This blog entry consists of an account of a self-bondage session from last November. I originally wrote this up for my own record in case there were lessons to learn, but have presented an edited version of the journal of my experiences in case it is of any interest or practical use for others. The account details a session that was not 100% successful and is of particular pertinence to me as today I will be undertaking a very similar session this afternoon, with the hope of having learned some of the lessons.
To avoid having to write a long boring intro, the stating condition and my aims are revealed as I go along in the journal entry. [have also inserted a few explanatory edits in the text in square brackets]…
Monday, 21 November 2011
21/11/2011 15:30 TE -0:30
Start session – initial chems and start to don rubber […Totally enclosed in rubber by 16:00…] …I have locked myself into rubber total enclosure with chains and pad locks. I am wearing “Hydroglove” latex rubber dry suit so totally water and air-tight and cannot be removed without unlocking padlocks.
21/11/2011 17:40 TE +1:40
Once I am sure that all is well and comfortable, I put all padlock keys in small key safe which uses combination lock. The combination is not known by anyone as I randomised it, without looking, before photographing it. This photograph is the only record of the combination. I used “Picture LoKiT” software to hide the photo of the combination until a predetermined time. I have therefore been able to lock myself in until 06:00 Wed 23/11 – which means a total of 38 hours totally enclosed in rubber. I know that any software should not 100% be relied upon so I have had to think about a plan B and plan C should Picture LoKiT not reveal the combination on Wednesday. Plan B and C have both been devised to be very undesirable, so I really hope the software does let me out when the time comes. Plan B would be very time consuming as it involved manually trying every combination in turn, which I have estimated might take 5 to 10 hours! Plan C would be highly embarrassing as I would have to walk out in public to retrieve bolt croppers that I have placed in the back of my car parked in a public place. I have set this up so that I certainly wouldn’t consider reverting to plan B or C early – I could only imagine using either if I found Picture LoKiT failed to give me the release code @ 06:00 on Wednesday.
21/11/2011 20:30 TE +4:30
Looking back, the start of this session was quite frantic and a little more physically challenging than my usual routine. Add to that the excitement of the occasion and I guess it was inevitable that I started to get a little warm in my total enclosure. Once the keys were safely locked away, I managed to chill and get things back on a more normal even keel. But the bad news is that although I am only 4.5 hours in, I think I detect a hint of moisture in the suite, when I was hoping to be completely dry for the first 6 or 7 hours in order to stay comfortable for the long haul. Luckily it should be easy to keep the temperature low for the rest of my time in the suit, so although I cannot dry out, at least I will only get soggier slowly. For now, I am very comfortable and the rubber continues to make me feel special.
My suit totally encases me, so for sustenance my suit feeds me a liquid diet through a simple off-the-shelf hydration system. This delivers a mix of my own devising via a tube connected at one end to a 3.5L bag and the other end to my gas mask hood so I can feed without the need to remove any rubber. The contents of the bag contain survival level nutrition and additives to enhance my experience. The additives include herbal food supplements and pharmaceuticals. The whole lot is designed to last me 24 hours before needing a refill, so I have to try to drink at a rate of about 0.15L every hour or 1L every 7 hours. So far I have consumed about 0.5L, which is about right but does not take into account sleeping hours so I will have to up my rate.
Picture LoKiT is telling me I am only 8% of my way through the period it will keep my combination from me. Put another way, I still have 33.5 hours to go - and absolutely no way out till then! I always knew that this was going to be a long session, but sitting here with absolutely no control over when I can take off my rubber, it suddenly feels like an enormous task ahead of me.
I know I have often done similar long sessions in the past, but this feels very different somehow. With those long sessions, I chose to stay encased because everything was going well and I felt as comfortable as could be expected – and above all, I really did not want to remove my rubber. This time, I am in here for at least 38 hours no matter what happens or how I feel about it. I find I am both daunted and very excited, which is of course the point! I want to be excited by the bondage element and transfer of control. I don’t want to be in control of when I can remove my total enclosure. I want to be motivated to pace myself and this element is perhaps the strongest - a little like chastity, my aim is to sustain the fetish driven sexual tension for a long as possible, postponing the moment of climax for not minutes or hours by days!
21/11/2011 22:00 TE +6:00
Somehow I feel a little better acclimatised than I did earlier on. Feeling very comfortable in my rubber skin now.
Picture LoKiT is playing up slightly - when the network is not available its losing time at an alarming rate. More worryingly, if you reconnect to the network, it does not recover. The fix is you have to stop the program and then start it up (with the network connected) before it resynchronises its clock (presumable to a network NTP time source).
Lesson learnt: it is essential you can get internet access at the time you want the release combination or it could be a long wait… Let hope I do have internet access on Wednesday AM!
Due to a combination of the excitements of the day and the accumulating affect my nutrition pharmaceuticals are having on me, I feel my mind is shutting down while being wide awake. Its not unpleasant, but I feel I am going to need to try rest now…
22/11/2011 3:00 TE +11:00
In the first 2 or 3 of hours of rest, I suffered the usual difficulties around falling asleep in my mask hood – with sleep apnoea like symptoms. As I became unconscious I had breathing difficulties that brought me back, gasping. I persevered (what else could I do? I am locked in after all) and steadily I was able to adapt. With some small technique, I was able to relax into sleeping for longer and longer periods in my mask.
More good news is that comfort is high. My earlier fears of becoming too hot and sticky did not come to pass. I reckon I am only slightly moist and that is not unheard of after 11 hours totally encased in rubber!
Then the next challenge to my sleep. I have naturally felt very sexually stimulated for much of the time I have been in total enclosure. My body’s response to the constant rubber stimulation of my libido has been augmented by the significant doses of supplements and pharmaceuticals I have been ingesting both before the session started and through my nutrition system while I have be sealed in my rubber skin. Being sexually stimulated helps me stay motivated to be in rubber for long periods and my chemical mix means that I do not need to expend much effort on keeping myself in the mood – rather my body reacts strongly to the slightest stimulus with a raging erection and all I have to do is try to stop thing developing further.
In the last hour the strength of my bodies reaction to the slightest movements has become monumental and I was becoming worried I may get carried away. The last thing I want to do is ejaculate now with 27 hours to go. That would rob me of significant motivation and also sap my morale as I sat in my own juices for so long. The strength of the feeling of my sexual stimulation is unbelievably strong – like a very strong aching which borders on feeling unbearable. My chem mix does try to address the refractory period and should help to quickly provide subsequent erections, but I would still like to avoid ejaculation for some time yet, if I can.
As a last resort I have another chemical fix. Isopropyl Nitrite (poppers) would combine somewhat strongly with the other chemicals in my system – in fact VERY dangerously strongly unless used very sparingly. For me, I have found a good dose and it wrecks a chemically augmented erection for considerable time. That would give me hours of respite – but also take away the enjoyable sexual stimulus that makes it so easy to want to be in rubber. Also, a sufficiently effective dose often makes me feel unwell and very fatigued for many hours. Past experience also tell me it can go either way, often the [fabulous rush] bringing on orgasm early before its other side effects can get me past the feeling of getting out of control. In summary, Isopropyl Nitrite is very dangerous when combined with sexual enhancement drugs and obviously I am going to try to do without. But although undesirable, it is still the only mechanism I have when things get out of control.
Anyway, [its] back to bed for a few hours to see how I get on. I am hopeful this break will have helped calmed things down a lot.
22/11/2011 9:30 TE +17:30
I cannot claim to have had a normal night’s sleep, but I can say it was a delightful experience slipping in and out of consciousness with the rubber constantly and insistently reminding me of my total encapsulation.
Its proving difficult to keep up with fluid intake. Obviously when asleep I don’t drink and I tend to not want to drink as much overnight even when awake…
[22/11/2011 13:00 TE +21:00]
… as I was not able to keep up with the volume of fluid I had planned, my nutrition system was not able to deliver enough of the vital chems that keep me at peak sexual arousal. [it seems that …] when my body is required to sustain such levels over long periods it must be burning through the chems at a much accelerated rate.
Without the strong sexual arousal, it was becoming a dull experience and difficult to accept. It’s the sort of time when I might have been tempted out of my rubber skin, but on this occasion it was not even a possibility. I therefore arranged a supplementary dose of […sexually enhancement supplements / prescription drug]…
I then had a rest period while they kicked in. Rest seemed a good way cope with my sudden flat period. The chems started to work within about three quarters of an hour or so.
22/11/2011 14:15 TE +22:15
My restored / supercharged libido is now almost too strong now! It is difficult to concentrate on anything for long as my body’s physical needs are so demanding. I am going to need to find something to take my mind of it or I could ruin everything with premature ejaculation - well after only 22 hours of foreplay it would be a bit too quick for me anyway!
22/11/2011 16:00 TE +24:00
Things got too much so I have resorted to Isopropyl Nitrite (poppers).
22/11/2011 17:00 TE +25:00
The poppers were not the answer I hoped for. They did not calm things down but had the opposite effect. I did manage to hold out for another hour or so through a period of constant sexually ecstatic high. But the delayed but enviable ejaculation happened around 17:00, only 25 hours in to my 36 hour session and now I know I will shortly be feeling very low.
22/11/2011 ~18:00 TE +26:00
Sometime within the next hour I stated work on finding a way out of my captivity. To be brutally honest, I was motivated partly because of the beginnings of a friction burn injury to my penis due to 24+hours of near constant abrasion! (Next time I must address this with softer rubber pants and probably silicon lubrication).
I soon found the locks and chain bondage was totally secure, so looked at the software. However, I could not find a way to get the combination picture early.
But I still had a strong desire to be out and it is amazing how resourceful you get when sufficiently motivated. The weak point turned out to be the combination lock on the key safe. I cracked the combination by listening to the minute differences in sounds made by each wheel combination. Then I was out and free!
Once off, I was amazed to find the top half of my rubber suit was actually fairly dry. The legs were only slightly damp….
I think there are lessons I can learn from the experience to move forward to longer encapsulation. With a bit more prep, practice and self-control, I cannot see why I could not stay comfortable for many hours longer. I will endeavour to plan a another extra-long session when I can find the necessary free days, first dealing with the challenges & weak points, not least the easily picked combination lock.
Sealed
6 comments:
Hey Sealed! It's wonderful to see you posting again, even if it was a one-off. :-)
I would love to hear/read more about this experience and some of the technicalities of it. How did you handle urinating (or did you)? Did you have the gas mask locked on and if so, how did you do it? These are questions I ask just because I may want to try some of this myself at some time. :-)
Thanks for the comments Auxugen,
I am hoping to post some more along these lines as I am currently locked in my rubber for what I hope will be a longer session than last time. I am making notes along the way, but don’t want to make promises about when I will find the time to write them up as it took months last time!
Until then, here are some quick answers.
Urination: I often use pissing pants connected to a collecting bag with a second tube for pumping out. HOWEVER, on the session in question, urinating was done “the usual way” without recourse to plumbing. The bondage was such that I can just form a temporary opening at groin area to gain access. To explain, you need to get a full idea of my rubber and how my “bondage” works, which is tricky. I will cover this in my next full post.
I am wearing a hood/gas mask combo from Regulation (London) – basically a mask bonded to a hood which has a large neck belt with buckles and belt loops. A chain goes through hood neck belt loops to form a loop (around the neck).
Sealed
I have taken your lead in terms of chemical enhancement. I am in the process of comparing living on Cialis and a natural herbal enhancement. So far the natural one seems to be a bit more powerful, but I still have to do more testing. I have not had problems with poppers however, so I guess it is a matter of enhancement dosage? Right now, I am having great success with hardness and recovery time, which is a big improvement. I hope you will have time to give some real-time thoughts as you progress with your full-on sessions!
Mind if I ask and talk some more?
I was thinking about your predicament and how you managed to unlock your safe just by listening to the tumblers.
Unless other activities preclude otherwise, would ear plugs help in that regard? I like using them anyway as a sensory deprivation component and to help block out outside/neighborhood noises in general.
My other unsolicited suggestion is a time lock safe. I came across it a while ago and again, it has recently come back into my awareness and so I think this is something I'm going to get myself. http://captureddiscipline.com/CapturedDiscipline_OrderPage.html
You toss your keys in, set a time up to 99 hours (4.1 days currently) and you're stuck!
I've got another bit after this but I have to break it up into two comments. (ahem)
Since you and a couple other people have inspired me recently, I am planning my own, locked-in-rubber scene soon-ish (I hope). My thoughts continually churn around this stuff and I wanted to ask you a question if you're willing to share.
When you finally locked yourself in, or while you were locked in, did you have any anxiety or panic attacks? When I'm locking myself down in self bondage, I'm typically really excited and worked up during the whole process and ready to go all out. But when the time comes to lock that final, irreversible lock I hesitate. Sometimes, while I'm taking some time to make sure that I'm settling into it OK before locking the final lock (usually just resting and taking stock of my body and situation for about 30-60 minutes so I can adjust anything necessary before it's too late) after that period passes, I'll change my mind and back out. Other times, the second I click that last lock into place I'll get that rush and thrill of knowing I'm stuck until my prearranged self timing mechanism kick in to release me.
Lately though over the passed couple of years, there has been too much fear after that last lock is closed. Enough that I have the need to be released from what I've done to myself immediately. I don't even get the time to enjoy the experience in those cases. Those have been times where I've managed to figure ways out, because I've been mobile or through one means or another, managed to obtain the keys to my release ahead of schedule. That's why I'm thinking about that time lock safe.
I have had two bad self-bondage experiences in my time which I think have led me to this unfortunate pattern, one of which required me to thoroughly embarrass myself by raising enough noise to upset a neighbor until the manager let himself in to my apartment to find me chained to my bed, hooded and worse. If I had been able to see (since that hood didn't have eyes) I would have known that I had just drastically underestimated how long it would take for the (way too large) block of ice I had to melt and I could have just forced myself to stay calm. Until then, I had no way of knowing if the ice had melted and the string & key had gotten fouled up or just didn't work. I was planning on an over-nighter for about 8-10 hours or so. By the time I was released, I had been there closer to 14 hours I think, and there was still a chunck of ice floating in the water the size of a grapefruit.
Not long after that, I posted my account of it all on my own blog. Both as a precautionary example to others, and to get it out so it didn't completely haunt me.
The other time was when my roommates (in another city & apartment) had taken off for a 3 day weekend. Once again I chained myself to the bed, spread eagle and in a lot of thick rubber but I could see at least. I hadn't ever tried that before and the angle of my arms along with the thickness of my suit and gloves led to me losing all the feeling in one hand and the other hand was soon to follow. The completely numb hand was of course the hand that I would have to bend and contort so I could work the key into the lock to release myself. I was terrified at that point as it was the beginning of a 3 day weekend and there I was, chained to the bed. Eventually I relented again and tried shouting for help, hoping that since we lived in a townhouse, that I could manage to get the neighbor's attention, which didn't happen. They might not have even been there either. It took a while but I did finally manage to get out on my own, but I think those two accidents created a lot of fear within me.
In some ways that's OK as it should stop me from being sloppy and taking unnecessary risks and to PLAN and TEST better. But so far, I've not always been able to overcome that fear again. With better planning and not leaving myself in such certain, fearful situations, I hope to start having some of that fun again. And fully encased in rubber and a gas mask. :-p
I have a Hydroglove suit and it is not possible to urinate without un wrapping the folds and pulling down the pants. In the past I have just pissed in the suit, and drained it out when getting undressed. rbrlvr
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