Last time I mentioned the use of plumbing and pissing pants to allow for longer periods of total rubber enclosure without having to use suits with zip opening. For me, zips can be troublesome and can impair the total rubbery “sealed-ness” of the experience, so it’s a subject I am persistently trying to improve on. That’s why there are quite a few posts on the subject.
Although I admit to appearing to be a little preoccupied by my plumbing, its not that I started out totally fixated by body functions. However, I have long been obsessed about extending the amount of time I can live comfortably sealed in rubber and dealing with body functions just became part of that quest.
As time has gone on, I must confess that I feel some auto-erotic pleasure from just the thought of devising clean and neat rubbery solutions to what would otherwise be mundane necessarily. It’s also partly to do with giving over control to my rubber suit – which is also partly my life support – as, when perfected, everything coming into and out of my body would be managed by a rubbery extension to my latex cocoon. The all encompassing nature of this is very much a turn on for me.
The wrong (under-)trousers?
So are the rubber sheath pissing pants the perfect answer? I would say not and so I am experimenting with alternatives. I touched on some of the drawbacks in my last entry, including the feel being so different and being initially overpowering for regular use.
There is also the question of how effective they are. When worn in combination with a sheath suite they provide an acceptably dependable solution to pissing, but this combo is just too intense and different from my tastes. I have also worn them in my heavy rubber neck entry suit (diver dry suit style) where they feel a little better, but are less reliable with more potential for a small proportion of piss backing up and eventually leaking into the main suit. Not nice when you might be in there for the rest of the day.
As an alternative I have tried a set of pissing pants I bought recently in Expectations (London). I think these pants are made in Germany, they come with optional rubber collection bag with leg straps and I suspect they are actually intended for women, not men. They are open crotch black pants with a semi transparent large pouch bonded to the crotch – which dangles between the legs and is plumbed to a rubber pipe at it’s lowest point.
When worn by me, the pouch forms a snug home for the penis and balls. When I piss, the pouch collects the urine and it drains into the rubber leg bladder. As this is of limited capacity, particularly given it is in a fairly tight suit, I have modified what happens next. Essentially the leg bladder is also plumbed, this time out of the suit such that it can be pumped empty.
Pros and cons… The pouch is snug before an erection and does not feel like wearing a sheath. However it is very restrictive as soon as I get sexually stimulated, such that it cannot take up its usual fully erect position. This can be quite fun, but also it can be fairly weird and borders on uncomfortable. I have had some degree of success in it effectively plumbing away my piss, although you have to be careful when pissing as it does drain very slowly. If you want to try it yourself, bear in mind it will require some customizing to get it to fit and drain well.
Time will tell if they are better than the sheath pants, but my instinct is that these new pants are more of a prototype than a perfect solution. I think that if it were remade with a more generous pouch, it would be less noticeable to wear and would feel like being in a normal suit/pants/tights. Also, a generous pouch would function / drain better and then the wettest are would be further away from the skin.
After pissing, there would still be a lot of moisture in the pouch, which is undesirable as my genitalia would stay wet, so thinking of ways to deal with this. After pissing, maybe the pouch could be pumped with something to displace the water. I thought of liquid silicon to displace the piss and any other water based moisture. Alternatively I am thinking of an initial flush with clean water, and then pumped with air to drive out moisture. It would probably take very many changes of air to dry out and this could be automated like the cycles of a washing machine.
Other Plumbing
Of course there is more than piss to deal with. There are outputs of shit, gas, sweat and even saliva and mucus. There are also inputs of air, fluid and food.
Inputs are not really the limiting factor. If you are happy to breathe air from the outside environment (even if though a mask, cylinder, bag or tube) you don’t need to deal with the other inputs for many hours - and when necessary I have been able to go without even fluid for several days.
If you make sure you take steps to stay cool, it will be the piss problem that you hit first, probably after just a few hours. As I now have working solutions for piss and can see that I will be able to optimize these to reliably enable ever longer and longer endurances, the other requirements are at last looking to become limitations which I need to tackle.
When think of a regular session, I often find that I need to shit at least once every 24 hours. About this time frame, even when I take care not to overheat, the moisture levels in my suit are starting to become significant. At the moment I deal with this by at least one complete change of rubber every day and I have to make sure I shit just before putting on a new suit to give me enough endurance. In practice, to live a comfortable life, this brings down my time in rubber to considerably less than 24 hours. So I would like to come up with a plumbing solution – which will essentially be to have my anus plugged with enema tubes while in my suit.
Now as I have been concentrating on pissing, I have not actually got around to plumbing myself up to a enema – but I have started experiments and training. The first thing that will be difficult to get used to will be wearing a plug all the time. I have started training by “wearing” a couple of very modest rubber pipes. As anyone who has tried but plug will know, this take a lot of getting used to. In my case I think I have a smaller orifice (tight arse!) which makes the whole thing a bit mind bending. After a while the modest anal intrusion feels somewhere between unbelievably stimulating and quite uncomfortable.
I have been told that butt plugs and the like get easier to take after a while so I am persisting. Training is tough however, as imagine the pipes being trapped under all your rubber – which you committed to being locked into all day. After a few hours it really starts to drive you mad and you cannot really get at it. Like an itch, you cannot make it go away, all you can do is scratch it (wiggle you butt/pipes), which of course only makes their presence more obvious and intense.
That enough for now, but love to here any constructive suggestions or comments.
Sealed
Monday, March 31, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
To be a plumbed rubber object
I have long held a desire to be “plumbed” in such a way as to allow me to function comfortably for extended periods without ever breaking the seal on my total rubber enclosure. Over the last few months I have revisited this subject, determined to find workable solutions.
I have tried in-dwelling catheters, which are the ultimate as far as a plumbing solution. However, as you will see from earlier posts, they are not suitable for me. As I may be plumbed all day every day, the solution has to work when I ejaculate, and with in-dwelling catheters I have always experienced pain during climax and discomfort after. I know others have been OK, but guess I am just unlucky.
The most simple solution I have tried is to wear pissing pants (sheath pants complete with drainage tube) under a all in one cat-suit with it’s own sheath. The only holes in this suit are eyes, nostril, mouth and a very small hole in the tip of the sheath that is just large enough to feed the pissing pant’s drainage tube through. The end of the tube is plugged with a valve and the whole bundle sits in a zip up pouch, which is part of the suit. When I need to pass water, I just unzip the pouch and extract my sheathed member, open the valve, point it into the toilet and relieve myself. If I am careful, it can be a successful and clean(ish) operation.
This sheath arrangement is one I “forced” myself to regularly wear over a several months. I say forced, as although it mechanically works fairly well, it is a little difficult to get used to wearing when I am so used to just being in a “normal” rubber suit. Two layers of close fitting rubber over my cock and balls, plus the pouch can feel restrictive and very difficult to ignore! Initially it was very challenging during the normal cycles of varying degrees of penis stiffness.
The rubber used to chafe and so it is more critical to get the correct amount of lubrication. Yet over lubrication (particularly with J-Lube) can lead to the total loss of that delicious rubbery sensation that I desired in the first place.
The other thing I found difficult to get used to was the feeling of my cock and balls being effectively free and outside the restriction of the main suit, albeit in their own triple layer of rubber. The outer pouch is quite lose fitting and do not support my bits. Being more used to them being squished snuggly in a suit, along with the rest of me, it can feel like they are dangling unprotected (which they not really).
Also there is less to “push against” to get that erotic rubber feel flowing across my sex organ. With a normal suit, my penis sits with my body on one side of it and the tightly stretched rubber on the other. With every slight movement of my lower abdomen, hips or legs, the three surfaces move relative to each other to produce the delightful sensation I imagine only male rubber fetishists experience. This can be the intense erotic feel when after instant gratification, or for those of us who like to spend extended periods in their rubber skin, it can also be the gentle but regular sensual reminder of their rubber encased existence.
With the rubber sheathed option, there is the constant distracting sensation of the rubber constriction, but the penis often does not automatically get the same rubber rubbing across you skin feeling I get for free when just living in a normal suit. To get something like that you need to actively engage in a sexual act – either by plugging your rubber member into a sexual partner or masturbation. Both these are great but intense and so hardly a lifestyle.
In fact the intense feeling of being plumbed was part of the challenge which made it more taxing for me to wear for long periods. It was ironic that the plumbing that could help me in my ambition to be totally sealed in rubber for longer, and more completely, was actually initially difficult to handle beyond a brief sexual experience in rubber.
To get to something like the same gentle level of constant rubber stimulation, I often wear yet another layer of thin rubber briefs over the top of everything. Adjusting the fit of these rubber briefs can fine-tune the whole experience.
Eventually I just about got used to regularly wearing the kit. And then I moved on to wearing the pissing pants inside a neck entry rubber suit (diving dry suit style) which meant I had to plumb the pants to a collection bag in the leg of the suit. This bag was in turn plumbed up through the suit to allow it to be periodically emptied. This was all done to achieve a very “sealed in” feel.
More on this, some different pants and other plumbing in a future post.
Love to hear on feedback and tips on this or any other issue related to living in rubber.
Sealed
I have tried in-dwelling catheters, which are the ultimate as far as a plumbing solution. However, as you will see from earlier posts, they are not suitable for me. As I may be plumbed all day every day, the solution has to work when I ejaculate, and with in-dwelling catheters I have always experienced pain during climax and discomfort after. I know others have been OK, but guess I am just unlucky.
The most simple solution I have tried is to wear pissing pants (sheath pants complete with drainage tube) under a all in one cat-suit with it’s own sheath. The only holes in this suit are eyes, nostril, mouth and a very small hole in the tip of the sheath that is just large enough to feed the pissing pant’s drainage tube through. The end of the tube is plugged with a valve and the whole bundle sits in a zip up pouch, which is part of the suit. When I need to pass water, I just unzip the pouch and extract my sheathed member, open the valve, point it into the toilet and relieve myself. If I am careful, it can be a successful and clean(ish) operation.
This sheath arrangement is one I “forced” myself to regularly wear over a several months. I say forced, as although it mechanically works fairly well, it is a little difficult to get used to wearing when I am so used to just being in a “normal” rubber suit. Two layers of close fitting rubber over my cock and balls, plus the pouch can feel restrictive and very difficult to ignore! Initially it was very challenging during the normal cycles of varying degrees of penis stiffness.
The rubber used to chafe and so it is more critical to get the correct amount of lubrication. Yet over lubrication (particularly with J-Lube) can lead to the total loss of that delicious rubbery sensation that I desired in the first place.
The other thing I found difficult to get used to was the feeling of my cock and balls being effectively free and outside the restriction of the main suit, albeit in their own triple layer of rubber. The outer pouch is quite lose fitting and do not support my bits. Being more used to them being squished snuggly in a suit, along with the rest of me, it can feel like they are dangling unprotected (which they not really).
Also there is less to “push against” to get that erotic rubber feel flowing across my sex organ. With a normal suit, my penis sits with my body on one side of it and the tightly stretched rubber on the other. With every slight movement of my lower abdomen, hips or legs, the three surfaces move relative to each other to produce the delightful sensation I imagine only male rubber fetishists experience. This can be the intense erotic feel when after instant gratification, or for those of us who like to spend extended periods in their rubber skin, it can also be the gentle but regular sensual reminder of their rubber encased existence.
With the rubber sheathed option, there is the constant distracting sensation of the rubber constriction, but the penis often does not automatically get the same rubber rubbing across you skin feeling I get for free when just living in a normal suit. To get something like that you need to actively engage in a sexual act – either by plugging your rubber member into a sexual partner or masturbation. Both these are great but intense and so hardly a lifestyle.
In fact the intense feeling of being plumbed was part of the challenge which made it more taxing for me to wear for long periods. It was ironic that the plumbing that could help me in my ambition to be totally sealed in rubber for longer, and more completely, was actually initially difficult to handle beyond a brief sexual experience in rubber.
To get to something like the same gentle level of constant rubber stimulation, I often wear yet another layer of thin rubber briefs over the top of everything. Adjusting the fit of these rubber briefs can fine-tune the whole experience.
Eventually I just about got used to regularly wearing the kit. And then I moved on to wearing the pissing pants inside a neck entry rubber suit (diving dry suit style) which meant I had to plumb the pants to a collection bag in the leg of the suit. This bag was in turn plumbed up through the suit to allow it to be periodically emptied. This was all done to achieve a very “sealed in” feel.
More on this, some different pants and other plumbing in a future post.
Love to hear on feedback and tips on this or any other issue related to living in rubber.
Sealed
Monday, October 15, 2007
October 2007: Yet more challenges and a maybe an opportunity…
Feel somewhat neglected by me? Do you even remember me? Well I wouldn’t blame you if you don’t… Anyway here I am with a new profile and new posting to let you know I still exist.
Since my last posting, I have been hit by more personal challenges – yet another death, again very close to home. I was badly hit just as I was getting back to my feet. But enough of that…I am starting to come out of that whole black period.
One interesting idea has occurred to me while all this was going on, that I would like to explore via this medium. Imagine that suddenly you are no longer tied by ANY family responsibilities and financially you are suddenly (modestly) independent and don’t have to work to earn money… Suddenly your time would be 100% your own and the prospect of a totally hedonistic lifestyle would be a real possibility.
This could all be hypothetical, of course, so let not get bogged down with individual circumstances, but consider the general concept. Think about what you might choose to do. And what might be wise to do too.
Yes, you could continue to work and now all that money you earn could go into buying fun things rather than paying the mortgage on your house and other bills. If that work was mainly based from home, basically it would be a sort of dream lifestyle for many – where you could surround yourself with all the latest toys while keeping your mind tuned into the working world. Of course your time would not be 100% your own and work commitments and trips would mean you compromise what you could do and wear some of the time.
The alternative is that you could give up work and take whatever downsizing actions that would be necessary to secure your financial future. I sometimes think stepping away from a “consumer lifestyle” may not be as bad I think, as much of the excessive luxury we surround ourselves with is probably a compensation for a time poor (money rich) life we are forced into by work. For example, I ask myself, do I really need such a nice car if I no longer have to travel a gazillion miles a year for work?
Essentially you could call it “very early retirement” and I am assuming an independent income will cover the basic plus enough for some luxuries, including the ever expensive rubber fetish and maybe some travel.
Possibilities that spring to my mind are:
Ø Spend ever more time indulging your fetish fantasy. With enough time, you could aim to get beyond the quick thrills and into the next level of sensual existence, which I have been fortunate enough to have glimpsed, if only occasionally.
Ø Dedicate yourself 100% to living that kinky lifestyle with a commitment that all your actions are now all related to fulfilling and exploring your fetish.
Ø Travel to see fetish friends whenever you want.
Ø Spend as long as you want totally sealed in rubber, building your stamina to days, weeks, months… Lock yourself in and give total control of how long you are in there to someone else.
Ø Adapt your life, your wardrobe and your home to supporting your daily long term rubber enclosure fetish.
Ø Advertise for a rubber slave to share your good fortune with, or sell all your worldly goods and become a (financially independent) latex slave in someone else’s rubber household. Whichever lights your candle, you basically spend all your time fulfilling a sensual life for each other.
If time & commitments was not limiting you and earning money was no longer an essential activity, what would you do with your new found freedom? Do you have fantasies you would need this kind of time to fulfil? Do you believe that a human is capable of living a sublime existence? Or do you take the cynical view (popularised in the Matrix) that humanity would not thrive in a utopian world. That humans thrive from battling towards a ideal as long as it is never achieved?
Also, maybe it’s worth re-examining the list and thinking about how many of these things could be achieved without this windfall?
Sealed
Since my last posting, I have been hit by more personal challenges – yet another death, again very close to home. I was badly hit just as I was getting back to my feet. But enough of that…I am starting to come out of that whole black period.
One interesting idea has occurred to me while all this was going on, that I would like to explore via this medium. Imagine that suddenly you are no longer tied by ANY family responsibilities and financially you are suddenly (modestly) independent and don’t have to work to earn money… Suddenly your time would be 100% your own and the prospect of a totally hedonistic lifestyle would be a real possibility.
This could all be hypothetical, of course, so let not get bogged down with individual circumstances, but consider the general concept. Think about what you might choose to do. And what might be wise to do too.
Yes, you could continue to work and now all that money you earn could go into buying fun things rather than paying the mortgage on your house and other bills. If that work was mainly based from home, basically it would be a sort of dream lifestyle for many – where you could surround yourself with all the latest toys while keeping your mind tuned into the working world. Of course your time would not be 100% your own and work commitments and trips would mean you compromise what you could do and wear some of the time.
The alternative is that you could give up work and take whatever downsizing actions that would be necessary to secure your financial future. I sometimes think stepping away from a “consumer lifestyle” may not be as bad I think, as much of the excessive luxury we surround ourselves with is probably a compensation for a time poor (money rich) life we are forced into by work. For example, I ask myself, do I really need such a nice car if I no longer have to travel a gazillion miles a year for work?
Essentially you could call it “very early retirement” and I am assuming an independent income will cover the basic plus enough for some luxuries, including the ever expensive rubber fetish and maybe some travel.
Possibilities that spring to my mind are:
Ø Spend ever more time indulging your fetish fantasy. With enough time, you could aim to get beyond the quick thrills and into the next level of sensual existence, which I have been fortunate enough to have glimpsed, if only occasionally.
Ø Dedicate yourself 100% to living that kinky lifestyle with a commitment that all your actions are now all related to fulfilling and exploring your fetish.
Ø Travel to see fetish friends whenever you want.
Ø Spend as long as you want totally sealed in rubber, building your stamina to days, weeks, months… Lock yourself in and give total control of how long you are in there to someone else.
Ø Adapt your life, your wardrobe and your home to supporting your daily long term rubber enclosure fetish.
Ø Advertise for a rubber slave to share your good fortune with, or sell all your worldly goods and become a (financially independent) latex slave in someone else’s rubber household. Whichever lights your candle, you basically spend all your time fulfilling a sensual life for each other.
If time & commitments was not limiting you and earning money was no longer an essential activity, what would you do with your new found freedom? Do you have fantasies you would need this kind of time to fulfil? Do you believe that a human is capable of living a sublime existence? Or do you take the cynical view (popularised in the Matrix) that humanity would not thrive in a utopian world. That humans thrive from battling towards a ideal as long as it is never achieved?
Also, maybe it’s worth re-examining the list and thinking about how many of these things could be achieved without this windfall?
Sealed
Monday, April 23, 2007
Monday, 23 April 2007- Life and cliché?
Is my life is a cliché – the one that goes “the only thing that is constant is change”… It kind of suits me to some degree, but it can be challenging for me and must drive some of my friends and email companions mad!
So much has happened since I lasted posted that even if any of it were on topic, it would be too much to post. Needless to say, I have been living through both “interesting” and tragic times. But at least I can see the end of the tunnel now… or is that a train hurtling towards me?
OK, to catch up and give the briefest of insights, my time living with a terminally ill individual has come to a natural, if sad, conclusion [that is as far off topic I want to go]. During this time, the pressure of the situation and my near house bound existence has taken its toll. The stress of having to drastically increase the amount of time I must live without being encase in my protective rubber skin has also resulted in an almost perpetual feeling of anxiety.
All this has meant weight gain and virtual dependence on alcohol to help me relax! The last week seems to have seen a turning point and I think I should be back to normal in a month or 3.
So, when things settle down here, I just have to wean myself back on to routinely wear rubber for longer and longer periods. I am looking forward to this, but experience leads me to imagine it may well be quite challenging, particularly as the summer is arriving. It’s much easier to take to the idea of being fully encased and snug when there is frost on the windows.
I wonder if it will be as challenging as it was the first time. I seem to remember it was a bit like how people describe growing a beard, quite difficult to feel at all comfortable for quite a while and then all of a sudden, it starts to become the norm. People who eventually shave their beard off also say they could never face the prospect of going through the discomfort of growing one again. I hope this does not apply to me and going back to a more rubber oriented (dominated?) life.
I am wondering if it may make me think again about exactly how I approach it and maybe what I chose to wear, etc. It seems to a god opportunity to re-investigate the whole what / why / where / when of my rubbery existence.
Anyway, I may be calling for practical and moral support as I get back into the fold.
Just before I sign off, I would like to say hi to Brock, who seems to be a serious devotee to the idea of training for a rubber encased life. Welcome to the blog and I hope that we hear more of each others efforts. With what I found of you on the web, it sounds like you have a planned some ideas around particularly ”total” total enclosure, including intubations, which I think many with our interests will find very interesting. I have found that there is so little meaningful info on the topic, such that I would like to encourage sharing of even the most seemingly modest experiences and endurances.
Although I agree with Brock that latex encased lifestyle is totally achievable, no one who has actually tried it would say there are no challenges, compromises or implicit limitations. On the one hand, life can get hellish and even dangerous if someone is locked in TE for even a few hours. On the other, with correct planning and conditions I have been able to spend fairly long periods hermetically sealed with zero contact with the outside world, in total comfort.
Daily life usually comprises of some necessary activities and unexpected circumstances that result in a compromised existence which, while tolerable, could be improved upon in terms of both degree of encasement and comfort. I hope that by everyone sharing ideas the whole rubber existence can be continually improved and fine tuned.
I am hoping we seem some comments or links which lead to descriptions of peoples ideas and experiences. Bear in mind also, if you go for an extreme approach to being totally sealed in rubber or plastic, then I think there’s really no such thing as a short amount of time to spend totally encased.
Sealed
So much has happened since I lasted posted that even if any of it were on topic, it would be too much to post. Needless to say, I have been living through both “interesting” and tragic times. But at least I can see the end of the tunnel now… or is that a train hurtling towards me?
OK, to catch up and give the briefest of insights, my time living with a terminally ill individual has come to a natural, if sad, conclusion [that is as far off topic I want to go]. During this time, the pressure of the situation and my near house bound existence has taken its toll. The stress of having to drastically increase the amount of time I must live without being encase in my protective rubber skin has also resulted in an almost perpetual feeling of anxiety.
All this has meant weight gain and virtual dependence on alcohol to help me relax! The last week seems to have seen a turning point and I think I should be back to normal in a month or 3.
So, when things settle down here, I just have to wean myself back on to routinely wear rubber for longer and longer periods. I am looking forward to this, but experience leads me to imagine it may well be quite challenging, particularly as the summer is arriving. It’s much easier to take to the idea of being fully encased and snug when there is frost on the windows.
I wonder if it will be as challenging as it was the first time. I seem to remember it was a bit like how people describe growing a beard, quite difficult to feel at all comfortable for quite a while and then all of a sudden, it starts to become the norm. People who eventually shave their beard off also say they could never face the prospect of going through the discomfort of growing one again. I hope this does not apply to me and going back to a more rubber oriented (dominated?) life.
I am wondering if it may make me think again about exactly how I approach it and maybe what I chose to wear, etc. It seems to a god opportunity to re-investigate the whole what / why / where / when of my rubbery existence.
Anyway, I may be calling for practical and moral support as I get back into the fold.
Just before I sign off, I would like to say hi to Brock, who seems to be a serious devotee to the idea of training for a rubber encased life. Welcome to the blog and I hope that we hear more of each others efforts. With what I found of you on the web, it sounds like you have a planned some ideas around particularly ”total” total enclosure, including intubations, which I think many with our interests will find very interesting. I have found that there is so little meaningful info on the topic, such that I would like to encourage sharing of even the most seemingly modest experiences and endurances.
Although I agree with Brock that latex encased lifestyle is totally achievable, no one who has actually tried it would say there are no challenges, compromises or implicit limitations. On the one hand, life can get hellish and even dangerous if someone is locked in TE for even a few hours. On the other, with correct planning and conditions I have been able to spend fairly long periods hermetically sealed with zero contact with the outside world, in total comfort.
Daily life usually comprises of some necessary activities and unexpected circumstances that result in a compromised existence which, while tolerable, could be improved upon in terms of both degree of encasement and comfort. I hope that by everyone sharing ideas the whole rubber existence can be continually improved and fine tuned.
I am hoping we seem some comments or links which lead to descriptions of peoples ideas and experiences. Bear in mind also, if you go for an extreme approach to being totally sealed in rubber or plastic, then I think there’s really no such thing as a short amount of time to spend totally encased.
Sealed
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Thursday, 15 February 2007
Welcome wackyvorlonm ozrubberpony & Calgary rubberman to my blog and very glad u find encouragement from my entries. I think many of us feel a sense of calm when in our rubber skin. Hope u drop by again and let us know how u r getting on. I know I will be keeping an eye on your blogs (Calgary rubberman’s is definitely recommended reading).
By my understanding, Dark is pretty much a lifestyle rubberist after all (although I should leave him to define what that means to him)... We could argue the extent, length of time and totality of the enclosure – but to what end? I happen to prefer the idea of TE (as in including the head), but often have to compromise myself on this aspect. As a very rough guide, I often think a hood and mask doubles the intensity of the TE experience for me and yet probably makes the experience 10 times less easy over 24 hours. Think about physical comfort (ears!), socially acceptability of appearance, breathing (particularly when asleep), over-heating, communicating (both muffles voice and loses facial expression), drinking, eating…
Sleeping is tricky to master in rubber TE. I found that even if you managed it one night, that is not the same as EVERY night. As we tend to sleep for just the bare minimum time that our mind and body needs, any disturbance to your comfort, however slight, can lead to fatigue after a few days of disrupted sleep.
Earlier last year I did manage to teach myself to be able to regularly sleep in fairly extreme TE when away on business – but must admit to finding the same thing more challenging to habitually achieve when at home.
This brings me on to the concept of a diary or log as described by ozrubberpony. I have often found that this is a very good way to reach “the next level” in achieving my fetish lifestyle. Just setting targets a little higher each day can focus the mind on gradually increasing your “endurance” (OK, for me, it is little to do with physical “endurance” and a lot to do with ignoring the 100 artificial reasons for not following my fetish dream). This very blog started off as a points based diary, publicly charting my progress to spur me on. Only later did it evolve to it’s current (random) format, as some found it’s original personal score table format a tad dull. By then, it had served it’s purpose as I had progressed from being in rubber through much of the working day, quite often and as the mood took me, to regularly being in rubber – most of the day, most days where I didn’t have a good reason not to be. A huge step for me.
So yes, I recommend such “divers logs” – they can be a mechanism for helping u live closer to the way you already dream about.
Sealed
By my understanding, Dark is pretty much a lifestyle rubberist after all (although I should leave him to define what that means to him)... We could argue the extent, length of time and totality of the enclosure – but to what end? I happen to prefer the idea of TE (as in including the head), but often have to compromise myself on this aspect. As a very rough guide, I often think a hood and mask doubles the intensity of the TE experience for me and yet probably makes the experience 10 times less easy over 24 hours. Think about physical comfort (ears!), socially acceptability of appearance, breathing (particularly when asleep), over-heating, communicating (both muffles voice and loses facial expression), drinking, eating…
Sleeping is tricky to master in rubber TE. I found that even if you managed it one night, that is not the same as EVERY night. As we tend to sleep for just the bare minimum time that our mind and body needs, any disturbance to your comfort, however slight, can lead to fatigue after a few days of disrupted sleep.
Earlier last year I did manage to teach myself to be able to regularly sleep in fairly extreme TE when away on business – but must admit to finding the same thing more challenging to habitually achieve when at home.
This brings me on to the concept of a diary or log as described by ozrubberpony. I have often found that this is a very good way to reach “the next level” in achieving my fetish lifestyle. Just setting targets a little higher each day can focus the mind on gradually increasing your “endurance” (OK, for me, it is little to do with physical “endurance” and a lot to do with ignoring the 100 artificial reasons for not following my fetish dream). This very blog started off as a points based diary, publicly charting my progress to spur me on. Only later did it evolve to it’s current (random) format, as some found it’s original personal score table format a tad dull. By then, it had served it’s purpose as I had progressed from being in rubber through much of the working day, quite often and as the mood took me, to regularly being in rubber – most of the day, most days where I didn’t have a good reason not to be. A huge step for me.
So yes, I recommend such “divers logs” – they can be a mechanism for helping u live closer to the way you already dream about.
Sealed
Friday, January 05, 2007
Friday, 05 January 2007
Years review - some observations of my life in rubber, which may give readers an insight into what it is like...
I know many people think u can have too much of a good thing, but I just haven’t found that with living routinely in rubber. You do get over the initial “rush” of the difference in your sensation, but it is such an extreme and total experience, it never stops feeling special to me. OK, I sometimes do (briefly) forget I am wearing it, but unlike other material, it is not long before rubber firmly reminds you of its presence. This aspect is part of what makes a rubber life so compulsive. It is such a total sensual experience; you cannot ignore it for long, even if you wanted to.
I have come to accept that this regular / longer term enclosure does not seem to appeal to every rubber fetishist and some people’s skin may not even bear wearing rubber for prolonged sessions, but I whish they could stop doubting that it may suit some of us (some even seem to doubt it appeals to some of us).
Before I get too far, I am not specifically having a pop at Dark on this post – as I think he at least understands that many fantasies about the possibility of long term enclosure and doesn’t deny what is patently true. The real “living in rubber is bad / impossible” zealots are elsewhere and/or anonymous. But I am addressing some of his points because he has publicly corresponded here making coherent / rational / relevant points and because frankly, I want to close off points that seem to have been made time and time again…
For me, it is nothing like eating ice cream everyday – there is no truly accurate analogy, but let say it’s more like feeling “happy” every day, but in this assertion you could easily substitute the word “happy” for other words that describe desirable standard states (like clean, comfortable, secure, warm, stimulated, sexy, fortunate, virile, alive…). Yet only something like “encased in a rubber skin” would actually accurately describe it in my mind!
The clue may be in the (horrible) “lifestyle” tag that tends to be associated with this fetish. With such a lifestyle, the intense transitional fix / rush is sacrificed for a more subtle and sustained effect. Novelty is lost and replaced by a truly comforting, yet still stimulating experience. I think it is its own experience and defies description unless u have experienced it your self. Others have likened living in rubber to grand pseudo spiritual concepts like dedication, devotion, ritual and sacrifice that might be associated with a closed religious order. Some have said it is a much more sensual than sexual experience, maybe more contemplative like sexual meditation. I can sort of see where they coming from, but think that this sort of talk is more likely to confuse the “uninitiated” than enlighten.
Many of us are interested in number and stats connected to a rubber lifestyle, but I must admit to have become very nervous about the following terms connected with my fetish: “Permanent Total Enclosure”, “24/7/365 TE”, “23/7” (and all the “nn/7” variants) and even “permanent lifestyle”. It seems they have become loaded terms, artificially high targets for the aspiring and possibly even disgraced terms. You seem to quickly get into charged debates about honesty, practicality, desirability & healthiness while ignoring the great achievements and sacrifice made by us mere mortals. I think this is a shame and missing the point.
As I have said before, being an aspiring lifestyle TE fetishist is something you personally define for yourself. You just know it if you want to live in rubber and if you are actually living in rubber.
My definition only applies to me and develops over time, but it might include aspects along the lines of “…wearing rubber for longer than just a sexual encounter… for many hours a day… regularly / day after day / most days… wearing rubber all the time I cannot find a specific reason not to…” etc. Mundane circumstances and opportunity may influence how near you get to realising your ideal and how total the coverage. We could talk about how much time I spend sealed in rubber, but is this so important? On the one hand this would not come close to 24/7/365 and yet on the other hand, I have often been lucky enough to have had several months where prospect existed to spend much more of my time in rubber than most fellow fetishists could dream of (so felt almost duty bound to take advantage of the opportunity :o) ).
For others it might mean being in rubber the whole of (most) weekends. But that person might believe they are living a rubber lifestyle. Who are we to say they are, or are not? I would say they sound like they are very much dedicated to the lifestyle and probably having to work hard to achieve it (dedication, self discipline and sacrifices being part of the deal). I think there should be no pecking order in this lifestyle, no entry conditions to the club. The fact they are interested in the idea of living in a rubber skin and are actually in that suit for more than just a quickie is good enough for me.
I want to hear experiences from all who feel they are into longer session or aspire to the full lifestyle. Much of the same challenges, opportunities and delights exist for them that I would class them as worthy brothers/sisters. As for those who say they are in the stratospheric 20+ hours / 365 day league, I am fascinated to know more - whether there total encasement is conceptual or actual… It’s fun to explore the idea with whoever is interested.
Perhaps a little more fun than exploring the question of if we really, honestly, truly want to spend long periods in rubber. Much more fun than ice cream ;o)
Sealed
I know many people think u can have too much of a good thing, but I just haven’t found that with living routinely in rubber. You do get over the initial “rush” of the difference in your sensation, but it is such an extreme and total experience, it never stops feeling special to me. OK, I sometimes do (briefly) forget I am wearing it, but unlike other material, it is not long before rubber firmly reminds you of its presence. This aspect is part of what makes a rubber life so compulsive. It is such a total sensual experience; you cannot ignore it for long, even if you wanted to.
I have come to accept that this regular / longer term enclosure does not seem to appeal to every rubber fetishist and some people’s skin may not even bear wearing rubber for prolonged sessions, but I whish they could stop doubting that it may suit some of us (some even seem to doubt it appeals to some of us).
Before I get too far, I am not specifically having a pop at Dark on this post – as I think he at least understands that many fantasies about the possibility of long term enclosure and doesn’t deny what is patently true. The real “living in rubber is bad / impossible” zealots are elsewhere and/or anonymous. But I am addressing some of his points because he has publicly corresponded here making coherent / rational / relevant points and because frankly, I want to close off points that seem to have been made time and time again…
For me, it is nothing like eating ice cream everyday – there is no truly accurate analogy, but let say it’s more like feeling “happy” every day, but in this assertion you could easily substitute the word “happy” for other words that describe desirable standard states (like clean, comfortable, secure, warm, stimulated, sexy, fortunate, virile, alive…). Yet only something like “encased in a rubber skin” would actually accurately describe it in my mind!
The clue may be in the (horrible) “lifestyle” tag that tends to be associated with this fetish. With such a lifestyle, the intense transitional fix / rush is sacrificed for a more subtle and sustained effect. Novelty is lost and replaced by a truly comforting, yet still stimulating experience. I think it is its own experience and defies description unless u have experienced it your self. Others have likened living in rubber to grand pseudo spiritual concepts like dedication, devotion, ritual and sacrifice that might be associated with a closed religious order. Some have said it is a much more sensual than sexual experience, maybe more contemplative like sexual meditation. I can sort of see where they coming from, but think that this sort of talk is more likely to confuse the “uninitiated” than enlighten.
Many of us are interested in number and stats connected to a rubber lifestyle, but I must admit to have become very nervous about the following terms connected with my fetish: “Permanent Total Enclosure”, “24/7/365 TE”, “23/7” (and all the “nn/7” variants) and even “permanent lifestyle”. It seems they have become loaded terms, artificially high targets for the aspiring and possibly even disgraced terms. You seem to quickly get into charged debates about honesty, practicality, desirability & healthiness while ignoring the great achievements and sacrifice made by us mere mortals. I think this is a shame and missing the point.
As I have said before, being an aspiring lifestyle TE fetishist is something you personally define for yourself. You just know it if you want to live in rubber and if you are actually living in rubber.
My definition only applies to me and develops over time, but it might include aspects along the lines of “…wearing rubber for longer than just a sexual encounter… for many hours a day… regularly / day after day / most days… wearing rubber all the time I cannot find a specific reason not to…” etc. Mundane circumstances and opportunity may influence how near you get to realising your ideal and how total the coverage. We could talk about how much time I spend sealed in rubber, but is this so important? On the one hand this would not come close to 24/7/365 and yet on the other hand, I have often been lucky enough to have had several months where prospect existed to spend much more of my time in rubber than most fellow fetishists could dream of (so felt almost duty bound to take advantage of the opportunity :o) ).
For others it might mean being in rubber the whole of (most) weekends. But that person might believe they are living a rubber lifestyle. Who are we to say they are, or are not? I would say they sound like they are very much dedicated to the lifestyle and probably having to work hard to achieve it (dedication, self discipline and sacrifices being part of the deal). I think there should be no pecking order in this lifestyle, no entry conditions to the club. The fact they are interested in the idea of living in a rubber skin and are actually in that suit for more than just a quickie is good enough for me.
I want to hear experiences from all who feel they are into longer session or aspire to the full lifestyle. Much of the same challenges, opportunities and delights exist for them that I would class them as worthy brothers/sisters. As for those who say they are in the stratospheric 20+ hours / 365 day league, I am fascinated to know more - whether there total encasement is conceptual or actual… It’s fun to explore the idea with whoever is interested.
Perhaps a little more fun than exploring the question of if we really, honestly, truly want to spend long periods in rubber. Much more fun than ice cream ;o)
Sealed
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
20 December 2006 – Rubber Friends
Just a quick update before I get onto today’s real subject, how rubber friends and assistance would help with a rubber lifestyle.
Been spending the vast majority of my time and energy recently on securing the necessary mundane lifestyle elements that I need in place in order to support my longer term aims of a progressively more rubber lifestyle. I have been lucky in the past to have months of uninterrupted rubber life, so wanted to build on that to get to a point where at some point in the future, I will pretty much guarantee the conditions are right for me to live my chosen lifestyle, long term. What I have called my 5 year+ plan.
From my experience, if you don’t get the mundane parts of your life under control, you don’t stand a chance of achieving long term rubber enclosed lifestyle. This could mean a lot of personal arrangements, including work, home, family / friends…. Anyway, things are starting to come together in many respects (in particular, gaining a rubber friendly income stream), with just one or two things still left to be resolved...
Now back to the main point of this enter, friends. First some feedback for my virtual friends, before getting onto a more general point.
Thanks all (here and elsewhere) for the various offers of technical help. Everything from finding someone who is better set up than me to do chlorination of my rubber, through to those with ideas on automation, breathing apparatus and chemical aroma supplies. All this has sort of taken a back seat while I have been concentrating on the 5 year+ plan, although I have been having a lot of fun with aquarium pumps, which I see as being ideal for both chemical aroma supply and (with a big enough pump) for breath play. Magnum Smoker provided a good link for info on this subject. Maybe 2007, I will get time to play more…
OZ rubber pony – think that your idea of setting targets for your rubber wearing is a very good one. That’s the way I broke through the (mainly physiological) hurdles to get to the “next level”.
Also, if you are after the same things as I am, I would say it is almost as important to make it a regular event (ideally daily) than to push for ultra long sessions. I have found that if I am out of my rubber skin for longer periods (many days), I tend to find I over-react to the rubber enclosure on the first day back in.
Sealforvr – In dwelling caths seem to work well for you and I am so envious. To me they are just associated with intense discomfort, but it seems the majority of those who have tried it don’t suffer the same problems as me. The irony is, the advocates often just use them for pleasure but don’t really need to use one - and yet for me, for my ultimate dream lifestyle, they would be immensely useful.
Anyway, I wish Sealforvr luck and would be interesting to hear how u go on. Sure u have already done the research and made informed decisions. For those who have not yet, just be sure you know about the risks of UTIs and temporary incontinence associated with very term long use.
Now a more general point about friends. The simple observation that friends who are sympathetic to your ambition to life a large part of your life in total enclosure (or other unusual lifestyle not easily accepted by society) could be very useful in making your chosen mode achievable. There are several stands to this, such as moral support, practical tips and information as well as physically being there and dealing with the rest of the world on your behalf.
It often occurs to me that a rubber enclosed person is vulnerable in the context of current society. Sure, some brave the world regularly in outlandish rubber outfits, but this is often limited in terms of the place and time when such exposure is wise, health or safe. In certain contexts, society can be very fearful of what it sees as a deviant sexual expression through fetish – particularly if u r male.
This situation puts me in mind of the Hammer Horrors, where vampires are reliant on (and in total control of) a human servant (often an Egor figure or willing virgin). During the day, the servant (or a animal “familiar”) would do the master’s bidding, while the vampire would be limited to the confines of his crypt, only being released from this bondage when the sun set. The vampire would never admit it, but they are really very reliant on others for the mundane interactions needed to ensure wine and food are waiting on the table, for when the next victim traveller comes to stay…
Anyway, you probably get the point. It would be far more feasible for those who wished to live in rubber enclosure, if support were available from others. For example a partnership where one person does the lifestyle and the other does all the interaction with the mundane world and possibly provides financial support. Or maybe, a time share where you did one month on and one month off to share the burden. That’s not to say that the servant / helper could not wear rubber, but just that they may be required to take off some or all of their rubber skin to deal with everyday issues. Meanwhile, at lease one person is living the rubber lifestyle of their choice, with nothing to worry about.
Now in such a scenario with a helper, many of the real problems are removed. The only remaining one being social isolation of the Vampire figure. This should not be underestimated, even if u think you are not a very sociable person. They would of course have Egor and possibly have a circle of fetish oriented friends. If this is not enough for a given individual, the only solution is to set up a commune of people with the same fetish TE interest. Imagine the situation with a crypt full of rubber enclosed people, doing their thing, protected by and provided for, by this month’s servant…
Sealed
Been spending the vast majority of my time and energy recently on securing the necessary mundane lifestyle elements that I need in place in order to support my longer term aims of a progressively more rubber lifestyle. I have been lucky in the past to have months of uninterrupted rubber life, so wanted to build on that to get to a point where at some point in the future, I will pretty much guarantee the conditions are right for me to live my chosen lifestyle, long term. What I have called my 5 year+ plan.
From my experience, if you don’t get the mundane parts of your life under control, you don’t stand a chance of achieving long term rubber enclosed lifestyle. This could mean a lot of personal arrangements, including work, home, family / friends…. Anyway, things are starting to come together in many respects (in particular, gaining a rubber friendly income stream), with just one or two things still left to be resolved...
Now back to the main point of this enter, friends. First some feedback for my virtual friends, before getting onto a more general point.
Thanks all (here and elsewhere) for the various offers of technical help. Everything from finding someone who is better set up than me to do chlorination of my rubber, through to those with ideas on automation, breathing apparatus and chemical aroma supplies. All this has sort of taken a back seat while I have been concentrating on the 5 year+ plan, although I have been having a lot of fun with aquarium pumps, which I see as being ideal for both chemical aroma supply and (with a big enough pump) for breath play. Magnum Smoker provided a good link for info on this subject. Maybe 2007, I will get time to play more…
OZ rubber pony – think that your idea of setting targets for your rubber wearing is a very good one. That’s the way I broke through the (mainly physiological) hurdles to get to the “next level”.
Also, if you are after the same things as I am, I would say it is almost as important to make it a regular event (ideally daily) than to push for ultra long sessions. I have found that if I am out of my rubber skin for longer periods (many days), I tend to find I over-react to the rubber enclosure on the first day back in.
Sealforvr – In dwelling caths seem to work well for you and I am so envious. To me they are just associated with intense discomfort, but it seems the majority of those who have tried it don’t suffer the same problems as me. The irony is, the advocates often just use them for pleasure but don’t really need to use one - and yet for me, for my ultimate dream lifestyle, they would be immensely useful.
Anyway, I wish Sealforvr luck and would be interesting to hear how u go on. Sure u have already done the research and made informed decisions. For those who have not yet, just be sure you know about the risks of UTIs and temporary incontinence associated with very term long use.
Now a more general point about friends. The simple observation that friends who are sympathetic to your ambition to life a large part of your life in total enclosure (or other unusual lifestyle not easily accepted by society) could be very useful in making your chosen mode achievable. There are several stands to this, such as moral support, practical tips and information as well as physically being there and dealing with the rest of the world on your behalf.
It often occurs to me that a rubber enclosed person is vulnerable in the context of current society. Sure, some brave the world regularly in outlandish rubber outfits, but this is often limited in terms of the place and time when such exposure is wise, health or safe. In certain contexts, society can be very fearful of what it sees as a deviant sexual expression through fetish – particularly if u r male.
This situation puts me in mind of the Hammer Horrors, where vampires are reliant on (and in total control of) a human servant (often an Egor figure or willing virgin). During the day, the servant (or a animal “familiar”) would do the master’s bidding, while the vampire would be limited to the confines of his crypt, only being released from this bondage when the sun set. The vampire would never admit it, but they are really very reliant on others for the mundane interactions needed to ensure wine and food are waiting on the table, for when the next victim traveller comes to stay…
Anyway, you probably get the point. It would be far more feasible for those who wished to live in rubber enclosure, if support were available from others. For example a partnership where one person does the lifestyle and the other does all the interaction with the mundane world and possibly provides financial support. Or maybe, a time share where you did one month on and one month off to share the burden. That’s not to say that the servant / helper could not wear rubber, but just that they may be required to take off some or all of their rubber skin to deal with everyday issues. Meanwhile, at lease one person is living the rubber lifestyle of their choice, with nothing to worry about.
Now in such a scenario with a helper, many of the real problems are removed. The only remaining one being social isolation of the Vampire figure. This should not be underestimated, even if u think you are not a very sociable person. They would of course have Egor and possibly have a circle of fetish oriented friends. If this is not enough for a given individual, the only solution is to set up a commune of people with the same fetish TE interest. Imagine the situation with a crypt full of rubber enclosed people, doing their thing, protected by and provided for, by this month’s servant…
Sealed
Monday, August 21, 2006
Monday, 21 August 2006
It been a little while since updating here. So many things competing for my time blah, blah…
Thanks for all the comments both here and elsewhere. Seem there are many “lurkers” who only comment that they have been reading my blog after I send messages to them! This is totally fine by me, particularly as the comments have been positive. But I do welcome any contributions here as I think there are still plenty of subjects that are seldom talked about by breath play, total rubber enclosure & lifestyle fetishists.
I think Xevious may have a point about poppers – they certainly have the capacity to affect your mental function. Currently, I am just finding my way back into their use, after getting too dependent / affected by them previously. I want to experiment to see if there is a dose that works for my fetish, while at the same time allowing me to function adequately beyond pure hedonism. Early results are that mechanisation of the delivery of the vapours does work very well at providing a consistent doses, but things are still at a very crude stage so would not like to make any comment on suitability for long term use. I intend making electrical control and plumbing improvements as time allows.
But just for fairly short fun sessions, my system works fine and the long tube tethering me to the vapour pump is not too inconvenient. In fact I find it quite stimulating to be under the influence of chemical air supplied by a system which is well out of reach. If I get the dose right, I know I am certainly in for a ride!
Anyway, I will report back when I have more to say on it as a lifestyle support system, as recent exposure has been far too intense for long term use, and I am still adjusting to the experience. I don’t have an exact dose level yet, but I have been peaking at going through about three quarters of a large bottle (25ml) in a single session of just a few hours. Having said that, it is far from an efficient delivery system as a little of the vapour vents through my mask without me breathing it in and none is re-breathed.
As for the idea of my fetish existence being remotely controlled some of the time – that certainly has my mind occupied! Imagine web-cam sessions with someone where you could directly influence their experience, by tweaking their personal parameters and see the result of your action in front of u. Imagine having your stimulation / experience being controlled by someone else with whom u r in a web cam session… I would love to hear from anyone else who would like to be controlled by remote or would like to control another by remote control. And what things do other think would be good candidates for control?
It seems to be there are loads of possibilities that could be controlled by electrical means, such as sound u hear, electrical stimulation, vibrators, control of air / chemical / re-breathed air mix, fluids supplies, maybe even vision and how long u re locked in your rubber prison through some sort of set of electrical locks. I just wonder how much of this would be possible through off the shelf hobbyist items?
As for using aquarium pumps for supplying all the air I breathe, then this is something I am also interested in but have has no success in the past. The pumps I previously tried could not deliver sufficient air volume to survive off for long – but will certainly experiment with stronger pumps and report back on this idea. Anyone else tried this?
Sealed
Thanks for all the comments both here and elsewhere. Seem there are many “lurkers” who only comment that they have been reading my blog after I send messages to them! This is totally fine by me, particularly as the comments have been positive. But I do welcome any contributions here as I think there are still plenty of subjects that are seldom talked about by breath play, total rubber enclosure & lifestyle fetishists.
I think Xevious may have a point about poppers – they certainly have the capacity to affect your mental function. Currently, I am just finding my way back into their use, after getting too dependent / affected by them previously. I want to experiment to see if there is a dose that works for my fetish, while at the same time allowing me to function adequately beyond pure hedonism. Early results are that mechanisation of the delivery of the vapours does work very well at providing a consistent doses, but things are still at a very crude stage so would not like to make any comment on suitability for long term use. I intend making electrical control and plumbing improvements as time allows.
But just for fairly short fun sessions, my system works fine and the long tube tethering me to the vapour pump is not too inconvenient. In fact I find it quite stimulating to be under the influence of chemical air supplied by a system which is well out of reach. If I get the dose right, I know I am certainly in for a ride!
Anyway, I will report back when I have more to say on it as a lifestyle support system, as recent exposure has been far too intense for long term use, and I am still adjusting to the experience. I don’t have an exact dose level yet, but I have been peaking at going through about three quarters of a large bottle (25ml) in a single session of just a few hours. Having said that, it is far from an efficient delivery system as a little of the vapour vents through my mask without me breathing it in and none is re-breathed.
As for the idea of my fetish existence being remotely controlled some of the time – that certainly has my mind occupied! Imagine web-cam sessions with someone where you could directly influence their experience, by tweaking their personal parameters and see the result of your action in front of u. Imagine having your stimulation / experience being controlled by someone else with whom u r in a web cam session… I would love to hear from anyone else who would like to be controlled by remote or would like to control another by remote control. And what things do other think would be good candidates for control?
It seems to be there are loads of possibilities that could be controlled by electrical means, such as sound u hear, electrical stimulation, vibrators, control of air / chemical / re-breathed air mix, fluids supplies, maybe even vision and how long u re locked in your rubber prison through some sort of set of electrical locks. I just wonder how much of this would be possible through off the shelf hobbyist items?
As for using aquarium pumps for supplying all the air I breathe, then this is something I am also interested in but have has no success in the past. The pumps I previously tried could not deliver sufficient air volume to survive off for long – but will certainly experiment with stronger pumps and report back on this idea. Anyone else tried this?
Sealed
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Wednesday, 26 July 2006 - The 1st prototype
Today is the first day I have had to try the first stage of my automated lifestyle support system – the chemically treated air supply. Things are still at the very rudimentary stage at the moment, but as a proof of concept it is already proving to have great potential. I have used an aquarium air pumps, as Magnum suggested, which is hooked up to bubble through my Amyl Nitrate supply. A long length of tube caries the chemically treated air to my gas mask to mix with my filtered air. I have arrange a systems of vents & valves so that most of the pressure is lost before it bubbles through the AN and so a very fine degree of control is achievable. For the last hour I have had it set so that it just fails to break the surface of the AN and so when I breathe in, the pressure drop will cause a small amount of air to pass through the chemicals.
Enough of the how stuff – what does it feel like? Well it is certainly less of a rush than doing it the old way. This is because I have deliberately moderated the volume of chemical vapour to see if I can fine tune my experience over a longer period. The first 30 minutes or so I could hardly detect any change but somewhere about an hour in I started getting the real signs the poppers where doing their work on me. Things just seem to have slowly ramped up from there on…
T+01:30
The effect of the poppers on me has continues to ramp up and guess I am already at some form of “continues bliss”. I hope the rate of increase for the effect is going to slow down soon as I am trying to avoid getting too turned on too quickly.
T+02:00
Had to halt as effect too strong. Need to go back to the drawing board as when popper level gets lower (due to evaporation) the volume of air automatically increases due to lower back pressure and so the machine gets a bit carried away and sent me into orbit…
Still effect very good at first and just needs fine tuning.
Sealed
Enough of the how stuff – what does it feel like? Well it is certainly less of a rush than doing it the old way. This is because I have deliberately moderated the volume of chemical vapour to see if I can fine tune my experience over a longer period. The first 30 minutes or so I could hardly detect any change but somewhere about an hour in I started getting the real signs the poppers where doing their work on me. Things just seem to have slowly ramped up from there on…
T+01:30
The effect of the poppers on me has continues to ramp up and guess I am already at some form of “continues bliss”. I hope the rate of increase for the effect is going to slow down soon as I am trying to avoid getting too turned on too quickly.
T+02:00
Had to halt as effect too strong. Need to go back to the drawing board as when popper level gets lower (due to evaporation) the volume of air automatically increases due to lower back pressure and so the machine gets a bit carried away and sent me into orbit…
Still effect very good at first and just needs fine tuning.
Sealed
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Tuesday, 25 July 2006
Thanks for all the practical ideas everyone. Love the idea of being under computer control so much and will get the necessary equipment once I sort out the things to be controlled – like the lifestyle support system.
Maybe there are other things about my totally enclosed fetish lifestyle that my reader think would benefit from automation and/or computer control? Please feel free to suggest. Maybe there are things they would like to be automated to enhance their experience, or maybe there are things they want to specifically relinquish control of and have commanded by a computer or another person?
In the mean time, I would like to report back on the penis probe I bought last week. It arrived very quickly (on Monday) and was exactly as described on the website. However, I am having some difficulties with it. Before getting it, my main worry was putting such a relatively bulky thing in my urethra, but basically, there was no problem inserting the plug. In fact it is quite pleasant experience and can see some interesting possibilities with play and electrical stimulation in particular.
The problem is that it does not want to stay in there for very long and drops out very easily. At first I used the lube that came with the plug and later I tried it without – all with the same result – the plug just wants to let go and drop out.
Not sure what the issue is here, maybe I have a slack urethra? But looking at it, such a sleek and yet relatively heavy object is unlikely to stay in position for long as very little actually keeping it in place. Maybe a PA would solve the problem, but I personally don’t want to go there at the moment.
I am thinking that it was worth trying but I am not convinced it will work for me as a catheter substitute.
Sealed
Maybe there are other things about my totally enclosed fetish lifestyle that my reader think would benefit from automation and/or computer control? Please feel free to suggest. Maybe there are things they would like to be automated to enhance their experience, or maybe there are things they want to specifically relinquish control of and have commanded by a computer or another person?
In the mean time, I would like to report back on the penis probe I bought last week. It arrived very quickly (on Monday) and was exactly as described on the website. However, I am having some difficulties with it. Before getting it, my main worry was putting such a relatively bulky thing in my urethra, but basically, there was no problem inserting the plug. In fact it is quite pleasant experience and can see some interesting possibilities with play and electrical stimulation in particular.
The problem is that it does not want to stay in there for very long and drops out very easily. At first I used the lube that came with the plug and later I tried it without – all with the same result – the plug just wants to let go and drop out.
Not sure what the issue is here, maybe I have a slack urethra? But looking at it, such a sleek and yet relatively heavy object is unlikely to stay in position for long as very little actually keeping it in place. Maybe a PA would solve the problem, but I personally don’t want to go there at the moment.
I am thinking that it was worth trying but I am not convinced it will work for me as a catheter substitute.
Sealed
Friday, July 21, 2006
Friday, July 21, 2006 – Lifestyle Support System
Things have become pretty interactive here recently, and I am very happy to go with this trend. Also, the temperature has been rising here in the UK, which is less good for me. Luckily, it dropped a lot over night and is just less than 25C now, which seems to be riht on the upper limit of what I can comfortably manage for a day in rubber total enclosure.
Thanks Dark for the link to http://www.fantasyleatherworks.com/. This site is full of interesting stuff. I have to admit to being just a little squeamish about putting hard objects in my urethra – although I can’t deny the possibilities of the Thru-Hole Penis Plug are really significant (as well as “The Screw” that is in the New Products section).
I wonder if it is really possible to wear such a thing for regularly long periods without it falling out or becoming uncomfortable. Also, from the pictures, there is no obvious way to plumb up the plug with a soft rubber tube. Well I decided the only way to find out was to order one. To speed things up, I found a UK supplier at http://www.tickleberry.co.uk/pages/index.html - who are apparently “proud to be a woman owned organisation specialising in Male Chastity and the Sensual Feminine Domination of men…”. I will report back on how this goes.
Magnum… your right, I am very much captive here in many senses. I absolutely love the idea of being tethered to a sort of “Lifestyle Support System” (this gets around the whole danger of my mask being flooded by neat chemicals if at excessive angles). I think the Amyl Nitrate pump could just be the start, but concentrating on this aspect, I prefer your idea of a tube that delivers my maintenance vapours into the air mix I am breathing in my mask. That would be more consistent, controllable and would require no special action on my part to be on the preset dose. Of course it does mean I would have no way of avoiding breathing my chosen blend of chemical air, short of holding my breath! The pump would be conditioning my air at some distance and I could even be in a different room.
…This ideas is so hot I am having difficulty keeping in control today…
Of course the Lifestyle Support System could include other functions as well, from pumping away waste to supplying sustenance, temperature control, electrical stimulation, sound I hear and even the mix of recycled air I breathe. Eventually I could add the home automation systems that Magnum mentions, to provide a pre-programmed daily cycle of exquisite experiences. I think it was the Le Corbusier that said “A house was a machine for living” in 1923 – obviously a long way ahead of his time and I think we owe it to him to prove that it is a machine for a lifestyle too.
Imagine the possibilities of living the life of being computer controlled rubber unit. Once locked in you would be committed to seeing your program though. Mmmm…
If someone were to help build such a Lifestyle Support System you might just have to let them take control of your personal parameters for a few minutes, if they promised to be careful not to brake u… Just think of the internet possibilities…
I thought it was going to be an easier day today, but all this has got me very overheated and it’s only mid afternoon. Think I am going to be very uncomfortable by this evening so hope I remember why as maybe this will help. Wish I had that control system right now to help me through the rest of the long day I see stretching out before me…
I will have to distract myself by concentrating on the details – so Magnum, feel free to bore us with technical details. The programming should be easy but looking for inventive ways of using off the shelf items to achieve the physical mechanics. Let go step by step and start of with the simple chemical air conditioning, the pump & chemicals are easy, but where is an easy place to get the thin bore metal pipes from – narrow enough to go through the screw on lid?
As for your questions on how much time I spend on poppers and suffocation during a week, well I never logged it. To be honest, it is a little too hot for suffocation (respiration is one of the main ways the body loses heat) and so just I do it when I feel the need at the moment – say roughly every other day for only short periods of say an hour or so. Want much more, but frankly cannot take it and be in TE for long periods in this heat. This will not be a problem when my poppers arrive and I get my machine up and running. As soon as get going with this, I will start making a note and report back.
Although very interested in rear plumbing in the long term, this is not an issue I have to deal with until all the other short term issues are addressed (See my entry for "Wednesday, November 23, 2005" for all the TE lifestyle issue I have thought of). I don’t actually get a kick out of this medical stuff directly, but I do like the idea of this technology supporting me in being sealed as much as possible, for as long as possible.
Just a last word, please don’t expect to see entries on my trying out my Lifestyle Support System too soon. I would sooner take my time with each element of the problem. Also, I am about to embark on my next assignment which is a combination of working from home (yippee!) and being on the road part of the week (boo!), so may not have too much time over the next couple of months. It’s all part of the master plan to support my lifestyle and hope to get there at some point…
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Chemical Air
Hi All,
Magnum, thanks for the complements and encouragement and thanks for email pictures and posting on Popper machines. VERY interesting. Imagine combining a ultra low maintenance dose with a instant boost shot where the situation requires it. Very exciting thought! Will search for online suppliers when I get a chance otherwise it will have to wait till I am next out of rubber to go to the city shops…
I see that much of the mechanisms could be adapted from fish tank suppliers, but what about the battery powered air pump? What is the intended use for that small pump?
It was good hearing about your sessions, to put the technology into context. What part does the alcohol drinking tubes, poppers air supply have? Are they stimulating you to a certain mind set or acting as a suppressant to hold you back from orgasm?
Was interesting to hear you also go for electrical stimulation. That’s something I like to and also find that a butt plug can actually stave off over stimulation of the penis as it such a distraction! I sometime wear one but find being locked in my suit for a whole day in such a situation is quite an intense experience. Unfortunately, I find it very difficult to take comfortably for long periods as I have a small opening. Once I get a few other achievements under my belt, I would like to train up to wearing my bipolar plug every days as this will be very good training for any future plumbing requirements…
Interested to hear about your friend who is on more than a bottle of aromas a day. Not being at all judgemental in saying this, but that would be fairly onerous quantity to physically dispense and so wonder how he is administering this dose? When I peaked on popper consumption, my method was to apply a small dose to a particle mask I was wearing in conjunction my other rubber hoods/masks. As much of the poppers would evaporate quickly, the process had to be repeated very frequently (few minutes) to stay in the “right place” - I actually wrote software that told me (“beep!”) when my next dose was due so I would not have to be constantly monitoring my dose and could carry on working. The software can even be set to increment / decrement subsequent periods by a set number of seconds to ramp up / down the experience.
The problems with this method are:
- you regularly got BIG rushes followed by a slow decay in the intensity towards being virtually no dose at the end.
- Much of the poppers evaporate, so is wasteful.
- Requires frequent manual application of poppers to the particle mask.
- Prone to inconsistent doses.
Thus, very interested in how others dispends there high consumptions. Currently, I think the best systems would be a closed plumed system with one way valves as you described, but want to know how others administer.
Dark, it’s very difficult for me to describe poppers as it is such a personal experience. Also, as the health effects are unpredictable on different people, I am really not aiming to promote it (I am promoting a latex lifestyle in TE), but having said that, here goes nothing... First of all, while trying hard to not make it sound like a “wonder drug”, for me it can act is several ways which are very conducive to rubber enclosed life/sex/fetish/breath control – many of its effects being contradictory, depending on my needs and mood. The net result is that it can make me feel more totally enclosed while making it feel more comfortable to be in that state. It can make my breathing feel more asphyxiated when in fact I am re-breathing far less (and frequently not at all). It seems to “cool the blood” at my periphery, such that my body does not over react & perspire when first transitioning from all fresco to TE suit, which it tends to as it adjust over the first hour. It seems to make the rubber feel more rubbery, yet part of your skin. It is frequently used in sex scenes to heighten the sexual experience, but I find it can also cool down an erection if strong doses are taken when getting too close.
Better get the downsides that I have found out of the way: mild dependency, fatal if combined with some other drugs, rumoured to suppress immune system, potentially fatal if swallowed/OD, can result in a hang-over / tiredness if too much taken (similar to alcohol), can (and does) temporarily effect vision, can be VERY disturbing if you accidentally administer too large amount in a confined space (like in a re-breather bag) and can even make you feel like gagging, can totally wreck your libido if over do it…. Basically, it’s not crack but needs to treated with some respect. Unlike alcohol, when u stop taking it, the stronger effects go away in minutes, although it certainly has some effects for hours. Its a very smelly volatile and flammable chemical!
Now to specifics, different people say they administer it in various ways. The advice on my bottle says never sniff from the bottle, use as a room odorizer. I know people who do follow this advice, and probably have a great time, but I sniff it in fairly concentrated form. It is marketed here at different strength and I find the weaker ones are best for my current administration methods – although unlike the stronger stuff, the beneficial effects weaken as you get to the bottom third of the bottle, leaving just the negative effects.
On the first breath or two, there is a definite “rush”, which I would say is not really like smoking Pot, unless you have better stuff than they have in Holland (Pot is not legal in the UK…). It’s a little like your first ever drink of strong spirits – a strong warm physical feeling (a little like an orgasm). I find it is a whole body thing and seems to effect the sensation from the skin, initially quite strongly felt. At the doses I go for, I fairly instantly enter a slightly altered state of conciseness (in the sane sense as being drunk, although it’s a totally different experience). It’s fair to say that this initial experience is the most abrupt rush you get with poppers and is repeated each time you take your first sniff, assuming you sober up sufficiently (hours).
Soon respiration can be affected by the chemical – which can go different ways seemingly depending on mood. I used to find I would want to massively hyper ventilate, although I could stop it quickly if I chose to. I don’t think it affects your judgment as much as alcohol – although I suppose I could be deluding myself. As you take it you can proceed along a ramp of intensity of experience by taking more frequent sniffs, or back off with just an occasional sniff every few minutes to maintain the current mood.
It can make you feel euphoric, but probably less than other drugs. It can make me want to behave in a repetitive or strange way – but only if I am up for it. It defiantly has a profound effect on how you physically feel. I am not sure it affects mood directly, but obviously I tend to be very happy when taking it.
Occasionally, I have felt uncomfortable coming off it too quickly, as if I am compelled to keep taking some, but I think this is mainly psychological and has always passed.
Dark - I would be VERY interested in anything you find in future about the tube that does not require a PA.
Magnum – your premise: "I want to live my live totally enclosed in rubber on the verge of an orgasm in all my waking hours" is quite close (no objection to being stimulated in my sleep either). However, the reality of such a life is living a virtual agony of sexual tension (which I do often have to “endure”). As others have said in the past though, what seems to happen when you do actually spend days on end in TE is that you transition to a more sustainable sublime sensual state. This is different from the intense sexual state you experience when, for example, you repeatedly have cycle / transition from mundane life a couple of day to rubber life the next couple of days. Very difficult to explain, but although you are still very sexually charged up, the art of control is easier and you can reach a sort of deeper sensual level that has some of the same characteristics people report as spiritual (not spiritual myself). The “agony” of sexual tension reduces and becomes sacrifice you are willing to endure. Perhaps I am describing something that is so deeply personal an experience it is futile try… So how about “…being constantly a good three steps back from being on the edge of an orgasm…”.
Magnum – yes I need the popper vapour injection system to work while lying down as well as vertical. Also, if you are in it all day, every day, it must be made so you can make it safe when inverted (for example when picking something up off the floor, putting on boots...). And yes I like the idea of something that can be turned down some of the time and then either turned up or augmented by a quick hit of more intense vapour and then return to a maintenance dose. This would defiantly help me cope and augment the whole lifestyle experience.
As to if I want to even have the option of changing the maintenance dose once in my TE, I will ponder on. Maybe someone else should preset that for me…
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Magnum, thanks for the complements and encouragement and thanks for email pictures and posting on Popper machines. VERY interesting. Imagine combining a ultra low maintenance dose with a instant boost shot where the situation requires it. Very exciting thought! Will search for online suppliers when I get a chance otherwise it will have to wait till I am next out of rubber to go to the city shops…
I see that much of the mechanisms could be adapted from fish tank suppliers, but what about the battery powered air pump? What is the intended use for that small pump?
It was good hearing about your sessions, to put the technology into context. What part does the alcohol drinking tubes, poppers air supply have? Are they stimulating you to a certain mind set or acting as a suppressant to hold you back from orgasm?
Was interesting to hear you also go for electrical stimulation. That’s something I like to and also find that a butt plug can actually stave off over stimulation of the penis as it such a distraction! I sometime wear one but find being locked in my suit for a whole day in such a situation is quite an intense experience. Unfortunately, I find it very difficult to take comfortably for long periods as I have a small opening. Once I get a few other achievements under my belt, I would like to train up to wearing my bipolar plug every days as this will be very good training for any future plumbing requirements…
Interested to hear about your friend who is on more than a bottle of aromas a day. Not being at all judgemental in saying this, but that would be fairly onerous quantity to physically dispense and so wonder how he is administering this dose? When I peaked on popper consumption, my method was to apply a small dose to a particle mask I was wearing in conjunction my other rubber hoods/masks. As much of the poppers would evaporate quickly, the process had to be repeated very frequently (few minutes) to stay in the “right place” - I actually wrote software that told me (“beep!”) when my next dose was due so I would not have to be constantly monitoring my dose and could carry on working. The software can even be set to increment / decrement subsequent periods by a set number of seconds to ramp up / down the experience.
The problems with this method are:
- you regularly got BIG rushes followed by a slow decay in the intensity towards being virtually no dose at the end.
- Much of the poppers evaporate, so is wasteful.
- Requires frequent manual application of poppers to the particle mask.
- Prone to inconsistent doses.
Thus, very interested in how others dispends there high consumptions. Currently, I think the best systems would be a closed plumed system with one way valves as you described, but want to know how others administer.
Dark, it’s very difficult for me to describe poppers as it is such a personal experience. Also, as the health effects are unpredictable on different people, I am really not aiming to promote it (I am promoting a latex lifestyle in TE), but having said that, here goes nothing... First of all, while trying hard to not make it sound like a “wonder drug”, for me it can act is several ways which are very conducive to rubber enclosed life/sex/fetish/breath control – many of its effects being contradictory, depending on my needs and mood. The net result is that it can make me feel more totally enclosed while making it feel more comfortable to be in that state. It can make my breathing feel more asphyxiated when in fact I am re-breathing far less (and frequently not at all). It seems to “cool the blood” at my periphery, such that my body does not over react & perspire when first transitioning from all fresco to TE suit, which it tends to as it adjust over the first hour. It seems to make the rubber feel more rubbery, yet part of your skin. It is frequently used in sex scenes to heighten the sexual experience, but I find it can also cool down an erection if strong doses are taken when getting too close.
Better get the downsides that I have found out of the way: mild dependency, fatal if combined with some other drugs, rumoured to suppress immune system, potentially fatal if swallowed/OD, can result in a hang-over / tiredness if too much taken (similar to alcohol), can (and does) temporarily effect vision, can be VERY disturbing if you accidentally administer too large amount in a confined space (like in a re-breather bag) and can even make you feel like gagging, can totally wreck your libido if over do it…. Basically, it’s not crack but needs to treated with some respect. Unlike alcohol, when u stop taking it, the stronger effects go away in minutes, although it certainly has some effects for hours. Its a very smelly volatile and flammable chemical!
Now to specifics, different people say they administer it in various ways. The advice on my bottle says never sniff from the bottle, use as a room odorizer. I know people who do follow this advice, and probably have a great time, but I sniff it in fairly concentrated form. It is marketed here at different strength and I find the weaker ones are best for my current administration methods – although unlike the stronger stuff, the beneficial effects weaken as you get to the bottom third of the bottle, leaving just the negative effects.
On the first breath or two, there is a definite “rush”, which I would say is not really like smoking Pot, unless you have better stuff than they have in Holland (Pot is not legal in the UK…). It’s a little like your first ever drink of strong spirits – a strong warm physical feeling (a little like an orgasm). I find it is a whole body thing and seems to effect the sensation from the skin, initially quite strongly felt. At the doses I go for, I fairly instantly enter a slightly altered state of conciseness (in the sane sense as being drunk, although it’s a totally different experience). It’s fair to say that this initial experience is the most abrupt rush you get with poppers and is repeated each time you take your first sniff, assuming you sober up sufficiently (hours).
Soon respiration can be affected by the chemical – which can go different ways seemingly depending on mood. I used to find I would want to massively hyper ventilate, although I could stop it quickly if I chose to. I don’t think it affects your judgment as much as alcohol – although I suppose I could be deluding myself. As you take it you can proceed along a ramp of intensity of experience by taking more frequent sniffs, or back off with just an occasional sniff every few minutes to maintain the current mood.
It can make you feel euphoric, but probably less than other drugs. It can make me want to behave in a repetitive or strange way – but only if I am up for it. It defiantly has a profound effect on how you physically feel. I am not sure it affects mood directly, but obviously I tend to be very happy when taking it.
Occasionally, I have felt uncomfortable coming off it too quickly, as if I am compelled to keep taking some, but I think this is mainly psychological and has always passed.
Dark - I would be VERY interested in anything you find in future about the tube that does not require a PA.
Magnum – your premise: "I want to live my live totally enclosed in rubber on the verge of an orgasm in all my waking hours" is quite close (no objection to being stimulated in my sleep either). However, the reality of such a life is living a virtual agony of sexual tension (which I do often have to “endure”). As others have said in the past though, what seems to happen when you do actually spend days on end in TE is that you transition to a more sustainable sublime sensual state. This is different from the intense sexual state you experience when, for example, you repeatedly have cycle / transition from mundane life a couple of day to rubber life the next couple of days. Very difficult to explain, but although you are still very sexually charged up, the art of control is easier and you can reach a sort of deeper sensual level that has some of the same characteristics people report as spiritual (not spiritual myself). The “agony” of sexual tension reduces and becomes sacrifice you are willing to endure. Perhaps I am describing something that is so deeply personal an experience it is futile try… So how about “…being constantly a good three steps back from being on the edge of an orgasm…”.
Magnum – yes I need the popper vapour injection system to work while lying down as well as vertical. Also, if you are in it all day, every day, it must be made so you can make it safe when inverted (for example when picking something up off the floor, putting on boots...). And yes I like the idea of something that can be turned down some of the time and then either turned up or augmented by a quick hit of more intense vapour and then return to a maintenance dose. This would defiantly help me cope and augment the whole lifestyle experience.
As to if I want to even have the option of changing the maintenance dose once in my TE, I will ponder on. Maybe someone else should preset that for me…
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Monday, July 17, 2006
More perfect air (or maybe less…)
Thanks for all your responses both email and here. I found them all very enjoyable reading!
Magnum…
I think your right about me needing to live my life in my own peculiar way. I have occasionally tried living other ways to make others feel at ease and fit in, but that never works and leads to me developing resentment and frustration – which does no one any good. TE life really IS a large part of what I consider to be “me”. Going for any substantial time without TE makes me unhappy – simple as that.
Also, given that I have the freedom to live and work any way I want, it would seem a terrible waste to not live my fantasy lifestyle in real life, while I still can. The special blend of ingredients & practices that make up my current life, have delivered to me sensations, stimulation and unbelievable levels of sexual joy that I suppose few other humans have been lucky enough to experience. Sure, others are leading different lives resulting in great experiences and achievements that I could never hope to achieve while I am living in my rubber skin, but while I am still achieving new levels of sensuality and eroticism, which are linked to ever greater degrees of TE perfection and endurances (with my associated air supply modifications), it would seem madness to me to stop now. From my perspective, I would expert that at least some humans were living my wonderful life, although I rarely hear from men who are actually living every day in rubber total enclosure. Am I really the luckiest man in the world?
As for the poppers, they are definitely part of the air control segment of my true lifestyle mix. Their absence was as much an experiment & challenge as the rest of my program to live in latex. In essence, I think I had reached the limit to how much this chemical could carry me towards my TE goals. Living off slowly increasing amounts of poppers in my air supply had allowed me to comfortably stay totally enclosed for far longer than I had managed on a daily basis before, but this came with the obvious effects of poppers (along with some side effects) which were becoming problematic. The most obvious challenge daily, I had to find the will power to be able to function as a worker / human being, for at least 8 hours of a day, beyond just being a wriggling mass of chemical/rubber pleasure. Over the longer term, my home working sustains my rubber lifestyle so every day I have to fight to keep just at bay the combined pleasures of rubber and chemicals – which, when it works, is the essence of my dream lifestyle, but at one stage the chemicals were starting to win…
I used to have real dread and foreboding about running out of Amyl Nitrate, thinking I would not make the day out - a major deal when I was using the points system to push me to new levels of rubber living. I had deliberately made the consequences of not meeting targets onerous. However, now living in rubber without my chemical air is something I know I can do, if I have to (and am doing right this second), so I feel safe to return to using poppers to subtly adjust or strongly heighten the experience depending on my daily cycle requirements.
I read with great interest the description of the chemical aroma supply mechanism - both here and via email. I would prefer it all to be posted here rather than email, as I think others may find it useful. Would love to know more about where to get the valves u mentioned in your mail. I will set to work with my bench drill to see if I can make my own (yes rubber enclosed people can and do have workshops and, if careful and patient, can make things with their rubber skinned hands!). I will want to be wearing mine all the time and just adjusting the valve to start / stop / adjust the flow. It seems to work for you at various angles – but am interested to know the limits as in daily life I could be easily going through more than ninety degrees, so would need to know what to avoid doing. As I prefer to be locked in my rubber skin, it could be disastrous if a large volume of Amyl Nitrates flooded my breathing apparatus!
You asked about weekly consumption – well I have never really logged it. It seems to depend on the type of aroma – some brands are much stronger than others by same manufacturer and I have not settled on a preferred brew yet. I just use the amount that takes me to right place as and when I need it. Although I am guessing, I suspect we are not talking large number of bottles a week. I wonder what the average & heavy consumers uses? Anyway, watch this space…
Then u asked how much time during the day would I want to be suffocating / hypoxic, and/or how much of the time would I want to be moderated by poppers? Well these are tricky water as you used the word “want” from which I infer my goal going forward, rather than past experience. As I will have said before, I tended to be either on poppers and/or re-breathing most days in the past – although not necessarily for the whole 24 hours. I started out using poppers in any situation where practical reason prevent re-breathing (anything even slightly physical, where I needed clear vision, control of my labido etc…). Poppers did become an almost constant thing during the working day at one point, so eventually decided to decouple the whole TE thing from everything else by giving up everything except TE.
Going forward, I can be less sure of what I will actually do as it will depend on how I feel after many days of exposure. Theoretically I love the idea of affecting my breathing experience all the time I am in total enclosure and so am drawn to very low levels of either re-breathing and/or chemical aromas. This would allow better equip me to exist in that “Goldon State” you mentioned. But how will I feel after a few days of constantly modified breathing? Would I be a zombie even with low levels of modified air? Would I adjust to it and need to step up the intensity to achieve the same state. Lets see shall we? Comment on any personal experiences welcome on this point…
The difference between the experience of the “bubble sessions” and that of using controllable (low volume) re-breathers is huge. The bubble was so big I could work in there online for days as long as I used a dehumidifier. Both have their times and places I think. I sometimes imagine getting the huge walk in bubble to just the right air mix and then maintaining it there through some air pump mechanisms… The down side (or up side, depending on your outlook) is that you are more or less a prisoner in a small space for days.
The perfect air is often dictated by the time of day, activity you are embarked on and even mood. Not come up with a mix that works in all situations yet, but a good starting point for suffocation is just to be at the point of needing to work constantly to breathe, but not be panting / gasping out of control.Blackie…
Your TE night experience sounded really good and very “total” with just the breathing tube connecting you to outside. Mmmmm. Very nice to think on.
The Russian masks do come in loads of sizes (despite the claims of fetish shops of one size fits all) – including XL, XXL… Try army surplus shops which often do a better range at cheaper prices.
I find it sweet that the checkout girl was worried you were not in your usual rubber. Wish everyone was like that!
Although I have to say 12 hours of erotic arousal in rubber is a very good effort, I have to ask - if you are starting to smell, who cares as long as you manage to keep the smell on the inside of your rubber skin? I am not saying you should have no regard to the health of your skin and ignore the messages it sends you, but wonder if the reason u r getting out of rubber is more aesthetic than practical? As long as I can keep comfortable and not get too wet, I treat my rubber as my true outer skin – everything else as “internal organs”. So long as my rubber skin is clean and smell sweets on the outside, I can illuminate any “aesthetic” reasons for me to have to ever come out – that is until other practical reasons and skin health factors come to a head.
Like I said – still impressed by your efforts as I know you push the physical envelope and generally treat your fetish in a more endurance oriented manner than myself. A good day for you seems to involve physical activity that works up a good sweat which you want to endure. A really good day for me is where I am still dry after 24 hours! No rights and wrongs here of course.
While we are on the subject, as many people will know, the BO smell is attributed to the action of bacteria that feed on your perspiration – not the perspiration itself. The levels of these bacteria build up over the years. I am no big user of personal hygiene products (many are unsafe for rubber so prefer to just shower regularly) but find many are starting to include an agent the weeds out the smellier bacteria – and so long after the immediate effect of the antiperspirant product has worn away, my sweat is reduced to virtually odourless. So, I have taken to using the unperformed versions when showering if I know I am embarking on a extended non-rubber period, and not going straight back into my rubber skin.
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Magnum…
I think your right about me needing to live my life in my own peculiar way. I have occasionally tried living other ways to make others feel at ease and fit in, but that never works and leads to me developing resentment and frustration – which does no one any good. TE life really IS a large part of what I consider to be “me”. Going for any substantial time without TE makes me unhappy – simple as that.
Also, given that I have the freedom to live and work any way I want, it would seem a terrible waste to not live my fantasy lifestyle in real life, while I still can. The special blend of ingredients & practices that make up my current life, have delivered to me sensations, stimulation and unbelievable levels of sexual joy that I suppose few other humans have been lucky enough to experience. Sure, others are leading different lives resulting in great experiences and achievements that I could never hope to achieve while I am living in my rubber skin, but while I am still achieving new levels of sensuality and eroticism, which are linked to ever greater degrees of TE perfection and endurances (with my associated air supply modifications), it would seem madness to me to stop now. From my perspective, I would expert that at least some humans were living my wonderful life, although I rarely hear from men who are actually living every day in rubber total enclosure. Am I really the luckiest man in the world?
As for the poppers, they are definitely part of the air control segment of my true lifestyle mix. Their absence was as much an experiment & challenge as the rest of my program to live in latex. In essence, I think I had reached the limit to how much this chemical could carry me towards my TE goals. Living off slowly increasing amounts of poppers in my air supply had allowed me to comfortably stay totally enclosed for far longer than I had managed on a daily basis before, but this came with the obvious effects of poppers (along with some side effects) which were becoming problematic. The most obvious challenge daily, I had to find the will power to be able to function as a worker / human being, for at least 8 hours of a day, beyond just being a wriggling mass of chemical/rubber pleasure. Over the longer term, my home working sustains my rubber lifestyle so every day I have to fight to keep just at bay the combined pleasures of rubber and chemicals – which, when it works, is the essence of my dream lifestyle, but at one stage the chemicals were starting to win…
I used to have real dread and foreboding about running out of Amyl Nitrate, thinking I would not make the day out - a major deal when I was using the points system to push me to new levels of rubber living. I had deliberately made the consequences of not meeting targets onerous. However, now living in rubber without my chemical air is something I know I can do, if I have to (and am doing right this second), so I feel safe to return to using poppers to subtly adjust or strongly heighten the experience depending on my daily cycle requirements.
I read with great interest the description of the chemical aroma supply mechanism - both here and via email. I would prefer it all to be posted here rather than email, as I think others may find it useful. Would love to know more about where to get the valves u mentioned in your mail. I will set to work with my bench drill to see if I can make my own (yes rubber enclosed people can and do have workshops and, if careful and patient, can make things with their rubber skinned hands!). I will want to be wearing mine all the time and just adjusting the valve to start / stop / adjust the flow. It seems to work for you at various angles – but am interested to know the limits as in daily life I could be easily going through more than ninety degrees, so would need to know what to avoid doing. As I prefer to be locked in my rubber skin, it could be disastrous if a large volume of Amyl Nitrates flooded my breathing apparatus!
You asked about weekly consumption – well I have never really logged it. It seems to depend on the type of aroma – some brands are much stronger than others by same manufacturer and I have not settled on a preferred brew yet. I just use the amount that takes me to right place as and when I need it. Although I am guessing, I suspect we are not talking large number of bottles a week. I wonder what the average & heavy consumers uses? Anyway, watch this space…
Then u asked how much time during the day would I want to be suffocating / hypoxic, and/or how much of the time would I want to be moderated by poppers? Well these are tricky water as you used the word “want” from which I infer my goal going forward, rather than past experience. As I will have said before, I tended to be either on poppers and/or re-breathing most days in the past – although not necessarily for the whole 24 hours. I started out using poppers in any situation where practical reason prevent re-breathing (anything even slightly physical, where I needed clear vision, control of my labido etc…). Poppers did become an almost constant thing during the working day at one point, so eventually decided to decouple the whole TE thing from everything else by giving up everything except TE.
Going forward, I can be less sure of what I will actually do as it will depend on how I feel after many days of exposure. Theoretically I love the idea of affecting my breathing experience all the time I am in total enclosure and so am drawn to very low levels of either re-breathing and/or chemical aromas. This would allow better equip me to exist in that “Goldon State” you mentioned. But how will I feel after a few days of constantly modified breathing? Would I be a zombie even with low levels of modified air? Would I adjust to it and need to step up the intensity to achieve the same state. Lets see shall we? Comment on any personal experiences welcome on this point…
The difference between the experience of the “bubble sessions” and that of using controllable (low volume) re-breathers is huge. The bubble was so big I could work in there online for days as long as I used a dehumidifier. Both have their times and places I think. I sometimes imagine getting the huge walk in bubble to just the right air mix and then maintaining it there through some air pump mechanisms… The down side (or up side, depending on your outlook) is that you are more or less a prisoner in a small space for days.
The perfect air is often dictated by the time of day, activity you are embarked on and even mood. Not come up with a mix that works in all situations yet, but a good starting point for suffocation is just to be at the point of needing to work constantly to breathe, but not be panting / gasping out of control.Blackie…
Your TE night experience sounded really good and very “total” with just the breathing tube connecting you to outside. Mmmmm. Very nice to think on.
The Russian masks do come in loads of sizes (despite the claims of fetish shops of one size fits all) – including XL, XXL… Try army surplus shops which often do a better range at cheaper prices.
I find it sweet that the checkout girl was worried you were not in your usual rubber. Wish everyone was like that!
Although I have to say 12 hours of erotic arousal in rubber is a very good effort, I have to ask - if you are starting to smell, who cares as long as you manage to keep the smell on the inside of your rubber skin? I am not saying you should have no regard to the health of your skin and ignore the messages it sends you, but wonder if the reason u r getting out of rubber is more aesthetic than practical? As long as I can keep comfortable and not get too wet, I treat my rubber as my true outer skin – everything else as “internal organs”. So long as my rubber skin is clean and smell sweets on the outside, I can illuminate any “aesthetic” reasons for me to have to ever come out – that is until other practical reasons and skin health factors come to a head.
Like I said – still impressed by your efforts as I know you push the physical envelope and generally treat your fetish in a more endurance oriented manner than myself. A good day for you seems to involve physical activity that works up a good sweat which you want to endure. A really good day for me is where I am still dry after 24 hours! No rights and wrongs here of course.
While we are on the subject, as many people will know, the BO smell is attributed to the action of bacteria that feed on your perspiration – not the perspiration itself. The levels of these bacteria build up over the years. I am no big user of personal hygiene products (many are unsafe for rubber so prefer to just shower regularly) but find many are starting to include an agent the weeds out the smellier bacteria – and so long after the immediate effect of the antiperspirant product has worn away, my sweat is reduced to virtually odourless. So, I have taken to using the unperformed versions when showering if I know I am embarking on a extended non-rubber period, and not going straight back into my rubber skin.
Sealed
Friday, July 14, 2006
Thursday, July 06, 2006
The "Perfect Suit" part 1...
Rubber life goes on and I think I am starting to adjust a little to wearing a rubber sheath all day. To be honest, the current weather here is not helping as I am so hot in here, I may as well be pissing in my suit I am so wet sometimes. The only way to keep cool is to regularly spray my outer rubber skin with a mist of water and stay in the path of a cooling fan. Still these are exceptional times and I am looking forward to the usual cool weather returning before long – if not I am going to have to admit failure, invest in AC and say a last goodbye to any hope for the environment...
I like some of these ideas that Dark commented on my last post.
I must admit to having been very conservative with my suits in recent times. As I wear them for long periods most days, I have tended to go for the safe options that I know work – if in a compromised manner, with only small variations. I go through a lot of suits, so the cost or comfort implications of an incorrect decision have always put me off. But mean time, my requirements of what I demand from my totally enclosed lifestyle have evolved somewhat and now I find that standard total enclosure suits just do not deliver what I am looking for. So I think I am going to have to bite the bullet and go down the special commissioning route...
So I am looking for good manufacturers who are up to a special commission that I can wear everyday for prolonged periods. I am also looking for further ideas on dealing with the usual challenges of living in rubber total enclosure…
So what would be the perfect suit? Tricky question, but thought I would make a start and see what feedback I get (if any)….
I need a suit I can comfortably wear for long periods (24 hours minimum is a good starting point) without the need for taking it off for getting fluids in or out. It needs to be totally enclosing (head to foot) and be totally hermetically sealed (not leak air/water in either direction).
I would like the minimum of zips to increase comfort (probably shoulder entry). Would like to be able to lock the zips so I cannot get out without a key (use of external locks and chains etc to achieve this would be perfectly acceptable). I would prefer it to be close fitting, fairly robust yet not so thick as to be uncomfortable / chaffing. I want the minimum of layers – but may compromise. I need to be able to type on a keyboard, so good fitting gloves are a requirement – although these can be augmented with specialist over gloves for various demanding tasks.
I would want to have the option of fitting breathing apparatus (bags, filters etc) to increase the feeling of enclosure. On the other hand, I need to be able to configure the mask to allow me to converse clearly on the telephone.
I like the idea of separate toes as well as fingers very much, but more a desirable than a “must have”. Not worried about fitting a moulded ear on the hood as I think a sleek head looks better and ears can look ugly. However, the hood must not be too tight over the ears as any flattening of the ears start to get painful sometime around 24 to 36 hours in.
As well as sheath for pissing, it would be a bonus if other functions could be taken care of. Ways of feeding in extra tubes / wires for toys, stimulations and additional functionality without compromising the degree of hermitic seal would be another bonus.
I an ideal world, I would like some way of maintaining a comfortable temperature inside the suit. In particular, I like the idea of cooling tubes like the cosmonauts and astronauts wear – maybe a close fitting outer cooling garment. It would be handy to be able to occasionally run off (or pump out) any accumulation of moisture (or air) in the suit, as long as it did not impair the water/air proof seal (one way valves?).
I like the idea of cyborgs – so being linked to a support system may be acceptable as long as I can be mobile if I need to be.
Anyone got any further ideas?
Sealed
I like some of these ideas that Dark commented on my last post.
I must admit to having been very conservative with my suits in recent times. As I wear them for long periods most days, I have tended to go for the safe options that I know work – if in a compromised manner, with only small variations. I go through a lot of suits, so the cost or comfort implications of an incorrect decision have always put me off. But mean time, my requirements of what I demand from my totally enclosed lifestyle have evolved somewhat and now I find that standard total enclosure suits just do not deliver what I am looking for. So I think I am going to have to bite the bullet and go down the special commissioning route...
So I am looking for good manufacturers who are up to a special commission that I can wear everyday for prolonged periods. I am also looking for further ideas on dealing with the usual challenges of living in rubber total enclosure…
So what would be the perfect suit? Tricky question, but thought I would make a start and see what feedback I get (if any)….
I need a suit I can comfortably wear for long periods (24 hours minimum is a good starting point) without the need for taking it off for getting fluids in or out. It needs to be totally enclosing (head to foot) and be totally hermetically sealed (not leak air/water in either direction).
I would like the minimum of zips to increase comfort (probably shoulder entry). Would like to be able to lock the zips so I cannot get out without a key (use of external locks and chains etc to achieve this would be perfectly acceptable). I would prefer it to be close fitting, fairly robust yet not so thick as to be uncomfortable / chaffing. I want the minimum of layers – but may compromise. I need to be able to type on a keyboard, so good fitting gloves are a requirement – although these can be augmented with specialist over gloves for various demanding tasks.
I would want to have the option of fitting breathing apparatus (bags, filters etc) to increase the feeling of enclosure. On the other hand, I need to be able to configure the mask to allow me to converse clearly on the telephone.
I like the idea of separate toes as well as fingers very much, but more a desirable than a “must have”. Not worried about fitting a moulded ear on the hood as I think a sleek head looks better and ears can look ugly. However, the hood must not be too tight over the ears as any flattening of the ears start to get painful sometime around 24 to 36 hours in.
As well as sheath for pissing, it would be a bonus if other functions could be taken care of. Ways of feeding in extra tubes / wires for toys, stimulations and additional functionality without compromising the degree of hermitic seal would be another bonus.
I an ideal world, I would like some way of maintaining a comfortable temperature inside the suit. In particular, I like the idea of cooling tubes like the cosmonauts and astronauts wear – maybe a close fitting outer cooling garment. It would be handy to be able to occasionally run off (or pump out) any accumulation of moisture (or air) in the suit, as long as it did not impair the water/air proof seal (one way valves?).
I like the idea of cyborgs – so being linked to a support system may be acceptable as long as I can be mobile if I need to be.
Anyone got any further ideas?
Sealed
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Living in a rubber sheaths
[WARNING – This entry contains mention bodily functions (No 1s!)]
I have been experimenting with wearing a new rubber suit / pants to work and thought I should right up my experiences and challenges…
As my particular preference is for being as totally sealed as possible for as much time as possible, certain practical limits are met fairly quickly. Some time ago I wrote up my list of challenges and issue that face the lifestyle totally rubber enclosed person as I wanted a “hit list” of problems that need to be addressed, in priority order, to better be able to sustain my chosen lifestyle. See my entry for "Wednesday, November 23, 2005" for all, but a major one is passing water - urinating, pissing, call it what u prefer. Unsavoury subject maybe, but urination is a basic failing of the body that I need to be addressed in order to live in latex. Of course I could just wear a suit with a front zip, but :
A) Where would the fun in that be!!!
B) I find zips problematic in terms of comfort – and getting in the way of that sleek rubbery “ideal” - the look, the feel, call it what u will.
C) Zips break the whole hermitic seal thing, which is a major physiological thing I like to achieve for prolonged periods (a major turn on for me). Just being able to open an easily accessible zip to get inside is just not “right” in my (deranged) mind.
D) Zips leak sweat (etc) and leave embarrassing puddles all over the place.
E) Being non-stretchy, Zips are a major cause of “rubber fatigue” and seam failure (back zips in particular).
So any way, I prefer to find other solutions as, up till now, I have needed to disrobe or “compromise” (in my mind) via a zip the totality of my prolonged encasement for this body function. When going for new distance records of strict total enclosure, the only other option being planned dehydration and/or pissing in the suit – but both these options are less than ideal and apart from anything else, give an upper limit of only a few days before u start to drown in your own juices.
I tried other things like external and internal medical catheters – but with disastrous results (see previous posts), so sheathes are the current way I am going.
I tried wearing sheaths pants under my favourite shoulder entry suits in the past (which have no access/openings or zips below neck line), but they were not totally successful due to “back flow” problems. Over prolonged periods the cycle of being less/more erect affected the position / fit / and occasional flaccid cycles could affect the ability to keep my male member in the sheath at all. Basically, as access to fine tune the fit and position was impossible, I was unable to guarantee a good seal and so piss would sometime overflow back into the suit.
My current arrangement is a skin suit with a cock & ball sheath built in. To stop it getting in the way, it is usually behind a pouch which is glued to the front of the suit and has a zipper for access. As the zip is not through to the inside of the suit, it does not cause problems of breaking the suits hermetic seal on the body and as it is a very loose fitting pouch (possibly too big and loose), it does not effect stretch/comfort. I have punched a very small whole in the end of the sheath to allow the pipe from my (romantically named) “pissing pants”, which I wear underneath, to pass through. For those who are not sure what I mean, under the main suit I wear rubber briefs/pants which have another cock and ball sheath which has an attached tube at the tip.
This all means that I am wearing two sheaths over my penis. As I “go” in the inner sheath, the tube carries the piss through to the outside either into a collection bag via a one way valve (which maintains my 100% seal from outside air etc). Alternatively the tube can just be used to let the fluid pour down the toilet pan and, when not pissing, the tube is easily plugged off to restore the totality of my seal.
OK, now to my experience… Does it work to an acceptable level, is it comfortable to wear for long periods etc…
Well, it’s still sort of early days, but I would say it does work from a practical view. As I have access to fine tune my “fit” – I have not had problems with my penis not fitting or popping back out, despite my whole groin area being constantly under two layers of rubber. That means a good seal and seemingly much less problems with back flow.
It’s actually currently tricky to be categorical that there are never problems with ANY back flow as, with the current summer temperatures over last month or so, it has been difficult after some longer session to be totally dry from perspiration and this is difficult to differentiate from urine in small quantities. Also, other limitations mean I have not be able to have any really long session (like several days of TE) and often been limited to having just 8 to 10 hours a day. I will report back any problems with longer sessions, but basically any mess so far has been very easy to cope with for these shorter sessions, even on a daily basis.
Now for the rest of the experience… what’s it like to be sheathed daily? Comfort etc… Well to be honest – a bit of a nightmare at first and I am far from totally converted now. My starting point was that I was already quite a fan of just having my penis held gently but firmly by my latex skin suit against my abdomen (or groin or leg). I like having my bits safely stored away and found it comfortable to move around in, and comforting. I had never been such a big fan of sheaths as I missed the feel and security of my genitalia just being packaged in the suit with the rest of me.
In previous sheath suits, I found my member & balls felt more prone and sort of “external” to the suit. At least this suit has a pouch to put my plumbing away into for safekeeping! The pouch being a little too baggy, means I still don’t get all the support I feel when in my normal (neck entry) suits, but it’s much better than nothing. But I am treating the suit (by Cocoon) as a prototype to “train” in and prove/disprove the concept. Good enough for now to press on and see how I cope…
Then there is getting used to the actual feel of wearing a sheath – in my case, wearing two sheaths layers over my penis all day has been very difficult to get used to. It’s a little like going back to my early attempts at wearing rubber TE every day and still try to be able to function as a human outside of a sex scene (performing my work and daily life etc) – only much worse! Of course we are talking about the most sensitive part of my anatomy being in very restrictive rubber encasement hour after hour…
I am hardly hung like a horse, probably below average in fact, but sheath makers (particularly of pissing pants) seem to be prone to making the diameter just that little too tight around my girth. The constant pressure is partly delightful, but also challenging. Getting the right fit and lubrication are even more imperative than ever and I have frequently suffered from uncomfortable skin chaffing and irritation around the tip of the penis. Occasionally the discomfort has built up over successive days to be severe enough to result in me choosing to stop wearing any rubber at all for several days – so a MAJOR issue!
Even when not faced with pain, the sensation of rubber 360 around your shaft is really difficult to ignore! I am constantly made aware of my rubber layers as I cycle through various degrees of erectional extension. I found myself not being able to stop myself having to adjust myself on a regular basis. On the one hand this is very pleasurable sensation and makes me feel very sensual and sexually alive – but when lived over hour and days, this corporeal imperative does make it very difficult to be able to think straight for more than a millisecond! The more abstract the matter, the harder it is to form coherent thoughts as I am regularly distracted by my rubber confined manhood.
Just like my early experiences of living and working in rubber, whole days become a mentally exhausting struggle to function against my instinct to give in to my rubber sexual bliss. The difference being that so far I have not been able to acclimatise to my double sheathes as quickly as with just being in rubber all day. I find that I am failing to be able to take it often and I do succumb. I also I am not able to make new targets in extending my encasement. Still – maybe I underestimate that original challenge with hindsight and I maybe I will start to adjust soon if I force myself through the “wall”. Because the potential prize of improving the practicalities of extended rubber total enclosure is there, I will not yield and will just have to re-double my efforts…
Wish me luck,
Sealed
I have been experimenting with wearing a new rubber suit / pants to work and thought I should right up my experiences and challenges…
As my particular preference is for being as totally sealed as possible for as much time as possible, certain practical limits are met fairly quickly. Some time ago I wrote up my list of challenges and issue that face the lifestyle totally rubber enclosed person as I wanted a “hit list” of problems that need to be addressed, in priority order, to better be able to sustain my chosen lifestyle. See my entry for "Wednesday, November 23, 2005" for all, but a major one is passing water - urinating, pissing, call it what u prefer. Unsavoury subject maybe, but urination is a basic failing of the body that I need to be addressed in order to live in latex. Of course I could just wear a suit with a front zip, but :
A) Where would the fun in that be!!!
B) I find zips problematic in terms of comfort – and getting in the way of that sleek rubbery “ideal” - the look, the feel, call it what u will.
C) Zips break the whole hermitic seal thing, which is a major physiological thing I like to achieve for prolonged periods (a major turn on for me). Just being able to open an easily accessible zip to get inside is just not “right” in my (deranged) mind.
D) Zips leak sweat (etc) and leave embarrassing puddles all over the place.
E) Being non-stretchy, Zips are a major cause of “rubber fatigue” and seam failure (back zips in particular).
So any way, I prefer to find other solutions as, up till now, I have needed to disrobe or “compromise” (in my mind) via a zip the totality of my prolonged encasement for this body function. When going for new distance records of strict total enclosure, the only other option being planned dehydration and/or pissing in the suit – but both these options are less than ideal and apart from anything else, give an upper limit of only a few days before u start to drown in your own juices.
I tried other things like external and internal medical catheters – but with disastrous results (see previous posts), so sheathes are the current way I am going.
I tried wearing sheaths pants under my favourite shoulder entry suits in the past (which have no access/openings or zips below neck line), but they were not totally successful due to “back flow” problems. Over prolonged periods the cycle of being less/more erect affected the position / fit / and occasional flaccid cycles could affect the ability to keep my male member in the sheath at all. Basically, as access to fine tune the fit and position was impossible, I was unable to guarantee a good seal and so piss would sometime overflow back into the suit.
My current arrangement is a skin suit with a cock & ball sheath built in. To stop it getting in the way, it is usually behind a pouch which is glued to the front of the suit and has a zipper for access. As the zip is not through to the inside of the suit, it does not cause problems of breaking the suits hermetic seal on the body and as it is a very loose fitting pouch (possibly too big and loose), it does not effect stretch/comfort. I have punched a very small whole in the end of the sheath to allow the pipe from my (romantically named) “pissing pants”, which I wear underneath, to pass through. For those who are not sure what I mean, under the main suit I wear rubber briefs/pants which have another cock and ball sheath which has an attached tube at the tip.
This all means that I am wearing two sheaths over my penis. As I “go” in the inner sheath, the tube carries the piss through to the outside either into a collection bag via a one way valve (which maintains my 100% seal from outside air etc). Alternatively the tube can just be used to let the fluid pour down the toilet pan and, when not pissing, the tube is easily plugged off to restore the totality of my seal.
OK, now to my experience… Does it work to an acceptable level, is it comfortable to wear for long periods etc…
Well, it’s still sort of early days, but I would say it does work from a practical view. As I have access to fine tune my “fit” – I have not had problems with my penis not fitting or popping back out, despite my whole groin area being constantly under two layers of rubber. That means a good seal and seemingly much less problems with back flow.
It’s actually currently tricky to be categorical that there are never problems with ANY back flow as, with the current summer temperatures over last month or so, it has been difficult after some longer session to be totally dry from perspiration and this is difficult to differentiate from urine in small quantities. Also, other limitations mean I have not be able to have any really long session (like several days of TE) and often been limited to having just 8 to 10 hours a day. I will report back any problems with longer sessions, but basically any mess so far has been very easy to cope with for these shorter sessions, even on a daily basis.
Now for the rest of the experience… what’s it like to be sheathed daily? Comfort etc… Well to be honest – a bit of a nightmare at first and I am far from totally converted now. My starting point was that I was already quite a fan of just having my penis held gently but firmly by my latex skin suit against my abdomen (or groin or leg). I like having my bits safely stored away and found it comfortable to move around in, and comforting. I had never been such a big fan of sheaths as I missed the feel and security of my genitalia just being packaged in the suit with the rest of me.
In previous sheath suits, I found my member & balls felt more prone and sort of “external” to the suit. At least this suit has a pouch to put my plumbing away into for safekeeping! The pouch being a little too baggy, means I still don’t get all the support I feel when in my normal (neck entry) suits, but it’s much better than nothing. But I am treating the suit (by Cocoon) as a prototype to “train” in and prove/disprove the concept. Good enough for now to press on and see how I cope…
Then there is getting used to the actual feel of wearing a sheath – in my case, wearing two sheaths layers over my penis all day has been very difficult to get used to. It’s a little like going back to my early attempts at wearing rubber TE every day and still try to be able to function as a human outside of a sex scene (performing my work and daily life etc) – only much worse! Of course we are talking about the most sensitive part of my anatomy being in very restrictive rubber encasement hour after hour…
I am hardly hung like a horse, probably below average in fact, but sheath makers (particularly of pissing pants) seem to be prone to making the diameter just that little too tight around my girth. The constant pressure is partly delightful, but also challenging. Getting the right fit and lubrication are even more imperative than ever and I have frequently suffered from uncomfortable skin chaffing and irritation around the tip of the penis. Occasionally the discomfort has built up over successive days to be severe enough to result in me choosing to stop wearing any rubber at all for several days – so a MAJOR issue!
Even when not faced with pain, the sensation of rubber 360 around your shaft is really difficult to ignore! I am constantly made aware of my rubber layers as I cycle through various degrees of erectional extension. I found myself not being able to stop myself having to adjust myself on a regular basis. On the one hand this is very pleasurable sensation and makes me feel very sensual and sexually alive – but when lived over hour and days, this corporeal imperative does make it very difficult to be able to think straight for more than a millisecond! The more abstract the matter, the harder it is to form coherent thoughts as I am regularly distracted by my rubber confined manhood.
Just like my early experiences of living and working in rubber, whole days become a mentally exhausting struggle to function against my instinct to give in to my rubber sexual bliss. The difference being that so far I have not been able to acclimatise to my double sheathes as quickly as with just being in rubber all day. I find that I am failing to be able to take it often and I do succumb. I also I am not able to make new targets in extending my encasement. Still – maybe I underestimate that original challenge with hindsight and I maybe I will start to adjust soon if I force myself through the “wall”. Because the potential prize of improving the practicalities of extended rubber total enclosure is there, I will not yield and will just have to re-double my efforts…
Wish me luck,
Sealed
Friday, June 02, 2006
Friday, 02 June 2006
Thanks for the comments (and emails) welcoming the blog back.
I have to say that I am feeling like I am in a cultural pincer movement with these high brow comments, which would be all the more intimidating and frankly alarming if you two could spell & type :o)
About my partner, yes your right… you don’t want to pry! I only feel comfortable about talking in general terms, other than to say I DO have / want to make compromises to the totality of my enclosure for her/our sake. That’s why I shy away from the whole “24/7” terminology which sets up an unhelpful metric by which total enclosure lifestyle is often judged, and which is often not continuously sustainable for us. I prefer to think of a rubber oriented lifestyle where my default natural state is as rubber enclosed person. Parenthetically, fetish does involve the imagination and so inevitably you do get into that grey area of the ideal being totally enclosed forever – but for me this is somewhere between a long term aim, something to maybe try for a limited time (experiment) some time and a fantasy perfect existence.
A TE lifestyle is inner directed and can see how it may not be a primarily sociable activity or even unsociable (although antisocial seems to be a bit strong). It would not be the first lifestyle that was not focused on a purely social agenda. However, I feel much of the social problems are to do with the perception of society’s intolerance to rubber fetish in public – which I view as innocent fun and my self expression. The actions of people like Blackie to push society’s limits mean that it would be a brave soul who could predict how easy/difficult it will be for future fetishists to live out their chosen existence in public. I believe people like backie are groundbreakers, and can only do good for acceptance of fetish lifestyles. If the past is any guide, we may be amazed by future attitudes.
A major social stumbling block seems to be the mask / hood and lack of eye contact. Now I can see that TE may be possible with various degrees of face occlusion. There are different transparent materials for a start – from transparent rubber through to a transparent glass helmet and lots of variation in between. Then there is the prospect of ever thinner masks that portray a human face with some degree of facial expression possible – even if it is a chosen face and not the given (natural) face of the individual.
However, it is likely that for a social existence a rubber enclosed person may chose to vary the type and severity of facial mask – depending on situation as to how comfortable they and others will feel about a mask. It is likely that until society attitudes catches up, that the rubber enclosed persons may find it better to bare their face for many situations – which I frequently do.
Back in the home, I suspect that facial appearance and masking are less of an appearance. As time goes on in some relationships, facial cues seem to become less essential. Maybe this would become a barrier if I were advocating that non lifestyle TE fetishist partner never be allowed to see the given/natural face of their lifestyle TE partner – but for me nothing is ever this absolute. About as realistic as never having seen your wife (or live in partner’s) body when they take a shower – that level of privacy could be arranged I guess, but never felt the need myself.
To again repeat the nature of my fetish as a lifestyle of being a rubber enclosed person, the starting point would be to be regularly enclosed in rubber for significantly longer than necessary for just acting out a fetish sex scene. A normal situation being to generally wear rubber for many hours most days. My current goal is to reorganise my life so I can get back to the sate where I am enclosed in rubber for the more of the time than not being in rubber over a given month or so (as I managed in 2005), once I have achieved my current (non fetish) objectives. Rubber enclosure becoming my “jeans and t-shirt” plus business suit, even if not 24/7/365. As to what I would choose to do after that… Well I am not currently planning anything but watch this space.
Now all the above was mainly general – but how about how it effects my sociability. Well I must admit that I am on the horns of a dilemma. There is a part of my character which likes to be sociable with my many friends and be “out there” travelling and meeting with the people of the world. On there other side there is a very strong drive for me to be totally enclosed as much as possible and I feel more and more uncomfortable every hour I am not enclosed in rubber. This feeling is like a cross between holding your breath and living a lie/losing identity. When it has been days and I am stuck in a situation being sociable, I can actually start to feel grubby that I am just being what I think they want me to be.
So to be truthful, my rubber enclosed lifestyle DOES have an impact on important social and other aspects of my life when I get to the point when I am totally enclosed for the majority of the time. Up until now, this has tended to be a question of sacrifice, compromise and finding a natural level / limit to my time in TE. This level has been fairly easy to find so far, due to the difficulties and sacrifice to physical and psychological comfort in being in rubber for extended periods. But as I have found measure to deal with, or have acclimatised to these issues, I often wonder how much more difficult it will be to break out of my rubber enclosed life to deal with the social and other sides of my character…
Sealed
I have to say that I am feeling like I am in a cultural pincer movement with these high brow comments, which would be all the more intimidating and frankly alarming if you two could spell & type :o)
About my partner, yes your right… you don’t want to pry! I only feel comfortable about talking in general terms, other than to say I DO have / want to make compromises to the totality of my enclosure for her/our sake. That’s why I shy away from the whole “24/7” terminology which sets up an unhelpful metric by which total enclosure lifestyle is often judged, and which is often not continuously sustainable for us. I prefer to think of a rubber oriented lifestyle where my default natural state is as rubber enclosed person. Parenthetically, fetish does involve the imagination and so inevitably you do get into that grey area of the ideal being totally enclosed forever – but for me this is somewhere between a long term aim, something to maybe try for a limited time (experiment) some time and a fantasy perfect existence.
A TE lifestyle is inner directed and can see how it may not be a primarily sociable activity or even unsociable (although antisocial seems to be a bit strong). It would not be the first lifestyle that was not focused on a purely social agenda. However, I feel much of the social problems are to do with the perception of society’s intolerance to rubber fetish in public – which I view as innocent fun and my self expression. The actions of people like Blackie to push society’s limits mean that it would be a brave soul who could predict how easy/difficult it will be for future fetishists to live out their chosen existence in public. I believe people like backie are groundbreakers, and can only do good for acceptance of fetish lifestyles. If the past is any guide, we may be amazed by future attitudes.
A major social stumbling block seems to be the mask / hood and lack of eye contact. Now I can see that TE may be possible with various degrees of face occlusion. There are different transparent materials for a start – from transparent rubber through to a transparent glass helmet and lots of variation in between. Then there is the prospect of ever thinner masks that portray a human face with some degree of facial expression possible – even if it is a chosen face and not the given (natural) face of the individual.
However, it is likely that for a social existence a rubber enclosed person may chose to vary the type and severity of facial mask – depending on situation as to how comfortable they and others will feel about a mask. It is likely that until society attitudes catches up, that the rubber enclosed persons may find it better to bare their face for many situations – which I frequently do.
Back in the home, I suspect that facial appearance and masking are less of an appearance. As time goes on in some relationships, facial cues seem to become less essential. Maybe this would become a barrier if I were advocating that non lifestyle TE fetishist partner never be allowed to see the given/natural face of their lifestyle TE partner – but for me nothing is ever this absolute. About as realistic as never having seen your wife (or live in partner’s) body when they take a shower – that level of privacy could be arranged I guess, but never felt the need myself.
To again repeat the nature of my fetish as a lifestyle of being a rubber enclosed person, the starting point would be to be regularly enclosed in rubber for significantly longer than necessary for just acting out a fetish sex scene. A normal situation being to generally wear rubber for many hours most days. My current goal is to reorganise my life so I can get back to the sate where I am enclosed in rubber for the more of the time than not being in rubber over a given month or so (as I managed in 2005), once I have achieved my current (non fetish) objectives. Rubber enclosure becoming my “jeans and t-shirt” plus business suit, even if not 24/7/365. As to what I would choose to do after that… Well I am not currently planning anything but watch this space.
Now all the above was mainly general – but how about how it effects my sociability. Well I must admit that I am on the horns of a dilemma. There is a part of my character which likes to be sociable with my many friends and be “out there” travelling and meeting with the people of the world. On there other side there is a very strong drive for me to be totally enclosed as much as possible and I feel more and more uncomfortable every hour I am not enclosed in rubber. This feeling is like a cross between holding your breath and living a lie/losing identity. When it has been days and I am stuck in a situation being sociable, I can actually start to feel grubby that I am just being what I think they want me to be.
So to be truthful, my rubber enclosed lifestyle DOES have an impact on important social and other aspects of my life when I get to the point when I am totally enclosed for the majority of the time. Up until now, this has tended to be a question of sacrifice, compromise and finding a natural level / limit to my time in TE. This level has been fairly easy to find so far, due to the difficulties and sacrifice to physical and psychological comfort in being in rubber for extended periods. But as I have found measure to deal with, or have acclimatised to these issues, I often wonder how much more difficult it will be to break out of my rubber enclosed life to deal with the social and other sides of my character…
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Friday, May 26, 2006
Friday, 26 May 2006
You can always rely on Dark for some detailed comments – thank u! Not going to address every point, partly as the entry stands on its merit and partly because I feel out cultured by the ballet references… But having said that it does raise some interesting points regarding the Platonic ideal I carry in my head for my self image based on my fetish.
A quick note on the phrase “Platonic Ideal” Dark uses, as I see there is a great risk of readers getting the wrong impression here. I believe Dark is specifically NOT talking about some sort of Platonic love (love without carnal desires), but a philosophy of attempting to capture the essence of a pure form / concept. i.e. Perfection. The essence of a wheel is a perfect geometric circle. The essence of my perfect form may be a sleek, rubber enclosed person … bla bla… You get the picture.
I did find it interesting to realise that a person’s pursuit of the Platonic Ideal does seem to usually require dedication / hard work / compromise / sacrifice / discomfort in most endeavours and not just my own - being a totally sealed rubber enclosed person. It also seems to often involve some additional voluntary compromise to subdue the ideal in order to integrate into some social contexts – as in: a ballet dancer may decide to refrain from pirouetting in their tights during a funeral service at the risk of being thought to be showing off their Platonic Ideal package! Of course, no body could stop him from turning up in his prancing outfit – although they may try discouraging him if forewarned.
I must admit to being a little shocked by Darks comment that 2nd skin fetishist ‘…could only be tolerated in very minor doses before "laws" were enacted against it.’. Laws? My goodness, do we really live in societies that are so intolerant as to criminalise a particular mode of dress, just because of a sexual overtone or dehumanisation effect? Surely we are living in a society where we are progressing towards tolerance and that things that would have been totally unacceptable for (say) any women to wear 50 years ago (too explicit) are now the basis for all ladies summer fashion? Do you not live in the land of the free!!! Hmmm… I just looked out the window and remembered the latest rant I heard from the far right… and I am starting to think that Dark may have a point...
On another topic, the idea that my fetish ideal requires another to view my in that image does not ring true for me, I have to say. I accept it does for Dark and others – even if it is a theoretical other person. I am NOT saying that I do not want / have sex with others. I am saying that my fetish is not contingent on another’s perception or interaction, even if their participation would be welcome. Primarily, my fetish (Fetish~=fixation on an inanimate object who’s presence is necessary for sexual gratification) is my desire (love?) of the rubber second skin, which ideally should be fully enclosing MY body and/or secondarily, another person’s body. My fetish dreamscape may typically involve other(s) similarly totally enclosed to myself – but it is not contingent on it, even if their presence only facilitates an enhanced experience.
I like to sail, drive and act out my fetish with the company of another. I can do all these on my own without invalidating the essence of what I am doing. I have chosen to live with my partner – but this unrelated to my fetish, which was at least as strong, vibrant and important to me when single and not dating.
For a while I thought I may be alone in this attitude, but as you have probably guessed, have found others via the internet with even more polarized positions than myself. A local fetishist comes to mind, who it seems has absolutely no sexual desires or even preferences for other people – but loves his fetish and does not mind being social with others. To be honest – I am still trying to get my head round this mind set, but accept that it is very real to them and very revealing of my own…
BTW – Work place total enclosure may not be possible for everyone – but it is a reality for me for at least some of the time. As some will recall from last year, up till the end of November, you could have counted the number of days I worked in anything other than “near-TE” on your fingers (Near TE as I chose to remove my mask for some phone conferences). This was obviously not because I braved the work place fully suited up, but because I mainly worked from home. I guess us home workers are very lucky – but then again home working is a growing trend for those whose work can take advantage of new technology.
Yes there is a lot of de-humanisation involved in my chosen mode, with the lack of facial signals etc. You do end up being judged by your words and actions rather than facial expression. It’s not as bad as being on the end of a phone – but more effort is needed to communicate, unless you are wearing a very clear mask.
Biological issues are just physical (plumbing) problems waiting to be overcome – and only solutions which enhance your existence need be adopted, as the degree of totality of the enclosed lifestyle can be adjusted by the individual to suit their limits and preferences. It puts me in mind of all the “artificial” technological solutions many western people take for granted, which provide for better sanitation / hygiene / comfort / warmth. I don’t think that a woman is totally “inhuman” just because she may be wearing tampons, coil, sanitary pads, eye glasses, cycling helmet, pacemaker, implants, piercings, painted nails, wrist watch, antiperspirant, toothpaste, hair colour, makeup, roller blades, skis, ipod or mobile cell phone (although I may suspect her judgement if she tries using all these things while cycling). One of my relatives had bowel surgery resulting in them needing a permanent colostomy – but they are still human, but found a technical plumbing solution to their biological needs. Yep, I know some will argue about the fact that many of these things are not a matter of choice – but I chose the enclosed lifestyle and the plumbing issues are just the consequence, not the objective, and I chose to make the best of them. Most of us westerners who work in offices in close proximity with others would choose to pollute their bodies with volatile chemicals to hide their odor and make the best of it – just different ends of a continuum perhaps.
But I think we always expect their to be some sacrifices and a lot of compromises involved in pursuing any Platonic Ideal. The question for the individual is, does the benefits outweigh the personal cost and dedication required to be aiming for that ideal. The occasional day of being terribly cold may be a price you have to be prepared to take to be able to sail in some of the most beautiful waters. Occasionally getting to too hot, bouts of profuse perspiration and thus being water logged in my rubber skin for the rest of the day is one of the discomforts I find I am prepared to put up with.
At the moment, I am finding I have found a very good level of attainment towards my ideal at a personal cost I find I can take and am willing to afford. I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else than to be in my rubber skin for the majority of the time. And that is my own personal benchmark – the majority of my time in my rubber skin and my goals are to continue to engineer the rest of my life and work to support the aim of sustaining a (largely) rubbery lifestyle.
To want anything else, now seems incredible to me. As a rubber enclosed person I am comfortable, feel safe and am also more sensual. I look more like my “ideal” self in the mirror and spend much of my time feeling very much more sexually stimulated. There is much less dichotomy between sexual and non-sexual activities in my life as I carry my perfect bedroom scene around with me all the time – and this make me feel more vital, alive and yes, more human – or at least more animal. Yes, it is frequently exhausting and often quite uncomfortable to be 3 strokes away from orgasm much of the day, every day of every week, while trying to achieve non-sexual objectives – but it should be no surprise that it is “addictive” (in the loosest sense of the word).
I know many/most fetishist require more variation in their existence and even I feel the same craving sometimes as I force myself to change into my clean suit. But I discovered, almost be accident, that before long I never regret actually having got into my rubber skin, even if I strongly craved being uncovered when I was first getting dressed. This discovery was after dedicating a month to compelling myself to wearing rubber each day all day - just for an experiment to see what happened.
Over time I discovered that if I was going to want to wear rubber total enclosure for long periods frequently, then there were advantages in trying to minimise the amount of time I ever spent not in rubber (at least from the neck down if not TE).This would overcome the negative aspects of re-acclimatisation and overestimation. It also means I have an easy framework for the daily indecision on question of “should I get into rubber today, when and for how long? Am I in the mood?” – where the question becomes Q1 “Is there any specific reason I could not get into my rubber skin right now?” and Q2 “When would I need to strip and change into non rubber?”.
Once in that state there seemed to be no way back for me and I am now looking forward to a time in a few weeks when the answer will always be “no” to Q1, every single day and “not any time soon” to Q2! Until then, I must take what opportunity I can through the week and suffer the effects of withdrawal and re-acclimatisation – exhausting but still fun….
Sealed
A quick note on the phrase “Platonic Ideal” Dark uses, as I see there is a great risk of readers getting the wrong impression here. I believe Dark is specifically NOT talking about some sort of Platonic love (love without carnal desires), but a philosophy of attempting to capture the essence of a pure form / concept. i.e. Perfection. The essence of a wheel is a perfect geometric circle. The essence of my perfect form may be a sleek, rubber enclosed person … bla bla… You get the picture.
I did find it interesting to realise that a person’s pursuit of the Platonic Ideal does seem to usually require dedication / hard work / compromise / sacrifice / discomfort in most endeavours and not just my own - being a totally sealed rubber enclosed person. It also seems to often involve some additional voluntary compromise to subdue the ideal in order to integrate into some social contexts – as in: a ballet dancer may decide to refrain from pirouetting in their tights during a funeral service at the risk of being thought to be showing off their Platonic Ideal package! Of course, no body could stop him from turning up in his prancing outfit – although they may try discouraging him if forewarned.
I must admit to being a little shocked by Darks comment that 2nd skin fetishist ‘…could only be tolerated in very minor doses before "laws" were enacted against it.’. Laws? My goodness, do we really live in societies that are so intolerant as to criminalise a particular mode of dress, just because of a sexual overtone or dehumanisation effect? Surely we are living in a society where we are progressing towards tolerance and that things that would have been totally unacceptable for (say) any women to wear 50 years ago (too explicit) are now the basis for all ladies summer fashion? Do you not live in the land of the free!!! Hmmm… I just looked out the window and remembered the latest rant I heard from the far right… and I am starting to think that Dark may have a point...
On another topic, the idea that my fetish ideal requires another to view my in that image does not ring true for me, I have to say. I accept it does for Dark and others – even if it is a theoretical other person. I am NOT saying that I do not want / have sex with others. I am saying that my fetish is not contingent on another’s perception or interaction, even if their participation would be welcome. Primarily, my fetish (Fetish~=fixation on an inanimate object who’s presence is necessary for sexual gratification) is my desire (love?) of the rubber second skin, which ideally should be fully enclosing MY body and/or secondarily, another person’s body. My fetish dreamscape may typically involve other(s) similarly totally enclosed to myself – but it is not contingent on it, even if their presence only facilitates an enhanced experience.
I like to sail, drive and act out my fetish with the company of another. I can do all these on my own without invalidating the essence of what I am doing. I have chosen to live with my partner – but this unrelated to my fetish, which was at least as strong, vibrant and important to me when single and not dating.
For a while I thought I may be alone in this attitude, but as you have probably guessed, have found others via the internet with even more polarized positions than myself. A local fetishist comes to mind, who it seems has absolutely no sexual desires or even preferences for other people – but loves his fetish and does not mind being social with others. To be honest – I am still trying to get my head round this mind set, but accept that it is very real to them and very revealing of my own…
BTW – Work place total enclosure may not be possible for everyone – but it is a reality for me for at least some of the time. As some will recall from last year, up till the end of November, you could have counted the number of days I worked in anything other than “near-TE” on your fingers (Near TE as I chose to remove my mask for some phone conferences). This was obviously not because I braved the work place fully suited up, but because I mainly worked from home. I guess us home workers are very lucky – but then again home working is a growing trend for those whose work can take advantage of new technology.
Yes there is a lot of de-humanisation involved in my chosen mode, with the lack of facial signals etc. You do end up being judged by your words and actions rather than facial expression. It’s not as bad as being on the end of a phone – but more effort is needed to communicate, unless you are wearing a very clear mask.
Biological issues are just physical (plumbing) problems waiting to be overcome – and only solutions which enhance your existence need be adopted, as the degree of totality of the enclosed lifestyle can be adjusted by the individual to suit their limits and preferences. It puts me in mind of all the “artificial” technological solutions many western people take for granted, which provide for better sanitation / hygiene / comfort / warmth. I don’t think that a woman is totally “inhuman” just because she may be wearing tampons, coil, sanitary pads, eye glasses, cycling helmet, pacemaker, implants, piercings, painted nails, wrist watch, antiperspirant, toothpaste, hair colour, makeup, roller blades, skis, ipod or mobile cell phone (although I may suspect her judgement if she tries using all these things while cycling). One of my relatives had bowel surgery resulting in them needing a permanent colostomy – but they are still human, but found a technical plumbing solution to their biological needs. Yep, I know some will argue about the fact that many of these things are not a matter of choice – but I chose the enclosed lifestyle and the plumbing issues are just the consequence, not the objective, and I chose to make the best of them. Most of us westerners who work in offices in close proximity with others would choose to pollute their bodies with volatile chemicals to hide their odor and make the best of it – just different ends of a continuum perhaps.
But I think we always expect their to be some sacrifices and a lot of compromises involved in pursuing any Platonic Ideal. The question for the individual is, does the benefits outweigh the personal cost and dedication required to be aiming for that ideal. The occasional day of being terribly cold may be a price you have to be prepared to take to be able to sail in some of the most beautiful waters. Occasionally getting to too hot, bouts of profuse perspiration and thus being water logged in my rubber skin for the rest of the day is one of the discomforts I find I am prepared to put up with.
At the moment, I am finding I have found a very good level of attainment towards my ideal at a personal cost I find I can take and am willing to afford. I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else than to be in my rubber skin for the majority of the time. And that is my own personal benchmark – the majority of my time in my rubber skin and my goals are to continue to engineer the rest of my life and work to support the aim of sustaining a (largely) rubbery lifestyle.
To want anything else, now seems incredible to me. As a rubber enclosed person I am comfortable, feel safe and am also more sensual. I look more like my “ideal” self in the mirror and spend much of my time feeling very much more sexually stimulated. There is much less dichotomy between sexual and non-sexual activities in my life as I carry my perfect bedroom scene around with me all the time – and this make me feel more vital, alive and yes, more human – or at least more animal. Yes, it is frequently exhausting and often quite uncomfortable to be 3 strokes away from orgasm much of the day, every day of every week, while trying to achieve non-sexual objectives – but it should be no surprise that it is “addictive” (in the loosest sense of the word).
I know many/most fetishist require more variation in their existence and even I feel the same craving sometimes as I force myself to change into my clean suit. But I discovered, almost be accident, that before long I never regret actually having got into my rubber skin, even if I strongly craved being uncovered when I was first getting dressed. This discovery was after dedicating a month to compelling myself to wearing rubber each day all day - just for an experiment to see what happened.
Over time I discovered that if I was going to want to wear rubber total enclosure for long periods frequently, then there were advantages in trying to minimise the amount of time I ever spent not in rubber (at least from the neck down if not TE).This would overcome the negative aspects of re-acclimatisation and overestimation. It also means I have an easy framework for the daily indecision on question of “should I get into rubber today, when and for how long? Am I in the mood?” – where the question becomes Q1 “Is there any specific reason I could not get into my rubber skin right now?” and Q2 “When would I need to strip and change into non rubber?”.
Once in that state there seemed to be no way back for me and I am now looking forward to a time in a few weeks when the answer will always be “no” to Q1, every single day and “not any time soon” to Q2! Until then, I must take what opportunity I can through the week and suffer the effects of withdrawal and re-acclimatisation – exhausting but still fun….
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