Hi Sealed, long time no type. A really interesting blog. I find the whole
issue of fetish overload and the decision to pursue pass through a
potential burn out of critical importance. I have been to this threshold a
lot lately.
Our own rubber freedom has really increased of late, due to a change of
circumstance; and my partner is now so into rubber, that I can rubber,
rubber, rubber whenever I want. [Not at work tho]. Yet I do find times when
it is almost too much. Conversely the thought of turning down a long hot
rubber session is just something I would NEVER do,and NEVER have.
This inner conflict is something I had never imagined would happen. It's
like I have to remind myself just how fantastic it will be; and it always
is. The hold our fetish has on me has not weakened at all, in many ways it
grows stronger, so this makes my occasional yearning for a no rubber
pastime with a sexual aspect even stranger. Like most of us my dream has
always been rubber 24/7. Is the effect of not having our rubber time
restricted by out side circumstances pertinent to this? Or is it that I am
not a kid any more? I'm typing this in cloth but there nothing stopping me
changing into tight black or red or blue rubber. I am sure I will very
soon. When my partner and I discuss new equipment, hoods and garments we
intend to add to our growing collection it is such a turn on, so why don't
take full advantage of our potential rubber time.
I'm not sure whether to take your path and really push harder into the
deeper realm of rubber pleasure. Or to accept that the current 3-4 sessions
a week is enough and that I need some down time from the kinky life.
Dark, thanks for the encouraging words. Dark raises some interesting points…
Interesting that you mention the chastity forums. For a long time, if I thought about chastity at all, I assumed it was only about transfer of control and prevention of sexual stimulation. In my own personal journey, the aims of controlling my orgasm have led me to think about the chastity world again over the last few months. What I discovered was a little confusing as although there was a lot of talk about male chastity devices preventing erections (or at least making them untenable), I also picked up what I think is the interesting paradox that these longer sessions of incarceration were a turn on. This aspect has striking parallels where I am turned on by the very idea of being encased in rubber for longer periods – particularly in the case where I am locked in by a KH. The picture is still confusing to a chastity neophyte like me, as it seems (reading the odd blog) that there are people struggling with sexual tension without a mechanism for sexual release and yet others talk of eventually (after days or even weeks) reaching a state where they periodically experience unsolicited semen emission which to me sound analogous to the release of orgasm / ejaculation that us non-chastity types experience.
Anyway, the chastity subject fascinates me as I have wondered if it might be possible to use the lessons / devices of chastity players to aid my own quest for orgasm control. On the one hand there are the similarities in what is trying to be achieved but on the other I have a sort of horror as to how it might ruin everything. My worry is that such devices might leave me feeling permanently turned-off and flaccid due to the discomfort of the alternative state. I have often thought that if I do not feel turned-on and consequently erect for a good deal of the time when in total enclosure, then I would not feel in a “sexual” or sensual state of mind and not be motivated and comfortable to be in rubber. Of course it might turn out that wearing a chastity device would make me feel very sexually tense for long periods of the time, in which case I would feel very happy to be totally enclosed – but then I would worry about eventually going out of my mind (figuratively speaking) with not being able to get sexual release while being so desperate. Be interesting to hear from anyone who has tried it as I still cannot get my head around whether it would be heaven or hell for me.
You say my situation is more autoerotic, which is undoubtedly true much of the time, but there is some similarities. I do love it when I can find a willing and trustworthy key holder (KH) to lock me into total enclosure for a day or so – and, given my attempts at orgasm control, this is a little similar to a KH locking a man into a chastity device. Unfortunately I cannot always find someone willing and suitable to be KH, and yet the desire for this scenario is so huge, I have found myself compelled to come up with effective self-bondage techniques adapted to total enclosure – but more of this some other time! IF anyone were interested I could share my experiences in following my rather odd fascination for being time locked in TE…
I will avoid getting embroiled in the “steady state” / desensitisation theory mainly because I have said all I have to say for now. However, I will briefly cover the subject of the waning of one's libido (irrespective of cause) or, more accurately, the quantum increase in libido that I am interested in, as I think I am still discovering things. In essence Dark talks of remaining rock hard for long periods while in rubber in the past tense – which I think is exactly same slow the road to despair I was gradually embarking on. For many, this may be the inevitable route that people like must eventually be taking with my “over exposure” to sexual stimulation in general and routine rubber TE in particular, coupled with being a year older every birthday. I cannot speak for others, but I thought it was worth fighting by whatever means available to take me back to my peak or, ideally, take me to new levels of sexual stamina and potency. And I can report that it works for me, at the moment at any rate.
Many may already know this but I think it is important to understand that virtually all of these chemicals (be they herbal supplements or prescription drugs) still rely on you being in a sexual mind set and for you to be sexual stimulated before they have any effect on anything. Crudely put, you don’t get an erection by just taking them. What happens is that when sexually stimulated your body’s chemistry is better able to support the physical demands of gaining and (in my case) maintaining an erection while you remain sexually stimulated.
One development of note is that I was (initially) horrified to see online articles that said that official government testing revealed one of the herbal supplements I was using contained more than herbs but actually contained a prescription only drug. Looking back through my notes, I noticed that this was actually the most potent and reliable herb for enhanced and sustained libido. From this I decided to bit the bullet and go obtain a doctor’s prescription for the drug Cialis, which (not surprisingly) has turned out to be very effective! OK, it is no longer a natural herb, but the way I see it is Cialis has the advantage of being a well know treatment, with well know side effect and better quality control than the herb suppliers!
Anyway, the way I see it is that chemically enhancing your libido (or just making up for old age) does not really change things WRT to auto-erotic or partner oriented sex. It just means you are unlikely to have to worry about your stamina in either scenario.
Sealed
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