Hi to all who responded here or elsewhere. This post is inspired but the feedback and questions I have had, although keen not to do just Q & A and broaden things out.
To quash a possible misunderstanding (particularly for newer readers), I better say that I am NOT looking to spend weeks, months or years in rubber, without ever coming out for even a short break. It’s not for me to say that 24/7/365 would not be possible, but it is well beyond my current aims (I am not going to be drawn on 23/7, 22/7 etc either).
I am also not really a typical masochist and would not object to having a comfortable existence while encased in rubber, although I have often had to accept the sacrifices and mild hardships of my chosen rubber life. I sometime have chosen to enjoy this woe – for what else should I do when you think the pros outweigh the cons?
However, I am not aiming to be uncomfortable / very hot / wet / slimy or smelly. These are “luxuries” that are not compatible with a regularly living life in rubber. To this end I identified a sort of hierarchy of needs for a rubber encased person quite a while back (see Wednesday, 23 November 2005) and what I AM doing is just tackling those challenges, one at a time to steadily extend the amount of time I could and often do actually spend in total enclosure. I am not pretending I am near the end of the list and have been in this suit all week, as I have not. You will be disappointed to hear I cleaned and changed this morning…
Then the question of chastity has come up a lot recently. And, you know I think I have discovered some odd truths there. I never imagined I had any real understanding, empathy or connection with those who practice chastity. The fact that I never, ever, seem to manage to go for more that a few days without gushing forth semen seemed to make such a suggestion seem ridiculous. But, you know, things might be relative…
For someone like me who is lucky to have the opportunity to be aroused 24 hours a day in a fetish rich lifestyle, my abstinence is perhaps “relative”. The aim of my life seems to have developed to the point where I am trying to stay as stimulated and sexually alive as possible, for as much time as possible. All this while trying desperately to not get overexcited and stave off, for as long as I physically can, the inevitable orgasmic ejaculation. It results in a life of extended periods of great tension which seems to reach new levels after long periods of having my base instincts tempted. True, this eventually translates into a more sensual than purely sexual feeling eventually, but its a magically energising experience non the less.
The origin of my behaviour is a little tricky to identify and maybe my explanations are cyclic. It could be said to have its origin as part of my aim of trying to keep as dry as possible in my rubber skin. Dryness is very important to me as it enables me to spend longer and longer encase in rubber, without worrying about as much about skin problems. Then there is the undeniable association between my fetish and being in a state of having a high libido. Wanting more than anything to be in rubber when my sap is rising, while (I suspect we have all experienced this) the reversal of this feeling is often true for a brief period after orgasm. Avoiding, or at least delaying experiencing a post coital condition (with associated post-rubber symptoms) aids me in the achievement of my fetish dream - of spending long periods living a highly sensual life in my rubber skin. Like I said, its a little cyclic and self fulfilling.
Maybe once I set myself the golden rule that I must avoid stripping out of my rubber skin pot coital, I set up the chain reaction that conditioned me to live my lifestyle. But that does not explain why I wanted it so bad in the first place.
Moving on to cover the perennial “steady state” when applied to extended and longer term encasement argument, which seems to stick to my blog like limpet!. OK I guess it was an interesting conundrum, once. I accept there is probably some truth in that a person’s perception adjusts to a steady state. Yes I see how you might think it would adversely affect the novelty of long term enclosure and it certainly does to some degree. It’s not that I don’t understand the argument. It is just that practical experiments (rather than grand theories) means that I can empirically state that for me, my enjoyment and dedication to my fetish is enhanced by more regular, longer and more total rubber encasement. Now, if you like, why don’t we move the argument on to examine WHY this is TRUE for me while accepting the steady state theory (unless the aim is to brain washed me into thinking I am not happy in here… which I really am - honest!).
Just maybe it would be true if I truly did live 24/7/365 totally enclosed, but let’s not pretend I do. I would certainly risk finding out if we ever cracked the million and one little challenges that are currently stopping anyone from anything more than partial success there :o)
I don’t have all the answers, but I know there is a fine dividing line between too intense and too bland a stimulus. I feel I should say that it is untrue to think you can wear the rubber and associated plumbing that I wear and be able to totally ignore it for any length of time, even if I were luck enough to wear it every single day of the year. The truth is almost the opposite – unless I wear it pretty much daily, when I do wear it the experience is too intense and it is difficult to handle the stimulus. A break of a week and I am almost out of control the first day back in rubber. Adjusting to become familiar with the sensation is what I need to stay sane and functional. Now I have lost too many “first days back” fighting the instinct to fuck myself to death to want to spend too long out of rubber. Sounds like addictive behaviour? No shit Sherlock, that has occurred to me once or twice! :o)
Yes, you can and do forget you are in rubber for a while, but my encasement is just extreme enough to have strength to inevitably and regularly snap back onto full focus, suddenly dominating my consciousness. Typically what might happen is just when I have forgotten; the slightest movement sends a cascade of rubbery reminding sensations across my body. In fact these delicious moments are the side effect of the very temporarily reality of the steady state theory when applied to my encasement. Delicious because, in an instant, the full impact of my total encasement is played out across my senses and, much more importantly the full “horror” floods your mind. Yum…
My goodness it’s getting hot today.
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