Feel somewhat neglected by me? Do you even remember me? Well I wouldn’t blame you if you don’t… Anyway here I am with a new profile and new posting to let you know I still exist.
Since my last posting, I have been hit by more personal challenges – yet another death, again very close to home. I was badly hit just as I was getting back to my feet. But enough of that…I am starting to come out of that whole black period.
One interesting idea has occurred to me while all this was going on, that I would like to explore via this medium. Imagine that suddenly you are no longer tied by ANY family responsibilities and financially you are suddenly (modestly) independent and don’t have to work to earn money… Suddenly your time would be 100% your own and the prospect of a totally hedonistic lifestyle would be a real possibility.
This could all be hypothetical, of course, so let not get bogged down with individual circumstances, but consider the general concept. Think about what you might choose to do. And what might be wise to do too.
Yes, you could continue to work and now all that money you earn could go into buying fun things rather than paying the mortgage on your house and other bills. If that work was mainly based from home, basically it would be a sort of dream lifestyle for many – where you could surround yourself with all the latest toys while keeping your mind tuned into the working world. Of course your time would not be 100% your own and work commitments and trips would mean you compromise what you could do and wear some of the time.
The alternative is that you could give up work and take whatever downsizing actions that would be necessary to secure your financial future. I sometimes think stepping away from a “consumer lifestyle” may not be as bad I think, as much of the excessive luxury we surround ourselves with is probably a compensation for a time poor (money rich) life we are forced into by work. For example, I ask myself, do I really need such a nice car if I no longer have to travel a gazillion miles a year for work?
Essentially you could call it “very early retirement” and I am assuming an independent income will cover the basic plus enough for some luxuries, including the ever expensive rubber fetish and maybe some travel.
Possibilities that spring to my mind are:
Ø Spend ever more time indulging your fetish fantasy. With enough time, you could aim to get beyond the quick thrills and into the next level of sensual existence, which I have been fortunate enough to have glimpsed, if only occasionally.
Ø Dedicate yourself 100% to living that kinky lifestyle with a commitment that all your actions are now all related to fulfilling and exploring your fetish.
Ø Travel to see fetish friends whenever you want.
Ø Spend as long as you want totally sealed in rubber, building your stamina to days, weeks, months… Lock yourself in and give total control of how long you are in there to someone else.
Ø Adapt your life, your wardrobe and your home to supporting your daily long term rubber enclosure fetish.
Ø Advertise for a rubber slave to share your good fortune with, or sell all your worldly goods and become a (financially independent) latex slave in someone else’s rubber household. Whichever lights your candle, you basically spend all your time fulfilling a sensual life for each other.
If time & commitments was not limiting you and earning money was no longer an essential activity, what would you do with your new found freedom? Do you have fantasies you would need this kind of time to fulfil? Do you believe that a human is capable of living a sublime existence? Or do you take the cynical view (popularised in the Matrix) that humanity would not thrive in a utopian world. That humans thrive from battling towards a ideal as long as it is never achieved?
Also, maybe it’s worth re-examining the list and thinking about how many of these things could be achieved without this windfall?
Sealed
Monday, October 15, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
Monday, 23 April 2007- Life and cliché?
Is my life is a cliché – the one that goes “the only thing that is constant is change”… It kind of suits me to some degree, but it can be challenging for me and must drive some of my friends and email companions mad!
So much has happened since I lasted posted that even if any of it were on topic, it would be too much to post. Needless to say, I have been living through both “interesting” and tragic times. But at least I can see the end of the tunnel now… or is that a train hurtling towards me?
OK, to catch up and give the briefest of insights, my time living with a terminally ill individual has come to a natural, if sad, conclusion [that is as far off topic I want to go]. During this time, the pressure of the situation and my near house bound existence has taken its toll. The stress of having to drastically increase the amount of time I must live without being encase in my protective rubber skin has also resulted in an almost perpetual feeling of anxiety.
All this has meant weight gain and virtual dependence on alcohol to help me relax! The last week seems to have seen a turning point and I think I should be back to normal in a month or 3.
So, when things settle down here, I just have to wean myself back on to routinely wear rubber for longer and longer periods. I am looking forward to this, but experience leads me to imagine it may well be quite challenging, particularly as the summer is arriving. It’s much easier to take to the idea of being fully encased and snug when there is frost on the windows.
I wonder if it will be as challenging as it was the first time. I seem to remember it was a bit like how people describe growing a beard, quite difficult to feel at all comfortable for quite a while and then all of a sudden, it starts to become the norm. People who eventually shave their beard off also say they could never face the prospect of going through the discomfort of growing one again. I hope this does not apply to me and going back to a more rubber oriented (dominated?) life.
I am wondering if it may make me think again about exactly how I approach it and maybe what I chose to wear, etc. It seems to a god opportunity to re-investigate the whole what / why / where / when of my rubbery existence.
Anyway, I may be calling for practical and moral support as I get back into the fold.
Just before I sign off, I would like to say hi to Brock, who seems to be a serious devotee to the idea of training for a rubber encased life. Welcome to the blog and I hope that we hear more of each others efforts. With what I found of you on the web, it sounds like you have a planned some ideas around particularly ”total” total enclosure, including intubations, which I think many with our interests will find very interesting. I have found that there is so little meaningful info on the topic, such that I would like to encourage sharing of even the most seemingly modest experiences and endurances.
Although I agree with Brock that latex encased lifestyle is totally achievable, no one who has actually tried it would say there are no challenges, compromises or implicit limitations. On the one hand, life can get hellish and even dangerous if someone is locked in TE for even a few hours. On the other, with correct planning and conditions I have been able to spend fairly long periods hermetically sealed with zero contact with the outside world, in total comfort.
Daily life usually comprises of some necessary activities and unexpected circumstances that result in a compromised existence which, while tolerable, could be improved upon in terms of both degree of encasement and comfort. I hope that by everyone sharing ideas the whole rubber existence can be continually improved and fine tuned.
I am hoping we seem some comments or links which lead to descriptions of peoples ideas and experiences. Bear in mind also, if you go for an extreme approach to being totally sealed in rubber or plastic, then I think there’s really no such thing as a short amount of time to spend totally encased.
Sealed
So much has happened since I lasted posted that even if any of it were on topic, it would be too much to post. Needless to say, I have been living through both “interesting” and tragic times. But at least I can see the end of the tunnel now… or is that a train hurtling towards me?
OK, to catch up and give the briefest of insights, my time living with a terminally ill individual has come to a natural, if sad, conclusion [that is as far off topic I want to go]. During this time, the pressure of the situation and my near house bound existence has taken its toll. The stress of having to drastically increase the amount of time I must live without being encase in my protective rubber skin has also resulted in an almost perpetual feeling of anxiety.
All this has meant weight gain and virtual dependence on alcohol to help me relax! The last week seems to have seen a turning point and I think I should be back to normal in a month or 3.
So, when things settle down here, I just have to wean myself back on to routinely wear rubber for longer and longer periods. I am looking forward to this, but experience leads me to imagine it may well be quite challenging, particularly as the summer is arriving. It’s much easier to take to the idea of being fully encased and snug when there is frost on the windows.
I wonder if it will be as challenging as it was the first time. I seem to remember it was a bit like how people describe growing a beard, quite difficult to feel at all comfortable for quite a while and then all of a sudden, it starts to become the norm. People who eventually shave their beard off also say they could never face the prospect of going through the discomfort of growing one again. I hope this does not apply to me and going back to a more rubber oriented (dominated?) life.
I am wondering if it may make me think again about exactly how I approach it and maybe what I chose to wear, etc. It seems to a god opportunity to re-investigate the whole what / why / where / when of my rubbery existence.
Anyway, I may be calling for practical and moral support as I get back into the fold.
Just before I sign off, I would like to say hi to Brock, who seems to be a serious devotee to the idea of training for a rubber encased life. Welcome to the blog and I hope that we hear more of each others efforts. With what I found of you on the web, it sounds like you have a planned some ideas around particularly ”total” total enclosure, including intubations, which I think many with our interests will find very interesting. I have found that there is so little meaningful info on the topic, such that I would like to encourage sharing of even the most seemingly modest experiences and endurances.
Although I agree with Brock that latex encased lifestyle is totally achievable, no one who has actually tried it would say there are no challenges, compromises or implicit limitations. On the one hand, life can get hellish and even dangerous if someone is locked in TE for even a few hours. On the other, with correct planning and conditions I have been able to spend fairly long periods hermetically sealed with zero contact with the outside world, in total comfort.
Daily life usually comprises of some necessary activities and unexpected circumstances that result in a compromised existence which, while tolerable, could be improved upon in terms of both degree of encasement and comfort. I hope that by everyone sharing ideas the whole rubber existence can be continually improved and fine tuned.
I am hoping we seem some comments or links which lead to descriptions of peoples ideas and experiences. Bear in mind also, if you go for an extreme approach to being totally sealed in rubber or plastic, then I think there’s really no such thing as a short amount of time to spend totally encased.
Sealed
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Thursday, 15 February 2007
Welcome wackyvorlonm ozrubberpony & Calgary rubberman to my blog and very glad u find encouragement from my entries. I think many of us feel a sense of calm when in our rubber skin. Hope u drop by again and let us know how u r getting on. I know I will be keeping an eye on your blogs (Calgary rubberman’s is definitely recommended reading).
By my understanding, Dark is pretty much a lifestyle rubberist after all (although I should leave him to define what that means to him)... We could argue the extent, length of time and totality of the enclosure – but to what end? I happen to prefer the idea of TE (as in including the head), but often have to compromise myself on this aspect. As a very rough guide, I often think a hood and mask doubles the intensity of the TE experience for me and yet probably makes the experience 10 times less easy over 24 hours. Think about physical comfort (ears!), socially acceptability of appearance, breathing (particularly when asleep), over-heating, communicating (both muffles voice and loses facial expression), drinking, eating…
Sleeping is tricky to master in rubber TE. I found that even if you managed it one night, that is not the same as EVERY night. As we tend to sleep for just the bare minimum time that our mind and body needs, any disturbance to your comfort, however slight, can lead to fatigue after a few days of disrupted sleep.
Earlier last year I did manage to teach myself to be able to regularly sleep in fairly extreme TE when away on business – but must admit to finding the same thing more challenging to habitually achieve when at home.
This brings me on to the concept of a diary or log as described by ozrubberpony. I have often found that this is a very good way to reach “the next level” in achieving my fetish lifestyle. Just setting targets a little higher each day can focus the mind on gradually increasing your “endurance” (OK, for me, it is little to do with physical “endurance” and a lot to do with ignoring the 100 artificial reasons for not following my fetish dream). This very blog started off as a points based diary, publicly charting my progress to spur me on. Only later did it evolve to it’s current (random) format, as some found it’s original personal score table format a tad dull. By then, it had served it’s purpose as I had progressed from being in rubber through much of the working day, quite often and as the mood took me, to regularly being in rubber – most of the day, most days where I didn’t have a good reason not to be. A huge step for me.
So yes, I recommend such “divers logs” – they can be a mechanism for helping u live closer to the way you already dream about.
Sealed
By my understanding, Dark is pretty much a lifestyle rubberist after all (although I should leave him to define what that means to him)... We could argue the extent, length of time and totality of the enclosure – but to what end? I happen to prefer the idea of TE (as in including the head), but often have to compromise myself on this aspect. As a very rough guide, I often think a hood and mask doubles the intensity of the TE experience for me and yet probably makes the experience 10 times less easy over 24 hours. Think about physical comfort (ears!), socially acceptability of appearance, breathing (particularly when asleep), over-heating, communicating (both muffles voice and loses facial expression), drinking, eating…
Sleeping is tricky to master in rubber TE. I found that even if you managed it one night, that is not the same as EVERY night. As we tend to sleep for just the bare minimum time that our mind and body needs, any disturbance to your comfort, however slight, can lead to fatigue after a few days of disrupted sleep.
Earlier last year I did manage to teach myself to be able to regularly sleep in fairly extreme TE when away on business – but must admit to finding the same thing more challenging to habitually achieve when at home.
This brings me on to the concept of a diary or log as described by ozrubberpony. I have often found that this is a very good way to reach “the next level” in achieving my fetish lifestyle. Just setting targets a little higher each day can focus the mind on gradually increasing your “endurance” (OK, for me, it is little to do with physical “endurance” and a lot to do with ignoring the 100 artificial reasons for not following my fetish dream). This very blog started off as a points based diary, publicly charting my progress to spur me on. Only later did it evolve to it’s current (random) format, as some found it’s original personal score table format a tad dull. By then, it had served it’s purpose as I had progressed from being in rubber through much of the working day, quite often and as the mood took me, to regularly being in rubber – most of the day, most days where I didn’t have a good reason not to be. A huge step for me.
So yes, I recommend such “divers logs” – they can be a mechanism for helping u live closer to the way you already dream about.
Sealed
Friday, January 05, 2007
Friday, 05 January 2007
Years review - some observations of my life in rubber, which may give readers an insight into what it is like...
I know many people think u can have too much of a good thing, but I just haven’t found that with living routinely in rubber. You do get over the initial “rush” of the difference in your sensation, but it is such an extreme and total experience, it never stops feeling special to me. OK, I sometimes do (briefly) forget I am wearing it, but unlike other material, it is not long before rubber firmly reminds you of its presence. This aspect is part of what makes a rubber life so compulsive. It is such a total sensual experience; you cannot ignore it for long, even if you wanted to.
I have come to accept that this regular / longer term enclosure does not seem to appeal to every rubber fetishist and some people’s skin may not even bear wearing rubber for prolonged sessions, but I whish they could stop doubting that it may suit some of us (some even seem to doubt it appeals to some of us).
Before I get too far, I am not specifically having a pop at Dark on this post – as I think he at least understands that many fantasies about the possibility of long term enclosure and doesn’t deny what is patently true. The real “living in rubber is bad / impossible” zealots are elsewhere and/or anonymous. But I am addressing some of his points because he has publicly corresponded here making coherent / rational / relevant points and because frankly, I want to close off points that seem to have been made time and time again…
For me, it is nothing like eating ice cream everyday – there is no truly accurate analogy, but let say it’s more like feeling “happy” every day, but in this assertion you could easily substitute the word “happy” for other words that describe desirable standard states (like clean, comfortable, secure, warm, stimulated, sexy, fortunate, virile, alive…). Yet only something like “encased in a rubber skin” would actually accurately describe it in my mind!
The clue may be in the (horrible) “lifestyle” tag that tends to be associated with this fetish. With such a lifestyle, the intense transitional fix / rush is sacrificed for a more subtle and sustained effect. Novelty is lost and replaced by a truly comforting, yet still stimulating experience. I think it is its own experience and defies description unless u have experienced it your self. Others have likened living in rubber to grand pseudo spiritual concepts like dedication, devotion, ritual and sacrifice that might be associated with a closed religious order. Some have said it is a much more sensual than sexual experience, maybe more contemplative like sexual meditation. I can sort of see where they coming from, but think that this sort of talk is more likely to confuse the “uninitiated” than enlighten.
Many of us are interested in number and stats connected to a rubber lifestyle, but I must admit to have become very nervous about the following terms connected with my fetish: “Permanent Total Enclosure”, “24/7/365 TE”, “23/7” (and all the “nn/7” variants) and even “permanent lifestyle”. It seems they have become loaded terms, artificially high targets for the aspiring and possibly even disgraced terms. You seem to quickly get into charged debates about honesty, practicality, desirability & healthiness while ignoring the great achievements and sacrifice made by us mere mortals. I think this is a shame and missing the point.
As I have said before, being an aspiring lifestyle TE fetishist is something you personally define for yourself. You just know it if you want to live in rubber and if you are actually living in rubber.
My definition only applies to me and develops over time, but it might include aspects along the lines of “…wearing rubber for longer than just a sexual encounter… for many hours a day… regularly / day after day / most days… wearing rubber all the time I cannot find a specific reason not to…” etc. Mundane circumstances and opportunity may influence how near you get to realising your ideal and how total the coverage. We could talk about how much time I spend sealed in rubber, but is this so important? On the one hand this would not come close to 24/7/365 and yet on the other hand, I have often been lucky enough to have had several months where prospect existed to spend much more of my time in rubber than most fellow fetishists could dream of (so felt almost duty bound to take advantage of the opportunity :o) ).
For others it might mean being in rubber the whole of (most) weekends. But that person might believe they are living a rubber lifestyle. Who are we to say they are, or are not? I would say they sound like they are very much dedicated to the lifestyle and probably having to work hard to achieve it (dedication, self discipline and sacrifices being part of the deal). I think there should be no pecking order in this lifestyle, no entry conditions to the club. The fact they are interested in the idea of living in a rubber skin and are actually in that suit for more than just a quickie is good enough for me.
I want to hear experiences from all who feel they are into longer session or aspire to the full lifestyle. Much of the same challenges, opportunities and delights exist for them that I would class them as worthy brothers/sisters. As for those who say they are in the stratospheric 20+ hours / 365 day league, I am fascinated to know more - whether there total encasement is conceptual or actual… It’s fun to explore the idea with whoever is interested.
Perhaps a little more fun than exploring the question of if we really, honestly, truly want to spend long periods in rubber. Much more fun than ice cream ;o)
Sealed
I know many people think u can have too much of a good thing, but I just haven’t found that with living routinely in rubber. You do get over the initial “rush” of the difference in your sensation, but it is such an extreme and total experience, it never stops feeling special to me. OK, I sometimes do (briefly) forget I am wearing it, but unlike other material, it is not long before rubber firmly reminds you of its presence. This aspect is part of what makes a rubber life so compulsive. It is such a total sensual experience; you cannot ignore it for long, even if you wanted to.
I have come to accept that this regular / longer term enclosure does not seem to appeal to every rubber fetishist and some people’s skin may not even bear wearing rubber for prolonged sessions, but I whish they could stop doubting that it may suit some of us (some even seem to doubt it appeals to some of us).
Before I get too far, I am not specifically having a pop at Dark on this post – as I think he at least understands that many fantasies about the possibility of long term enclosure and doesn’t deny what is patently true. The real “living in rubber is bad / impossible” zealots are elsewhere and/or anonymous. But I am addressing some of his points because he has publicly corresponded here making coherent / rational / relevant points and because frankly, I want to close off points that seem to have been made time and time again…
For me, it is nothing like eating ice cream everyday – there is no truly accurate analogy, but let say it’s more like feeling “happy” every day, but in this assertion you could easily substitute the word “happy” for other words that describe desirable standard states (like clean, comfortable, secure, warm, stimulated, sexy, fortunate, virile, alive…). Yet only something like “encased in a rubber skin” would actually accurately describe it in my mind!
The clue may be in the (horrible) “lifestyle” tag that tends to be associated with this fetish. With such a lifestyle, the intense transitional fix / rush is sacrificed for a more subtle and sustained effect. Novelty is lost and replaced by a truly comforting, yet still stimulating experience. I think it is its own experience and defies description unless u have experienced it your self. Others have likened living in rubber to grand pseudo spiritual concepts like dedication, devotion, ritual and sacrifice that might be associated with a closed religious order. Some have said it is a much more sensual than sexual experience, maybe more contemplative like sexual meditation. I can sort of see where they coming from, but think that this sort of talk is more likely to confuse the “uninitiated” than enlighten.
Many of us are interested in number and stats connected to a rubber lifestyle, but I must admit to have become very nervous about the following terms connected with my fetish: “Permanent Total Enclosure”, “24/7/365 TE”, “23/7” (and all the “nn/7” variants) and even “permanent lifestyle”. It seems they have become loaded terms, artificially high targets for the aspiring and possibly even disgraced terms. You seem to quickly get into charged debates about honesty, practicality, desirability & healthiness while ignoring the great achievements and sacrifice made by us mere mortals. I think this is a shame and missing the point.
As I have said before, being an aspiring lifestyle TE fetishist is something you personally define for yourself. You just know it if you want to live in rubber and if you are actually living in rubber.
My definition only applies to me and develops over time, but it might include aspects along the lines of “…wearing rubber for longer than just a sexual encounter… for many hours a day… regularly / day after day / most days… wearing rubber all the time I cannot find a specific reason not to…” etc. Mundane circumstances and opportunity may influence how near you get to realising your ideal and how total the coverage. We could talk about how much time I spend sealed in rubber, but is this so important? On the one hand this would not come close to 24/7/365 and yet on the other hand, I have often been lucky enough to have had several months where prospect existed to spend much more of my time in rubber than most fellow fetishists could dream of (so felt almost duty bound to take advantage of the opportunity :o) ).
For others it might mean being in rubber the whole of (most) weekends. But that person might believe they are living a rubber lifestyle. Who are we to say they are, or are not? I would say they sound like they are very much dedicated to the lifestyle and probably having to work hard to achieve it (dedication, self discipline and sacrifices being part of the deal). I think there should be no pecking order in this lifestyle, no entry conditions to the club. The fact they are interested in the idea of living in a rubber skin and are actually in that suit for more than just a quickie is good enough for me.
I want to hear experiences from all who feel they are into longer session or aspire to the full lifestyle. Much of the same challenges, opportunities and delights exist for them that I would class them as worthy brothers/sisters. As for those who say they are in the stratospheric 20+ hours / 365 day league, I am fascinated to know more - whether there total encasement is conceptual or actual… It’s fun to explore the idea with whoever is interested.
Perhaps a little more fun than exploring the question of if we really, honestly, truly want to spend long periods in rubber. Much more fun than ice cream ;o)
Sealed
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