Monday, 27 January 2014

For the last couple of weeks I have been continuing a trial to see if it is practical and desirable to be locked into my rubber for a pre-set time every time I don my rubber. Unfortunately it has not been possible to make this a daily event yet, but I hope to build up to that.

Today the opportunity landed in my lap, so my mantra and self-conditioning meant I had to act on it. I also decided to write a post this time, so you can judge progress (if any!). I wont post every day, as that would be too  boring and too much of a chore, but just occasionally.

My rubber total enclosure begins followed by bondage and once confident that I am going to be comfortable; the keys are put in the time lock safe with the timer set for just over 13 hours of enforced total enclosure.

After a few chores and correspondence with fetish friends I settle down to my first session of just over half an hour of listening to my self-hypnosis – a script which conditions me to follow my fetish ambitions.

Now, I am a couple of hours into my session and the knowledge that I am locked in for the duration leaves me feeling apprehensive but also very energised and excited.

Every time I lock myself in, I know I am handing over a lot of control to the time-lock safe, the locks of my bondage and my encapsulating rubber. I do this knowing there is small but real risk of something going wrong. For example, I may not be able to extricate myself at the appointed time. I might programme the safe wrong, or the safe may fail or the locks might jam. Then there is the possibility I may find I need to get out of the rubber & bondage early – which would be 100% impossible in any kind of hurry. I do have contingency plans (known as Plan B  & Plan C) if I did need to free myself, but they are deliberately designed to be totally unacceptable in all but emergency situations and both would take time to activate. All this gives a profound weight to my feeling of having “voluntarily” given up my personal freedom and a lot of control of my sensory experience to my fetish, my total enclosure & my rubber skin for the full duration of my self-bondage.

+4 hours.

I decided to take 50mg Sudenafil as a recreational dose to help enhance the long session and help get into and stay in the groove. The idea is it should make it more comfortable to be in rubber as my experiencing a chemically enhanced constant and undiminishing sexual tension will focus my mind on the satisfying aspects of total rubber enclosure and distract me from the less comfortable aspects. Surprisingly it took well over an hour to get to its full strength effect, but when it did my near-constant sexual euphoria did result in any thoughts of the downsides of being locked in my rubber skin diminishing in my mind to something very easily endured when compared to payback of the magical rubber reverie of my enhanced fetish state.

+ 7 hours

The conditioning and self-bondage do seem to having an effect. The self-bondage while exciting does give a very strong incentive to pace myself and avoid ejaculation for as long as possible. This along with the conditioning and longer sessions means I am slowly starting to regain the deeper, less instantly gratifying and yet more prolonged sensual state I have achieved with regular daily sessions of the past. I know I won’t really have achieved my aim until I am many more hours in and still under this level of control while still feeling this highly sexually exhilarated. I expect that I will lose control well before my time is up, but I am hoping with repeated experiments to gradually build up my stamina to former levels.

+8 hours.

Excitement is increasing now and becoming “desperate”. I was hoping it would be controllable but think the sudenafil is tipping the balance too far for me to be able to control myself for the next 5 hours.

+12:45 Although I was not able to maintain my self-control though out the full length of the session, I am still comfortable, satisfied and happy while I wait for the last half an hour to elapse. It certainly was another great session I did get something extra from being locked in my rubber. I don’t think I will need any encouragement to release myself from my “rubber prison” when the time comes and the time lock safe allows me to release myself, but compared to earlier attempts, I am also do not feel as much urgency. I do admit to having more awareness of the time ticking by on the clock…

My intention is to try to maintain something like 11 to 12 hours for the next few sessions and then by the end of next week aim for an extra long session.

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