself in rubber because I also know how it will affect my experience up to that time.

At a minimum, for a good few hours the experience is greatly enhanced by time-lock total enclosure and sometimes, when I am lucky, this enrichment lasts the whole day. Knowing ahead of time the minimum duration of my rubber encasement is both a relief and an inspiration. It is a relief because I know that I will meet my total enclosure targets for the day, whether my will power holds or not. It is an inspiration because I know I will be motivated to try to pace myself and control my sexual excitement so that I extend the period or my sensual delight and sexual arousal for as long as I can manage or, ideally, until after the time-lock gives me back my freedom.

….as it turned out, the day was not so challenging as I feared. When the time came, I felt reluctant to remove the rubber when the time-lock expired. In fact, I felt slightly aggrieved that external “real world” commitment meant I had to do things that I could not do in rubber and so was in a position where I must peel off my comfortable rubber skin, despite not really wanting to. This sort of situation is not so uncommon these days, however there are still some days where the opposite is equally true and I am counting the minutes when I will be able to release myself. Time will tell what the trend is as summer approaches!


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Monday, February 03, 2014

Monday, 27 January 2014

For the last couple of weeks I have been continuing a trial to see if it is practical and desirable to be locked into my rubber for a pre-set time every time I don my rubber. Unfortunately it has not been possible to make this a daily event yet, but I hope to build up to that.

Today the opportunity landed in my lap, so my mantra and self-conditioning meant I had to act on it. I also decided to write a post this time, so you can judge progress (if any!). I wont post every day, as that would be too  boring and too much of a chore, but just occasionally.

My rubber total enclosure begins followed by bondage and once confident that I am going to be comfortable; the keys are put in the time lock safe with the timer set for just over 13 hours of enforced total enclosure.

After a few chores and correspondence with fetish friends I settle down to my first session of just over half an hour of listening to my self-hypnosis – a script which conditions me to follow my fetish ambitions.

Now, I am a couple of hours into my session and the knowledge that I am locked in for the duration leaves me feeling apprehensive but also very energised and excited.

Every time I lock myself in, I know I am handing over a lot of control to the time-lock safe, the locks of my bondage and my encapsulating rubber. I do this knowing there is small but real risk of something going wrong. For example, I may not be able to extricate myself at the appointed time. I might programme the safe wrong, or the safe may fail or the locks might jam. Then there is the possibility I may find I need to get out of the rubber & bondage early – which would be 100% impossible in any kind of hurry. I do have contingency plans (known as Plan B  & Plan C) if I did need to free myself, but they are deliberately designed to be totally unacceptable in all but emergency situations and both would take time to activate. All this gives a profound weight to my feeling of having “voluntarily” given up my personal freedom and a lot of control of my sensory experience to my fetish, my total enclosure & my rubber skin for the full duration of my self-bondage.


+4 hours.

I decided to take 50mg Sudenafil as a recreational dose to help enhance the long session and help get into and stay in the groove. The idea is it should make it more comfortable to be in rubber as my experiencing a chemically enhanced constant and undiminishing sexual tension will focus my mind on the satisfying aspects of total rubber enclosure and distract me from the less comfortable aspects. Surprisingly it took well over an hour to get to its full strength effect, but when it did my near-constant sexual euphoria did result in any thoughts of the downsides of being locked in my rubber skin diminishing in my mind to something very easily endured when compared to payback of the magical rubber reverie of my enhanced fetish state.


+ 7 hours

The conditioning and self-bondage do seem to having an effect. The self-bondage while exciting does give a very strong incentive to pace myself and avoid ejaculation for as long as possible. This along with the conditioning and longer sessions means I am slowly starting to regain the deeper, less instantly gratifying and yet more prolonged sensual state I have achieved with regular daily sessions of the past. I know I won’t really have achieved my aim until I am many more hours in and still under this level of control while still feeling this highly sexually exhilarated. I expect that I will lose control well before my time is up, but I am hoping with repeated experiments to gradually build up my stamina to former levels.

+8 hours.

Excitement is increasing now and becoming “desperate”. I was hoping it would be controllable but think the sudenafil is tipping the balance too far for me to be able to control myself for the next 5 hours.

+12:45 Although I was not able to maintain my self-control though out the full length of the session, I am still comfortable, satisfied and happy while I wait for the last half an hour to elapse. It certainly was another great session I did get something extra from being locked in my rubber. I don’t think I will need any encouragement to release myself from my “rubber prison” when the time comes and the time lock safe allows me to release myself, but compared to earlier attempts, I am also do not feel as much urgency. I do admit to having more awareness of the time ticking by on the clock…

My intention is to try to maintain something like 11 to 12 hours for the next few sessions and then by the end of next week aim for an extra long session.

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Monday, January 20, 2014

Monday, 20 January 2014


My new suit arrived a couple of weeks back and I was not disappointed. Hydroglove seem to have improved their suit a little since I last ordered, a few years back. Hard to say exactly what has changes - more consistent thickness maybe and a more even finish. Still all that I love about their suits has remained the same. They are peerless where it comes to the feeling of being totally sealed in a watertight and even air-tight vulcanised and chlorinated rubber suit.

Over the last couple of week the suit worked out well and very comfortable, so this week I am progressing to the “next stage” with the help of my newest toy…

My aim, as always, is to ensure I am totally sealed up when I don’t have any specific reason not to be. The trouble has always been in maintaining a disciplined approach to ensure I keep to any targets I set. I am generally always good to my word up to about 8 to 10 hours, but sometimes struggle beyond that, especially beyond 20 hours. Essentially it get tougher where regularly sleeping in total enclosure is the order of the day. Day in, day out my resolve weakens if my sleep is disturbed.

So, using a system of chains I have locked myself into my suit and (when I was sure I was comfortable) I put the keys into my new toy… It’s a time lock safe from http://captureddiscipline.com/. As you will see from their youtube video, this safe can be set up to lock from 1 minute up to 999 days.

With the commitments I have for the next month or two, I am not likely to find the time to do record breaking efforts. However, luckily for me, there is no reason why I should not be in rubber for about 11 or 12 hours per day most weekdays if I include sleep time. Weekends and recreational days are less predictable, so don’t have a target for non-weekdays, so we are only talking weekdays for my new approach…

As a first attempt, I have locked myself in to my rubber skin for 11 hours, complete enclosure including being locked into my trusty Regulation gas mask hood. The idea is to trial this for a few days to see if it is something I should incorporate into my daily routine.

I have tried other techniques to achieve timed self-bondage in the past using combination locks and software to encrypt the combination, but this time lock safe solution is much more straightforward and a lot more secure! As far as I can see, I am locked in this rubber for the full 11 hours.

It feel a little bit nervous as although I am still very comfortable in here (after being sealed in for just the first three hours), being locked into anything using self-bondage always has a feeling of being little risky. Naturally, I have tried to mitigate risk, with a plan-b for most eventualities, but there is always the butterfly in the stomach feeling when the locks go click… Hours later, I still have that feeling. The nerves are also a little exciting and so for me results in somewhat stimulating feeling,  However I need to keep reminding myself to pace myself if I am to enjoy the whole 11 hour experience…

About 5 hours in…. Being locked in is supposed to help me pace myself for a longer, more relaxed and sustained low level of stimulating experience. However, I have noticed that there is something about knowing you need to control yourself because you are locked in for the duration that is strangely exciting. This is especially true when it is an infrequent or new experience. And even more so when it is in an almost brand new suit!

Its not helped that this occasion the experiment is being carried out in my own free-time and I am not able to occupy myself with tasks or work distractions. Just me and the rubber and the bondage.

I feel so pent up with a tension of sexual exhilaration that my repression of easy relief is driving me crazy ….

I am trying to avoid chemical assistance and have instead been trying to rely on listening to my self-hypnosis scripts. These are generated using a text-to-speech engine and contain a long session reinforcing my mantra and self-conditioning to spend all available  time in rubber total enclosure experiencing a deeper level of my fetish. These sessions do help me to calm and centre on the experience.

11 hours in and the safe announces it is ready to let me have the keys to my self-bondage. I am not exactly desperate to take off the rubber, but I have run out of rubber time and am happy to remove it knowing I have had a reasonable fix.

The experience felt very novel and so it had its challenges. I cannot say I got the quality of sleep I would normally have, but may this would improve if this became the norm. If my past experience of making rubber my normal daytime attire is anything to go on, I should be OK. With familiarity I hope I could get what I want from the experience, the deeper experience I get from longer session during the day, but also I hope I might eventually get good night’s sleep to make the whole thing sustainable.

The challenge now is to see if I can make this my usual routine. Easier said than done, but as I write this, day 2 is already planned…

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Monday, January 06, 2014

January 6th, 2014 - Awaiting a new suit

A quick post as I am on tenter-hooks as I awaiting a new suit from Hydroglove which is in the post. For me there is something very special about putting on a brand new suit. In the mean-time, I just have to be satisfied being sealed up in the old one!
There really is something VERY special about a new suit. The experience is something I always try to savour as it is such a rare treat for me (my recent suits battle on for ages! Despite very regular use...).

A new suit is such an amazing object, so unusual, almost alien and the sensory overload is fabulous. The whole thing is pristine, and yet it comes with its own unique character. The smell is SO special as soon as you unwrap it.

Then there is the feel of it slipping on for the first time. The new material gliding over the skin and into place.

Then there is the look of perfect new latex, which seems to transform my own look to that of the suit's own image by the time I finish dressing.

Lastly, after I finish dressing, there is the time for reflecting in the whole experience. Whenever I finish dressing, I always feel like I am now different, but the experience with a new suit is unique for me. I am now new rubber... needless to say it is usually very stimulating...

Reflecting on the FIRST rubber suit I owned, I remember it being a mind-blowing experience. I had always had fetish leanings, experimented with plastic and had cravings for rubber encasement for years, but there had to be a first time I put on a full rubber suit and it was every bit as special as it had been in my imagination.

My first suit was a made-to-measure item and fitted my (then) young body perfectly. It was thin and ultra-shiny. The smell was a fantastic mix of an almost chocolate-like rubber smell. I remember vividly looking down at myself as if I was seeing someone else; someone who the most perfect fantasy sexual partner I could imagine and yet it still being me. The experience was beyond what my brain had had to deal with up till then and all I knew was I had made the right investment! I felt it was like coming home while going on an adventure, having an out of body experience, finding my true-self and transforming into something brand new, unknown and exciting, all at the same time.

I remember the feeling of it on my skin. A thin membrane, but so powerful a hold on every inch of my skin. It was so new an experience and it was the first time in my life where I was aware of how every single part of my body felt, all at the same instant.
I literally couldn't contain myself. I was SO excited. I tried my best to savour the experience for as long as I could, but I was fighting a losing battle. I needed to feel how it felt to the touch, but once I made contact there was no way back. The feel of the rubber clad body on the fingers was amazing. The feel on my body of the fingers touching my rubber skin was even more heavenly. I tried to slow down, and hold of touching myself, but within seconds I knew I needed more and more...

As soon as I finished I instantly knew that I would need to have more of this experience... And I did!

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