Welcome to my 2006, where I hope to carry on wearing rubber as my “default material” and spending longer periods totally enclosed, with either air filtered or re-cycled. Once my busy holidays were over, I got off to a good start spending all my free time & sleep time totally encased, often complete with breath play hoods & masks.
I chose not to travel the Atlantic in rubber partly as security is getting to the point of wanting u to remove items of clothing – such as shoes, coats, gloves & anything obscuring the eyes so far – but who know what tomorrow? Rubber would only complicate any such undressing and cause confusion or embarrassment. Also I worry about temperature control when you are not in charge of your environment - traveling for 15 hours on all sorts of public transport gives a lot of opportunities to dangerously overheat with no easy “bail out” option – not something I would look forward to. Call me a fair-weather rubberists if you like, but travel like that is going to be challenging enough as it is in vanilla!
To “In Latex Always” and all those who have contacted me directly over the holiday season with notes of encouragement… Thank you! Nice to know there are people who read at least some of this stuff! Had a particularly nice response to those who live in the area of the US where I am currently traveling and I only hope I manage to get back to you all.
I thank Dark for his comments and questions and have included some responses here as I think they may have general interest.
I think your assertion of me ‘becoming "normalized" to rubber encasement… assume no longer a "distraction" in the sense that you are able to do almost anything you could and would do without encasement... for example restful sleep…’ might be slightly overstating how much I have achieved over the last few months. I know where you are coming from, but to be truly accurate, for me rubber encasement can often still be a distraction (often a pleasant distraction). I can do many things in rubber – but this has involved some personal compromises / sacrifices and I am only at the beginning of my road to being able to sleep totally encased in complete comfort every night of the week (I do wear rubber TE every night at the moment – just can’t say it always results in perfectly comfortable sleep!).
Now on to your trickier comments re the “mission”… you asked do I ‘want rubber enclosure to become so normal …that it is virtually "invisible" to you body and mind.’. Here I am going to admit to a certain amount of paradox – but basically the answer is no.
To start with, the sensation and physical experience of my being totally encased in rubber is only part of my fetish – albeit it has become an important component. The knowledge that I am as totally hermetically sealed as I can comfortably be (for prolonged periods) is an objective / stimulation / satisfaction in itself. I don’t know if there is a word for my level of fixation / fetish / obsession with being totally sealed – but if there is I have got the bug! Maybe it’s just a Total Enclosure fetish. The fact that because I use rubber as my way to achieve TE brings with it the (massive) additional stimulation, does not detract from my under lying fetish.
To answer your main point, no, I do not want the rubber enclosure to become “invisible”. This is not my specific aim. My acclimatization and adjustment over the last few months has only had the objective of making rubber more tolerable and even comfortable to wear for longer and longer periods. I can see the logic in your thought processes and cannot deny that sometimes I do totally forget that I am totally enclosed, but this is not the aim and (luckily) I have found it difficult to ignore the strong physical effects of total rubber encasement for more than a brief period. And if I do forget I am wearing it for a while, I have found it very easy to become re-aware of (re-sensitized to) my encased predicament – resulting in a sort of on demand stimulation sensation.
Just as a slight aside to illustrate – I had been surfing my favorite sites recently and was watching a somewhat intense / hot scene on the 02extreme site. Lana was in a rubber skin suit and being bagged. She had been in there for what seemed like forever and was getting very desperate and I rapidly got a strong desire to be just as encased as Lana, totally sealed with no directed contact with the outside air. Then I suddenly realized my situation – I had been totally encased in my rubber skin suite for over a day, complete with a tight fitting gas mask with filter. Not even one inch of me had been uncovered for hours. This realization was just delicious (for want of a better word) – my total enclosure HAD become totally “invisible” to me for some minutes (and not very noticeable for hours) – but as soon as it became “visible” again – my total enclosure became a very dominant sensation – I would say as strong a sensation as when I had started out 20 odd hours beforehand. I cann’t say this was planned – but was happy to be there. I also found the whole event amusing too – but that may just be my strange sense of humor.
So yes, on the occasions when the rubber becomes “invisible” to me (usually when static and concentrating on something) I have lost out on much of the “appeal” (the stimulation sensation) during that period, but as soon as I remember (which is usually every time I move!) I am still rewarded by stimulation of my TE fetish plus obvious rubber sensations. And for me this has been one of the most endearing features of latex rubber – it is in it’s nature to stretch, flex and bend to be comfortable for much of the time – and yet regularly it strongly re-asserts it’s cocooning presence. Often all it takes is to tense up a muscle for the rubber skin to shift in the most pleasant way...
Then there is the flip side of wearing rubber for long periods – the sacrifices to comfort and lifestyles etc. This all requires a dedication and submission to the rubber that I think is all part of the fetish. If fetish can be paraphrased as the love of inanimate object, then my love of rubber lifestyle includes many of the usual acts of sacrifice, devotion and submission that are present in the love of a sub to their master/mistress. The fact that some of these inconveniences must be endured and cannot be totally acclimatized to seems to have the benefit of keeping the experience stimulating.
I too enjoy the contrasts of which Dark speaks and would appreciate them – but to attain the rewards I perceive I get from dedication to long term enclosure, I must forfeit the contrast attained from wearing vanilla most of the time and rubber only as I the desire takes me [other than during my current January work assignment!].
Why should Dark change anything, if he gets what he wants out of his current rubber habits? Well my aim is not to “convert” people to long term rubber TE lifestylists. I DO want to encourage anyone who has long dreamt of living in rubber much/all the time to give it a go and actually try to live the dream. I would encourage them to try to extend their personal range just a little and join in the dialogue about this lifestyle. The first step is to stay enclosed beyond the time it takes to satisfactorily complete the obvious sex scenes - or even better, sometimes wear rubber without the classic cycle of sex and/or masturbation (easier said than done I know). I would encourage them be stating that this initial hurdle is one of the more difficult challenges on the road to a fetish lifestyle – after that it only gets better and better!
For those who are turned on be the concept of living in latex, the rewards do exist – simply decoupling the rubber stimulation from the classic climax leads to a whole different level of experience.
For those who have never seen any attraction of being totally sealed for longer than strictly “necessary” – I would not presume to know how to advise them on if would be worth their investment in time and effort to try the experience. However - if you already have a work/lifestyle that would allow you to wear rubber every day – what have to lose by trying? If you found you lost the turn on of rubber through familiarity (which I doubt), then couldn’t you just take a long break from it and revert back to your original practice? Anyway it up to you.
As to the “two ways” either the “non-erotic” or living “on the edge” of sexual tension – then I chose the later. The dilemma is when you find yourself too close to that edge for very long periods, out of control and struggling to function in anything other than a sexual way (agony!). My ideal would be to be constantly in a mildly stimulated / sensual state 24/7, but only “highly” stimulated or on the edge of climax at a time of my choosing (like a default state that kicks in when I am not trying to concentrate on work or achieving some non-sexual goal). I am starting to think I would prefer to not routinely be “over-stimulated” to the point of loss of control - even though I can make it last for very long periods. I am becoming interested in decoupling the whole rubber / sensual / erotic / sexual / climax experiences (more posts on this in the future).
Thanks to Blackie for his comments – both of them. Think the blog takes a long time to refresh sometimes. I think I already covered a lot in my reply to Dark but just like to say it is interesting to hear how you are more comfortable with your fetish. I know I still have hang ups about being in public – and this limits my personal objective. This is something I will try to address in the coming year(s), as I have found your experiences very encouraging.
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