After my recent lock-down post, I got a personal email that asked a lot of question about my rubber life, that I thought others may find interesting in the future. I have summarised the questions below and made an effort to address all the points, but these are really big subjects for me, so think of it as what was on the top of my mind.
Q. “How many years have you been conditioning yourself for this?”.
That’s really tricky to answer as I am conditioned to try not to dwell on any time before the conditioning! Also, its not like I started with a Big Bang of all components of conditioning. To some extent, I could answer that all my adult life has been a gradual journey to my current fetish-oriented state, but maybe that’s a bit glib. So i had to do a bit of digging through my records... so to add some key dates:
I started a regular, formal and structured approach the my physical endurance (adaptation/tolerance/conditioning) to total enclosure in rubber at the end of 2004.
Over the next months and years I quickly started to come up with mental constructs to help me achieve my goals, such as rules and things i called “mantras”. Often repeated ideas or rules that reinforced my objectives.
In 2008, i formalised this further with some “Golden Rules”.
I had long been interested in self-conditioning or self-hypnosis, but sometime around 2012 to 2014 I stepped up to the regular use of hypnosis techniques as part of my daily routine. Now, whenever practical, I have an audio conditioning track repeating on my headphones for the entire time I am in rubber. Its running right now. I also have separate induction tracks and others I use for specific situations. So to my mind, 2014 is pretty much year zero and before that a foreign country I no longer inhabit.
Q. “Are you still time locking youself?”
I do still lock myself in, with a time element to the release. I am not 100% consistent and don’t think I have the perfect system yet, but I do feel a LOT happier when the decision to be in rubber is out of my hands.
Q. “What kind of sexual stimulation are you allowing yourself?”
I have experimented over the years with electro and vibrators, but never used the Venus 2000 you mentioned, although they look very interesting.
Q. “I found your latest post! Delighted, and wish that I could have been rubber-socially isolated as long as you have been! I love how you describe your life in filtered existence. Dumb question, are you sleeping in full rubber with gasmask filter? It makes total sense to protect yourself at all costs.
This gives many good reasons to be fully protected.“
My hermetically sealed existence, where I can have more control over exposure to the potential dangers outside my rubber skin, was becoming significant in my mind years before lock-down. I was both excited by the idea, while also being worried about the potential for a long-term negative effect on my immune system. Perversely, lock-down has simplified my thoughts on the subject. My rubber and mask is keeping me safe from everything outside, including the Covid-19 virus. Spending any time out of the house and out of rubber is now a planned and quickly executed activity, with a very strong desire to return to rubber safety.
Sadly, when at home, I do not routinely sleep in full rubber with gasmask & filter, at the request of my partner. This is a major compromise that I make very reluctantly.
When working away from home (before lock-down) it is a 100% rule I must sleep totally enclosed.
That last 10% of coverage (the nose/mouth) is 90% of the challenge and can seriously affect sleep. When exhaustion becomes a problem, I sometimes relax the rule on being sealed by a face mask when sleeping (although hoods are still mandatory!).
Going forward, I might force myself to wear the mask when away from home. I am not likely to sleep well without a mask!
Q. “How are you dealing with bodily functions?”
I have a pretty well-developed system for urination. It quite complex, but a simplified explanation is I wear the delightfully titled “pissing pants” under my outer layer, with a tube that exits via a reinforced grommet in the outer layer(s). The pissing pants are similar to (but not quite the same as):
This can be connected to a collector bag or just left as a tube with a valve. The valve is my usual arrangement and means I stay totally sealed until I need a piss and then I feed the tube into the toilet bowl and open the valve and relieve myself, in the knowledge the water trap is keeping me sealed. As soon as I am finished, the valve is closed and tube retrieved. Like having a very long, very thin rubber penis!
The pissing pants can be worn as the first layer or over other things (e.g. sheath pants). And this is where the explanation can get complicated, but hopefully you get the idea.
“Solids” is only a problem for me if going more than 24 hours, which is not a daily routine thing for me. However, when I do go 24+, then I use diarrhoea treatment to temporarily suspend bowel operations. This works much better than you might imagine as long as I manage my nutrition to not cause abdominal discomfort. As nutrition in these situations is liquid in form, delivered by a tube, this is actually easy to achieve and could work for several days if necessary, but not much longer. If 24+ was a regular thing, I would need to put more effort into solving the “solids” problem in other ways. For now it is an interesting academic exercise and interested in ideas like automated plumbed in enemas etc.
Q. “Have you ever found a gasmask that has a microphone that sounds natural on the phone?”
Talking on the phone for work has NOT been solved. I just take off my mask (but MUST leave my hood on) for the duration of the call. It’s more a case of confidence than anything. I must feel 100% confident there is no hint of being masked in my voice. I have some thoughts but would love to hear from anyone who has cracked this problem.
Q “How long are you enclosed at a time?” .
Let’s talk about my day-to-day life rather than longer sessions. I always decide the duration before dressing and have rules that set the time. There is also a general rule that once totally enclosed, it’s mandatory for me to stay sealed in for an absolute minimum of 6 hours, to keep to the physical part of my conditioning. This has to be considered before dressing in rubber and if I know I won’t be able to spend 6 hours in rubber, I am not allowed to be totally enclosed. There is very little discretion here and only a handful of serious circumstances allow me to vary from this. This 6-hour minimum is mainly to break any mental link between being totally enclosed and a (normal length) sex session. It reinforces that being sealed is a way of life where I spend long periods sealed on a regular basis. Being sealed in does have an important sexual component for me, and I am likely to achieve sexual climax at some point. However orgasm is not compulsory, but being in rubber is mandatory! This minimum limit helps in these objectives.
However, this is very much a minimum and I would usually set a longer target (ahead of time), which will depend on real-world rubber-incompatible commitments. Again, I have specific programming to help be set the time, which essentially boils down to the rule that I MUST be totally enclosed in rubber where there is not a permitted reason not to be. Over the months and years my time in rubber has varied significantly due to all sorts of external factors. If you averaged the last few months out, when I am not travelling, I imagine a typical day would be to spend about 7 or 8 hours totally sealed, where significant rubber-incompatible “real-world” commitment exist, and about 12 hours when they don’t. It’s been the exception to spend more than 15 hours in rubber recently.
Given that I have always aimed to spend as much time in rubber as I can and I have been acclimatising to the life for many years, the above times may sound disappointing. But you have to imagine that MOST days are spent like this. When the “stars align” and where there are weeks where there is no permitted reason not to be in rubber, I have to be prepared for the fact that my conditioning mean I would HAVE to spend 6 to 15 hours each and every day, totally enclosed in my rubber skin, for days or weeks on end. Anyone who has tried it will tell you this is a totally different world to the occasional long session. Weeks like this are rare, but can be VERY challenging when they occur. They can also be unbelievably satisfying.
Q. “Do you still find poppers a way to enhance your existence?”
Yes. But only when they contain proper popper Amyl Nitrite, which I have to buy from Europe. This might not be possible once UK exits this transitional period with EU. I find the side-effects of other formulas to be seriously worrying.
Q “Are you still suffocating as well? Is breath control still part of your life?”.
Absolutely. Rebreathing is part of my life, but not a mandatory part of my enclosure. Rebreathing is an essential part of the tool bag, but often gets in the way of performing beyond the sexual arousal aspect of the life (for example, it’s difficult to work when you are gasping for air). I also typically would either use poppers or rebreather, but usually not both at the same time.
Q “Do you still feel that 24 + hours is difficult, or have you overcome those feelings?”.
No, for me 24+ is not possible on a regular basis, but mainly for non-physical reasons. I feel it would be possible to engineer a way past the physical challenges to enable you to stay totally enclosed for (for example) 23/24 365. But the more difficult challenges would be both the real-world commitments and psychological reasons brought about by extreme social isolation. Someone would have to live in some sort of self-contained retreat with others who could share and support to start to get past these issues.
Q. “Do you still orgasm? Or have you made yourself stop stimulating? Can you remain in rubber after orgasm? And is it pleasant to recharge?”.
Yes I do allow myself sexual stimulation often resulting in sexual release, although I also go through periods of experimented in “ruining this” with chastity devices. Sort of see-sawing around this topic at the moment and not come to a conclusion.
A significant factors is I find it MUCH easier to have happy and comfortable experience when totally enclosed in rubber if I am sexually aroused. While in this state, I have a very strong feeling I could only be less comfortable if I were to break the seal. I just feel I must be totally enclosed when aroused. As such, if I am going to want to be a happy prisoner while locked into my rubber, it helps to delay my orgasm for as long as I can. Pre-orgasm is just the most delightfully motivated phase, although it has a flip-side of the sexual frustration which can eventually manifest itself as something like an aching agony of sexual tension. I happen to be just masochistic enough to enjoy this aching!
However, given I spend a significant part of my waking life in rubber, orgasm is likely to happen at some time while I am totally enclosed. Especially as, when I am sexually aroused, I usually find it easier to spend time in rubber. Orgasm is not mandatory for a rubber session, but typically happens at some point. I have an ongoing program of experimenting with chastity devices, but not found quite the right balance yet. That balance must allow getting satisfactorily towards the edge while reliably preventing ejaculation.
After orgasm I think many people feel a need to remove rubber, especially masks, and I suffered from this complaint, especially when starting out. To get around this, I have a simple rule system as part of my conditioning that kicks-in postcoital. For a start, I have already pre-planned how long I will spend in rubber today, before I started, sometimes expressed as a minimum time. If I orgasm after this period has expired, I am conditioned to never remove my rubber for a minimum 30 minutes postcoital. The idea here is that I used to find the first 10 to 20 minutes of “refractory period” as the time when I have an urge to remove my rubber. There was a very strong feeling for the first few minutes but faded to a manageable level well before 30 minutes were up. The upside is this practice provided me with a mechanism to break my association of orgasm followed by the immediate removal of mask etc. The downside is that when I reach the 30-minute minimum, I often have no desire to remove my rubber, and sometimes find it close to impossible to force myself to undress and get on with my chores! Far nicer to stay sealed in for a bit longer than face what is outside my rubber world…