It’s been a while since I made and entry. Thanks to Dark and all who have been keeping in touch (here and elsewhere) and feeding back on fetish lifestyle subjects.
On the one hand things have been wild and unpredictable in my personal and work life – and on the other things have been sort of “settled” in my fetish lifestyle. I have been lucky to have been able to spend most days in rubber and the familiarity of this experience, along with the very TE-compatible autumnal temperatures here, mean I just don’t find it uncomfortable or exceptional to spend most of my time in rubber any more. Being so intensely busy in vanilla activities (while in rubber) means I have not had the mental energy to peruse many new fetish ideas or progress things any further than before – but it has meant that I have been able to consolidate the fetish lifestyle I have. And now things are calming a little, there is time for some reflection.
Although now it’s routine to be busy working in my rubber suit, this is not to say it has become in any way a mundane. Yes there are times that I have been so wrapped up in an activity or conversation that I may briefly have completely forgotten the unusual nature of my totally encased clothing – but this really is the exception. It’s important to me that people don’t think that because I wear latex rubber over 100% of my skin, totally encased with breathing masks and goggles, day after day, that it has ever felt normal or dull – even if I have lived like that (for most of the time) since January! On the contrary it feels very special.
Yes, I do believe that my skin, body and mind have all been able to change to adapt to my lifestyle to various extents. Yes I have paid a little more attention to the quality and fit of my rubber clothing and other seemingly limiting factors over the years in light of daily usage. Yes I do have some tricks that help me deal with the remaining challenges (more on this later). Yes I do feel more comfortable now wearing rubber than other materials. And yes rubber TE may be becoming nearer to my normal “steady state” than any other mode.
Has the experience changed at all from a sexual perspective? It had to, to some extent. When I started out I found I was heavily sexually excited and stimulated from the moment I got into my suit to the moment I peeled my way out – but given I was trying to wear rubber all day, this reaction would effectively be totally paralysing! Am I no longer sexually stimulated by rubber? No – it still stimulating – but maybe a little less exciting. Others have reported the transition to the sensual rather than sexual – and I think there is some truth in this. But after spending any time out of rubber, on getting dressed there are all the same feelings again when the last zipper is pulled.
But could rubber TE ever be a mundane state or be anything other than feeling special? I don’t believe it will be for me. Yes, the novelty goes – but never that special feeling…
Is it addictive – well maybe sort of. The physical side starts off very difficult but I seem to start to adjust after just a few days. But it’s a funny addiction as, once through the initial physical barriers; I could probably spend weeks away from rubber if I needed to -yet I think after, say a month, I would start to miss it more and more every day. It would be those quite times when I would start to feel the strain.
I don’t think I would feel I was fully “me” if I didn’t think of myself as that person in rubber. Time I spend in vanilla feels like time I am me – but temporally out of my rubber skin. Sounds pretty weird when I come to write it – but my identity cannot be totally disassociated from my normal state (sealed in a rubber skin), along with my actions, beliefs, reactions etc…
