Thanks for all your responses both email and here. I found them all very enjoyable reading!
Magnum…
I think your right about me needing to live my life in my own peculiar way. I have occasionally tried living other ways to make others feel at ease and fit in, but that never works and leads to me developing resentment and frustration – which does no one any good. TE life really IS a large part of what I consider to be “me”. Going for any substantial time without TE makes me unhappy – simple as that.
Also, given that I have the freedom to live and work any way I want, it would seem a terrible waste to not live my fantasy lifestyle in real life, while I still can. The special blend of ingredients & practices that make up my current life, have delivered to me sensations, stimulation and unbelievable levels of sexual joy that I suppose few other humans have been lucky enough to experience. Sure, others are leading different lives resulting in great experiences and achievements that I could never hope to achieve while I am living in my rubber skin, but while I am still achieving new levels of sensuality and eroticism, which are linked to ever greater degrees of TE perfection and endurances (with my associated air supply modifications), it would seem madness to me to stop now. From my perspective, I would expert that at least some humans were living my wonderful life, although I rarely hear from men who are actually living every day in rubber total enclosure. Am I really the luckiest man in the world?
As for the poppers, they are definitely part of the air control segment of my true lifestyle mix. Their absence was as much an experiment & challenge as the rest of my program to live in latex. In essence, I think I had reached the limit to how much this chemical could carry me towards my TE goals. Living off slowly increasing amounts of poppers in my air supply had allowed me to comfortably stay totally enclosed for far longer than I had managed on a daily basis before, but this came with the obvious effects of poppers (along with some side effects) which were becoming problematic. The most obvious challenge daily, I had to find the will power to be able to function as a worker / human being, for at least 8 hours of a day, beyond just being a wriggling mass of chemical/rubber pleasure. Over the longer term, my home working sustains my rubber lifestyle so every day I have to fight to keep just at bay the combined pleasures of rubber and chemicals – which, when it works, is the essence of my dream lifestyle, but at one stage the chemicals were starting to win…
I used to have real dread and foreboding about running out of Amyl Nitrate, thinking I would not make the day out - a major deal when I was using the points system to push me to new levels of rubber living. I had deliberately made the consequences of not meeting targets onerous. However, now living in rubber without my chemical air is something I know I can do, if I have to (and am doing right this second), so I feel safe to return to using poppers to subtly adjust or strongly heighten the experience depending on my daily cycle requirements.
I read with great interest the description of the chemical aroma supply mechanism - both here and via email. I would prefer it all to be posted here rather than email, as I think others may find it useful. Would love to know more about where to get the valves u mentioned in your mail. I will set to work with my bench drill to see if I can make my own (yes rubber enclosed people can and do have workshops and, if careful and patient, can make things with their rubber skinned hands!). I will want to be wearing mine all the time and just adjusting the valve to start / stop / adjust the flow. It seems to work for you at various angles – but am interested to know the limits as in daily life I could be easily going through more than ninety degrees, so would need to know what to avoid doing. As I prefer to be locked in my rubber skin, it could be disastrous if a large volume of Amyl Nitrates flooded my breathing apparatus!
You asked about weekly consumption – well I have never really logged it. It seems to depend on the type of aroma – some brands are much stronger than others by same manufacturer and I have not settled on a preferred brew yet. I just use the amount that takes me to right place as and when I need it. Although I am guessing, I suspect we are not talking large number of bottles a week. I wonder what the average & heavy consumers uses? Anyway, watch this space…
Then u asked how much time during the day would I want to be suffocating / hypoxic, and/or how much of the time would I want to be moderated by poppers? Well these are tricky water as you used the word “want” from which I infer my goal going forward, rather than past experience. As I will have said before, I tended to be either on poppers and/or re-breathing most days in the past – although not necessarily for the whole 24 hours. I started out using poppers in any situation where practical reason prevent re-breathing (anything even slightly physical, where I needed clear vision, control of my labido etc…). Poppers did become an almost constant thing during the working day at one point, so eventually decided to decouple the whole TE thing from everything else by giving up everything except TE.
Going forward, I can be less sure of what I will actually do as it will depend on how I feel after many days of exposure. Theoretically I love the idea of affecting my breathing experience all the time I am in total enclosure and so am drawn to very low levels of either re-breathing and/or chemical aromas. This would allow better equip me to exist in that “Goldon State” you mentioned. But how will I feel after a few days of constantly modified breathing? Would I be a zombie even with low levels of modified air? Would I adjust to it and need to step up the intensity to achieve the same state. Lets see shall we? Comment on any personal experiences welcome on this point…
The difference between the experience of the “bubble sessions” and that of using controllable (low volume) re-breathers is huge. The bubble was so big I could work in there online for days as long as I used a dehumidifier. Both have their times and places I think. I sometimes imagine getting the huge walk in bubble to just the right air mix and then maintaining it there through some air pump mechanisms… The down side (or up side, depending on your outlook) is that you are more or less a prisoner in a small space for days.
The perfect air is often dictated by the time of day, activity you are embarked on and even mood. Not come up with a mix that works in all situations yet, but a good starting point for suffocation is just to be at the point of needing to work constantly to breathe, but not be panting / gasping out of control.Blackie…
Your TE night experience sounded really good and very “total” with just the breathing tube connecting you to outside. Mmmmm. Very nice to think on.
The Russian masks do come in loads of sizes (despite the claims of fetish shops of one size fits all) – including XL, XXL… Try army surplus shops which often do a better range at cheaper prices.
I find it sweet that the checkout girl was worried you were not in your usual rubber. Wish everyone was like that!
Although I have to say 12 hours of erotic arousal in rubber is a very good effort, I have to ask - if you are starting to smell, who cares as long as you manage to keep the smell on the inside of your rubber skin? I am not saying you should have no regard to the health of your skin and ignore the messages it sends you, but wonder if the reason u r getting out of rubber is more aesthetic than practical? As long as I can keep comfortable and not get too wet, I treat my rubber as my true outer skin – everything else as “internal organs”. So long as my rubber skin is clean and smell sweets on the outside, I can illuminate any “aesthetic” reasons for me to have to ever come out – that is until other practical reasons and skin health factors come to a head.
Like I said – still impressed by your efforts as I know you push the physical envelope and generally treat your fetish in a more endurance oriented manner than myself. A good day for you seems to involve physical activity that works up a good sweat which you want to endure. A really good day for me is where I am still dry after 24 hours! No rights and wrongs here of course.
While we are on the subject, as many people will know, the BO smell is attributed to the action of bacteria that feed on your perspiration – not the perspiration itself. The levels of these bacteria build up over the years. I am no big user of personal hygiene products (many are unsafe for rubber so prefer to just shower regularly) but find many are starting to include an agent the weeds out the smellier bacteria – and so long after the immediate effect of the antiperspirant product has worn away, my sweat is reduced to virtually odourless. So, I have taken to using the unperformed versions when showering if I know I am embarking on a extended non-rubber period, and not going straight back into my rubber skin.
Sealed
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This setup is a PowerPopper machine. You can put a fish tank one way valve on the intake and the rest works very similarly to the non-powered one. You can see there is a battery powered air pump athat does the work and and "elbow switch". You hook it up to your mask the same way as always but the leather carrying case has a belt loop. The other side has a velcro piece that allows you to stick a big popper bottle or simiar on the unit. Easy to service at a moment's notice. The switch is convenient to your elbow at waist level, so you just lean on it a second or two and there you are.
The two popper injection systems are different because the non-powered one rellies on your suction in breathing, the other one forces it in. The one gives a constant level with every single breath, whatever amount you want. The power version gives you quick shots that you would probably repeat every 60 seconds or so, OR you could use it as a brief stimulant for the right time, or a strong suppressant if you do a strong gassing type shot to quell and control your responses. It would work well either way.
For me, I will do either rubber or leather (or both layered) TE with boots, gloves, harnesses, straps, collars, smoking hoods or respirators, poppers injection, drinking, and nostril tubes (if I don't have a respirator on). Usual sessions for me are only 4-8 hours long, and I use alcohol then as well.
I get to the "golden state" within an hour, although I can imagine that hypoxia will probably get you there faster. Since I apply full and total pipe and cigar smoke breathing for my respiration, it takes a bit longer. So far, I can go about 10 minutes with full smoke asphyxiation, then have to back off to 50%. Then I cycle between that as I can with my smoke workout using the poppers and alcohol.
I often use my www.Erostek.com PES-302 remote control unit with bipolar butt plug, cock base ring, and cock shaft ring, although I have many attachments.
Since the pipe and cigar smoking takes quite a bit of tending, this lets me do my work with a more hands-free activity.
I have quite a few friends into the same thing in terms of breathing as you are with poppers, and I think its safe to say 3 bottles a week is heavy.
One of my heavy smoking friends was using 3-4 a week, then he gradually went to 7 bottles a week. Then he did the same detox thing you did by only doing weekends. That llasted about a few months, but he became a bit depressed and unfullfilled. In the smoke-fetish community, poppers are well know to stimulate your desire for near constant smoke inhalation. Well the same thing holds true for rubber TE as far as your breath control goes more or less. At any rate, after a few months of deprivation, he decided to go back to it, and is using about 7-10 bottles a week. He seems to bee extremely happy and satisfied that he is doing what is best for him and is quite satisfied with how he feels. He seems to tolerate it very well.
I specifically asked what you WANTED to encourage you to think about your goals and how you really want to be. It seems to me you want to be feeling like you might if you went to Cuzco or Macchu Picchu Peru in the altitudes all the time. No harm in that. I think you can get used to that level of suffocation "all the time" when in TE and feel fulfilled.
Just as building a more mundane life with other interests, you are doing a performing art that creates all the pleasure of theatre or music or anyting else artistic. If you didn't share it somehow, though, it would not be an artistic accomplishment, but simply a self-involved pleasure. By doing what you do and sharing it, you allow others to enter a world of imagination brought to reality. It also helps others come to grips with their own desires for self fulfillment.
So Bravo to you, standing ovation, well done!
Please consider transcribing some of your logs and consider doing something along the line of an adult Yahoo group or similar. In the end what we want to know and see is your depth of feeling.
Kindest Regards,
Magnum
Poppers or amyl nitrate will give you the feeling of a rush of energy all over. It is the same thing that heart patients use to dilate their vascular system. With a "normal" dose, you will become sexually excited with the right frame of mind. With a larger hit, you will "flatten out".
Viagra and Cialis work in a similar fashion, in fact you can't do both poppers and cialis at the same time because it lowers your blood pressure.
The net effect is Viagra.
Sealed, you have sort of talked around it, but let me ask you this very straightforwardly, is this your desire:
"I want to live my live totally enclosed in rubber on the verge or orgasm in all my waking hours"
Is this accurate?
Thanks and hope this helps Dark with the explanation.
Magnum
You mentioned the need of needing to be at different angles for your popper injector device, I just wanted to know if you need it for when you lie down or want to wear it while sleeping in case you need it when you wake up to control yourself. You don't recline any farther than horizontal right? Or do you have to contend with major elevation angles with whatever activities you do.
I ask because that would require a bit of problem solving as far as the device that I have outlined....I would have to think about it a bit more.
Let me know,
Magnum
Dark,
Well the easy way to find out is go to your nearest adult bookstore, which might not be too near for you. I would love to hear what you think of them. Just get a whiff of the "aroma" and see for yourself!!!
Then you will know what Sealed is talking about. I'm sure he would approve of the test!
Magnum
You mentioned the agony of waking up in full rubber, which I think means an uncontrollable libido at that point as a result perhaps of just the TE or also the suffocation as well. Would it be desireable for you to immediately quell those urges using a hard shot of poppers to regain your composure? Is that what your ultimate requirement is under those circumstances? Say perhaps a setup that allows you to sleep all night with it not actually in use but right there for immediate emergencies when you wake up to get back under control so you dont ejaculate uncontrollably?
Magnum
Where can I find one of these power popper machines? I would LOVE to have one of these. I go through poppers really quickly and this setup sounds great. Please let me know.
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