Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Living in a rubber sheaths

[WARNING – This entry contains mention bodily functions (No 1s!)]

I have been experimenting with wearing a new rubber suit / pants to work and thought I should right up my experiences and challenges…

As my particular preference is for being as totally sealed as possible for as much time as possible, certain practical limits are met fairly quickly. Some time ago I wrote up my list of challenges and issue that face the lifestyle totally rubber enclosed person as I wanted a “hit list” of problems that need to be addressed, in priority order, to better be able to sustain my chosen lifestyle. See my entry for "Wednesday, November 23, 2005" for all, but a major one is passing water - urinating, pissing, call it what u prefer. Unsavoury subject maybe, but urination is a basic failing of the body that I need to be addressed in order to live in latex. Of course I could just wear a suit with a front zip, but :

A) Where would the fun in that be!!!

B) I find zips problematic in terms of comfort – and getting in the way of that sleek rubbery “ideal” - the look, the feel, call it what u will.

C) Zips break the whole hermitic seal thing, which is a major physiological thing I like to achieve for prolonged periods (a major turn on for me). Just being able to open an easily accessible zip to get inside is just not “right” in my (deranged) mind.

D) Zips leak sweat (etc) and leave embarrassing puddles all over the place.

E) Being non-stretchy, Zips are a major cause of “rubber fatigue” and seam failure (back zips in particular).

So any way, I prefer to find other solutions as, up till now, I have needed to disrobe or “compromise” (in my mind) via a zip the totality of my prolonged encasement for this body function. When going for new distance records of strict total enclosure, the only other option being planned dehydration and/or pissing in the suit – but both these options are less than ideal and apart from anything else, give an upper limit of only a few days before u start to drown in your own juices.

I tried other things like external and internal medical catheters – but with disastrous results (see previous posts), so sheathes are the current way I am going.

I tried wearing sheaths pants under my favourite shoulder entry suits in the past (which have no access/openings or zips below neck line), but they were not totally successful due to “back flow” problems. Over prolonged periods the cycle of being less/more erect affected the position / fit / and occasional flaccid cycles could affect the ability to keep my male member in the sheath at all. Basically, as access to fine tune the fit and position was impossible, I was unable to guarantee a good seal and so piss would sometime overflow back into the suit.

My current arrangement is a skin suit with a cock & ball sheath built in. To stop it getting in the way, it is usually behind a pouch which is glued to the front of the suit and has a zipper for access. As the zip is not through to the inside of the suit, it does not cause problems of breaking the suits hermetic seal on the body and as it is a very loose fitting pouch (possibly too big and loose), it does not effect stretch/comfort. I have punched a very small whole in the end of the sheath to allow the pipe from my (romantically named) “pissing pants”, which I wear underneath, to pass through. For those who are not sure what I mean, under the main suit I wear rubber briefs/pants which have another cock and ball sheath which has an attached tube at the tip.

This all means that I am wearing two sheaths over my penis. As I “go” in the inner sheath, the tube carries the piss through to the outside either into a collection bag via a one way valve (which maintains my 100% seal from outside air etc). Alternatively the tube can just be used to let the fluid pour down the toilet pan and, when not pissing, the tube is easily plugged off to restore the totality of my seal.

OK, now to my experience… Does it work to an acceptable level, is it comfortable to wear for long periods etc…

Well, it’s still sort of early days, but I would say it does work from a practical view. As I have access to fine tune my “fit” – I have not had problems with my penis not fitting or popping back out, despite my whole groin area being constantly under two layers of rubber. That means a good seal and seemingly much less problems with back flow.

It’s actually currently tricky to be categorical that there are never problems with ANY back flow as, with the current summer temperatures over last month or so, it has been difficult after some longer session to be totally dry from perspiration and this is difficult to differentiate from urine in small quantities. Also, other limitations mean I have not be able to have any really long session (like several days of TE) and often been limited to having just 8 to 10 hours a day. I will report back any problems with longer sessions, but basically any mess so far has been very easy to cope with for these shorter sessions, even on a daily basis.

Now for the rest of the experience… what’s it like to be sheathed daily? Comfort etc… Well to be honest – a bit of a nightmare at first and I am far from totally converted now. My starting point was that I was already quite a fan of just having my penis held gently but firmly by my latex skin suit against my abdomen (or groin or leg). I like having my bits safely stored away and found it comfortable to move around in, and comforting. I had never been such a big fan of sheaths as I missed the feel and security of my genitalia just being packaged in the suit with the rest of me.

In previous sheath suits, I found my member & balls felt more prone and sort of “external” to the suit. At least this suit has a pouch to put my plumbing away into for safekeeping! The pouch being a little too baggy, means I still don’t get all the support I feel when in my normal (neck entry) suits, but it’s much better than nothing. But I am treating the suit (by Cocoon) as a prototype to “train” in and prove/disprove the concept. Good enough for now to press on and see how I cope…

Then there is getting used to the actual feel of wearing a sheath – in my case, wearing two sheaths layers over my penis all day has been very difficult to get used to. It’s a little like going back to my early attempts at wearing rubber TE every day and still try to be able to function as a human outside of a sex scene (performing my work and daily life etc) – only much worse! Of course we are talking about the most sensitive part of my anatomy being in very restrictive rubber encasement hour after hour…

I am hardly hung like a horse, probably below average in fact, but sheath makers (particularly of pissing pants) seem to be prone to making the diameter just that little too tight around my girth. The constant pressure is partly delightful, but also challenging. Getting the right fit and lubrication are even more imperative than ever and I have frequently suffered from uncomfortable skin chaffing and irritation around the tip of the penis. Occasionally the discomfort has built up over successive days to be severe enough to result in me choosing to stop wearing any rubber at all for several days – so a MAJOR issue!

Even when not faced with pain, the sensation of rubber 360 around your shaft is really difficult to ignore! I am constantly made aware of my rubber layers as I cycle through various degrees of erectional extension. I found myself not being able to stop myself having to adjust myself on a regular basis. On the one hand this is very pleasurable sensation and makes me feel very sensual and sexually alive – but when lived over hour and days, this corporeal imperative does make it very difficult to be able to think straight for more than a millisecond! The more abstract the matter, the harder it is to form coherent thoughts as I am regularly distracted by my rubber confined manhood.

Just like my early experiences of living and working in rubber, whole days become a mentally exhausting struggle to function against my instinct to give in to my rubber sexual bliss. The difference being that so far I have not been able to acclimatise to my double sheathes as quickly as with just being in rubber all day. I find that I am failing to be able to take it often and I do succumb. I also I am not able to make new targets in extending my encasement. Still – maybe I underestimate that original challenge with hindsight and I maybe I will start to adjust soon if I force myself through the “wall”. Because the potential prize of improving the practicalities of extended rubber total enclosure is there, I will not yield and will just have to re-double my efforts…

Wish me luck,
Sealed

Friday, June 02, 2006

Friday, 02 June 2006

Thanks for the comments (and emails) welcoming the blog back.

I have to say that I am feeling like I am in a cultural pincer movement with these high brow comments, which would be all the more intimidating and frankly alarming if you two could spell & type :o)

About my partner, yes your right… you don’t want to pry! I only feel comfortable about talking in general terms, other than to say I DO have / want to make compromises to the totality of my enclosure for her/our sake. That’s why I shy away from the whole “24/7” terminology which sets up an unhelpful metric by which total enclosure lifestyle is often judged, and which is often not continuously sustainable for us. I prefer to think of a rubber oriented lifestyle where my default natural state is as rubber enclosed person. Parenthetically, fetish does involve the imagination and so inevitably you do get into that grey area of the ideal being totally enclosed forever – but for me this is somewhere between a long term aim, something to maybe try for a limited time (experiment) some time and a fantasy perfect existence.

A TE lifestyle is inner directed and can see how it may not be a primarily sociable activity or even unsociable (although antisocial seems to be a bit strong). It would not be the first lifestyle that was not focused on a purely social agenda. However, I feel much of the social problems are to do with the perception of society’s intolerance to rubber fetish in public – which I view as innocent fun and my self expression. The actions of people like Blackie to push society’s limits mean that it would be a brave soul who could predict how easy/difficult it will be for future fetishists to live out their chosen existence in public. I believe people like backie are groundbreakers, and can only do good for acceptance of fetish lifestyles. If the past is any guide, we may be amazed by future attitudes.

A major social stumbling block seems to be the mask / hood and lack of eye contact. Now I can see that TE may be possible with various degrees of face occlusion. There are different transparent materials for a start – from transparent rubber through to a transparent glass helmet and lots of variation in between. Then there is the prospect of ever thinner masks that portray a human face with some degree of facial expression possible – even if it is a chosen face and not the given (natural) face of the individual.

However, it is likely that for a social existence a rubber enclosed person may chose to vary the type and severity of facial mask – depending on situation as to how comfortable they and others will feel about a mask. It is likely that until society attitudes catches up, that the rubber enclosed persons may find it better to bare their face for many situations – which I frequently do.

Back in the home, I suspect that facial appearance and masking are less of an appearance. As time goes on in some relationships, facial cues seem to become less essential. Maybe this would become a barrier if I were advocating that non lifestyle TE fetishist partner never be allowed to see the given/natural face of their lifestyle TE partner – but for me nothing is ever this absolute. About as realistic as never having seen your wife (or live in partner’s) body when they take a shower – that level of privacy could be arranged I guess, but never felt the need myself.

To again repeat the nature of my fetish as a lifestyle of being a rubber enclosed person, the starting point would be to be regularly enclosed in rubber for significantly longer than necessary for just acting out a fetish sex scene. A normal situation being to generally wear rubber for many hours most days. My current goal is to reorganise my life so I can get back to the sate where I am enclosed in rubber for the more of the time than not being in rubber over a given month or so (as I managed in 2005), once I have achieved my current (non fetish) objectives. Rubber enclosure becoming my “jeans and t-shirt” plus business suit, even if not 24/7/365. As to what I would choose to do after that… Well I am not currently planning anything but watch this space.

Now all the above was mainly general – but how about how it effects my sociability. Well I must admit that I am on the horns of a dilemma. There is a part of my character which likes to be sociable with my many friends and be “out there” travelling and meeting with the people of the world. On there other side there is a very strong drive for me to be totally enclosed as much as possible and I feel more and more uncomfortable every hour I am not enclosed in rubber. This feeling is like a cross between holding your breath and living a lie/losing identity. When it has been days and I am stuck in a situation being sociable, I can actually start to feel grubby that I am just being what I think they want me to be.

So to be truthful, my rubber enclosed lifestyle DOES have an impact on important social and other aspects of my life when I get to the point when I am totally enclosed for the majority of the time. Up until now, this has tended to be a question of sacrifice, compromise and finding a natural level / limit to my time in TE. This level has been fairly easy to find so far, due to the difficulties and sacrifice to physical and psychological comfort in being in rubber for extended periods. But as I have found measure to deal with, or have acclimatised to these issues, I often wonder how much more difficult it will be to break out of my rubber enclosed life to deal with the social and other sides of my character…

Sealed