Does lockdown affect someone who has been living for years locked
into totally enclosing rubber?
I am well past the point of remembering why I must be totally
sealed in rubber all day, whenever possible. I only know that I am well-conditioned
to live this way whenever it is physically practical and socially acceptable. The physical conditioning and adaption were an
essential pre-requisite to being able to wear rubber for long periods, but the
mental conditioning was the key. A key
that locked me into the apparently permanent need to be totally enclosed in
rubber at every opportunity, for as long as I can. The strength and simplicity of my conditioned
dependency allows me to detach myself from the “why” and look at things as
someone who just “is” living a good deal of time totally enclosed.
Living as I do is not without challenges, but I am not going
to list them all here.
I think the most difficult challenge of total enclosure
lifestyle for me has been social isolation.
Most of society (in my locality) is prejudice against rubber clothing in
general and men dressing in anything that could be interpreted as a sexual way. As an aside, I observe that for many this rule
does not apply to women to the same degree, but there are too many things to
discuss on the reasons for this to cover here.
Back to the point: the way that I and many others deal with this is to
not engage with general society while in rubber. Thus, the challenge is that the longer you
spend totally enclosed in rubber, the longer you spend socially isolated. Despite many being “comfortable with our own
company “, I would imagine
most of us ultimately are affected by long periods of social isolation. This could be both because it affects what we
can do in public (e.g. travel, exercise…) and also at some point we need some degree
of social interaction.
With my lifestyle I quickly became socially isolated years ago. It effectively defines one of the barriers
for how much time I can spend in rubber.
I became something to be aware of, manages and come to some sort of
crazy balance with.
So does lockdown affect someone who has been living for
years, socially isolated while locked into total enclosure? I obviously don’t really have way of being
objective to compare my experience with those of other people, as I only live
one type of life. However, within my
experience, I would say it definitely DOES affect me. I allocate a proportion of my life to
cramming in all the things I cannot do when totally enclosed in rubber and, in lockdown,
what I can do in that time is totally different. So it must affect me.
Am I able to cope with lockdown better than most people? I would say yes. as social isolation is in no
way new for me, just a bit more extreme and prolonged during lockdown.
There is another way that lockdown affects me. The Covid menace allows me to detach even
further from the “why I do it” and I can become an interested bystander. A self-submissive part of me excels. Being totally sealed now makes perfect sense,
and my masked and filtered/treated air supply becomes a necessity to help try
to avoid infection. I can allow myself
to think questioning thoughts like, “why am I in this total enclosure” and “can
I take it off”, knowing that the answer will be that after all this time, this
is not the time to consider breaking my rubber seal for a millisecond longer than
necessary. I now know I will want to be
totally sealed due to both my conditioning and my dread of the alternative.
What options do I have, right now, today? Well in my mind, the only option in town is
to stay safely sealed in rubber for the rest of the day. My rubber skin will try its best to protect me
from everything outside. This gives me a
warm feeling.
Sealed
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