Sealed And Suffocating...

2012-01-27T12:45:00.002Z

Thanks for all the comments! This is a quick interim post to deal with comment I have be receiving....

My humble and simple (if mildly epic) session, posted as a mere afterthought, seems to have interested quite a few people. Lots of personal emails coming in, which is fab, but I am really grateful for those who take time to post their comments and Qs via the blog as it is so much better to share.

In some quarters of the internet which I hang out, this self-indulgent perverted hedonism would seem very out of place in the (alternative) fashion and image preoccupied latex socialising cleeks. Bless. I am envious of them really, but I am also grateful there are some out there who are honest enough to appreciate that for many, rubber fetish is just about getting off sexually on aspects of being encased in latex.

Anyway, enough of that, let answer some Qs….

Hi Auxugen,
Fab Qs / comments.

WRT the key safe I used in November, the tumblers are way too easy to pick. Because they are mechanically connected to the opening mechanism, you can virtually feel them and certainly hear them click into place. I would go as far as to say any mechanical combination are unlikely to be secure if you have 5 or 10 minutes to play with them. Check out the internet and you will never buy one.

This is why I have gone for a mini safe from Yale with electronic 8 digit combination. I have not worked any way to pick the combination. The Yale safe was only about £35 (roughly just over $50 USD?).

So u r aware, the internet tells me the 2 week point of all safes of similar design to my Yale safe. The first is the manual override key / lock (the lock can apparently be picked with specialist tools). The second is the reset button on the inside of the door which might be accessible via holes (for screwing safe to wall) if you happened to have the right tool (very long/thin/stiff/bendy foil or wire). Once you know this, put the key out of reach (maybe give it to a friend as your Plan-B) and make sure there
are no tools at hand (or lock them away in a room and put the room key in the safe!).

WRT to the time-lock safe you found – unbelievable!!! I have spent hours and hours over many many years searching for a small time-lock safe – unsuccessfully. Not being able to find such a time-locked safe is the only reason why I ended up with the software to store a combination in a time-locked store and a separate combination safe.

Well done Auxugen for finding this. It is a little expensive, but looks ideal. I wonder if there are any (genuine/independent) testimonies / reviewers elsewhere on the internet who could vouch for this product? If you do get one, I am sure many who read here will be very interested to know how you get on with it.

BTW – Just in case you are thinking about total rubber enclosure (rather than other forms of bondage / chastity) and wondering if you need a time-lock for more than 99 hours then I would like to put you mind at rest. 99 hours is a V E R Y long time in rubber total enclosure. Having just lived through a long session, I personally cannot imagine wanting to have continuous total enclosure for that long.
I can see that chastity would probably need more than 99 hours before you would really feel the “benefit”. But chastity in “street clothes” is something I only just started reading about in last year or so, so not on my personal hit list yet.

BTW – the randomised setting is interesting. I have that feature
on PictureLoKIT, but was too scared to use it so far!

…Next…
Its from Auxugen again – what an industrious chap…

Firstly, I found your details about the bad experience based on ice interesting, worrying and educational - all at the same time. Your second incident sounded horrific too. My goodness, what a scary scenario.

To answer the question… well it is very difficult to answer to be honest!

In my case I had been planning things (in a very obsessive way) for some time and I was ALMOST on auto-pilot when it came to the final moments of lock in. There certainly was some nerves, to put it mildly. I was also very excited. There was a feeling of anticipation mixed with dread and foreboding too. This last time I was almost overwhelmed by the enormity of what I was about to take on (which I will post at some later date) – I pushed on so I could not think too hard about it and then could not quite believe how mad I had been locking that safe... Basically every emotion, but all at a fairly mild level compared to your situation.

Maybe I should have been a lot more anxious, but I think there are major differences in what I was about to embark on compared to your “proper bondage” (for want of a better way of describing it). So far, my situation is tame be comparison.
In my case, I was “only” locking myself into a condition which was perfectly routine situation for me. I was just dressing in exactly the same rubber that I routinely wear 7 to 10 hours at a time, occasionally 12 + hours. It is really just a case of compulsion to experience the same for longer. I never wear anything “locked in” that I had not worn for long periods before while unlocked.
I am also not locked into a single position, which can be very physically demanding. Within the fact I am totally enclosed in rubber I can move about and go anywhere I please. So far, I am not blindfolded either.

My bondage chains are fairly loose fitting – in my earlier prototype attempts my chains were tight fitting and then I worked out that it was both unsustainable and unnecessary. Careful consideration / design led me to a scheme that was totally secure with plenty of free play in some places (although less in other places). So the bondage chains are the least of my worries and would cause no serious harm if left on for much longer than I could imagine bearing being in rubber TE.
After locking myself in, I always gave myself an hour or two to ensure the rubber and bondage chains are comfortable and only then lock the padlock keys away for the fixed time period. For those who have experienced this, being locked in to what you have already done voluntarily IS a step change in the experience (psychologically), but (given I routinely wear the same outfit) not one that is likely to go dangerously out of control very quickly. OK, it is quite likely that things may get a little more challenging as time goes on, even to the extent that if u were not locked in, you would want out – but this is sort of the point of the exercise – the very perverse thrill of it! However, I have taken the view that these challenges would be slow developing, easy to spot early and probably not so severe as to cause any real danger or more than temporarily discomfort. I rely on the fact that I would have plenty of time to activate my “Plan B” to get me out of it (if red faced) if things do become untenable.

But don’t be under any misunderstanding. This was always a major personal challenge for me. That moment when you realise you are now locked in for the duration, that you have given up control of your situation to the time-lock, is amazing. It almost is a relief as you no longer have the burden of how you spend the rest of the day (or days!). It is also a time of anxiety and excitement, as you don’t know how things will turn out (good or very very bad). For me it was not panic, but maybe some rueful disbelief that I actually “went for it”!

Later, when you have been in there for hours and hours and take a look at the timer and see that there are so many hours ahead of you, you do start to reflect on the reality of your situation. It dawns that there is huge difference to previously having occasionally spent 24+ hours in rubber when things went particularly well and your current situation: a situation where you have no choice but to be totally enclosed in rubber, no matter how you feel about it, for the duration. You wake up the next day and are initially thrilled to be in rubber and then you get the next thrill – that like it or lump it, you are just going to have to “suffer” the pleasure of staying in rubber for many more hours yet. No choices to make. Move on and get on with the good bits…

And you know, there is something else. Isn’t there just a tiny bit of you that gets off on the very small but very real danger of the situation? Probably the worst is that you might get “discovered” by someone you prefer not to get discovered by. But there is also just a microscopic risk that when the time is up and the moment of freedom comes, you suddenly find that something has gone wrong and you cannot get out that easily after all? Knowing that I am forced to have “faith” (rather than 100% scientific knowledge) that I will be able to get out is something a guilty pleasure for me. (as long as I have a Plan-B).

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Next, rbrlvr made the comment…

I have a Hydroglove suit and it is not possible to urinate without un wrapping the folds and pulling down the pants. In the past I have just pissed in the suit, and drained it out when getting undressed. rbrlvr

Valid point. Fab that they are so waterproof isn’t it? I assume you are wondering how I piss while still being in bondage? I previously partially addressed with my post 24 Jan as…

“on the session in question, urinating was done “the usual way” without recourse to plumbing…” “…To explain, you need to get a full idea of my rubber and how my “bondage” works, which is tricky. I will cover this in my next full post.”

I am trying to address this in my full write up of my very recent session, but here is a quick (edited down) sneak preview of what I have drafted so far:

I am wearing a hooded Hydroglove suit, which is actually 2 pieces: A top half and a bottom half. These are joined when wearing by rolling together to form a water tight seal…...[also wearing bondage hood/mask combo with belt loop around neck over Hydroglove hood] ….A chain goes through hood neck belt loops to form a loop (around the neck) which is padlocked to hood at the front and a free end is long enough to be routed down my front, between the legs, back up to the back of my neck before doing a second circuit of my hood’s neck and be padlocked in place at the back of the neck. To prevent the chain being slipped off via the leg, a second chain connects to the first at waist height and forms a waist belt.

The bondage makes it impossible to get either half of the Hydroglove suit off. With a LOT of fiddle, it does me to unroll the two halfs to allow a tiny slit to be opened for pissing as long as you constantly hold it open against the stretch of the rubber. However, this access is not really sufficient for anal access / defecation (think about route of chain), only urination which means being dosed up with anti-diarrhoea drugs for the duration.

I know it is difficult to imagine, but the chains do allow you to unroll. On the other hand you also have to imagine that in practice the chains mean the (previously rolled up) rubber does not have anywhere to go, so there is only just enough scope to make a gap between the two half. I tend to usually have to hold down the spare rubber at the top of the pants to make a gap for my bit to fit through.

If I wanted to be all technical about it, this piss time is obviously an exception to being totally enclosed. But in a locked in situation I wanted something reliable and therefore simple and so did not want to go for “personal plumbing solutions”. Once I have relieved myself (and inspected the goods for any issues), I soon want to be packing it all away (even if I wanted out of the rubber) because I find this state is not comfortable for long as the excess rubber wants to snap back and crush my bits if I don’t hold it down.

Hope this is still interesting and of use to people considering spending a long time in rubber. If so, you will love the full write up of my recent extra-long session which has some highs and some lows… I hope I can find time to get this ready for posting in next week or two, but no promises.

Sealed

Total Enclosure Self Bondage

2012-01-23T12:27:00.000Z

This blog entry consists of an account of a self-bondage session from last November. I originally wrote this up for my own record in case there were lessons to learn, but have presented an edited version of the journal of my experiences in case it is of any interest or practical use for others. The account details a session that was not 100% successful and is of particular pertinence to me as today I will be undertaking a very similar session this afternoon, with the hope of having learned some of the lessons.

To avoid having to write a long boring intro, the stating condition and my aims are revealed as I go along in the journal entry. [have also inserted a few explanatory edits in the text in square brackets]…

Monday, 21 November 2011

21/11/2011 15:30 TE -0:30

Start session – initial chems and start to don rubber […Totally enclosed in rubber by 16:00…] …I have locked myself into rubber total enclosure with chains and pad locks. I am wearing “Hydroglove” latex rubber dry suit so totally water and air-tight and cannot be removed without unlocking padlocks.

21/11/2011 17:40 TE +1:40

Once I am sure that all is well and comfortable, I put all padlock keys in small key safe which uses combination lock. The combination is not known by anyone as I randomised it, without looking, before photographing it. This photograph is the only record of the combination. I used “Picture LoKiT” software to hide the photo of the combination until a predetermined time. I have therefore been able to lock myself in until 06:00 Wed 23/11 – which means a total of 38 hours totally enclosed in rubber. I know that any software should not 100% be relied upon so I have had to think about a plan B and plan C should Picture LoKiT not reveal the combination on Wednesday. Plan B and C have both been devised to be very undesirable, so I really hope the software does let me out when the time comes. Plan B would be very time consuming as it involved manually trying every combination in turn, which I have estimated might take 5 to 10 hours! Plan C would be highly embarrassing as I would have to walk out in public to retrieve bolt croppers that I have placed in the back of my car parked in a public place. I have set this up so that I certainly wouldn’t consider reverting to plan B or C early – I could only imagine using either if I found Picture LoKiT failed to give me the release code @ 06:00 on Wednesday.

21/11/2011 20:30 TE +4:30

Looking back, the start of this session was quite frantic and a little more physically challenging than my usual routine. Add to that the excitement of the occasion and I guess it was inevitable that I started to get a little warm in my total enclosure. Once the keys were safely locked away, I managed to chill and get things back on a more normal even keel. But the bad news is that although I am only 4.5 hours in, I think I detect a hint of moisture in the suite, when I was hoping to be completely dry for the first 6 or 7 hours in order to stay comfortable for the long haul. Luckily it should be easy to keep the temperature low for the rest of my time in the suit, so although I cannot dry out, at least I will only get soggier slowly. For now, I am very comfortable and the rubber continues to make me feel special.

My suit totally encases me, so for sustenance my suit feeds me a liquid diet through a simple off-the-shelf hydration system. This delivers a mix of my own devising via a tube connected at one end to a 3.5L bag and the other end to my gas mask hood so I can feed without the need to remove any rubber. The contents of the bag contain survival level nutrition and additives to enhance my experience. The additives include herbal food supplements and pharmaceuticals. The whole lot is designed to last me 24 hours before needing a refill, so I have to try to drink at a rate of about 0.15L every hour or 1L every 7 hours. So far I have consumed about 0.5L, which is about right but does not take into account sleeping hours so I will have to up my rate.

Picture LoKiT is telling me I am only 8% of my way through the period it will keep my combination from me. Put another way, I still have 33.5 hours to go - and absolutely no way out till then! I always knew that this was going to be a long session, but sitting here with absolutely no control over when I can take off my rubber, it suddenly feels like an enormous task ahead of me.

I know I have often done similar long sessions in the past, but this feels very different somehow. With those long sessions, I chose to stay encased because everything was going well and I felt as comfortable as could be expected – and above all, I really did not want to remove my rubber. This time, I am in here for at least 38 hours no matter what happens or how I feel about it. I find I am both daunted and very excited, which is of course the point! I want to be excited by the bondage element and transfer of control. I don’t want to be in control of when I can remove my total enclosure. I want to be motivated to pace myself and this element is perhaps the strongest - a little like chastity, my aim is to sustain the fetish driven sexual tension for a long as possible, postponing the moment of climax for not minutes or hours by days!

21/11/2011 22:00 TE +6:00

Somehow I feel a little better acclimatised than I did earlier on. Feeling very comfortable in my rubber skin now.

Picture LoKiT is playing up slightly - when the network is not available its losing time at an alarming rate. More worryingly, if you reconnect to the network, it does not recover. The fix is you have to stop the program and then start it up (with the network connected) before it resynchronises its clock (presumable to a network NTP time source).

Lesson learnt: it is essential you can get internet access at the time you want the release combination or it could be a long wait… Let hope I do have internet access on Wednesday AM!

Due to a combination of the excitements of the day and the accumulating affect my nutrition pharmaceuticals are having on me, I feel my mind is shutting down while being wide awake. Its not unpleasant, but I feel I am going to need to try rest now…

22/11/2011 3:00 TE +11:00

In the first 2 or 3 of hours of rest, I suffered the usual difficulties around falling asleep in my mask hood – with sleep apnoea like symptoms. As I became unconscious I had breathing difficulties that brought me back, gasping. I persevered (what else could I do? I am locked in after all) and steadily I was able to adapt. With some small technique, I was able to relax into sleeping for longer and longer periods in my mask.

More good news is that comfort is high. My earlier fears of becoming too hot and sticky did not come to pass. I reckon I am only slightly moist and that is not unheard of after 11 hours totally encased in rubber!

Then the next challenge to my sleep. I have naturally felt very sexually stimulated for much of the time I have been in total enclosure. My body’s response to the constant rubber stimulation of my libido has been augmented by the significant doses of supplements and pharmaceuticals I have been ingesting both before the session started and through my nutrition system while I have be sealed in my rubber skin. Being sexually stimulated helps me stay motivated to be in rubber for long periods and my chemical mix means that I do not need to expend much effort on keeping myself in the mood – rather my body reacts strongly to the slightest stimulus with a raging erection and all I have to do is try to stop thing developing further.

In the last hour the strength of my bodies reaction to the slightest movements has become monumental and I was becoming worried I may get carried away. The last thing I want to do is ejaculate now with 27 hours to go. That would rob me of significant motivation and also sap my morale as I sat in my own juices for so long. The strength of the feeling of my sexual stimulation is unbelievably strong – like a very strong aching which borders on feeling unbearable. My chem mix does try to address the refractory period and should help to quickly provide subsequent erections, but I would still like to avoid ejaculation for some time yet, if I can.

As a last resort I have another chemical fix. Isopropyl Nitrite (poppers) would combine somewhat strongly with the other chemicals in my system – in fact VERY dangerously strongly unless used very sparingly. For me, I have found a good dose and it wrecks a chemically augmented erection for considerable time. That would give me hours of respite – but also take away the enjoyable sexual stimulus that makes it so easy to want to be in rubber. Also, a sufficiently effective dose often makes me feel unwell and very fatigued for many hours. Past experience also tell me it can go either way, often the [fabulous rush] bringing on orgasm early before its other side effects can get me past the feeling of getting out of control. In summary, Isopropyl Nitrite is very dangerous when combined with sexual enhancement drugs and obviously I am going to try to do without. But although undesirable, it is still the only mechanism I have when things get out of control.

Anyway, [its] back to bed for a few hours to see how I get on. I am hopeful this break will have helped calmed things down a lot.

22/11/2011 9:30 TE +17:30

I cannot claim to have had a normal night’s sleep, but I can say it was a delightful experience slipping in and out of consciousness with the rubber constantly and insistently reminding me of my total encapsulation.

Its proving difficult to keep up with fluid intake. Obviously when asleep I don’t drink and I tend to not want to drink as much overnight even when awake…

[22/11/2011 13:00 TE +21:00]

… as I was not able to keep up with the volume of fluid I had planned, my nutrition system was not able to deliver enough of the vital chems that keep me at peak sexual arousal. [it seems that …] when my body is required to sustain such levels over long periods it must be burning through the chems at a much accelerated rate.

Without the strong sexual arousal, it was becoming a dull experience and difficult to accept. It’s the sort of time when I might have been tempted out of my rubber skin, but on this occasion it was not even a possibility. I therefore arranged a supplementary dose of […sexually enhancement supplements / prescription drug]…

I then had a rest period while they kicked in. Rest seemed a good way cope with my sudden flat period. The chems started to work within about three quarters of an hour or so.

22/11/2011 14:15 TE +22:15

My restored / supercharged libido is now almost too strong now! It is difficult to concentrate on anything for long as my body’s physical needs are so demanding. I am going to need to find something to take my mind of it or I could ruin everything with premature ejaculation - well after only 22 hours of foreplay it would be a bit too quick for me anyway!

22/11/2011 16:00 TE +24:00

Things got too much so I have resorted to Isopropyl Nitrite (poppers).

22/11/2011 17:00 TE +25:00

The poppers were not the answer I hoped for. They did not calm things down but had the opposite effect. I did manage to hold out for another hour or so through a period of constant sexually ecstatic high. But the delayed but enviable ejaculation happened around 17:00, only 25 hours in to my 36 hour session and now I know I will shortly be feeling very low.

22/11/2011 ~18:00 TE +26:00

Sometime within the next hour I stated work on finding a way out of my captivity. To be brutally honest, I was motivated partly because of the beginnings of a friction burn injury to my penis due to 24+hours of near constant abrasion! (Next time I must address this with softer rubber pants and probably silicon lubrication).

I soon found the locks and chain bondage was totally secure, so looked at the software. However, I could not find a way to get the combination picture early.

But I still had a strong desire to be out and it is amazing how resourceful you get when sufficiently motivated. The weak point turned out to be the combination lock on the key safe. I cracked the combination by listening to the minute differences in sounds made by each wheel combination. Then I was out and free!

Once off, I was amazed to find the top half of my rubber suit was actually fairly dry. The legs were only slightly damp….

I think there are lessons I can learn from the experience to move forward to longer encapsulation. With a bit more prep, practice and self-control, I cannot see why I could not stay comfortable for many hours longer. I will endeavour to plan a another extra-long session when I can find the necessary free days, first dealing with the challenges & weak points, not least the easily picked combination lock.

Sealed

2012-01-05T18:12:00.002Z

I am hoping to be posting slightly more often this year, but lets see shall we? I got an email that tells me Dark posted me a comment here Fri Oct 07, 04:59:00 PM - but I cannot seem to see it here, which is a shame, so have quoted it below along with my own comments….

Hi Sealed, long time no type. A really interesting blog. I find the whole
issue of fetish overload and the decision to pursue pass through a
potential burn out of critical importance. I have been to this threshold a
lot lately.

Our own rubber freedom has really increased of late, due to a change of
circumstance; and my partner is now so into rubber, that I can rubber,
rubber, rubber whenever I want. [Not at work tho]. Yet I do find times when
it is almost too much. Conversely the thought of turning down a long hot
rubber session is just something I would NEVER do,and NEVER have.

This inner conflict is something I had never imagined would happen. It's
like I have to remind myself just how fantastic it will be; and it always
is. The hold our fetish has on me has not weakened at all, in many ways it
grows stronger, so this makes my occasional yearning for a no rubber
pastime with a sexual aspect even stranger. Like most of us my dream has
always been rubber 24/7. Is the effect of not having our rubber time
restricted by out side circumstances pertinent to this? Or is it that I am
not a kid any more? I'm typing this in cloth but there nothing stopping me
changing into tight black or red or blue rubber. I am sure I will very
soon. When my partner and I discuss new equipment, hoods and garments we
intend to add to our growing collection it is such a turn on, so why don't
take full advantage of our potential rubber time.

I'm not sure whether to take your path and really push harder into the
deeper realm of rubber pleasure. Or to accept that the current 3-4 sessions
a week is enough and that I need some down time from the kinky life.

Dark, thanks for the encouraging words. Dark raises some interesting points…

Interesting that you mention the chastity forums. For a long time, if I thought about chastity at all, I assumed it was only about transfer of control and prevention of sexual stimulation. In my own personal journey, the aims of controlling my orgasm have led me to think about the chastity world again over the last few months. What I discovered was a little confusing as although there was a lot of talk about male chastity devices preventing erections (or at least making them untenable), I also picked up what I think is the interesting paradox that these longer sessions of incarceration were a turn on. This aspect has striking parallels where I am turned on by the very idea of being encased in rubber for longer periods – particularly in the case where I am locked in by a KH. The picture is still confusing to a chastity neophyte like me, as it seems (reading the odd blog) that there are people struggling with sexual tension without a mechanism for sexual release and yet others talk of eventually (after days or even weeks) reaching a state where they periodically experience unsolicited semen emission which to me sound analogous to the release of orgasm / ejaculation that us non-chastity types experience.

Anyway, the chastity subject fascinates me as I have wondered if it might be possible to use the lessons / devices of chastity players to aid my own quest for orgasm control. On the one hand there are the similarities in what is trying to be achieved but on the other I have a sort of horror as to how it might ruin everything. My worry is that such devices might leave me feeling permanently turned-off and flaccid due to the discomfort of the alternative state. I have often thought that if I do not feel turned-on and consequently erect for a good deal of the time when in total enclosure, then I would not feel in a “sexual” or sensual state of mind and not be motivated and comfortable to be in rubber. Of course it might turn out that wearing a chastity device would make me feel very sexually tense for long periods of the time, in which case I would feel very happy to be totally enclosed – but then I would worry about eventually going out of my mind (figuratively speaking) with not being able to get sexual release while being so desperate. Be interesting to hear from anyone who has tried it as I still cannot get my head around whether it would be heaven or hell for me.

You say my situation is more autoerotic, which is undoubtedly true much of the time, but there is some similarities. I do love it when I can find a willing and trustworthy key holder (KH) to lock me into total enclosure for a day or so – and, given my attempts at orgasm control, this is a little similar to a KH locking a man into a chastity device. Unfortunately I cannot always find someone willing and suitable to be KH, and yet the desire for this scenario is so huge, I have found myself compelled to come up with effective self-bondage techniques adapted to total enclosure – but more of this some other time! IF anyone were interested I could share my experiences in following my rather odd fascination for being time locked in TE…

I will avoid getting embroiled in the “steady state” / desensitisation theory mainly because I have said all I have to say for now. However, I will briefly cover the subject of the waning of one's libido (irrespective of cause) or, more accurately, the quantum increase in libido that I am interested in, as I think I am still discovering things. In essence Dark talks of remaining rock hard for long periods while in rubber in the past tense – which I think is exactly same slow the road to despair I was gradually embarking on. For many, this may be the inevitable route that people like must eventually be taking with my “over exposure” to sexual stimulation in general and routine rubber TE in particular, coupled with being a year older every birthday. I cannot speak for others, but I thought it was worth fighting by whatever means available to take me back to my peak or, ideally, take me to new levels of sexual stamina and potency. And I can report that it works for me, at the moment at any rate.

Many may already know this but I think it is important to understand that virtually all of these chemicals (be they herbal supplements or prescription drugs) still rely on you being in a sexual mind set and for you to be sexual stimulated before they have any effect on anything. Crudely put, you don’t get an erection by just taking them. What happens is that when sexually stimulated your body’s chemistry is better able to support the physical demands of gaining and (in my case) maintaining an erection while you remain sexually stimulated.

One development of note is that I was (initially) horrified to see online articles that said that official government testing revealed one of the herbal supplements I was using contained more than herbs but actually contained a prescription only drug. Looking back through my notes, I noticed that this was actually the most potent and reliable herb for enhanced and sustained libido. From this I decided to bit the bullet and go obtain a doctor’s prescription for the drug Cialis, which (not surprisingly) has turned out to be very effective! OK, it is no longer a natural herb, but the way I see it is Cialis has the advantage of being a well know treatment, with well know side effect and better quality control than the herb suppliers!

Anyway, the way I see it is that chemically enhancing your libido (or just making up for old age) does not really change things WRT to auto-erotic or partner oriented sex. It just means you are unlikely to have to worry about your stamina in either scenario.

Sealed

Enhancing The Rubber Experience. Chemical fixes?

2011-06-27T22:07:00.000Z

After such a long time, I wonder if anyone will come by and read this post? If they do, I wonder how many of them will be moved to jot down a comment or two? I suspect that might depend on what I say. Lets see…

I haven’t written anything here for a while because I was essentially waiting for something... I do write for a reason, and this is because I have found the process of writing has helped me discover the depth of my feelings and help give me the strength of will needed to attempt to achieve some of my fantasies as actual daily life. I also want to write about something someone who shared my fetish might want to read, but there was a problem. I had started to think that I had reached a sort of “Personal Nirvana” but also realised this was the seeds of a problem….

As past readers will have guessed, my perception of my reaching my “Personal Nirvana” was because I am routinely able to achieve my fetish fantasy; which if summarised would read something like “living and working sealed in rubber total enclosure”. Or at least I can say I able to live like this as much of the time as I am ever likely be able to achieve in real life. I also know I am very lucky because I am living in rubber more of the time than most similarly minded people will ever even get the chance to try. But while this is fantastic for me, it means that I was not motivated to write here and also I was starting to struggle to find anything new to say. Meanwhile there is a greater problem: I think I may have lost ambition in my fetish and with this complacency I have started to find it more of a challenge to keep motivated. I became increasingly aware of some of the negative impacts of my chosen dedication to spending my time sealed up, and started thinking of how my time could be spent if I could summon up the courage to peel off my rubber skin. As soon as I could put all this into words I knew I was at a turning point; I could not stay were I was for long, the only question was which direction to go in. Revert back to rubber total enclosure just being a fetish whim I indulged only when I the mood took me, or plough on to “new depths”…

…and I have made my decision. It is time to experiment with new depths of perverted experience to see if this new ambition will revitalise my motivations. So it was time to review my experiences and look at ways to take them to the next level.

I had found that, once acclimatised, being totally enclosed in latex is generally a comfortable experience, although if you want to stay sealed up all day it can involve some physical sacrifices and some (more significant) psychological challenges. I found that the amount of sacrifice I felt I was making did increase as the length of time I regularly spent totally enclosed increased. For a long time I viewed this sacrifice to be just an expression of the dedication to my rubber enclosed existence. As if me, my body and my mind, were a submissive, getting off on submitting to the dominance of my rubber total enclosure fetish – my own in-built master. After all, it was being in rubber “longer than necessary” [for “just” straightforward sexual gratification] that was the centre of my motivating kink. But later I realised the feeling of sacrifice were having a slow but corrosive affect on my motivation levels and I was suddenly getting closer to the end of my will power. Then I looked at which of my sacrifices were actually necessary for my fetish and discovered that my dedication was enough if I was sacrificing spending time on activities that were not rubber compatible. If I were to tackle the remaining challenges in order to keep my mind more constantly focused on my fetish existence, I would have a more sustainable, intense and maybe even a more addictive lifestyle.

To achieve being in rubber as much as my fetish demands of me, I sometimes have had to convince myself that I must don my rubber at all opportunities, even though at that précised moment I did not have any desire to put on my rubber. Once I have got into my rubber I have never regretted being totally enclosed, but sometimes it as much a huge fetish comfort as it has been an intense perverted experience. I feel I need to get back to the intensity of experience where I was oblivious to anything other than the experience of being totally encased in rubber. Nothing short of this would eliminate the corrosive affects on my weakening will power.

It has long been an open question for me as to if my love of things like rubber and being hermetically sealed in a shinny membrane is 100% sexual in origin. It does seem very likely to be connected to sex, but I did have the same fascination in childhood long before sexual maturity. Rather than dwell on that question, what is not in doubt is that it has come to totally define my sex life. Not surprising since I did start out my sex life, at a very early age, totally enclosed in a very thin layer of plastic, complete with re-breathing bag over my head! It is obviously true that for many of us, just being in rubber when sexually aroused is a fabulous experience and this powerful experience transcends any physical or mental discomfort, which instantly melt into insignificance.

Knowing this, I have long believed that a key to maintaining the motivation needed to regularly stay in rubber all day is to try to remain in as sexually excited state as possible - for the entire time I am enclosed in rubber. I want all the sexual tension associated with rubber, the sexual and sensual stimulation of being encased and ideally some of the sensation associated with the beginning of orgasm – but the very last thing I want to do is actually ejaculate.
I have several reasons I try to avoid ejaculation, some practical but also some psychological. Starting with a minor point, I have found being locked in rubber swimming in my own juices is not a delightful state once the sexual drive has weakened (although I have had to learned to live with it!). Excess fluids also put extra strain on the health of skin and rubber. Obviously, once I have ejaculated there is also a post coital refractory period to deal with; when I find it physiologically impossible to have additional orgasms or an erection and (possibly more importantly) I can lose the sexual drive that helps me feel drawn to be totally encased in rubber in the first place. I also often suffer from PCT (post-coital tristesse) which results in melancholy / anxiety.
So in my case, I am always trying to maintain an impossible equilibrium. I am aiming to remain in a state that is somewhere between a purely sensual state and an out an out sexual excitement. As I remain in rubber for hours or occasionally even days, this is a fight that I inevitable lose – often several times in one session. And it is a loss. I have learned to stave off the moment, but I would love to be able to be in total control of my libido as well as being in control of “if” and when I climax to ejaculation…

For any human tying to stay in this sensual/sexual state while in control introduces some further physical challenges and even what seem to be paradoxes if you also are required to “function” beyond sex some of the time you are in rubber (for me this is mainly work but also social contact, chores etc). Luckily, I was blessed with what I consider to be a healthy sexual appetite – but even at my best it has often been a struggle to stay in a sexually aroused hour after hour, day after day. As I get older, I suspect my prodigious sexual appetite has started to return to what would be “normal” levels. But “normal” is nowhere near sufficient for my purposes and so I have started the quest for something to help – yes, I am talking chemical enhancements.

Systematically stated, my aims were to achieve a chemically enhanced libido, chemically enhanced physical delivery of arousal over long than normal periods, chemically enhanced sexual experience and, for when the undesirable (but ultimately inevitable) happens and I lose control, I need a chemically reduced refractory period. For the system to be balanced I need a chemical control to prevent or delay the onset of orgasm to avoid the unpleasant refractory period which is often the greatest test for those totally encased in rubber.

My quest is ongoing but early results have been good. Even with a quick bit of research it became obvious that many companies were marketing products that could help me. I quickly chose initially to go down the herbal medicine / supplement route rather than medical pharmaceuticals as there seemed to be a much greater range of conditions the herbal alternatives were targeting and many more products to choose from - such that I hope to tailor dose “cocktails” specific to my needs.

I was actually prejudiced against herbal medicines when I started, believing them to all be “snake oil” and placebo at best – but I discovered I was wrong. The medicines contain strong active ingredients and many had quick and very unsubtle affects. Some of the products I am trying are aimed at sexual dysfunction, but the mechanisms they used to enhance erections and increase libido deliver much of what I am looking for. For someone who was lucky enough to possess sexual function, taking the supplements has generally had a delightful effect for me, delivering enhanced erections over longer periods and in more physically demanding situations. Also I have seen increases semen production / volume – which enhances my experience and goes some way to help reduce the refractory period. My background libido levels seem to be constantly enhanced.

It early days, and so I am not at the point where I have methodically made my way through all the alternatives. That is only half the reason I am not going to make any specific claims about specific products. The other half is that I think I would prefer to hear other peoples positive experiences rather than me pontificate about something I have only spent a few months researching and self experimenting with. What I will say is that they are all street legal (in UK anyway) and many are available on the high street.

If you are tempted to follow my path, for now you are going to have do your own research and come to your own conclusions - there is lots of info out there on positive and negative impacts of such supplements.

Sealed

[Footnote: Critics and commentators, please try to avoid lazily rolling out the over simplistic “constant state” arguments here and particularly avoid the “variety is the spice of life” type arguments. The temptation is to say there is no stimulation from a constant state experience. Its not there is no value in these comments, but we have been there way, way, WAY too many times and I have nothing new to add to this particular debate. I just don’t agree and if you think that it is applicable to the above situation, you have missed the point and should consider rereading - or going to the pub for some alternative stimulus...]

Monday, 21 June 2010 – Limitations Of A Rubber Dependent Life

2010-06-21T09:17:00.000Z

Does life in rubber limit what you would otherwise do? That’s easy to answer – yes, of course it does! However, I think the way I chose to live MY life in rubber and how it affects the quality of MY life has to be personally assessed against the alternatives. How would MY life be different without such a lot of time in rubber? What, if anything am I missing out on? This will be different for everyone.

Take some extreme examples. Maybe if my childhood dream was to be deep sea diver, wearing rubber and masks would not be such a handicap as it would be if my true vocation was to be a great athlete or a priest or a politician!?!?! Maybe rubber encasement would be a handicap if I were the sort of person who, to feel at ease with myself, had to be totally accepted by the widest possible circle of fiends and society at all times. But some of us are just a little more individual and private. Some of us prefer to socialise with a smaller circle of people who will accept us for who we are, rather than the “norm” of the herd.

I would fail the “loner” test these days, as I have got used to my social life even though it compromises my preferred rubber existence. However, it would be true to say that I am more self contained than some. Irrespective of rubber, I do not fear being alone some of the time, I do not fear the absence of hustle & bustle. I do need my own space and time. Luckily, all of these character factors do help make me more compatible with my rubber oriented life.

And then there is the question of what would I miss if I was not living in rubber? Well, for me, it’s quite a special existence. It’s actually exquisite, and yet so difficult to explain. It all sounds so contradictory when I try. I feel so at home and yet so special. I find it so comfortable and comforting to be sealed from the environment for extended periods, yet it sometimes requires dedication to want to go on after a few hours encasement.

Sleeping through the night in rubber is a huge challenge. In my case, the main challenge is in controlling my body temperature. A challenge I cannot pretend I always win. In particular, I have found that in summer I would usually over-heat if I am sharing a bed with my partner while I am totally encased in rubber.

Disrupted sleep and the general requirements of sharing life with others mean I cannot pretend to be in rubber anywhere close to 24/7. But I do still aim for a life where being sealed in my rubber skin is my normal state and everything else is just minor and hopefully brief inconveniences.

Do I wear rubber under my street clothes? Sometimes I do and it can be a great comfort. The challenge comes because often it is not possible to predict the temperature of the environments I will encounter. For example I find that public transport involves an unpredictable range of temperatures and levels exertion and I recommend it should be avoided by the rubber encased person! I like to avoid the embarrassment of leaving puddles everywhere or getting heat stroke – both frequent companions in my early days.

If I can predict the conditions are “rubber person compatible” I generally always wear rubber under my clothes. As well as being potentially enjoyable it also feels far more tolerable and clean against skin that is acclimatised to a “rubber epidermis”. If directly against my skin, cotton (and the like) feels scratchy and, frankly, soggy and unsanitary in areas like the crotch, pits and feet. If you are reading this and not in rubber, you are probably unaware and acclimatised to the feeling of sitting in your slightly sweat moistened socks, underwear and T-shirts – but I have lost much of my tolerance to it and it feels as strange to me as wearing rubber gloves would do to most people.

I often read of people wearing rubber suits under their street clothes, even when they know they will be in close proximity of vanilla friends, family & colleagues. They seem to imply that they can go undetected – but I wonder. I believe that even a all-in-one suit with a T-Shirt top would be detectable at the neck (and probably sleeves) unless you were wearing very buttoned up high neck collar. So either these people are braver than me and don’t care if a bit of rubber is showing or they are fooling themselves and people around them are suspicious or aware that they are wearing a rubber under-layer.

For situation where it is important to minimise the chance of discovery and upsetting people, I opt for a one piece suit which has a vest top (no sleeves, neck entry, no zips) under my street clothes as it is generally undetectable.

When not wearing street clothes, I generally do wear a neck or shoulder entry suit. My preference is for a neck entry suit with attached feet as it avoid problems with leaking, but anything with a high neck line or sleeves can be difficult to disguise under street clothes. The one piece suit I am in today has a single waterproof zip across back of the shoulders and is a practical everyday solution for those who crave a totally hermetically sealed existence.

So, back to the main topic. Do I think that life in rubber limit what I would otherwise do? Inevitably to some degree it does, but maybe not to the extent it would for others. Do I think I would be better off not living in rubber? Clearly not or else I would not still be in this rubber skin of mine! Am I 100% confident I am making the right decisions? I am afraid not… I ask the question regularly, but keep making the same choice, but how can I know what it would be like to make the opposite choice? There would only be one sure way to find out and I guess I am not convinced I would want to risk trying a path without rubber.

Sealed

2009-10-27T11:57:00.002Z

Its funny how changes in your life can go unnoticed for a very long time. A series of small changes to your daily routine all add up and then one day you realise the way you live your life is nothing like what it once was. Some bad habits can creep in or maybe some small improvements are made.

The tricky bit for me is to decide on which changes are good and to spot any bad habits.

The changes I am talking about are, of course, related to my fetish which by its very nature is all-encompassing – a dominant factor in my life. Some may say this fact alone is a bad habit, but to me a habit is a bad habit only if it affects your ability to do the things you wanted or needed to do (or severely affect your own health other people in any way).

For certain, my fetish has rarely affected what I wanted or needed to do, at least in the past. The thing is, things have progressed bit by bit to what even I find a more extreme way of living and so I think it is about time to re-appraise. But that is easier said than done. Unpicking guilt associated with my social/cultural deviation from the very real possibility I may be letting things go too far in my quest to take me to my life to new highs of experience.

It impossible to do everything, so I have willingly chosen to pair down my life to a considerable degree in order to dedicate it to support my fetish aims. Certainly I am still discovering new levels sensual existence, along with just how sealed in you can be when eliminate as many time consuming commitments as possible, which previously prevented me from being in rubber.

Also I don’t have anything in my mind that I think I may be missing out on, but it’s easy to be paranoid when you are living hermetically sealed from the majority of society. Essentially I can do all the things I decided I needed to be able to do going into this, but know I can hardly be impartial deciding on what new things to do if they turn out to compromise my rubber lifestyle. It would impossible to be impartial when everything that goes with living in my rubber skin just feels so right for me…

I do feel like rubber is my true skin and I love being in my rubber support system. I feel so pure in here. I now find it is more comfortable to be in rubber and creepy to be in other clothes. I feel so clean, I feel alive in my rubber and dull (un-dead) when I am not. For some reason, which I cannot fathom, I feel so masculine to be in my rubber skin. Its certainly part of my personal self image.

I dread being out of my rubber skin. Being in rubber is so calming and the time out of rubber feels almost hysterical. When putting on my rubber, I crave that last item completing the seal and then I know I feel normal again.

What frequency and degree of rubber hermetic seal feels normal now is what is interesting. Certainly it has to be more complete and total than it did. If trend continues, I have to wonder what it might restrict what I am able to do in the future…

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“Am I Addicted? Is That A Problem?”

2009-02-12T16:07:00.001Z

or “A funny thing that happened to me on the M4”…

As you probably all know, I am lucky enough to spend most days in rubber as I work from my home office and have no limitation on what I can wear as long as I can work and live in it. For me, that means I can usually be found totally encased in rubber from head to foot, often several layers and with mask, tubes etc. I know I am is an amazingly lucky to have to opportunity and I do not squander the chance to be totally enclosed. I am told it is not to everyone’s takes, but I have no idea why. To me it is a totally amazing feeling and the more time I can dedicate to spending totally sealed in rubber, the better the feeling gets.

But am I addicted or dependent on rubber? Well here is an episode that got me thinking.

I had to attend a work meeting a 5 hours + trip from home in order to stimulate some work to allow me to work from home for another couple of months and so live in rubber. I packed my stuff, just in case I needed to be there for more than a day and set off. This sort of thing is an essential part of my life and I thought very little about it.

It’s hard to explain what happened that day but as soon as had finished my work I found I could not make it home. It was a little like a feeling of hysteria or panic or maybe it would be better to say it felt something like disgust was building up in me, This was after less than 24 hours since I had been encased in latex and this is the quickest time the craving for my rubber skin had returned to an such an unbearable level. It usually takes days for the feeling to even start building.

I reasoned it was probably because I had previously been lucky enough to have been in rubber every single day for weeks – and this is rare, even for me. It seems that this sudden transition was too much of a mental shock for me. I ended up checking myself into a hotel and knew I must immediately seal myself totally in my rubber to calm down, and then stay in there for as long as it took to build up the resources to make it home.

I know how this sounds (mad!) and I am positively not the hysterical type. OK, if it was vital, I am sure I could have got home, but I really had the feeling that I did not want to put myself through that. It was all very strange.

The hours that rolled into days of my extended session in the hotel was incredibly satisfying on a sensual level, but it was also a slightly scary experience. I tried to blank it from my mind, but kept asking myself, what happens if I get to a stage where I cannot spend more than a few hours without being encased in rubber?

I did get back after a couple of nights in the hotel and I have been in rubber most days since that episode, but I know now there is a time coming in a week or so when I may have to spend whole days working on the customer’s site without my rubber skin. This fills me with loathing and dread. What if I actually become hysterical and cannot make it through the working day? I don’t think I have ever felt this way before, and it may not happen if I keep myself busy, but this fear has been building very slowly for the last few years.

I feel the only way that would work is to plan to spend progressively more time out of rubber in the days before I need to work the whole day at the customer site. But it is important to understand why I cannot not do this. I made a solemn promise to spend all my time in rubber unless there was a specific reason that prevented me and I cannot break this promise. It’s a vital rule that has made it possible for me to be able to dedicate myself to this wonderful, yet often challenging and sometimes uncomfortable life. I must remain in rubber until I am required to be in public where I must suddenly be without my protective rubber layer.

This is the basis of the challenge I live with. It is actually very testing to be totally enclosed in rubber for long periods most days of your life. I found a long time ago that during periods when I am able to be in rubber every single day without a more than 24 hour gap, it actually gets a lot easier to live in rubber that when there is a gap between rubber episodes. So I decided I must mentally commit to daily total rubber enclosure, whenever possible in order to make my life comfortable enough to be tolerable and so meet my lifestyle goal.

Now after years of this life, I seem to have found that if you do spend weeks in rubber every day, it seems that the mental adjustment means you find it much more mentally challenging to suddenly spend time out of rubber than the physical and mental challenge of being in rubber.

Originally I thought I had been given only 3 months to experiment with this lifestyle, so decided it was a golden opportunity. I thought it must be worth experimenting with the idea of a total rubber existence while I could. I imagined it as an extended kinky rubber vacation. As it turned out the opportunity lasted much longer and then I started to take difficult and risky career decisions to see if I could make it last longer. The opportunity to work in rubber has lasted for many years now, with only a few gaps and so I must honor my promise while I can because I never know when it must end.

So I guess this is the basis of my how I became dependant on rubber. Being so mentally dependant of rubber is perversely comforting – its as if I have reached a new level of perversion. So the question is: is the rubber dependency developing to have a pathological aspect? Should I be worried or excited? Is this a mental addiction or am I deluding myself like a rubber hypochondriac?

Sealed

Monday, 29 December 2008

2008-12-30T00:32:00.000Z

Sometimes simple cheap things remind you of what it all about and also reminds you of the habits that have set in. Opportunity is a strange thing.

You can discover new perspectives just by grasping a passing opportunity. It makes you think if you would every see things clearly if opportunity did not come along or you did not grasp the opportunities that are presented to you.

Recently I have had the chance to indulge myself without the usual chores, commitments and work getting in the way. I had specific ideas how I would use such a golden opportunity for uninterrupted fetish fun - I view my fetish as fairly well expressed in my everyday wear and was think along the lines of more of the same and probably just a little more extreme. Then I did something out of character and had an impulse buy. As I am not a natural shopper and not particularly spontaneous, purchasing something I have not been coveting for months is a bit weird – but there it was - something to remind me of the fun of it all.

Such a simple thing - a cheap hood made of clear PVC. Yes that right, not rubber and not expensive like all rubber stuff. The hood in question was an inflatable hood and came with a re-breather bag.

OK – yes, I have had rubber inflatable hoods and even whole suits that were inflatable and yes I have bought many rubber re-breather bags over the years. But when u buy something, a certain spark of imagination is involved when browsing shiny new items that dusty cupboards may not rival.

The imagination was simply sparked by the memory of the intense sensation of being in a hood that is pumped up to press hard against every inch of your head. The total reliance on the breathing rubber. The deadening of sound and the effect on all other senses. Then add on a breathing bag where you have total control on what you can breathe…

Once I had bought the hood, I was not disappointed by the experience. It was just as I had imagined and for me total bliss mmm…

But then, once I had adjusted to the intensely suffocating atmosphere I had time to reflect on my usual fetish gear… And how familiar and “standard” it has become.

You see, my usual gear has to be totally enclosing while also being practical and functional. I am in my rubber skin so much that it has to be this way. Sensory deprivation and inflatable mummification has not always played a major part in daily life, even a rubber fetish oriented life like mine. Practicality dictates I need to be able to hear, see and feel to perform my work and chores. My rubber skin has to be comfortable for long periods, compatible to my body needs and to some extent take into account my environment. On a given day I may even need to be able to get out of my full hood/mask fairly quickly (30 secs) in case where I need to communicate with a non-rubber person.

So, while my usual rubber outfits have expressed my full-enclosure rubber fetish perfectly, it also is essentially designed for practicality – practical rubber is a great achievement I guess but a bit of a shock to me and makes me think of what I might have been missing out on in the last few years of developing my current “style” of rubber attire. If you do not need to be in there for more an hour or three, a much more intense experience if tenable.

Having the opportunity to go beyond the practical has tantalised me and make me think of the extreme fun I can still have “out of hours”. Why do I not mix my usual practical wear for majority of daily life but spiced up with more fun/extreme stuff for short periods during the day or occasional long sessions dedicated to hedonism.

Such a simple experience brought about by a cheap purchase has certainly got my imagination going. An imagination that has been perhaps stifled too much by practical considerations? An imagination that has not stayed along these paths since the days when my fetish was expressed by just occasional and relatively short sessions. Now rubber is a regular habit, bound up by practicality, I wonder if I am missing anything else from these early and intense experiences? I will certainly be trying to find time to remember.

Sealed

Monday, 29 September 2008 - “Golden Rules”

2008-09-29T13:23:00.000Z

This is a post about self discipline, goals and “Golden Rules”, but first I would like to say thanks for all the lovely comments I have had here, by email and via messages on rubberal (my profile is http://www.rubberpal.com/profiles/Sealed). It pleasing that momentum has slowly developed over the last few years such that I have such lovely readers. A particular welcome to ozrubberpony who has apparently been reading for quite a while, but just made posted his first [I believe] comments on my blog. Well I am glad you did, because it got me thinking…

One of the things that has been discussed are techniques to get past the various hurdles that stop us enjoying the “nirvana” of the subtle sensuous existence that awaits those who stay sealed in rubber for longer periods.

One of the techniques is to set rules concerning when you can, and can not, peel yourself out of your second skin. Like minimum times and also breaking the link with things that tempt to you out of rubber. For example, as reported many time before, I used to get a strong impulse to get out of my rubber (and my hood in particular) after sex and this seems to happen to a lot of people. The impulse started soon after I had ejaculated. I partly put this down to wanting to get myself clean, but it still happens when I am “fully plumbed” when I actually stay totally clean after any penile fluid emissions.

For now, it doesn’t really matter why many of us get the impulse. What matters is how we deal with the reality and this boils down to two pretty good approaches I use in tandem. One is to avoid actual ejaculation for as long as I can in order to reduce the number of times I need to deal with the desire to undress. The other is to set a “Golden Rule” that I am not allowed to remove my rubber for at least one hour after I finally spurt. This is actually far longer than the desire to disrobe lasts, so it is guaranteed to put me on an emotional even keel when I make that decision – do I stay or do I go. In making this a “golden rule” that I must always obey, it soon breaks the psychological connection between the sex (orgasm at any rate) and when I wear rubber. It does take self-discipline but the good news is that this becomes very much easier as time goes on. The more you get used to always obeying a rule, the less you think about it and just get on and “endure” – which of course help you to not even think about your tempting bad habit. In fact the desired behaviour becomes habitual to the extent that breaking the rule would feel odd and undesirable.

Now ozrubberpony says that he sets targets for duration, his default being 3 hours although admits to sometimes only managing an hour, then regretting the need to got out of his rubber. I would like to suggest that this pattern is not making it easy for him to adjust correctly to spending time living in rubber. Such irregular patterns are going to reinforce the bodies reaction to what it will feel is a novel exciting experience, rather than an ordinary (if highly sensual) part of daily existence. This will result in an overload in body senses, resulting in a physiological over-compensation (blush reflex, sweating, blood pressure, respiration etc) which will contribute to over excitement and early sexual climax. This will manifest itself into a “habit” of wearing rubber where this fairly short cycle to repeats itself each session.

Targets are good for extending endurance, but to avoid the cycles building into bad habits, a set of Golden Rules around entry/exit of rubber are needed. So, what should be the rules? Well that may be best decided on the individual but should be based on avoiding the bad habit they are trying to avoid. As a ball park, I think ozrubberpony’s 3 hours should be the absolute minimum time spent totally enclosed in any session.

For me, I only ever allow myself to get into my rubber if I know I can guarantee I will be in there for at least 4 hours. 4 hours is just about long enough in my mind to make the session more than a quick thrill with one objective. And, because of the all-or-nothing type nature of such a rule, it also has the side effect of encouraging me to find at least 4 hours where I can be in rubber.

Today, if circumstances dictate my day only contains a single mere 4 hour session, I would feel like it was just top up to keep me in rubber condition. While 4 hours is my golden rule, 7 hours is my target minimum. The minimum amount of time that to me feels “right” on a daily basis that I would prefer to be totally enclosed in rubber. Anything else now feels like a deprivation.

Documenting or, even better, publicly announcing rules and targets to your peers gives them added strength. Like I say, Golden Rules and targets may be for individuals to set themselves, but 7 Golden Rules that I follow and would like to commit to publicly are:

1. If there are things in my life, lifestyle, personal life or work life that are getting in the way of spending serious time in rubber daily, I must make (constant) efforts to change them! [Sounds extreme? Well, be prepared as that’s the level of dedication and sacrifice it is likely to need to live any significant amount of time totally enclosed in rubber on a daily basis. The degree to which you compromise on this rule will dictate the amount of time available for rubber living.]
2. When deciding if I should put on normal or rubber clothes, I must choose total enclosed in rubber unless there is a specific reason why I can or should not.
3. I must only don rubber if I am sure I should be able to stay enclosed for at least 4 hours. This forward planning must take into account mundane commitments and practicalities like temperature, state of health etc. It does not take into account whether I am in the mood for long rubber session or not!
4. If I cannot be totally enclosed for some reason, I must be as encased in rubber as I can manage. For example, if I cannot wear a mask because I am taking part in a video conference, then I cannot use this as an excuse to not wear rubber from the neck down.
5. I should avoid circumstances where there are more than 3 days between rubber sessions as this makes it more difficult to re-acclimatise on the next session.
6. I must never take rubber off within an hour of ejaculation.
7. I must get out of my rubber skin if I believe that by staying enclosed I am likely to overheat, dehydrate, irritate my skin or suffer any other symptom that may significantly affect my ability to be totally enclosed in rubber the following day (or next planned session). As this rule is concerned with making rubber life sustainable in the longer term, it overrides other rules. If this rule is exercised, lessons should be learned to try to avoid the circumstances that led to the rule being used in future sessions.

I do have some personal targets in mind (like x number of hours rubber enclosure per session/day/month etc) and have even used this blog to state targets in the distant past. However, currently I am avoiding publicly stating my targets as I am interested to see if my 7 simple rules automatically achieve them. I have found rules are easier to stick to than arbitrary targets. I am hopeful that the rules should result in me achieving my aims and so far they have worked a treat. But if they do not, watch this space…

Hope some of my readers set themselves a rule or two as I know that it will help them achieve the next level.

Sealed

Letter from Milano...

2008-06-18T22:52:00.001Z

Thanks for comments from all and welcome back Magumsmoker. Good to hear from you again. How is it going?

To bring u up to date, I am still living a rubber total enclosure oriented life which has a fair amount of breath control and a lot (too much?) popper use…

Important: What is described below is an honest account of my legal use of chemical stimulation and I am not promoting or advocating you follow my example. I am not proud or ashamed - I have just come to accept my use/abuse as a personal indulgence and an unhealthy one that I accept as part of my (current) way of life. Use your own brain to come to your own decisions….

As previously mention in this blog, poppers started becoming a regular (often daily) thing when I first got serious about changing my life to achieve my fetish ambitions. It was when I made it a self imposed rule that I must live in my rubber skin every day when there was no specific reason why I could not. The poppers instantly become a daily part of the experience. This was to provide (what I thought would be) an initial temporarily coping mechanism to help make the transition to enclosure more bearable daily experience – not to mention enjoyable. I used poppers to get over the initial adjustment to the auto erotic over stimulation of living totally sealed in rubber, but somehow, despite some long periods of abstinence, I have never made it to the point where I would chose to live in rubber for very long without my chemical crutch. I have found that my chemicals cocktail are just too much of a pleasantly compatible combo with rubber life to give them up. This despite the knowledge that such a dependency is pathological (probably much worse that smoking).

At some point I rashly decided to experiment with the idea that I would give up controlling popper intake to wean myself off them and deliver myself to the oblivion of constant background use. The idea was that a very, very small constant dose would have the desired coping effects, without the intoxicating rush of traditional delivery methods that temporarily but regularly stopped me from functioning adequately in my daily tasks and, in many cases, coping as a coherent human being. I knew that this was probably folly, but enquiring minds needed to know, so extensive experiments were necessary.

The popper feed was something I dabbled with and had mixed results with and, frankly, I eventually gave up on as a regular thing, while I was refining other aspects of my kinky existence. I never reported that much on it at the time as I thought I would some day return to it and perfect it for everyday use.

Anyway, seeing as I was asked, what I did was take the essence of what Magnumsmoker has developed and adapted it for my use. For everyone else benefit, this was essentially a semi-automated, on-demand mechanism for efficiently delivering a popper dose. A portable electric air pump plumbed into a mixing vessel that could deliver a dose of popper vapor along a small bore tube connected into a gas mask. This would mix with air from the filter and produce a tolerable, but very strong dose that would deliver a suitably mind bending popper rush. Potentially this would be a much stronger and sustained experience than even sniffing direct from the bottle (which in itself is ignoring the manufacturer’s instructions).

I adapted this design for my own objectives. I wanted to see what it would be like to experience something a little less intense but over a long period – hours or maybe even all day. I therefore needed something that would work while I was at any angle – from upright, while sitting through to playing in bed. This made the portable pump less practical as inversion and gravity could potentially deliver the entire contents of a bottle in seconds – which would probably be fatal given my mask/hood combo is often locked around my neck. So for a prototype I came up with a “base station” design where the poppers and pump were static and a very long umbilical style (thin) tube connected my mask to the base station. As portability was not an issue, the system was a mains powered (aquarium) pump rather than battery powered, so would pump on days/months/years if necessary. The pump had its own flow regulating control and this was augmented with extra throttle and dump valves to fine tune the experience.

The tether of the umbilical is very long but ultimately limiting to some degree, but it also added a certain restraint appeal. It’s retraining influence making me feel more dependent on the lifestyle support systems of the base station. That was quite kinky in itself.

Another kinky aspect was that you were relinquishing control of your dose and to the machine. In “normal” popper consumption you are in control of the dose and sniff more as and when you think you want the more effect. You stop when you have had your fill. By handing over total control of the dose to the machine, you are handing control of your physical and mental experience and so it is a submissive act. This is very stimulating for me as well as a major mind fuck!

The delivery of poppers in a well controlled dose was reasonable success, although it varied depending on the charge of poppers in the reservoir and the back pressure of the gas mask and operation of the masks associated non-return valves. It certainly could have been developed further, but essentially if tweaked every hour or so, it could be controlled to deliver a consistent small dose whenever I breathed in, and stopped delivery when I breathing out (to avoid wasting chemicals).

The initial experiments tended to fail as far too high a dose was delivered. As this could be quite fun, it took quite a few attempts before lower doses than normal were achieved. Then there the effect was so initially subtle it was difficult to judge if enough was being delivered or too much. This was compounded as the effects tend to slowly accumulate in the body over time such that what seems like too little can gradually build to become too much. And if I got the dose too low, it might become difficult to know how long to wait before turning up the flow (while all the time getting frustrated and “over heated”).

There were times when I got things close to perfect, and enjoyed hour after hour of pleasant chemical emersion, but generally the experience made it difficult to function or cope beyond the realms of living a erotic, sensual, over stimulated psychotropic experience. Any task that was not connected with rubber, sex or satisfying my fetish became challenging. Achieving simple everyday functions would require expending disproportionate amounts of determined will power. This level of resolve could never be sustained for long in the face of such pleasure and it would no be long before I would find myself falling back into the heavenly abyss of total chemical rubber sensual emersion.

As an occasional or even regular distraction for a few hours it showed promise, but as a day in day out lifestyle it looked hopeless without considerable refinement. My fortunate position of being able to live my daily life in rubber was dependent on my being able to work from my home office. Not being able to function at any level beyond the hedonistic for the majority of the day was a major problem!

Then there was the shear chemical consumption. I could go through a bottle of poppers in hours and even when rationing heavily I would go through several bottles a week. This all comes with cost and the worry of its side effects – the immediate effects being on a par with a hangover.

Then there was the worry of the constant state becoming the norm, as proposed by Dark in his comment relating to constant rubber encasement. This risk of adjustment to a constant state (or constant intake) seems to apply slightly more to chemicals than to rubber encasement, although it is a complex subject. On the other hand you also seemed to get sensitized to some chemicals, such that you can actually become more badly intoxicated by something you abuse.

So for regular use I have gone back to simpler on-demand intake of poppers, basically as and when I need them. In some circumstance this could mean a good part of most days, but I seem to go through very distinct and varied cycles of chemical need.

The biggest thing I miss with this is handing control over to the machine. In fact I would like to hand over more control to such devises, such as controlling the air I breathe in addition the chemical dose as well other functions.

One day I will return my efforts to such devices. That’s why I am always interested to hear about other peoples ideas and experiences. Feel free to share here what it is like to experience systems similar to my constant popper feed.

Sealed (spending June 2008 in Milano)

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

2008-06-03T21:43:00.000Z

I would like to correct any impression that still remains that I specifically aim to have multiple orgasms in my rubber suit, each time quickly trying to regain my heightened sexual state and erection, just to repeat the experience as quickly as I can. Given the last post it is hard to see how yu could have that impression, but commenter here and elsewhere may lead some into that belief. It would be more accurate to say that such occurrences are difficult to avoid when you spend as much time as I do totally sealed up in rubber with a high libido and the aim of living in a heightened sensual state. As I already hinted, I actually aim to avoid, or at least hold off on achieving ejaculative orgasm in order to comfortably achieve my fetish aims of spending long periods in a rubber stimulated state. Staying sexually stimulated but safely short of genuine ejaculation makes living in rubber feel really great to me, whereas the initial period after can be the most unpalatable (and soggy!). But I have not achieved perfection and find I do regularly fail, sometimes not making it through the day without coming several times and rarely making it though more than a couple of days. If I ever did find I could go for days or weeks without coming, then maybe I would need to set some new goals…

And that leads nicely on to the Viagra question. Well it is a big NO partly as it would be very dangerous when mixed with poppers and partly as it is not been necessary for me, so far…

I don’t like to contradict, but in the right circumstances I do find it possible or even unavoidable to hold on to some degree of my erection for hours on end, although I admit the intensity may go though regular cycles. And maybe it is a factor that changes with age.. I certainly seemed to remember being in an almost constant state if erection at the most inappropriate moments when I was in my teens :o) And yet in the last few years I have found the associated over excitement and resulting loss of control seems to have become less of a “problem”. Again maybe a factor of age but also probably as the effects of familiarization with my regular rubber encasement and the use (abuse?) of poppers which I take to curb my enthusiasm and shape my experience…

OK, so my normal daily experience is nothing like the intense experience of the build up of sexual tensions and passion in “regular” sex. Think of it as more like a sensual existence. Like living in the period of the very initial unexpected stirrings of lust found in a teenager’s pants, when some animal instinct inside them is awakened by the passing of the object of their desires. Not a rising crescendo of passion, but quite a nice feeling all the same…

Sealed

8th May 2008 is too hot

2008-05-08T15:28:00.001Z

Hi to all who responded here or elsewhere. This post is inspired but the feedback and questions I have had, although keen not to do just Q & A and broaden things out.

To quash a possible misunderstanding (particularly for newer readers), I better say that I am NOT looking to spend weeks, months or years in rubber, without ever coming out for even a short break. It’s not for me to say that 24/7/365 would not be possible, but it is well beyond my current aims (I am not going to be drawn on 23/7, 22/7 etc either).

I am also not really a typical masochist and would not object to having a comfortable existence while encased in rubber, although I have often had to accept the sacrifices and mild hardships of my chosen rubber life. I sometime have chosen to enjoy this woe – for what else should I do when you think the pros outweigh the cons?

However, I am not aiming to be uncomfortable / very hot / wet / slimy or smelly. These are “luxuries” that are not compatible with a regularly living life in rubber. To this end I identified a sort of hierarchy of needs for a rubber encased person quite a while back (see Wednesday, 23 November 2005) and what I AM doing is just tackling those challenges, one at a time to steadily extend the amount of time I could and often do actually spend in total enclosure. I am not pretending I am near the end of the list and have been in this suit all week, as I have not. You will be disappointed to hear I cleaned and changed this morning…

Then the question of chastity has come up a lot recently. And, you know I think I have discovered some odd truths there. I never imagined I had any real understanding, empathy or connection with those who practice chastity. The fact that I never, ever, seem to manage to go for more that a few days without gushing forth semen seemed to make such a suggestion seem ridiculous. But, you know, things might be relative…

For someone like me who is lucky to have the opportunity to be aroused 24 hours a day in a fetish rich lifestyle, my abstinence is perhaps “relative”. The aim of my life seems to have developed to the point where I am trying to stay as stimulated and sexually alive as possible, for as much time as possible. All this while trying desperately to not get overexcited and stave off, for as long as I physically can, the inevitable orgasmic ejaculation. It results in a life of extended periods of great tension which seems to reach new levels after long periods of having my base instincts tempted. True, this eventually translates into a more sensual than purely sexual feeling eventually, but its a magically energising experience non the less.

The origin of my behaviour is a little tricky to identify and maybe my explanations are cyclic. It could be said to have its origin as part of my aim of trying to keep as dry as possible in my rubber skin. Dryness is very important to me as it enables me to spend longer and longer encase in rubber, without worrying about as much about skin problems. Then there is the undeniable association between my fetish and being in a state of having a high libido. Wanting more than anything to be in rubber when my sap is rising, while (I suspect we have all experienced this) the reversal of this feeling is often true for a brief period after orgasm. Avoiding, or at least delaying experiencing a post coital condition (with associated post-rubber symptoms) aids me in the achievement of my fetish dream - of spending long periods living a highly sensual life in my rubber skin. Like I said, its a little cyclic and self fulfilling.

Maybe once I set myself the golden rule that I must avoid stripping out of my rubber skin pot coital, I set up the chain reaction that conditioned me to live my lifestyle. But that does not explain why I wanted it so bad in the first place.

Moving on to cover the perennial “steady state” when applied to extended and longer term encasement argument, which seems to stick to my blog like limpet!. OK I guess it was an interesting conundrum, once. I accept there is probably some truth in that a person’s perception adjusts to a steady state. Yes I see how you might think it would adversely affect the novelty of long term enclosure and it certainly does to some degree. It’s not that I don’t understand the argument. It is just that practical experiments (rather than grand theories) means that I can empirically state that for me, my enjoyment and dedication to my fetish is enhanced by more regular, longer and more total rubber encasement. Now, if you like, why don’t we move the argument on to examine WHY this is TRUE for me while accepting the steady state theory (unless the aim is to brain washed me into thinking I am not happy in here… which I really am - honest!).

Just maybe it would be true if I truly did live 24/7/365 totally enclosed, but let’s not pretend I do. I would certainly risk finding out if we ever cracked the million and one little challenges that are currently stopping anyone from anything more than partial success there :o)

I don’t have all the answers, but I know there is a fine dividing line between too intense and too bland a stimulus. I feel I should say that it is untrue to think you can wear the rubber and associated plumbing that I wear and be able to totally ignore it for any length of time, even if I were luck enough to wear it every single day of the year. The truth is almost the opposite – unless I wear it pretty much daily, when I do wear it the experience is too intense and it is difficult to handle the stimulus. A break of a week and I am almost out of control the first day back in rubber. Adjusting to become familiar with the sensation is what I need to stay sane and functional. Now I have lost too many “first days back” fighting the instinct to fuck myself to death to want to spend too long out of rubber. Sounds like addictive behaviour? No shit Sherlock, that has occurred to me once or twice! :o)

Yes, you can and do forget you are in rubber for a while, but my encasement is just extreme enough to have strength to inevitably and regularly snap back onto full focus, suddenly dominating my consciousness. Typically what might happen is just when I have forgotten; the slightest movement sends a cascade of rubbery reminding sensations across my body. In fact these delicious moments are the side effect of the very temporarily reality of the steady state theory when applied to my encasement. Delicious because, in an instant, the full impact of my total encasement is played out across my senses and, much more importantly the full “horror” floods your mind. Yum…

My goodness it’s getting hot today.
Sealed

Monday, 31 March 2008 - To be a plumbed rubber object

2008-03-31T12:38:00.001Z

Last time I mentioned the use of plumbing and pissing pants to allow for longer periods of total rubber enclosure without having to use suits with zip opening. For me, zips can be troublesome and can impair the total rubbery “sealed-ness” of the experience, so it’s a subject I am persistently trying to improve on. That’s why there are quite a few posts on the subject.

Although I admit to appearing to be a little preoccupied by my plumbing, its not that I started out totally fixated by body functions. However, I have long been obsessed about extending the amount of time I can live comfortably sealed in rubber and dealing with body functions just became part of that quest.

As time has gone on, I must confess that I feel some auto-erotic pleasure from just the thought of devising clean and neat rubbery solutions to what would otherwise be mundane necessarily. It’s also partly to do with giving over control to my rubber suit – which is also partly my life support – as, when perfected, everything coming into and out of my body would be managed by a rubbery extension to my latex cocoon. The all encompassing nature of this is very much a turn on for me.

The wrong (under-)trousers?
So are the rubber sheath pissing pants the perfect answer? I would say not and so I am experimenting with alternatives. I touched on some of the drawbacks in my last entry, including the feel being so different and being initially overpowering for regular use.

There is also the question of how effective they are. When worn in combination with a sheath suite they provide an acceptably dependable solution to pissing, but this combo is just too intense and different from my tastes. I have also worn them in my heavy rubber neck entry suit (diver dry suit style) where they feel a little better, but are less reliable with more potential for a small proportion of piss backing up and eventually leaking into the main suit. Not nice when you might be in there for the rest of the day.

As an alternative I have tried a set of pissing pants I bought recently in Expectations (London). I think these pants are made in Germany, they come with optional rubber collection bag with leg straps and I suspect they are actually intended for women, not men. They are open crotch black pants with a semi transparent large pouch bonded to the crotch – which dangles between the legs and is plumbed to a rubber pipe at it’s lowest point.

When worn by me, the pouch forms a snug home for the penis and balls. When I piss, the pouch collects the urine and it drains into the rubber leg bladder. As this is of limited capacity, particularly given it is in a fairly tight suit, I have modified what happens next. Essentially the leg bladder is also plumbed, this time out of the suit such that it can be pumped empty.

Pros and cons… The pouch is snug before an erection and does not feel like wearing a sheath. However it is very restrictive as soon as I get sexually stimulated, such that it cannot take up its usual fully erect position. This can be quite fun, but also it can be fairly weird and borders on uncomfortable. I have had some degree of success in it effectively plumbing away my piss, although you have to be careful when pissing as it does drain very slowly. If you want to try it yourself, bear in mind it will require some customizing to get it to fit and drain well.

Time will tell if they are better than the sheath pants, but my instinct is that these new pants are more of a prototype than a perfect solution. I think that if it were remade with a more generous pouch, it would be less noticeable to wear and would feel like being in a normal suit/pants/tights. Also, a generous pouch would function / drain better and then the wettest are would be further away from the skin.

After pissing, there would still be a lot of moisture in the pouch, which is undesirable as my genitalia would stay wet, so thinking of ways to deal with this. After pissing, maybe the pouch could be pumped with something to displace the water. I thought of liquid silicon to displace the piss and any other water based moisture. Alternatively I am thinking of an initial flush with clean water, and then pumped with air to drive out moisture. It would probably take very many changes of air to dry out and this could be automated like the cycles of a washing machine.

Other Plumbing

Of course there is more than piss to deal with. There are outputs of shit, gas, sweat and even saliva and mucus. There are also inputs of air, fluid and food.

Inputs are not really the limiting factor. If you are happy to breathe air from the outside environment (even if though a mask, cylinder, bag or tube) you don’t need to deal with the other inputs for many hours - and when necessary I have been able to go without even fluid for several days.

If you make sure you take steps to stay cool, it will be the piss problem that you hit first, probably after just a few hours. As I now have working solutions for piss and can see that I will be able to optimize these to reliably enable ever longer and longer endurances, the other requirements are at last looking to become limitations which I need to tackle.

When think of a regular session, I often find that I need to shit at least once every 24 hours. About this time frame, even when I take care not to overheat, the moisture levels in my suit are starting to become significant. At the moment I deal with this by at least one complete change of rubber every day and I have to make sure I shit just before putting on a new suit to give me enough endurance. In practice, to live a comfortable life, this brings down my time in rubber to considerably less than 24 hours. So I would like to come up with a plumbing solution – which will essentially be to have my anus plugged with enema tubes while in my suit.

Now as I have been concentrating on pissing, I have not actually got around to plumbing myself up to a enema – but I have started experiments and training. The first thing that will be difficult to get used to will be wearing a plug all the time. I have started training by “wearing” a couple of very modest rubber pipes. As anyone who has tried but plug will know, this take a lot of getting used to. In my case I think I have a smaller orifice (tight arse!) which makes the whole thing a bit mind bending. After a while the modest anal intrusion feels somewhere between unbelievably stimulating and quite uncomfortable.

I have been told that butt plugs and the like get easier to take after a while so I am persisting. Training is tough however, as imagine the pipes being trapped under all your rubber – which you committed to being locked into all day. After a few hours it really starts to drive you mad and you cannot really get at it. Like an itch, you cannot make it go away, all you can do is scratch it (wiggle you butt/pipes), which of course only makes their presence more obvious and intense.

That enough for now, but love to here any constructive suggestions or comments.
Sealed

To be a plumbed rubber object

2008-03-10T12:30:00.000Z

I have long held a desire to be “plumbed” in such a way as to allow me to function comfortably for extended periods without ever breaking the seal on my total rubber enclosure. Over the last few months I have revisited this subject, determined to find workable solutions.

I have tried in-dwelling catheters, which are the ultimate as far as a plumbing solution. However, as you will see from earlier posts, they are not suitable for me. As I may be plumbed all day every day, the solution has to work when I ejaculate, and with in-dwelling catheters I have always experienced pain during climax and discomfort after. I know others have been OK, but guess I am just unlucky.

The most simple solution I have tried is to wear pissing pants (sheath pants complete with drainage tube) under a all in one cat-suit with it’s own sheath. The only holes in this suit are eyes, nostril, mouth and a very small hole in the tip of the sheath that is just large enough to feed the pissing pant’s drainage tube through. The end of the tube is plugged with a valve and the whole bundle sits in a zip up pouch, which is part of the suit. When I need to pass water, I just unzip the pouch and extract my sheathed member, open the valve, point it into the toilet and relieve myself. If I am careful, it can be a successful and clean(ish) operation.

This sheath arrangement is one I “forced” myself to regularly wear over a several months. I say forced, as although it mechanically works fairly well, it is a little difficult to get used to wearing when I am so used to just being in a “normal” rubber suit. Two layers of close fitting rubber over my cock and balls, plus the pouch can feel restrictive and very difficult to ignore! Initially it was very challenging during the normal cycles of varying degrees of penis stiffness.

The rubber used to chafe and so it is more critical to get the correct amount of lubrication. Yet over lubrication (particularly with J-Lube) can lead to the total loss of that delicious rubbery sensation that I desired in the first place.

The other thing I found difficult to get used to was the feeling of my cock and balls being effectively free and outside the restriction of the main suit, albeit in their own triple layer of rubber. The outer pouch is quite lose fitting and do not support my bits. Being more used to them being squished snuggly in a suit, along with the rest of me, it can feel like they are dangling unprotected (which they not really).

Also there is less to “push against” to get that erotic rubber feel flowing across my sex organ. With a normal suit, my penis sits with my body on one side of it and the tightly stretched rubber on the other. With every slight movement of my lower abdomen, hips or legs, the three surfaces move relative to each other to produce the delightful sensation I imagine only male rubber fetishists experience. This can be the intense erotic feel when after instant gratification, or for those of us who like to spend extended periods in their rubber skin, it can also be the gentle but regular sensual reminder of their rubber encased existence.

With the rubber sheathed option, there is the constant distracting sensation of the rubber constriction, but the penis often does not automatically get the same rubber rubbing across you skin feeling I get for free when just living in a normal suit. To get something like that you need to actively engage in a sexual act – either by plugging your rubber member into a sexual partner or masturbation. Both these are great but intense and so hardly a lifestyle.

In fact the intense feeling of being plumbed was part of the challenge which made it more taxing for me to wear for long periods. It was ironic that the plumbing that could help me in my ambition to be totally sealed in rubber for longer, and more completely, was actually initially difficult to handle beyond a brief sexual experience in rubber.

To get to something like the same gentle level of constant rubber stimulation, I often wear yet another layer of thin rubber briefs over the top of everything. Adjusting the fit of these rubber briefs can fine-tune the whole experience.

Eventually I just about got used to regularly wearing the kit. And then I moved on to wearing the pissing pants inside a neck entry rubber suit (diving dry suit style) which meant I had to plumb the pants to a collection bag in the leg of the suit. This bag was in turn plumbed up through the suit to allow it to be periodically emptied. This was all done to achieve a very “sealed in” feel.

More on this, some different pants and other plumbing in a future post.

Love to hear on feedback and tips on this or any other issue related to living in rubber.

Sealed

October 2007: Yet more challenges and a maybe an opportunity…

2007-10-15T10:33:00.000Z

Feel somewhat neglected by me? Do you even remember me? Well I wouldn’t blame you if you don’t… Anyway here I am with a new profile and new posting to let you know I still exist.

Since my last posting, I have been hit by more personal challenges – yet another death, again very close to home. I was badly hit just as I was getting back to my feet. But enough of that…I am starting to come out of that whole black period.

One interesting idea has occurred to me while all this was going on, that I would like to explore via this medium. Imagine that suddenly you are no longer tied by ANY family responsibilities and financially you are suddenly (modestly) independent and don’t have to work to earn money… Suddenly your time would be 100% your own and the prospect of a totally hedonistic lifestyle would be a real possibility.

This could all be hypothetical, of course, so let not get bogged down with individual circumstances, but consider the general concept. Think about what you might choose to do. And what might be wise to do too.

Yes, you could continue to work and now all that money you earn could go into buying fun things rather than paying the mortgage on your house and other bills. If that work was mainly based from home, basically it would be a sort of dream lifestyle for many – where you could surround yourself with all the latest toys while keeping your mind tuned into the working world. Of course your time would not be 100% your own and work commitments and trips would mean you compromise what you could do and wear some of the time.

The alternative is that you could give up work and take whatever downsizing actions that would be necessary to secure your financial future. I sometimes think stepping away from a “consumer lifestyle” may not be as bad I think, as much of the excessive luxury we surround ourselves with is probably a compensation for a time poor (money rich) life we are forced into by work. For example, I ask myself, do I really need such a nice car if I no longer have to travel a gazillion miles a year for work?

Essentially you could call it “very early retirement” and I am assuming an independent income will cover the basic plus enough for some luxuries, including the ever expensive rubber fetish and maybe some travel.

Possibilities that spring to my mind are:

Ø Spend ever more time indulging your fetish fantasy. With enough time, you could aim to get beyond the quick thrills and into the next level of sensual existence, which I have been fortunate enough to have glimpsed, if only occasionally.

Ø Dedicate yourself 100% to living that kinky lifestyle with a commitment that all your actions are now all related to fulfilling and exploring your fetish.

Ø Travel to see fetish friends whenever you want.

Ø Spend as long as you want totally sealed in rubber, building your stamina to days, weeks, months… Lock yourself in and give total control of how long you are in there to someone else.

Ø Adapt your life, your wardrobe and your home to supporting your daily long term rubber enclosure fetish.

Ø Advertise for a rubber slave to share your good fortune with, or sell all your worldly goods and become a (financially independent) latex slave in someone else’s rubber household. Whichever lights your candle, you basically spend all your time fulfilling a sensual life for each other.

If time & commitments was not limiting you and earning money was no longer an essential activity, what would you do with your new found freedom? Do you have fantasies you would need this kind of time to fulfil? Do you believe that a human is capable of living a sublime existence? Or do you take the cynical view (popularised in the Matrix) that humanity would not thrive in a utopian world. That humans thrive from battling towards a ideal as long as it is never achieved?

Also, maybe it’s worth re-examining the list and thinking about how many of these things could be achieved without this windfall?

Sealed

Monday, 23 April 2007- Life and cliché?

2007-04-23T12:14:00.001Z

Is my life is a cliché – the one that goes “the only thing that is constant is change”… It kind of suits me to some degree, but it can be challenging for me and must drive some of my friends and email companions mad!

So much has happened since I lasted posted that even if any of it were on topic, it would be too much to post. Needless to say, I have been living through both “interesting” and tragic times. But at least I can see the end of the tunnel now… or is that a train hurtling towards me?

OK, to catch up and give the briefest of insights, my time living with a terminally ill individual has come to a natural, if sad, conclusion [that is as far off topic I want to go]. During this time, the pressure of the situation and my near house bound existence has taken its toll. The stress of having to drastically increase the amount of time I must live without being encase in my protective rubber skin has also resulted in an almost perpetual feeling of anxiety.

All this has meant weight gain and virtual dependence on alcohol to help me relax! The last week seems to have seen a turning point and I think I should be back to normal in a month or 3.

So, when things settle down here, I just have to wean myself back on to routinely wear rubber for longer and longer periods. I am looking forward to this, but experience leads me to imagine it may well be quite challenging, particularly as the summer is arriving. It’s much easier to take to the idea of being fully encased and snug when there is frost on the windows.

I wonder if it will be as challenging as it was the first time. I seem to remember it was a bit like how people describe growing a beard, quite difficult to feel at all comfortable for quite a while and then all of a sudden, it starts to become the norm. People who eventually shave their beard off also say they could never face the prospect of going through the discomfort of growing one again. I hope this does not apply to me and going back to a more rubber oriented (dominated?) life.

I am wondering if it may make me think again about exactly how I approach it and maybe what I chose to wear, etc. It seems to a god opportunity to re-investigate the whole what / why / where / when of my rubbery existence.

Anyway, I may be calling for practical and moral support as I get back into the fold.

Just before I sign off, I would like to say hi to Brock, who seems to be a serious devotee to the idea of training for a rubber encased life. Welcome to the blog and I hope that we hear more of each others efforts. With what I found of you on the web, it sounds like you have a planned some ideas around particularly ”total” total enclosure, including intubations, which I think many with our interests will find very interesting. I have found that there is so little meaningful info on the topic, such that I would like to encourage sharing of even the most seemingly modest experiences and endurances.

Although I agree with Brock that latex encased lifestyle is totally achievable, no one who has actually tried it would say there are no challenges, compromises or implicit limitations. On the one hand, life can get hellish and even dangerous if someone is locked in TE for even a few hours. On the other, with correct planning and conditions I have been able to spend fairly long periods hermetically sealed with zero contact with the outside world, in total comfort.

Daily life usually comprises of some necessary activities and unexpected circumstances that result in a compromised existence which, while tolerable, could be improved upon in terms of both degree of encasement and comfort. I hope that by everyone sharing ideas the whole rubber existence can be continually improved and fine tuned.

I am hoping we seem some comments or links which lead to descriptions of peoples ideas and experiences. Bear in mind also, if you go for an extreme approach to being totally sealed in rubber or plastic, then I think there’s really no such thing as a short amount of time to spend totally encased.

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Thursday, 15 February 2007

2007-02-15T13:59:00.000Z

Welcome wackyvorlonm ozrubberpony & Calgary rubberman to my blog and very glad u find encouragement from my entries. I think many of us feel a sense of calm when in our rubber skin. Hope u drop by again and let us know how u r getting on. I know I will be keeping an eye on your blogs (Calgary rubberman’s is definitely recommended reading).

By my understanding, Dark is pretty much a lifestyle rubberist after all (although I should leave him to define what that means to him)... We could argue the extent, length of time and totality of the enclosure – but to what end? I happen to prefer the idea of TE (as in including the head), but often have to compromise myself on this aspect. As a very rough guide, I often think a hood and mask doubles the intensity of the TE experience for me and yet probably makes the experience 10 times less easy over 24 hours. Think about physical comfort (ears!), socially acceptability of appearance, breathing (particularly when asleep), over-heating, communicating (both muffles voice and loses facial expression), drinking, eating…

Sleeping is tricky to master in rubber TE. I found that even if you managed it one night, that is not the same as EVERY night. As we tend to sleep for just the bare minimum time that our mind and body needs, any disturbance to your comfort, however slight, can lead to fatigue after a few days of disrupted sleep.

Earlier last year I did manage to teach myself to be able to regularly sleep in fairly extreme TE when away on business – but must admit to finding the same thing more challenging to habitually achieve when at home.

This brings me on to the concept of a diary or log as described by ozrubberpony. I have often found that this is a very good way to reach “the next level” in achieving my fetish lifestyle. Just setting targets a little higher each day can focus the mind on gradually increasing your “endurance” (OK, for me, it is little to do with physical “endurance” and a lot to do with ignoring the 100 artificial reasons for not following my fetish dream). This very blog started off as a points based diary, publicly charting my progress to spur me on. Only later did it evolve to it’s current (random) format, as some found it’s original personal score table format a tad dull. By then, it had served it’s purpose as I had progressed from being in rubber through much of the working day, quite often and as the mood took me, to regularly being in rubber – most of the day, most days where I didn’t have a good reason not to be. A huge step for me.

So yes, I recommend such “divers logs” – they can be a mechanism for helping u live closer to the way you already dream about.

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Friday, 05 January 2007

2007-01-05T09:44:00.000Z

Years review - some observations of my life in rubber, which may give readers an insight into what it is like...

I know many people think u can have too much of a good thing, but I just haven’t found that with living routinely in rubber. You do get over the initial “rush” of the difference in your sensation, but it is such an extreme and total experience, it never stops feeling special to me. OK, I sometimes do (briefly) forget I am wearing it, but unlike other material, it is not long before rubber firmly reminds you of its presence. This aspect is part of what makes a rubber life so compulsive. It is such a total sensual experience; you cannot ignore it for long, even if you wanted to.

I have come to accept that this regular / longer term enclosure does not seem to appeal to every rubber fetishist and some people’s skin may not even bear wearing rubber for prolonged sessions, but I whish they could stop doubting that it may suit some of us (some even seem to doubt it appeals to some of us).

Before I get too far, I am not specifically having a pop at Dark on this post – as I think he at least understands that many fantasies about the possibility of long term enclosure and doesn’t deny what is patently true. The real “living in rubber is bad / impossible” zealots are elsewhere and/or anonymous. But I am addressing some of his points because he has publicly corresponded here making coherent / rational / relevant points and because frankly, I want to close off points that seem to have been made time and time again…

For me, it is nothing like eating ice cream everyday – there is no truly accurate analogy, but let say it’s more like feeling “happy” every day, but in this assertion you could easily substitute the word “happy” for other words that describe desirable standard states (like clean, comfortable, secure, warm, stimulated, sexy, fortunate, virile, alive…). Yet only something like “encased in a rubber skin” would actually accurately describe it in my mind!

The clue may be in the (horrible) “lifestyle” tag that tends to be associated with this fetish. With such a lifestyle, the intense transitional fix / rush is sacrificed for a more subtle and sustained effect. Novelty is lost and replaced by a truly comforting, yet still stimulating experience. I think it is its own experience and defies description unless u have experienced it your self. Others have likened living in rubber to grand pseudo spiritual concepts like dedication, devotion, ritual and sacrifice that might be associated with a closed religious order. Some have said it is a much more sensual than sexual experience, maybe more contemplative like sexual meditation. I can sort of see where they coming from, but think that this sort of talk is more likely to confuse the “uninitiated” than enlighten.

Many of us are interested in number and stats connected to a rubber lifestyle, but I must admit to have become very nervous about the following terms connected with my fetish: “Permanent Total Enclosure”, “24/7/365 TE”, “23/7” (and all the “nn/7” variants) and even “permanent lifestyle”. It seems they have become loaded terms, artificially high targets for the aspiring and possibly even disgraced terms. You seem to quickly get into charged debates about honesty, practicality, desirability & healthiness while ignoring the great achievements and sacrifice made by us mere mortals. I think this is a shame and missing the point.

As I have said before, being an aspiring lifestyle TE fetishist is something you personally define for yourself. You just know it if you want to live in rubber and if you are actually living in rubber.

My definition only applies to me and develops over time, but it might include aspects along the lines of “…wearing rubber for longer than just a sexual encounter… for many hours a day… regularly / day after day / most days… wearing rubber all the time I cannot find a specific reason not to…” etc. Mundane circumstances and opportunity may influence how near you get to realising your ideal and how total the coverage. We could talk about how much time I spend sealed in rubber, but is this so important? On the one hand this would not come close to 24/7/365 and yet on the other hand, I have often been lucky enough to have had several months where prospect existed to spend much more of my time in rubber than most fellow fetishists could dream of (so felt almost duty bound to take advantage of the opportunity :o) ).

For others it might mean being in rubber the whole of (most) weekends. But that person might believe they are living a rubber lifestyle. Who are we to say they are, or are not? I would say they sound like they are very much dedicated to the lifestyle and probably having to work hard to achieve it (dedication, self discipline and sacrifices being part of the deal). I think there should be no pecking order in this lifestyle, no entry conditions to the club. The fact they are interested in the idea of living in a rubber skin and are actually in that suit for more than just a quickie is good enough for me.

I want to hear experiences from all who feel they are into longer session or aspire to the full lifestyle. Much of the same challenges, opportunities and delights exist for them that I would class them as worthy brothers/sisters. As for those who say they are in the stratospheric 20+ hours / 365 day league, I am fascinated to know more - whether there total encasement is conceptual or actual… It’s fun to explore the idea with whoever is interested.

Perhaps a little more fun than exploring the question of if we really, honestly, truly want to spend long periods in rubber. Much more fun than ice cream ;o)

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20 December 2006 – Rubber Friends

2006-12-20T12:58:00.000Z

Just a quick update before I get onto today’s real subject, how rubber friends and assistance would help with a rubber lifestyle.

Been spending the vast majority of my time and energy recently on securing the necessary mundane lifestyle elements that I need in place in order to support my longer term aims of a progressively more rubber lifestyle. I have been lucky in the past to have months of uninterrupted rubber life, so wanted to build on that to get to a point where at some point in the future, I will pretty much guarantee the conditions are right for me to live my chosen lifestyle, long term. What I have called my 5 year+ plan.

From my experience, if you don’t get the mundane parts of your life under control, you don’t stand a chance of achieving long term rubber enclosed lifestyle. This could mean a lot of personal arrangements, including work, home, family / friends…. Anyway, things are starting to come together in many respects (in particular, gaining a rubber friendly income stream), with just one or two things still left to be resolved...

Now back to the main point of this enter, friends. First some feedback for my virtual friends, before getting onto a more general point.

Thanks all (here and elsewhere) for the various offers of technical help. Everything from finding someone who is better set up than me to do chlorination of my rubber, through to those with ideas on automation, breathing apparatus and chemical aroma supplies. All this has sort of taken a back seat while I have been concentrating on the 5 year+ plan, although I have been having a lot of fun with aquarium pumps, which I see as being ideal for both chemical aroma supply and (with a big enough pump) for breath play. Magnum Smoker provided a good link for info on this subject. Maybe 2007, I will get time to play more…

OZ rubber pony – think that your idea of setting targets for your rubber wearing is a very good one. That’s the way I broke through the (mainly physiological) hurdles to get to the “next level”.

Also, if you are after the same things as I am, I would say it is almost as important to make it a regular event (ideally daily) than to push for ultra long sessions. I have found that if I am out of my rubber skin for longer periods (many days), I tend to find I over-react to the rubber enclosure on the first day back in.

Sealforvr – In dwelling caths seem to work well for you and I am so envious. To me they are just associated with intense discomfort, but it seems the majority of those who have tried it don’t suffer the same problems as me. The irony is, the advocates often just use them for pleasure but don’t really need to use one - and yet for me, for my ultimate dream lifestyle, they would be immensely useful.

Anyway, I wish Sealforvr luck and would be interesting to hear how u go on. Sure u have already done the research and made informed decisions. For those who have not yet, just be sure you know about the risks of UTIs and temporary incontinence associated with very term long use.

Now a more general point about friends. The simple observation that friends who are sympathetic to your ambition to life a large part of your life in total enclosure (or other unusual lifestyle not easily accepted by society) could be very useful in making your chosen mode achievable. There are several stands to this, such as moral support, practical tips and information as well as physically being there and dealing with the rest of the world on your behalf.

It often occurs to me that a rubber enclosed person is vulnerable in the context of current society. Sure, some brave the world regularly in outlandish rubber outfits, but this is often limited in terms of the place and time when such exposure is wise, health or safe. In certain contexts, society can be very fearful of what it sees as a deviant sexual expression through fetish – particularly if u r male.

This situation puts me in mind of the Hammer Horrors, where vampires are reliant on (and in total control of) a human servant (often an Egor figure or willing virgin). During the day, the servant (or a animal “familiar”) would do the master’s bidding, while the vampire would be limited to the confines of his crypt, only being released from this bondage when the sun set. The vampire would never admit it, but they are really very reliant on others for the mundane interactions needed to ensure wine and food are waiting on the table, for when the next victim traveller comes to stay…

Anyway, you probably get the point. It would be far more feasible for those who wished to live in rubber enclosure, if support were available from others. For example a partnership where one person does the lifestyle and the other does all the interaction with the mundane world and possibly provides financial support. Or maybe, a time share where you did one month on and one month off to share the burden. That’s not to say that the servant / helper could not wear rubber, but just that they may be required to take off some or all of their rubber skin to deal with everyday issues. Meanwhile, at lease one person is living the rubber lifestyle of their choice, with nothing to worry about.

Now in such a scenario with a helper, many of the real problems are removed. The only remaining one being social isolation of the Vampire figure. This should not be underestimated, even if u think you are not a very sociable person. They would of course have Egor and possibly have a circle of fetish oriented friends. If this is not enough for a given individual, the only solution is to set up a commune of people with the same fetish TE interest. Imagine the situation with a crypt full of rubber enclosed people, doing their thing, protected by and provided for, by this month’s servant…

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Monday, 21 August 2006

2006-08-21T11:46:00.000Z

It been a little while since updating here. So many things competing for my time blah, blah…

Thanks for all the comments both here and elsewhere. Seem there are many “lurkers” who only comment that they have been reading my blog after I send messages to them! This is totally fine by me, particularly as the comments have been positive. But I do welcome any contributions here as I think there are still plenty of subjects that are seldom talked about by breath play, total rubber enclosure & lifestyle fetishists.

I think Xevious may have a point about poppers – they certainly have the capacity to affect your mental function. Currently, I am just finding my way back into their use, after getting too dependent / affected by them previously. I want to experiment to see if there is a dose that works for my fetish, while at the same time allowing me to function adequately beyond pure hedonism. Early results are that mechanisation of the delivery of the vapours does work very well at providing a consistent doses, but things are still at a very crude stage so would not like to make any comment on suitability for long term use. I intend making electrical control and plumbing improvements as time allows.

But just for fairly short fun sessions, my system works fine and the long tube tethering me to the vapour pump is not too inconvenient. In fact I find it quite stimulating to be under the influence of chemical air supplied by a system which is well out of reach. If I get the dose right, I know I am certainly in for a ride!

Anyway, I will report back when I have more to say on it as a lifestyle support system, as recent exposure has been far too intense for long term use, and I am still adjusting to the experience. I don’t have an exact dose level yet, but I have been peaking at going through about three quarters of a large bottle (25ml) in a single session of just a few hours. Having said that, it is far from an efficient delivery system as a little of the vapour vents through my mask without me breathing it in and none is re-breathed.

As for the idea of my fetish existence being remotely controlled some of the time – that certainly has my mind occupied! Imagine web-cam sessions with someone where you could directly influence their experience, by tweaking their personal parameters and see the result of your action in front of u. Imagine having your stimulation / experience being controlled by someone else with whom u r in a web cam session… I would love to hear from anyone else who would like to be controlled by remote or would like to control another by remote control. And what things do other think would be good candidates for control?

It seems to be there are loads of possibilities that could be controlled by electrical means, such as sound u hear, electrical stimulation, vibrators, control of air / chemical / re-breathed air mix, fluids supplies, maybe even vision and how long u re locked in your rubber prison through some sort of set of electrical locks. I just wonder how much of this would be possible through off the shelf hobbyist items?

As for using aquarium pumps for supplying all the air I breathe, then this is something I am also interested in but have has no success in the past. The pumps I previously tried could not deliver sufficient air volume to survive off for long – but will certainly experiment with stronger pumps and report back on this idea. Anyone else tried this?

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Wednesday, 26 July 2006 - The 1st prototype

2006-07-26T13:25:00.000Z

Today is the first day I have had to try the first stage of my automated lifestyle support system – the chemically treated air supply. Things are still at the very rudimentary stage at the moment, but as a proof of concept it is already proving to have great potential. I have used an aquarium air pumps, as Magnum suggested, which is hooked up to bubble through my Amyl Nitrate supply. A long length of tube caries the chemically treated air to my gas mask to mix with my filtered air. I have arrange a systems of vents & valves so that most of the pressure is lost before it bubbles through the AN and so a very fine degree of control is achievable. For the last hour I have had it set so that it just fails to break the surface of the AN and so when I breathe in, the pressure drop will cause a small amount of air to pass through the chemicals.

Enough of the how stuff – what does it feel like? Well it is certainly less of a rush than doing it the old way. This is because I have deliberately moderated the volume of chemical vapour to see if I can fine tune my experience over a longer period. The first 30 minutes or so I could hardly detect any change but somewhere about an hour in I started getting the real signs the poppers where doing their work on me. Things just seem to have slowly ramped up from there on…

T+01:30
The effect of the poppers on me has continues to ramp up and guess I am already at some form of “continues bliss”. I hope the rate of increase for the effect is going to slow down soon as I am trying to avoid getting too turned on too quickly.

T+02:00
Had to halt as effect too strong. Need to go back to the drawing board as when popper level gets lower (due to evaporation) the volume of air automatically increases due to lower back pressure and so the machine gets a bit carried away and sent me into orbit…

Still effect very good at first and just needs fine tuning.

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Tuesday, 25 July 2006

2006-07-25T12:43:00.000Z

Thanks for all the practical ideas everyone. Love the idea of being under computer control so much and will get the necessary equipment once I sort out the things to be controlled – like the lifestyle support system.

Maybe there are other things about my totally enclosed fetish lifestyle that my reader think would benefit from automation and/or computer control? Please feel free to suggest. Maybe there are things they would like to be automated to enhance their experience, or maybe there are things they want to specifically relinquish control of and have commanded by a computer or another person?

In the mean time, I would like to report back on the penis probe I bought last week. It arrived very quickly (on Monday) and was exactly as described on the website. However, I am having some difficulties with it. Before getting it, my main worry was putting such a relatively bulky thing in my urethra, but basically, there was no problem inserting the plug. In fact it is quite pleasant experience and can see some interesting possibilities with play and electrical stimulation in particular.

The problem is that it does not want to stay in there for very long and drops out very easily. At first I used the lube that came with the plug and later I tried it without – all with the same result – the plug just wants to let go and drop out.

Not sure what the issue is here, maybe I have a slack urethra? But looking at it, such a sleek and yet relatively heavy object is unlikely to stay in position for long as very little actually keeping it in place. Maybe a PA would solve the problem, but I personally don’t want to go there at the moment.

I am thinking that it was worth trying but I am not convinced it will work for me as a catheter substitute.

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Friday, July 21, 2006 – Lifestyle Support System

2006-07-21T09:41:00.000Z

Things have become pretty interactive here recently, and I am very happy to go with this trend. Also, the temperature has been rising here in the UK, which is less good for me. Luckily, it dropped a lot over night and is just less than 25C now, which seems to be riht on the upper limit of what I can comfortably manage for a day in rubber total enclosure.

Thanks Dark for the link to http://www.fantasyleatherworks.com/. This site is full of interesting stuff. I have to admit to being just a little squeamish about putting hard objects in my urethra – although I can’t deny the possibilities of the Thru-Hole Penis Plug are really significant (as well as “The Screw” that is in the New Products section).

I wonder if it is really possible to wear such a thing for regularly long periods without it falling out or becoming uncomfortable. Also, from the pictures, there is no obvious way to plumb up the plug with a soft rubber tube. Well I decided the only way to find out was to order one. To speed things up, I found a UK supplier at http://www.tickleberry.co.uk/pages/index.html - who are apparently “proud to be a woman owned organisation specialising in Male Chastity and the Sensual Feminine Domination of men…”. I will report back on how this goes.

Magnum… your right, I am very much captive here in many senses. I absolutely love the idea of being tethered to a sort of “Lifestyle Support System” (this gets around the whole danger of my mask being flooded by neat chemicals if at excessive angles). I think the Amyl Nitrate pump could just be the start, but concentrating on this aspect, I prefer your idea of a tube that delivers my maintenance vapours into the air mix I am breathing in my mask. That would be more consistent, controllable and would require no special action on my part to be on the preset dose. Of course it does mean I would have no way of avoiding breathing my chosen blend of chemical air, short of holding my breath! The pump would be conditioning my air at some distance and I could even be in a different room.

…This ideas is so hot I am having difficulty keeping in control today…

Of course the Lifestyle Support System could include other functions as well, from pumping away waste to supplying sustenance, temperature control, electrical stimulation, sound I hear and even the mix of recycled air I breathe. Eventually I could add the home automation systems that Magnum mentions, to provide a pre-programmed daily cycle of exquisite experiences. I think it was the Le Corbusier that said “A house was a machine for living” in 1923 – obviously a long way ahead of his time and I think we owe it to him to prove that it is a machine for a lifestyle too.

Imagine the possibilities of living the life of being computer controlled rubber unit. Once locked in you would be committed to seeing your program though. Mmmm…

If someone were to help build such a Lifestyle Support System you might just have to let them take control of your personal parameters for a few minutes, if they promised to be careful not to brake u… Just think of the internet possibilities…

I thought it was going to be an easier day today, but all this has got me very overheated and it’s only mid afternoon. Think I am going to be very uncomfortable by this evening so hope I remember why as maybe this will help. Wish I had that control system right now to help me through the rest of the long day I see stretching out before me…

I will have to distract myself by concentrating on the details – so Magnum, feel free to bore us with technical details. The programming should be easy but looking for inventive ways of using off the shelf items to achieve the physical mechanics. Let go step by step and start of with the simple chemical air conditioning, the pump & chemicals are easy, but where is an easy place to get the thin bore metal pipes from – narrow enough to go through the screw on lid?

As for your questions on how much time I spend on poppers and suffocation during a week, well I never logged it. To be honest, it is a little too hot for suffocation (respiration is one of the main ways the body loses heat) and so just I do it when I feel the need at the moment – say roughly every other day for only short periods of say an hour or so. Want much more, but frankly cannot take it and be in TE for long periods in this heat. This will not be a problem when my poppers arrive and I get my machine up and running. As soon as get going with this, I will start making a note and report back.

Although very interested in rear plumbing in the long term, this is not an issue I have to deal with until all the other short term issues are addressed (See my entry for "Wednesday, November 23, 2005" for all the TE lifestyle issue I have thought of). I don’t actually get a kick out of this medical stuff directly, but I do like the idea of this technology supporting me in being sealed as much as possible, for as long as possible.

Just a last word, please don’t expect to see entries on my trying out my Lifestyle Support System too soon. I would sooner take my time with each element of the problem. Also, I am about to embark on my next assignment which is a combination of working from home (yippee!) and being on the road part of the week (boo!), so may not have too much time over the next couple of months. It’s all part of the master plan to support my lifestyle and hope to get there at some point…

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Chemical Air

2006-07-18T10:05:00.000Z

Hi All,

Magnum, thanks for the complements and encouragement and thanks for email pictures and posting on Popper machines. VERY interesting. Imagine combining a ultra low maintenance dose with a instant boost shot where the situation requires it. Very exciting thought! Will search for online suppliers when I get a chance otherwise it will have to wait till I am next out of rubber to go to the city shops…

I see that much of the mechanisms could be adapted from fish tank suppliers, but what about the battery powered air pump? What is the intended use for that small pump?

It was good hearing about your sessions, to put the technology into context. What part does the alcohol drinking tubes, poppers air supply have? Are they stimulating you to a certain mind set or acting as a suppressant to hold you back from orgasm?

Was interesting to hear you also go for electrical stimulation. That’s something I like to and also find that a butt plug can actually stave off over stimulation of the penis as it such a distraction! I sometime wear one but find being locked in my suit for a whole day in such a situation is quite an intense experience. Unfortunately, I find it very difficult to take comfortably for long periods as I have a small opening. Once I get a few other achievements under my belt, I would like to train up to wearing my bipolar plug every days as this will be very good training for any future plumbing requirements…

Interested to hear about your friend who is on more than a bottle of aromas a day. Not being at all judgemental in saying this, but that would be fairly onerous quantity to physically dispense and so wonder how he is administering this dose? When I peaked on popper consumption, my method was to apply a small dose to a particle mask I was wearing in conjunction my other rubber hoods/masks. As much of the poppers would evaporate quickly, the process had to be repeated very frequently (few minutes) to stay in the “right place” - I actually wrote software that told me (“beep!”) when my next dose was due so I would not have to be constantly monitoring my dose and could carry on working. The software can even be set to increment / decrement subsequent periods by a set number of seconds to ramp up / down the experience.

The problems with this method are:
- you regularly got BIG rushes followed by a slow decay in the intensity towards being virtually no dose at the end.
- Much of the poppers evaporate, so is wasteful.
- Requires frequent manual application of poppers to the particle mask.
- Prone to inconsistent doses.

Thus, very interested in how others dispends there high consumptions. Currently, I think the best systems would be a closed plumed system with one way valves as you described, but want to know how others administer.

Dark, it’s very difficult for me to describe poppers as it is such a personal experience. Also, as the health effects are unpredictable on different people, I am really not aiming to promote it (I am promoting a latex lifestyle in TE), but having said that, here goes nothing... First of all, while trying hard to not make it sound like a “wonder drug”, for me it can act is several ways which are very conducive to rubber enclosed life/sex/fetish/breath control – many of its effects being contradictory, depending on my needs and mood. The net result is that it can make me feel more totally enclosed while making it feel more comfortable to be in that state. It can make my breathing feel more asphyxiated when in fact I am re-breathing far less (and frequently not at all). It seems to “cool the blood” at my periphery, such that my body does not over react & perspire when first transitioning from all fresco to TE suit, which it tends to as it adjust over the first hour. It seems to make the rubber feel more rubbery, yet part of your skin. It is frequently used in sex scenes to heighten the sexual experience, but I find it can also cool down an erection if strong doses are taken when getting too close.

Better get the downsides that I have found out of the way: mild dependency, fatal if combined with some other drugs, rumoured to suppress immune system, potentially fatal if swallowed/OD, can result in a hang-over / tiredness if too much taken (similar to alcohol), can (and does) temporarily effect vision, can be VERY disturbing if you accidentally administer too large amount in a confined space (like in a re-breather bag) and can even make you feel like gagging, can totally wreck your libido if over do it…. Basically, it’s not crack but needs to treated with some respect. Unlike alcohol, when u stop taking it, the stronger effects go away in minutes, although it certainly has some effects for hours. Its a very smelly volatile and flammable chemical!

Now to specifics, different people say they administer it in various ways. The advice on my bottle says never sniff from the bottle, use as a room odorizer. I know people who do follow this advice, and probably have a great time, but I sniff it in fairly concentrated form. It is marketed here at different strength and I find the weaker ones are best for my current administration methods – although unlike the stronger stuff, the beneficial effects weaken as you get to the bottom third of the bottle, leaving just the negative effects.

On the first breath or two, there is a definite “rush”, which I would say is not really like smoking Pot, unless you have better stuff than they have in Holland (Pot is not legal in the UK…). It’s a little like your first ever drink of strong spirits – a strong warm physical feeling (a little like an orgasm). I find it is a whole body thing and seems to effect the sensation from the skin, initially quite strongly felt. At the doses I go for, I fairly instantly enter a slightly altered state of conciseness (in the sane sense as being drunk, although it’s a totally different experience). It’s fair to say that this initial experience is the most abrupt rush you get with poppers and is repeated each time you take your first sniff, assuming you sober up sufficiently (hours).

Soon respiration can be affected by the chemical – which can go different ways seemingly depending on mood. I used to find I would want to massively hyper ventilate, although I could stop it quickly if I chose to. I don’t think it affects your judgment as much as alcohol – although I suppose I could be deluding myself. As you take it you can proceed along a ramp of intensity of experience by taking more frequent sniffs, or back off with just an occasional sniff every few minutes to maintain the current mood.

It can make you feel euphoric, but probably less than other drugs. It can make me want to behave in a repetitive or strange way – but only if I am up for it. It defiantly has a profound effect on how you physically feel. I am not sure it affects mood directly, but obviously I tend to be very happy when taking it.

Occasionally, I have felt uncomfortable coming off it too quickly, as if I am compelled to keep taking some, but I think this is mainly psychological and has always passed.

Dark - I would be VERY interested in anything you find in future about the tube that does not require a PA.

Magnum – your premise: "I want to live my live totally enclosed in rubber on the verge of an orgasm in all my waking hours" is quite close (no objection to being stimulated in my sleep either). However, the reality of such a life is living a virtual agony of sexual tension (which I do often have to “endure”). As others have said in the past though, what seems to happen when you do actually spend days on end in TE is that you transition to a more sustainable sublime sensual state. This is different from the intense sexual state you experience when, for example, you repeatedly have cycle / transition from mundane life a couple of day to rubber life the next couple of days. Very difficult to explain, but although you are still very sexually charged up, the art of control is easier and you can reach a sort of deeper sensual level that has some of the same characteristics people report as spiritual (not spiritual myself). The “agony” of sexual tension reduces and becomes sacrifice you are willing to endure. Perhaps I am describing something that is so deeply personal an experience it is futile try… So how about “…being constantly a good three steps back from being on the edge of an orgasm…”.

Magnum – yes I need the popper vapour injection system to work while lying down as well as vertical. Also, if you are in it all day, every day, it must be made so you can make it safe when inverted (for example when picking something up off the floor, putting on boots...). And yes I like the idea of something that can be turned down some of the time and then either turned up or augmented by a quick hit of more intense vapour and then return to a maintenance dose. This would defiantly help me cope and augment the whole lifestyle experience.

As to if I want to even have the option of changing the maintenance dose once in my TE, I will ponder on. Maybe someone else should preset that for me…

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More perfect air (or maybe less…)

2006-07-17T12:21:00.000Z

Thanks for all your responses both email and here. I found them all very enjoyable reading!

Magnum…

I think your right about me needing to live my life in my own peculiar way. I have occasionally tried living other ways to make others feel at ease and fit in, but that never works and leads to me developing resentment and frustration – which does no one any good. TE life really IS a large part of what I consider to be “me”. Going for any substantial time without TE makes me unhappy – simple as that.

Also, given that I have the freedom to live and work any way I want, it would seem a terrible waste to not live my fantasy lifestyle in real life, while I still can. The special blend of ingredients & practices that make up my current life, have delivered to me sensations, stimulation and unbelievable levels of sexual joy that I suppose few other humans have been lucky enough to experience. Sure, others are leading different lives resulting in great experiences and achievements that I could never hope to achieve while I am living in my rubber skin, but while I am still achieving new levels of sensuality and eroticism, which are linked to ever greater degrees of TE perfection and endurances (with my associated air supply modifications), it would seem madness to me to stop now. From my perspective, I would expert that at least some humans were living my wonderful life, although I rarely hear from men who are actually living every day in rubber total enclosure. Am I really the luckiest man in the world?

As for the poppers, they are definitely part of the air control segment of my true lifestyle mix. Their absence was as much an experiment & challenge as the rest of my program to live in latex. In essence, I think I had reached the limit to how much this chemical could carry me towards my TE goals. Living off slowly increasing amounts of poppers in my air supply had allowed me to comfortably stay totally enclosed for far longer than I had managed on a daily basis before, but this came with the obvious effects of poppers (along with some side effects) which were becoming problematic. The most obvious challenge daily, I had to find the will power to be able to function as a worker / human being, for at least 8 hours of a day, beyond just being a wriggling mass of chemical/rubber pleasure. Over the longer term, my home working sustains my rubber lifestyle so every day I have to fight to keep just at bay the combined pleasures of rubber and chemicals – which, when it works, is the essence of my dream lifestyle, but at one stage the chemicals were starting to win…

I used to have real dread and foreboding about running out of Amyl Nitrate, thinking I would not make the day out - a major deal when I was using the points system to push me to new levels of rubber living. I had deliberately made the consequences of not meeting targets onerous. However, now living in rubber without my chemical air is something I know I can do, if I have to (and am doing right this second), so I feel safe to return to using poppers to subtly adjust or strongly heighten the experience depending on my daily cycle requirements.

I read with great interest the description of the chemical aroma supply mechanism - both here and via email. I would prefer it all to be posted here rather than email, as I think others may find it useful. Would love to know more about where to get the valves u mentioned in your mail. I will set to work with my bench drill to see if I can make my own (yes rubber enclosed people can and do have workshops and, if careful and patient, can make things with their rubber skinned hands!). I will want to be wearing mine all the time and just adjusting the valve to start / stop / adjust the flow. It seems to work for you at various angles – but am interested to know the limits as in daily life I could be easily going through more than ninety degrees, so would need to know what to avoid doing. As I prefer to be locked in my rubber skin, it could be disastrous if a large volume of Amyl Nitrates flooded my breathing apparatus!

You asked about weekly consumption – well I have never really logged it. It seems to depend on the type of aroma – some brands are much stronger than others by same manufacturer and I have not settled on a preferred brew yet. I just use the amount that takes me to right place as and when I need it. Although I am guessing, I suspect we are not talking large number of bottles a week. I wonder what the average & heavy consumers uses? Anyway, watch this space…

Then u asked how much time during the day would I want to be suffocating / hypoxic, and/or how much of the time would I want to be moderated by poppers? Well these are tricky water as you used the word “want” from which I infer my goal going forward, rather than past experience. As I will have said before, I tended to be either on poppers and/or re-breathing most days in the past – although not necessarily for the whole 24 hours. I started out using poppers in any situation where practical reason prevent re-breathing (anything even slightly physical, where I needed clear vision, control of my labido etc…). Poppers did become an almost constant thing during the working day at one point, so eventually decided to decouple the whole TE thing from everything else by giving up everything except TE.

Going forward, I can be less sure of what I will actually do as it will depend on how I feel after many days of exposure. Theoretically I love the idea of affecting my breathing experience all the time I am in total enclosure and so am drawn to very low levels of either re-breathing and/or chemical aromas. This would allow better equip me to exist in that “Goldon State” you mentioned. But how will I feel after a few days of constantly modified breathing? Would I be a zombie even with low levels of modified air? Would I adjust to it and need to step up the intensity to achieve the same state. Lets see shall we? Comment on any personal experiences welcome on this point…

The difference between the experience of the “bubble sessions” and that of using controllable (low volume) re-breathers is huge. The bubble was so big I could work in there online for days as long as I used a dehumidifier. Both have their times and places I think. I sometimes imagine getting the huge walk in bubble to just the right air mix and then maintaining it there through some air pump mechanisms… The down side (or up side, depending on your outlook) is that you are more or less a prisoner in a small space for days.
The perfect air is often dictated by the time of day, activity you are embarked on and even mood. Not come up with a mix that works in all situations yet, but a good starting point for suffocation is just to be at the point of needing to work constantly to breathe, but not be panting / gasping out of control.Blackie…

Your TE night experience sounded really good and very “total” with just the breathing tube connecting you to outside. Mmmmm. Very nice to think on.

The Russian masks do come in loads of sizes (despite the claims of fetish shops of one size fits all) – including XL, XXL… Try army surplus shops which often do a better range at cheaper prices.

I find it sweet that the checkout girl was worried you were not in your usual rubber. Wish everyone was like that!

Although I have to say 12 hours of erotic arousal in rubber is a very good effort, I have to ask - if you are starting to smell, who cares as long as you manage to keep the smell on the inside of your rubber skin? I am not saying you should have no regard to the health of your skin and ignore the messages it sends you, but wonder if the reason u r getting out of rubber is more aesthetic than practical? As long as I can keep comfortable and not get too wet, I treat my rubber as my true outer skin – everything else as “internal organs”. So long as my rubber skin is clean and smell sweets on the outside, I can illuminate any “aesthetic” reasons for me to have to ever come out – that is until other practical reasons and skin health factors come to a head.

Like I said – still impressed by your efforts as I know you push the physical envelope and generally treat your fetish in a more endurance oriented manner than myself. A good day for you seems to involve physical activity that works up a good sweat which you want to endure. A really good day for me is where I am still dry after 24 hours! No rights and wrongs here of course.

While we are on the subject, as many people will know, the BO smell is attributed to the action of bacteria that feed on your perspiration – not the perspiration itself. The levels of these bacteria build up over the years. I am no big user of personal hygiene products (many are unsafe for rubber so prefer to just shower regularly) but find many are starting to include an agent the weeds out the smellier bacteria – and so long after the immediate effect of the antiperspirant product has worn away, my sweat is reduced to virtually odourless. So, I have taken to using the unperformed versions when showering if I know I am embarking on a extended non-rubber period, and not going straight back into my rubber skin.

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The perfect air?

2006-07-14T11:03:00.000Z

Thanks to everyone for all their comments and encouragement, both posted and private. Seems like recent posts by guests and myself have captured imaginations, although readers are starting to report problems posting comments and also being limited to 300 characters. I wonder, has anyone else has been having problems? It’s a pity as they are forced to resort to personal emails which lovely for me, but I prefer the idea of sharing our experiences across the TE / Lifestyle TE community.

Now to respond to some of you comments…

I am going to try to keep an open mind and learn what I can about in-dwelling catheters, but my fist reaction to the idea of stretching my urethra (that Magnum mentions), is that it seems a little extreme. I can see how it might help and will have think on that for a while as I am not drawn to medical fetishes. The prospect of being able to comfortably wear an in-dwelling catheter all the time one day does make the idea worth investigating… He has also mentioned (possibly by email) a “Princes Wand” as a possible solution to urination – but as far as I can make out, this would require a PA piercing to retain it. I think it safe to say I am far too squeamish for that! Anyway, good to have the info out there and will mull it over.

Magnum mentions smoking and suffocation masks. I am not a smoker, but absolutely love the idea of plumbing up respirators to force the wearer to breathe a pre-determined cocktail. I have been thinking about coming up with an improved delivery system for poppers (Amyl Nitrate etc) and am now encouraged to go for it now. I want a system that can deliver low doses at a controllable rate and even suspend the dose as the mood takes me – and it all has to be very portable and work at any angle as I may wear it for long periods… More on this another time…

As I mentioned previously, I often chose not to mix popper use with re-breathing in order to get the most out of both experiences. But I treat both of these experiences in a similar way in that I tend to go for manageable extremes that allow me to experience them over hours or even longer. The longest I have been under the constant direct influence of poppers is probably around 8 to 12 hours mark – although when routinely using them daily, I probably go through cycles of 4 or so hours on and about an hour off.

The problem with poppers has always been of insufficient fine control of the experience, where as with re-breathing I am able to easily find ways of controlling my level of suffocation. Some of my more marathon efforts have involved me being encased in huge plastic bubbles with no fresh air for days on end (as I documented last year). More typically, I will spend many hours gently suffocating myself. Despite my best efforts, I do not routinely re-breath for long periods during office hours due to practical problems of seeing clearly through the fog, not being able to communicate on the phone and finding it difficult to concentrate for long while gasping (things I hope to address one day). Instead I tend to reach for the poppers to help me cope with my rubber encasement while working and then switch to suffocate while relaxing in the evenings or even over night. With these scenes I can reach a highly erotic state for many many hours (or sexually sensual state almost indefinitely) and periodically become near orgasmic for say 2 to 4 hours at a time…

I have been on an extended popper detox for a while now and so have had to breathe “standard air” during the day (admittedly filtered air, smelling of rubber). I chose this route as I was taking poppers more than just “recreationally” and I was starting to find it difficult to function mentally and physically at the level I was happy with due to the fairly large volumes of poppers I had become used to breathing. The poppers physical and mental benefits that helped me to feel totally comfortable in rubber all day – but that meant that they effectively had to be taken all the time I was in rubber and as I extended my regular stays, this started to add up…

But I have to admit that life in rubber without poppers for months has been purgatory. It has been difficult to match, let alone exceed earlier levels of rubber enclosed lifestyle without my chemical aid. The amount of will power needed to achieve my fetish lifestyle objectives has often been draining. Without even a quick pop on first dressing to sort out my physiological responses, my comfort levels for the rest of the day have been compromised. Now I am probably ready to try them again – as soon as I can come up with a way of fine controlling the doses so I can at least get my “maintenance” fix.

BTW – there are recent pictures of me in my standard outfit in my profile at
http://www.rubberpal.com/profiles/Sealed

Thanks to Blackie for sharing his experience of wearing latex and a mask in public. It’s amazing to think the police feel they are able to harass you, even when not breaking any law, because of you are wearing too much (as well as too little). Is this the “Fashion Police”, George Orwell’s “Thought Police” or are we all just living in a “Fascist Regime” as the Sex Pistol so eloquently put it…

BTW2 Cameras : I rarely ever go off topic, but for accurate colours with digital cameras, the safest bet is to switch off auto colour balance. If you don’t know which manual setting to go for, select the daylight setting (often a sun symbol). The down side is that artificial light will cause a tint.

Dark’s “womb” theory is an old chestnut. While I can see the similarity it does not explain why you want to be back in the womb. Maybe (as there is an evolutionary advantage) we are conditioned to be at our most content in the womb?

How come I would sooner be in my rubber TE than in my mother’s womb? Maybe because I can squeeze into my rubber, but cannot squeeze into my --- no, sorry, let’s not go there…

As for Darks query about what is the real turn on for non-fetish sex, I feel singularly ill-qualified to comment on that! :o). As a near-fetish-object I have no experience in de-coupling my fetish from sex – even if I were physically out of my suit, my mind would still be in that special fetish space…

Magnum asked about aims and goals hoods/masks all day – Well contrary to your statement, my eyes are typically not open to the atmosphere. Right at the moment they are behind the lenses of an east European gas mask. OK I am breathing air from outside, but this is merely a compromise for me. The filtered air drawn in to my mask is better than fresh air, but I would like to control the source and make up of that air and recycle as much as possible to increase the totality of the hermetic sealed. An ideal situation would be to have a life support system with CO2 absorption equipment where just the bare minimum of pure O2 needs to be added from outside (plus poppers).

At the moment, I usually chose to take my gas mask off to talk with confidence on the phone (revealing my suits hood with cut outs for mouth and eyes), although in theory my mask does have a mechanical device that allows me to talk fairly clearly, so the aim is build up my confidence in talking while wearing a gas mask. Maybe wireless technology will help here.

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The "Perfect Suit" part 1...

2006-07-06T09:14:00.000Z

Rubber life goes on and I think I am starting to adjust a little to wearing a rubber sheath all day. To be honest, the current weather here is not helping as I am so hot in here, I may as well be pissing in my suit I am so wet sometimes. The only way to keep cool is to regularly spray my outer rubber skin with a mist of water and stay in the path of a cooling fan. Still these are exceptional times and I am looking forward to the usual cool weather returning before long – if not I am going to have to admit failure, invest in AC and say a last goodbye to any hope for the environment...

I like some of these ideas that Dark commented on my last post.

I must admit to having been very conservative with my suits in recent times. As I wear them for long periods most days, I have tended to go for the safe options that I know work – if in a compromised manner, with only small variations. I go through a lot of suits, so the cost or comfort implications of an incorrect decision have always put me off. But mean time, my requirements of what I demand from my totally enclosed lifestyle have evolved somewhat and now I find that standard total enclosure suits just do not deliver what I am looking for. So I think I am going to have to bite the bullet and go down the special commissioning route...

So I am looking for good manufacturers who are up to a special commission that I can wear everyday for prolonged periods. I am also looking for further ideas on dealing with the usual challenges of living in rubber total enclosure…

So what would be the perfect suit? Tricky question, but thought I would make a start and see what feedback I get (if any)….

I need a suit I can comfortably wear for long periods (24 hours minimum is a good starting point) without the need for taking it off for getting fluids in or out. It needs to be totally enclosing (head to foot) and be totally hermetically sealed (not leak air/water in either direction).

I would like the minimum of zips to increase comfort (probably shoulder entry). Would like to be able to lock the zips so I cannot get out without a key (use of external locks and chains etc to achieve this would be perfectly acceptable). I would prefer it to be close fitting, fairly robust yet not so thick as to be uncomfortable / chaffing. I want the minimum of layers – but may compromise. I need to be able to type on a keyboard, so good fitting gloves are a requirement – although these can be augmented with specialist over gloves for various demanding tasks.

I would want to have the option of fitting breathing apparatus (bags, filters etc) to increase the feeling of enclosure. On the other hand, I need to be able to configure the mask to allow me to converse clearly on the telephone.

I like the idea of separate toes as well as fingers very much, but more a desirable than a “must have”. Not worried about fitting a moulded ear on the hood as I think a sleek head looks better and ears can look ugly. However, the hood must not be too tight over the ears as any flattening of the ears start to get painful sometime around 24 to 36 hours in.

As well as sheath for pissing, it would be a bonus if other functions could be taken care of. Ways of feeding in extra tubes / wires for toys, stimulations and additional functionality without compromising the degree of hermitic seal would be another bonus.

I an ideal world, I would like some way of maintaining a comfortable temperature inside the suit. In particular, I like the idea of cooling tubes like the cosmonauts and astronauts wear – maybe a close fitting outer cooling garment. It would be handy to be able to occasionally run off (or pump out) any accumulation of moisture (or air) in the suit, as long as it did not impair the water/air proof seal (one way valves?).

I like the idea of cyborgs – so being linked to a support system may be acceptable as long as I can be mobile if I need to be.

Anyone got any further ideas?
Sealed

Living in a rubber sheaths

2006-06-27T11:07:00.000Z

[WARNING – This entry contains mention bodily functions (No 1s!)]

I have been experimenting with wearing a new rubber suit / pants to work and thought I should right up my experiences and challenges…

As my particular preference is for being as totally sealed as possible for as much time as possible, certain practical limits are met fairly quickly. Some time ago I wrote up my list of challenges and issue that face the lifestyle totally rubber enclosed person as I wanted a “hit list” of problems that need to be addressed, in priority order, to better be able to sustain my chosen lifestyle. See my entry for "Wednesday, November 23, 2005" for all, but a major one is passing water - urinating, pissing, call it what u prefer. Unsavoury subject maybe, but urination is a basic failing of the body that I need to be addressed in order to live in latex. Of course I could just wear a suit with a front zip, but :

A) Where would the fun in that be!!!

B) I find zips problematic in terms of comfort – and getting in the way of that sleek rubbery “ideal” - the look, the feel, call it what u will.

C) Zips break the whole hermitic seal thing, which is a major physiological thing I like to achieve for prolonged periods (a major turn on for me). Just being able to open an easily accessible zip to get inside is just not “right” in my (deranged) mind.

D) Zips leak sweat (etc) and leave embarrassing puddles all over the place.

E) Being non-stretchy, Zips are a major cause of “rubber fatigue” and seam failure (back zips in particular).

So any way, I prefer to find other solutions as, up till now, I have needed to disrobe or “compromise” (in my mind) via a zip the totality of my prolonged encasement for this body function. When going for new distance records of strict total enclosure, the only other option being planned dehydration and/or pissing in the suit – but both these options are less than ideal and apart from anything else, give an upper limit of only a few days before u start to drown in your own juices.

I tried other things like external and internal medical catheters – but with disastrous results (see previous posts), so sheathes are the current way I am going.

I tried wearing sheaths pants under my favourite shoulder entry suits in the past (which have no access/openings or zips below neck line), but they were not totally successful due to “back flow” problems. Over prolonged periods the cycle of being less/more erect affected the position / fit / and occasional flaccid cycles could affect the ability to keep my male member in the sheath at all. Basically, as access to fine tune the fit and position was impossible, I was unable to guarantee a good seal and so piss would sometime overflow back into the suit.

My current arrangement is a skin suit with a cock & ball sheath built in. To stop it getting in the way, it is usually behind a pouch which is glued to the front of the suit and has a zipper for access. As the zip is not through to the inside of the suit, it does not cause problems of breaking the suits hermetic seal on the body and as it is a very loose fitting pouch (possibly too big and loose), it does not effect stretch/comfort. I have punched a very small whole in the end of the sheath to allow the pipe from my (romantically named) “pissing pants”, which I wear underneath, to pass through. For those who are not sure what I mean, under the main suit I wear rubber briefs/pants which have another cock and ball sheath which has an attached tube at the tip.

This all means that I am wearing two sheaths over my penis. As I “go” in the inner sheath, the tube carries the piss through to the outside either into a collection bag via a one way valve (which maintains my 100% seal from outside air etc). Alternatively the tube can just be used to let the fluid pour down the toilet pan and, when not pissing, the tube is easily plugged off to restore the totality of my seal.

OK, now to my experience… Does it work to an acceptable level, is it comfortable to wear for long periods etc…

Well, it’s still sort of early days, but I would say it does work from a practical view. As I have access to fine tune my “fit” – I have not had problems with my penis not fitting or popping back out, despite my whole groin area being constantly under two layers of rubber. That means a good seal and seemingly much less problems with back flow.

It’s actually currently tricky to be categorical that there are never problems with ANY back flow as, with the current summer temperatures over last month or so, it has been difficult after some longer session to be totally dry from perspiration and this is difficult to differentiate from urine in small quantities. Also, other limitations mean I have not be able to have any really long session (like several days of TE) and often been limited to having just 8 to 10 hours a day. I will report back any problems with longer sessions, but basically any mess so far has been very easy to cope with for these shorter sessions, even on a daily basis.

Now for the rest of the experience… what’s it like to be sheathed daily? Comfort etc… Well to be honest – a bit of a nightmare at first and I am far from totally converted now. My starting point was that I was already quite a fan of just having my penis held gently but firmly by my latex skin suit against my abdomen (or groin or leg). I like having my bits safely stored away and found it comfortable to move around in, and comforting. I had never been such a big fan of sheaths as I missed the feel and security of my genitalia just being packaged in the suit with the rest of me.

In previous sheath suits, I found my member & balls felt more prone and sort of “external” to the suit. At least this suit has a pouch to put my plumbing away into for safekeeping! The pouch being a little too baggy, means I still don’t get all the support I feel when in my normal (neck entry) suits, but it’s much better than nothing. But I am treating the suit (by Cocoon) as a prototype to “train” in and prove/disprove the concept. Good enough for now to press on and see how I cope…

Then there is getting used to the actual feel of wearing a sheath – in my case, wearing two sheaths layers over my penis all day has been very difficult to get used to. It’s a little like going back to my early attempts at wearing rubber TE every day and still try to be able to function as a human outside of a sex scene (performing my work and daily life etc) – only much worse! Of course we are talking about the most sensitive part of my anatomy being in very restrictive rubber encasement hour after hour…

I am hardly hung like a horse, probably below average in fact, but sheath makers (particularly of pissing pants) seem to be prone to making the diameter just that little too tight around my girth. The constant pressure is partly delightful, but also challenging. Getting the right fit and lubrication are even more imperative than ever and I have frequently suffered from uncomfortable skin chaffing and irritation around the tip of the penis. Occasionally the discomfort has built up over successive days to be severe enough to result in me choosing to stop wearing any rubber at all for several days – so a MAJOR issue!

Even when not faced with pain, the sensation of rubber 360 around your shaft is really difficult to ignore! I am constantly made aware of my rubber layers as I cycle through various degrees of erectional extension. I found myself not being able to stop myself having to adjust myself on a regular basis. On the one hand this is very pleasurable sensation and makes me feel very sensual and sexually alive – but when lived over hour and days, this corporeal imperative does make it very difficult to be able to think straight for more than a millisecond! The more abstract the matter, the harder it is to form coherent thoughts as I am regularly distracted by my rubber confined manhood.

Just like my early experiences of living and working in rubber, whole days become a mentally exhausting struggle to function against my instinct to give in to my rubber sexual bliss. The difference being that so far I have not been able to acclimatise to my double sheathes as quickly as with just being in rubber all day. I find that I am failing to be able to take it often and I do succumb. I also I am not able to make new targets in extending my encasement. Still – maybe I underestimate that original challenge with hindsight and I maybe I will start to adjust soon if I force myself through the “wall”. Because the potential prize of improving the practicalities of extended rubber total enclosure is there, I will not yield and will just have to re-double my efforts…

Wish me luck,
Sealed

Friday, 02 June 2006

2006-06-02T12:10:00.000Z

Thanks for the comments (and emails) welcoming the blog back.

I have to say that I am feeling like I am in a cultural pincer movement with these high brow comments, which would be all the more intimidating and frankly alarming if you two could spell & type :o)

About my partner, yes your right… you don’t want to pry! I only feel comfortable about talking in general terms, other than to say I DO have / want to make compromises to the totality of my enclosure for her/our sake. That’s why I shy away from the whole “24/7” terminology which sets up an unhelpful metric by which total enclosure lifestyle is often judged, and which is often not continuously sustainable for us. I prefer to think of a rubber oriented lifestyle where my default natural state is as rubber enclosed person. Parenthetically, fetish does involve the imagination and so inevitably you do get into that grey area of the ideal being totally enclosed forever – but for me this is somewhere between a long term aim, something to maybe try for a limited time (experiment) some time and a fantasy perfect existence.

A TE lifestyle is inner directed and can see how it may not be a primarily sociable activity or even unsociable (although antisocial seems to be a bit strong). It would not be the first lifestyle that was not focused on a purely social agenda. However, I feel much of the social problems are to do with the perception of society’s intolerance to rubber fetish in public – which I view as innocent fun and my self expression. The actions of people like Blackie to push society’s limits mean that it would be a brave soul who could predict how easy/difficult it will be for future fetishists to live out their chosen existence in public. I believe people like backie are groundbreakers, and can only do good for acceptance of fetish lifestyles. If the past is any guide, we may be amazed by future attitudes.

A major social stumbling block seems to be the mask / hood and lack of eye contact. Now I can see that TE may be possible with various degrees of face occlusion. There are different transparent materials for a start – from transparent rubber through to a transparent glass helmet and lots of variation in between. Then there is the prospect of ever thinner masks that portray a human face with some degree of facial expression possible – even if it is a chosen face and not the given (natural) face of the individual.

However, it is likely that for a social existence a rubber enclosed person may chose to vary the type and severity of facial mask – depending on situation as to how comfortable they and others will feel about a mask. It is likely that until society attitudes catches up, that the rubber enclosed persons may find it better to bare their face for many situations – which I frequently do.

Back in the home, I suspect that facial appearance and masking are less of an appearance. As time goes on in some relationships, facial cues seem to become less essential. Maybe this would become a barrier if I were advocating that non lifestyle TE fetishist partner never be allowed to see the given/natural face of their lifestyle TE partner – but for me nothing is ever this absolute. About as realistic as never having seen your wife (or live in partner’s) body when they take a shower – that level of privacy could be arranged I guess, but never felt the need myself.

To again repeat the nature of my fetish as a lifestyle of being a rubber enclosed person, the starting point would be to be regularly enclosed in rubber for significantly longer than necessary for just acting out a fetish sex scene. A normal situation being to generally wear rubber for many hours most days. My current goal is to reorganise my life so I can get back to the sate where I am enclosed in rubber for the more of the time than not being in rubber over a given month or so (as I managed in 2005), once I have achieved my current (non fetish) objectives. Rubber enclosure becoming my “jeans and t-shirt” plus business suit, even if not 24/7/365. As to what I would choose to do after that… Well I am not currently planning anything but watch this space.

Now all the above was mainly general – but how about how it effects my sociability. Well I must admit that I am on the horns of a dilemma. There is a part of my character which likes to be sociable with my many friends and be “out there” travelling and meeting with the people of the world. On there other side there is a very strong drive for me to be totally enclosed as much as possible and I feel more and more uncomfortable every hour I am not enclosed in rubber. This feeling is like a cross between holding your breath and living a lie/losing identity. When it has been days and I am stuck in a situation being sociable, I can actually start to feel grubby that I am just being what I think they want me to be.

So to be truthful, my rubber enclosed lifestyle DOES have an impact on important social and other aspects of my life when I get to the point when I am totally enclosed for the majority of the time. Up until now, this has tended to be a question of sacrifice, compromise and finding a natural level / limit to my time in TE. This level has been fairly easy to find so far, due to the difficulties and sacrifice to physical and psychological comfort in being in rubber for extended periods. But as I have found measure to deal with, or have acclimatised to these issues, I often wonder how much more difficult it will be to break out of my rubber enclosed life to deal with the social and other sides of my character…

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Friday, 26 May 2006

2006-05-26T12:21:00.000Z

You can always rely on Dark for some detailed comments – thank u! Not going to address every point, partly as the entry stands on its merit and partly because I feel out cultured by the ballet references… But having said that it does raise some interesting points regarding the Platonic ideal I carry in my head for my self image based on my fetish.

A quick note on the phrase “Platonic Ideal” Dark uses, as I see there is a great risk of readers getting the wrong impression here. I believe Dark is specifically NOT talking about some sort of Platonic love (love without carnal desires), but a philosophy of attempting to capture the essence of a pure form / concept. i.e. Perfection. The essence of a wheel is a perfect geometric circle. The essence of my perfect form may be a sleek, rubber enclosed person … bla bla… You get the picture.

I did find it interesting to realise that a person’s pursuit of the Platonic Ideal does seem to usually require dedication / hard work / compromise / sacrifice / discomfort in most endeavours and not just my own - being a totally sealed rubber enclosed person. It also seems to often involve some additional voluntary compromise to subdue the ideal in order to integrate into some social contexts – as in: a ballet dancer may decide to refrain from pirouetting in their tights during a funeral service at the risk of being thought to be showing off their Platonic Ideal package! Of course, no body could stop him from turning up in his prancing outfit – although they may try discouraging him if forewarned.

I must admit to being a little shocked by Darks comment that 2nd skin fetishist ‘…could only be tolerated in very minor doses before "laws" were enacted against it.’. Laws? My goodness, do we really live in societies that are so intolerant as to criminalise a particular mode of dress, just because of a sexual overtone or dehumanisation effect? Surely we are living in a society where we are progressing towards tolerance and that things that would have been totally unacceptable for (say) any women to wear 50 years ago (too explicit) are now the basis for all ladies summer fashion? Do you not live in the land of the free!!! Hmmm… I just looked out the window and remembered the latest rant I heard from the far right… and I am starting to think that Dark may have a point...

On another topic, the idea that my fetish ideal requires another to view my in that image does not ring true for me, I have to say. I accept it does for Dark and others – even if it is a theoretical other person. I am NOT saying that I do not want / have sex with others. I am saying that my fetish is not contingent on another’s perception or interaction, even if their participation would be welcome. Primarily, my fetish (Fetish~=fixation on an inanimate object who’s presence is necessary for sexual gratification) is my desire (love?) of the rubber second skin, which ideally should be fully enclosing MY body and/or secondarily, another person’s body. My fetish dreamscape may typically involve other(s) similarly totally enclosed to myself – but it is not contingent on it, even if their presence only facilitates an enhanced experience.

I like to sail, drive and act out my fetish with the company of another. I can do all these on my own without invalidating the essence of what I am doing. I have chosen to live with my partner – but this unrelated to my fetish, which was at least as strong, vibrant and important to me when single and not dating.

For a while I thought I may be alone in this attitude, but as you have probably guessed, have found others via the internet with even more polarized positions than myself. A local fetishist comes to mind, who it seems has absolutely no sexual desires or even preferences for other people – but loves his fetish and does not mind being social with others. To be honest – I am still trying to get my head round this mind set, but accept that it is very real to them and very revealing of my own…

BTW – Work place total enclosure may not be possible for everyone – but it is a reality for me for at least some of the time. As some will recall from last year, up till the end of November, you could have counted the number of days I worked in anything other than “near-TE” on your fingers (Near TE as I chose to remove my mask for some phone conferences). This was obviously not because I braved the work place fully suited up, but because I mainly worked from home. I guess us home workers are very lucky – but then again home working is a growing trend for those whose work can take advantage of new technology.

Yes there is a lot of de-humanisation involved in my chosen mode, with the lack of facial signals etc. You do end up being judged by your words and actions rather than facial expression. It’s not as bad as being on the end of a phone – but more effort is needed to communicate, unless you are wearing a very clear mask.

Biological issues are just physical (plumbing) problems waiting to be overcome – and only solutions which enhance your existence need be adopted, as the degree of totality of the enclosed lifestyle can be adjusted by the individual to suit their limits and preferences. It puts me in mind of all the “artificial” technological solutions many western people take for granted, which provide for better sanitation / hygiene / comfort / warmth. I don’t think that a woman is totally “inhuman” just because she may be wearing tampons, coil, sanitary pads, eye glasses, cycling helmet, pacemaker, implants, piercings, painted nails, wrist watch, antiperspirant, toothpaste, hair colour, makeup, roller blades, skis, ipod or mobile cell phone (although I may suspect her judgement if she tries using all these things while cycling). One of my relatives had bowel surgery resulting in them needing a permanent colostomy – but they are still human, but found a technical plumbing solution to their biological needs. Yep, I know some will argue about the fact that many of these things are not a matter of choice – but I chose the enclosed lifestyle and the plumbing issues are just the consequence, not the objective, and I chose to make the best of them. Most of us westerners who work in offices in close proximity with others would choose to pollute their bodies with volatile chemicals to hide their odor and make the best of it – just different ends of a continuum perhaps.

But I think we always expect their to be some sacrifices and a lot of compromises involved in pursuing any Platonic Ideal. The question for the individual is, does the benefits outweigh the personal cost and dedication required to be aiming for that ideal. The occasional day of being terribly cold may be a price you have to be prepared to take to be able to sail in some of the most beautiful waters. Occasionally getting to too hot, bouts of profuse perspiration and thus being water logged in my rubber skin for the rest of the day is one of the discomforts I find I am prepared to put up with.

At the moment, I am finding I have found a very good level of attainment towards my ideal at a personal cost I find I can take and am willing to afford. I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else than to be in my rubber skin for the majority of the time. And that is my own personal benchmark – the majority of my time in my rubber skin and my goals are to continue to engineer the rest of my life and work to support the aim of sustaining a (largely) rubbery lifestyle.

To want anything else, now seems incredible to me. As a rubber enclosed person I am comfortable, feel safe and am also more sensual. I look more like my “ideal” self in the mirror and spend much of my time feeling very much more sexually stimulated. There is much less dichotomy between sexual and non-sexual activities in my life as I carry my perfect bedroom scene around with me all the time – and this make me feel more vital, alive and yes, more human – or at least more animal. Yes, it is frequently exhausting and often quite uncomfortable to be 3 strokes away from orgasm much of the day, every day of every week, while trying to achieve non-sexual objectives – but it should be no surprise that it is “addictive” (in the loosest sense of the word).

I know many/most fetishist require more variation in their existence and even I feel the same craving sometimes as I force myself to change into my clean suit. But I discovered, almost be accident, that before long I never regret actually having got into my rubber skin, even if I strongly craved being uncovered when I was first getting dressed. This discovery was after dedicating a month to compelling myself to wearing rubber each day all day - just for an experiment to see what happened.

Over time I discovered that if I was going to want to wear rubber total enclosure for long periods frequently, then there were advantages in trying to minimise the amount of time I ever spent not in rubber (at least from the neck down if not TE).This would overcome the negative aspects of re-acclimatisation and overestimation. It also means I have an easy framework for the daily indecision on question of “should I get into rubber today, when and for how long? Am I in the mood?” – where the question becomes Q1 “Is there any specific reason I could not get into my rubber skin right now?” and Q2 “When would I need to strip and change into non rubber?”.

Once in that state there seemed to be no way back for me and I am now looking forward to a time in a few weeks when the answer will always be “no” to Q1, every single day and “not any time soon” to Q2! Until then, I must take what opportunity I can through the week and suffer the effects of withdrawal and re-acclimatisation – exhausting but still fun….

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Stop going on about 24/7!?!?! :o)

2006-05-25T09:01:00.000Z

Thanks for the comments from Dark and 13 to my last entry on ‘Is “totally sealed rubber object” a gender’. As you probably guessed, it was not an entirely cogent point, but a hope for fresh debate. Maybe I was looking to clarify my fetish rather than just come up with a new explanation for my actions. It certainly got some people thinking – which is the fun thing about it for me. I am still amazed (and very pleased) that people read my blog given how infrequently I have been updating it! Here are some more questions and feedback for you:

Does the rubber disable us from interacting with society – or does society handicap rubber TE fetishist from interacting with it?

Dependency on a security blanket – Is wonder if there is a coloration between children who reply on a security blanket to those who grow into adulthood with a rubber fetish? Also, is their a relationship between those children who experience involuntary withdrawal of their security blanket by their parents/guardians and those who become hooked on rubber fetish?

Addiction – I think that is certainly true that many of us use rubber as a crutch and become very dependant on regular top up doses (in my case very regular daily doses). On the other hand, addiction is usually taken (I think) as a state were not only are you psychologically dependent but that there is a physiologically dependency resulting in a negative physical reaction on withdrawing the substance (e.g. cold turkey). Now I have noticed that once you have become fully adjusted to daily and prolonged enclosure in latex over several months, there are some physical reactions when you go cold turkey – but to be honest the worst of these are non-serious skin issues for the first week or so. So – is rubber TE an actual addiction or a dependency? Maybe I am splitting hairs – given people use the word addiction so loosely – like “I am addicted to tobacco” which I (as a ill informed non-smoker) would think would be better described as a dependency. Mind you, it’s not that easy to give up smoking, so maybe we underestimate dependency (rubber TE included) at our peril!

As for the question of the usual desire for new experiences, rather than ice cream 24/7, I think this is what separates my particular fetish from other experiences and makes me think of the question of self image. Yes, I know MOST rubberists get into their latex suits for some sort of fix – either a regular quick fix or an occasional big session and I cannot see anything wrong with that. However, for me the quick fix may be a factor to deal with, but not the real full story. For me the sleek rubber TE look is my true inner self – and/or self image or “natural” state. I specifically want to be mainly in that rubber state as my default mode and know it will make me feel at ease. Although am perfectly willing to dress up in weird itchy, drafty, uncomfortable outfits for specific social or other functions (like climbing gear, sailing gear, business suit…), these are just costumes that portray me in somebody else’s idealised form.

Isn’t all this rubber TE just all related to sex – well yes, but don’t many women only feel comfortable with their appearances when fully made up and wearing sexy clothes? It doesn’t stop it being their own self image of their gender does it? And here we go back dangerously close to the original gender point I think…
Dark thinks that they would not want to be in rubber (or any other experience) 24/7 as it would become “a prison not a place of comfort”.

Firstly, I have come to think that we need to decouple lifestyle rubber TE and the whole “24/7” phrase – which I find has become a block to our understanding and personally irritating. OK, yes some of us only fantasies about the 24/7/365 thing, but that does not stop us aspiring or living out OUR versions of a lifestyle rubber TE fetish. Me living in rubber 23/7, 20/7, 15/7 hours – what does it matter? The fact that this is my “normal” state, affirming my self image, makes me different from other rubber fetishists and the horrible tag “lifestyle” is the only one I have come across that comes close to explaining it so far. [WARNING – off topic example coming up] Ellen McCarther sailing the south Atlantic or me sailing the North Channel at night – we both feel we are having a great sailor adventure. I think if you put numbers against a personal adventure, you miss the point of how the person feels about their experience and themselves. If we keep going on about the South Atlantic or 24/7/365 in rubber as the norm is just going to make some of us feel inadequate! :o)

Secondly, I am very happy in my prison – particularly given I have the proverbial key and can get out when I need to. [I say proverbial key as, when I think about it, I do often chose to lock myself in my rubber skin and give the key to someone else!!!]. What I would be less happy about is being locked out of my latex prison – as it is my rightful home, but I guess that I would survive it – just not necessarily like it. I know others will feel differently – and that’s fine. I so see their point of view and know I may never be able to explain why my rubber fetishist is not just like theirs. Of course, it does help to know they are all trying very hard to see my point of view too.

Thanks,
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Is “totally sealed rubber object” a gender

2006-05-22T10:12:00.000Z

Sorry to anyone who has been watching this blog for new entries and been disappointed this year. I have had a very bad time since Feb and have often found myself away from internet access or rubber – sometimes both at the same time – yikes!

I am hoping that normal service will start to be resuming over the next 8 weeks, but in the meantime, let me pose the following question…

Is “totally sealed rubber object” my true gender, or possibly my sexual orientation or non of the above? I have given this a lot of thought while talking it through with friends and see if you can follow my thought patterns.

OK – in very simplistic terms: I am told that Sex is a biological thing, orientation is to do with who we find ourselves sexually drawn to and how we carry on, while gender is how we perceive our true character related to sexuality. So for example, someone could be born with male biology but could believe that their true self is feminine and may even take drugs or undertake surgical procedures to make their body comply with this self image. This is not at all directly related to sexual orientation – otherwise most guy men would be on hormones and having surgery – which is obviously ridiculous.

I, on the other hand am born genetically male, but my feeling of identity seems to be best served by the image of being totally hermetically sealed in rubber. Biologically a man, but my whole being is screaming out to be a sleek rubber, 100% totally sealed fetish object – it’s just the “real me” – or at least, who I aspire to be. When I achieve this state of total enclosure, the moment that gas mask (or whatever) is finally on, I suddenly feel calm and at peace with myself. I feel more confident, less indecisive and “more natural” (a contradiction I know). When out of rubber for any period of time “I am not myself” and seem to lose my identity / individuality or sense of “me”.

Could be this is a pathological mental disease – but surely it could only be pathological if it stopped me achieving my aims or functioning in society. In a way it does limit me – but party I am disabled by society as they would not accept me in the state closest my self image. On the other hand, I am still able to dress the way society want when I absolutely need to, so it’s not like I am unable to adapt. But fundamentally, time spent in mundane clothes is a bit like time being forced to wear a prison (jail) uniform – something to be endured and not exactly what I would chose.

So what do you think? Lifestyle “totally sealed rubber object” as a third gender? Or am I just talking crap?

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Thursday, February 23, 2006

2006-02-23T18:09:00.000Z

It’s been a while since I posted so it’s high time I published an update…

I have been “on the road” much of the time over the last few months, rather than my more usual state of being safely ensconced in rubber while working in my home office every day. I spent over 2 months in the US and now I am travelling in the UK. This is probably a temporary state of affairs so have been concentrating on the positive side of things. True, I have had to spend abnormally long periods sans-rubber, but this has not meant a non-fetish lifestyle. The time I have has, I have tended to spend in more extreme rubber total enclosure than normal, as I have had not had to consider the practicalities of being able to work while in rubber.

I managed to spend virtually every evening and most weekends in rubber total enclosure. The fact I am so far away from home and my usual commitments has meant I have been free to indulge in more extra long sessions than usual, frequently finding the time to go 48 contiguous hours plus in total enclosure and occasionally 60+ hours with some short breaks. And then there is the fun I have has with long sessions of pretty edgy breath control…

But still, I have missed my home office and the routine of spending every day working in rubber. Making new rubber fetish friends both online and IRL has certainly helped the home sickness. Just hanging out with other people, while wearing rubber, has really helped me stay cheerful. I would definitely recommend it to all rubber fetish travellers!

One thing of note while travelling is the risk of “wardrobe malfunction”. I only had one main skin suit with me as I travelled in the US as my second lightweight suits zip failed just before travelling. Of course, as I was down to one suit, it was almost inevitable that I would have another malfunction. This time a seam in the seat of my remaining suit started to wear dangerously thin after the first month. Luckily I spotted it early and managed to patch it – although the suit was clearly getting to the end of it’s life. Remember I normally wear rubber every day, so I go through suits a bit quicker than average and I budget on a suit lasting about 400 sessions max. This suit was well past that and probably nearing 500 sessions.

As I was working in a densely populated area of Pennsylvania (USA) and not too far from New York (USA), I felt confident I would be able to get a replacement before long – but how wrong I was. Here is a warning for all European and UK travellers – the US fetish shops are a near desert for those into heavy rubber and total enclosure. Admittedly I only tried 3 shops but NONE of them had a suit with attached feet, gloves and/or hoods! That includes the famous NY (USA) branch of Demask! I admit that not everyone goes for suits with gloves/feet/hoods – but I didn’t see one even in the wrong size never mind my size. The shops seem to have only one rail of suits. Maybe this is a symptom of the popularity of online shopping, but I am old fashioned enough to want to try on my clothes before buying…

I hope the friends who showed me round the shops don’t take offence, as it was very kind of them and I really enjoyed looking round, even if I couldn’t find anything to buy.

Back in the UK, I popped into Cocoon’s shop in Birmingham yesterday and although they did not have exactly what I was looking for on the racks (plural), a different type of suit caught my eye and it just had to come home with me. Which is kind of the point of shops I guess.

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Welcome to my 2006

2006-01-16T13:08:00.000Z

Welcome to my 2006, where I hope to carry on wearing rubber as my “default material” and spending longer periods totally enclosed, with either air filtered or re-cycled. Once my busy holidays were over, I got off to a good start spending all my free time & sleep time totally encased, often complete with breath play hoods & masks.

I chose not to travel the Atlantic in rubber partly as security is getting to the point of wanting u to remove items of clothing – such as shoes, coats, gloves & anything obscuring the eyes so far – but who know what tomorrow? Rubber would only complicate any such undressing and cause confusion or embarrassment. Also I worry about temperature control when you are not in charge of your environment - traveling for 15 hours on all sorts of public transport gives a lot of opportunities to dangerously overheat with no easy “bail out” option – not something I would look forward to. Call me a fair-weather rubberists if you like, but travel like that is going to be challenging enough as it is in vanilla!

To “In Latex Always” and all those who have contacted me directly over the holiday season with notes of encouragement… Thank you! Nice to know there are people who read at least some of this stuff! Had a particularly nice response to those who live in the area of the US where I am currently traveling and I only hope I manage to get back to you all.

I thank Dark for his comments and questions and have included some responses here as I think they may have general interest.

I think your assertion of me ‘becoming "normalized" to rubber encasement… assume no longer a "distraction" in the sense that you are able to do almost anything you could and would do without encasement... for example restful sleep…’ might be slightly overstating how much I have achieved over the last few months. I know where you are coming from, but to be truly accurate, for me rubber encasement can often still be a distraction (often a pleasant distraction). I can do many things in rubber – but this has involved some personal compromises / sacrifices and I am only at the beginning of my road to being able to sleep totally encased in complete comfort every night of the week (I do wear rubber TE every night at the moment – just can’t say it always results in perfectly comfortable sleep!).

Now on to your trickier comments re the “mission”… you asked do I ‘want rubber enclosure to become so normal …that it is virtually "invisible" to you body and mind.’. Here I am going to admit to a certain amount of paradox – but basically the answer is no.

To start with, the sensation and physical experience of my being totally encased in rubber is only part of my fetish – albeit it has become an important component. The knowledge that I am as totally hermetically sealed as I can comfortably be (for prolonged periods) is an objective / stimulation / satisfaction in itself. I don’t know if there is a word for my level of fixation / fetish / obsession with being totally sealed – but if there is I have got the bug! Maybe it’s just a Total Enclosure fetish. The fact that because I use rubber as my way to achieve TE brings with it the (massive) additional stimulation, does not detract from my under lying fetish.
To answer your main point, no, I do not want the rubber enclosure to become “invisible”. This is not my specific aim. My acclimatization and adjustment over the last few months has only had the objective of making rubber more tolerable and even comfortable to wear for longer and longer periods. I can see the logic in your thought processes and cannot deny that sometimes I do totally forget that I am totally enclosed, but this is not the aim and (luckily) I have found it difficult to ignore the strong physical effects of total rubber encasement for more than a brief period. And if I do forget I am wearing it for a while, I have found it very easy to become re-aware of (re-sensitized to) my encased predicament – resulting in a sort of on demand stimulation sensation.

Just as a slight aside to illustrate – I had been surfing my favorite sites recently and was watching a somewhat intense / hot scene on the 02extreme site. Lana was in a rubber skin suit and being bagged. She had been in there for what seemed like forever and was getting very desperate and I rapidly got a strong desire to be just as encased as Lana, totally sealed with no directed contact with the outside air. Then I suddenly realized my situation – I had been totally encased in my rubber skin suite for over a day, complete with a tight fitting gas mask with filter. Not even one inch of me had been uncovered for hours. This realization was just delicious (for want of a better word) – my total enclosure HAD become totally “invisible” to me for some minutes (and not very noticeable for hours) – but as soon as it became “visible” again – my total enclosure became a very dominant sensation – I would say as strong a sensation as when I had started out 20 odd hours beforehand. I cann’t say this was planned – but was happy to be there. I also found the whole event amusing too – but that may just be my strange sense of humor.

So yes, on the occasions when the rubber becomes “invisible” to me (usually when static and concentrating on something) I have lost out on much of the “appeal” (the stimulation sensation) during that period, but as soon as I remember (which is usually every time I move!) I am still rewarded by stimulation of my TE fetish plus obvious rubber sensations. And for me this has been one of the most endearing features of latex rubber – it is in it’s nature to stretch, flex and bend to be comfortable for much of the time – and yet regularly it strongly re-asserts it’s cocooning presence. Often all it takes is to tense up a muscle for the rubber skin to shift in the most pleasant way...

Then there is the flip side of wearing rubber for long periods – the sacrifices to comfort and lifestyles etc. This all requires a dedication and submission to the rubber that I think is all part of the fetish. If fetish can be paraphrased as the love of inanimate object, then my love of rubber lifestyle includes many of the usual acts of sacrifice, devotion and submission that are present in the love of a sub to their master/mistress. The fact that some of these inconveniences must be endured and cannot be totally acclimatized to seems to have the benefit of keeping the experience stimulating.

I too enjoy the contrasts of which Dark speaks and would appreciate them – but to attain the rewards I perceive I get from dedication to long term enclosure, I must forfeit the contrast attained from wearing vanilla most of the time and rubber only as I the desire takes me [other than during my current January work assignment!].
Why should Dark change anything, if he gets what he wants out of his current rubber habits? Well my aim is not to “convert” people to long term rubber TE lifestylists. I DO want to encourage anyone who has long dreamt of living in rubber much/all the time to give it a go and actually try to live the dream. I would encourage them to try to extend their personal range just a little and join in the dialogue about this lifestyle. The first step is to stay enclosed beyond the time it takes to satisfactorily complete the obvious sex scenes - or even better, sometimes wear rubber without the classic cycle of sex and/or masturbation (easier said than done I know). I would encourage them be stating that this initial hurdle is one of the more difficult challenges on the road to a fetish lifestyle – after that it only gets better and better!

For those who are turned on be the concept of living in latex, the rewards do exist – simply decoupling the rubber stimulation from the classic climax leads to a whole different level of experience.

For those who have never seen any attraction of being totally sealed for longer than strictly “necessary” – I would not presume to know how to advise them on if would be worth their investment in time and effort to try the experience. However - if you already have a work/lifestyle that would allow you to wear rubber every day – what have to lose by trying? If you found you lost the turn on of rubber through familiarity (which I doubt), then couldn’t you just take a long break from it and revert back to your original practice? Anyway it up to you.

As to the “two ways” either the “non-erotic” or living “on the edge” of sexual tension – then I chose the later. The dilemma is when you find yourself too close to that edge for very long periods, out of control and struggling to function in anything other than a sexual way (agony!). My ideal would be to be constantly in a mildly stimulated / sensual state 24/7, but only “highly” stimulated or on the edge of climax at a time of my choosing (like a default state that kicks in when I am not trying to concentrate on work or achieving some non-sexual goal). I am starting to think I would prefer to not routinely be “over-stimulated” to the point of loss of control - even though I can make it last for very long periods. I am becoming interested in decoupling the whole rubber / sensual / erotic / sexual / climax experiences (more posts on this in the future).
Thanks to Blackie for his comments – both of them. Think the blog takes a long time to refresh sometimes. I think I already covered a lot in my reply to Dark but just like to say it is interesting to hear how you are more comfortable with your fetish. I know I still have hang ups about being in public – and this limits my personal objective. This is something I will try to address in the coming year(s), as I have found your experiences very encouraging.

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

2005-12-23T03:43:00.000Z

December has been a very different month for me and, with nearly a year of this blog behind me, I don’t really know where to start…

I have been away from home more and been out of rubber more of the time than I have in probably well over a year. But paradoxically – it has been one of the most fetish oriented months of the year!

Let me explain – previous months I have lived and worked wearing rubber. This month, the part of the day were I toil at the office has been sans-rubber – often leaving the majority of the hours of the day to indulge oneself. Being so far from home relieves one of the opportunity / duty to perform normal vanilla family and social activities, so there is rarely any need to spend much of these 15 or 16 hours being anything other than perfectly encapsulated in latex.

So, although theoretically I may be spending less of my waking hours in rubber, I have been able to be as systematically strict with myself about how I spend my recreational hours as I have previously been able to be about my working day. Basically I have rarely been able to find any reason not be in total encapsulation in rubber heaven 12+ hours each and every day during the week and 24 hours a day at the weekend. As none of these hours has been while working, there was little mundane distractions to think about while in total encasement – so typically my rubbery predicament was top of my consciousness during this time, oddly giving me plenty of rubber recreation time as I was not trying to stay focused on work etc while I just happened to be wearing rubber, as is my norm.

One of the great achievements has been to get very used to being in a rubber suit each and every night (I “often” slept in rubber in the past – but I put it to you that “often” is nothing like “every” in terms of a rubber lifestyle. The discipline required is on a different order, but the pay back is ultimately much greater levels of comfort). I eventually managed to get used to always sleeping wearing a hood with just small eye/nose/mouth holes – this was a challenge which ultimately I conquered by the odd means of stepping up a gear and wearing a rather tight gas mask over the top of the hood – complete with filter! Not sure how it happened, but think that my body just got so desperately tired from repeatedly disrupting it pattern each night, it decided it’s instincts to be uncovered were no match for my desire to be covered and it’s desire to be asleep! It seems the instincts are merely patterns to be broken - and my earlier apnoea blighted attempts catch a few moments of sleep are now something approaching hours of half decent quality snoozing.

There are still challenges here though. Sleeping in rubber is not a problem and doing it in hooded TE is possible- but the challenge is for it to be as comfortable as I know it can be. I am still having some problems with consistently controlling my perspiration which I don’t have during the day and time will tell how much the quality of the sleep with a hood and gas mask on will become…

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As I have been spending mainly recreational time while wearing rubber, it means I have been able to spend more time catching up on talking to my fellow fetishists. There really are quite a lot of us out there – although it seems there are almost an infinite number of flavours of fetishes too. I have been busy chatting in chat rooms, messaging and emailing and surfing.

I even managed to meet up with a fetish couple IRL while travelling and working in the US. Meeting virtual complete strangers was quite daunting. We hardly knew each other online never mind in person – but MoF and his partner [name withheld!] were a total joy. Sure the first few moments felt a little awkward – but once we found a common language (you guessed it – a guided tour of their fetish wardrobe) everything just fell into place. The following weekend they kindly guided me to a local fetish store in New Hope PA and we just did the shopping, chatting and chilling out thing.

Parenthetically – one of the things I have been contemplating is the past tendency to link rubber lifestyle with sex (and ejaculation in particular) in my mind. After a lot of thought I think I am interested in decoupling the two. I will elaborate more next year – but it’s become clear to me that being sealed in rubber, sex, orgasm and ejaculations are just separate (admittedly important) parts of my existence and not an inevitable logical sequence! Talking to older and wiser rubber heads has started to rub off on me and think I am starting to enjoy a new way a looking at my rubber existence.

January will again be spent away from the home in the US (PA and NJ I think) and so I look forward to more of the same! Perhaps I can even meet so more fellow rubber fetishist – the search to find people even interest in rubber lifestyle has come to fascinate me…

This year I am being a little more open about my new years resolution – I want to raise the profile of the actual attainment of wearing totally enclosing rubber outfits routinely for long periods. I don’t mind talk of the challenges, but the starting point for this blog is that wearing rubber TE for most of the time is totally possible and for some of us desirable and the ideal. No one can tell me it’s impossible to wear rubber every day, as I have enough experience now to know that that, at worst, it can is merely challenging. I may not have achieved perfection, but can see that there are physical and psychological answers to much that the doom-sayers have presented as barriers.

For all those who contributed comments this year – a big thank you! Your interest has certainly helped me stay focussed on why I live this way. For those who lurked and never said a damn thing I say – you’re welcome! Of course a single line saying “hello!” would be so welcome and is unlikely to kill you – but I realise you are probably shy or busy or lazy – just like me!

Sealed

Thursday, December 15, 2005

2005-12-16T05:27:00.000Z

Back in PA and building up my tolerance to sleeping in rubber. The main trouble I am having is sticking to the plan of a gradual build up to sleeping in total enclosure. Because in the period before sleep I am just chilling out, I just don’t feel right in anything less than TE – so often end up feeling odd about taking off the hood before going to sleep – so don’t (sometime finding it too much of a wrench to take my goggles and mask off!). This results in some reasonable sleep now – but interrupted regularly with restricted airways (the fit of my hood causing my jaw to sometimes move go a position that causes problems. This is all very stimulating of course, but does leave you with a sleep deficit the next day…

As for temperature / perspiration control – this is still not nearly as good as while awake, but is a lot better than it was. I usually find the inside of my suit is damp in the mornings – but now it’s usually just a covering in moisture and not free fluid sloshing about. I think I can do better if I modify my eating and drinking habits and diet.

I feel confident about cracking the problem of being totally comfortable /dry while sleeping in TE – particularly in a room with thermostatic heat control! From my experience working in rubber, I agree with Rubanix’s post about adapting to rubber so you perspire less freely and are more comfortable – although I take his point about being too dry being a problem – I occasionally find some irritation like joggers nipple can occur. He has been relating his experience over the years, via private correspondence - which I found very encouraging and inspiring.

As for Darks question on how the adaptation to wearing rubber and not overheating works, I think it is a combination of things. I do think you change your behavior before / during wearing rubber to compensate – becoming less tense, fidgety and over-active. I think this happens on both a conscious and sub-conscious level. Also, I think that diet has an effect – and know rubber can alter how I feel about drinking and eating. Also the physiological (& psychological) response to actually donning the rubber has changed for me – from excitement / stimulation to a calming / comfortable / relaxing experience. Being less excited and calmer naturally reduced perspiration.

In addition to all these thing though, I think there are more basic body adjustments going on as well. I think my body associates the feeling of being in rubber to be a signal to back off on generating heat and using perspiration as the main way to control temperature. For me I think of it as like when a I go to visit hot countries – it seems I spend days / weeks adjusting – during this period I perspire freely, can easily get heat exhaustion. Mean time the ex – pats in these communities seem to shrug off the heat almost as easily as the locals. The same occurs with altitude, diet etc. The point being that your body is capable of amazing degree of adaptation, as long as you give it enough time to adjust.

Last weekend was my birthday so decided to treat myself to 60+ hours in total enclosure. It didn’t go exactly to plan. First I found that I couldn’t do more than one night in a row in full TE. And then disaster struck 40 odd hours in, and my suit developed a wardrobe malfunction! It was only a quarter inch slit – but that was enough to ruin it for me. I did manage go patch it during the week but am going shopping on Saturday as my suit is showing signs of wear now.

On that subject, I just spent a very pleasant evening with a fetish couple who live nearby, who I found on IAR. I forgot to ask if they minded my posting their online names here, so will respect their privacy and not name them yet. Anyway it was great to talk to a couple who were both very much into similarly extreme rubber enclosure etc. We are meeting up again on Saturday to go shopping at the nearest fetish suppliers. So kind of them to look after a rubberist who finds himself so far from home.

Sealed

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

2005-12-07T23:55:00.000Z

I have been asked how I have been coping without rubber – the question was so shocking as to warrant a small entry here. The idea of me not engaging in rubber at all while traveling on business was never a realistic option for me! Not sure I cold survive that, but you don't have to worry too much - I have brought my rubber with me!

Although I no longer work in rubber, I am spending all free time, evenings / nights and weekends in rubber. In fact, as I don't have the fix during the weekdays, I am able to push a few personal limits I have been neglecting so far.

I have never got round to fully acclimatizing to wearing rubber while asleep – in particularly TE. It’s not that it’s a usual activity, I quite often have a more severe hood on at night than during the day (I have a penchant for a particular dangerous type in fact) – it’s just that it’s not become totally routine. For various reason I have found it difficult to control my temperature overnight and usually always overheat and perspire by morning - usually after wake up in the middle of the night shivering from being too cold! It’s not a huge problem or anything – it’s just I know from my daytime experiences that it should be perfectly possible to be virtually 100% comfortable and reasonably dry every time if I get it right.

The main way I have found to acclimatize in the past is to stop doing things add-hoc and start being methodical, building up the gradually the severity to a point were I am living it every day. In the past, I was patchy about letting myself bail out if I thought it was not going well. So while I have been here, I have started building up my ability to be comfortable in rubber overnight. Still not got the hood / mask / goggles part totally comfy, but working up to it.

And again, as I have not spent every day of the week in rubber, my will power is more able to push things at the weekends. So I am engaging in longer sessions at the weekend with the aim being to build it up to total enclosure 24/7 for each weekend, starting 5pm Friday though to Monday 8am, as the norm while away from home.

Last weekend was a trial and went reasonably well - but was a bit over ambitious as I found it difficult to sleep in my hood for more than one night in a row and had also made a little too difficult in the rear plug department! None of it was stopping me as a one off – but I realized that to regularize this level of exposure to be a routine (long term) part of your life, it really cannot be uncomfortable or exhausting experience. I want this fetish experience to be my norm not a one off kinky trial.

So I think the moral of the story is to build up my acclimatization gradually! Once I have the whole rubber below the neck thing 100% sown up (it already feels very normal most nights, but it has to be a comfortable & dry experience every night to be sustainable) I will add the hood building up to breathing masks, goggles and breathing hoods. So far there have been too many things to deal with – this way there is only one challenge at a time.

At the moment I am in Washington DC is very cold and the temperature is totally suitable for rubber. Even if it were not, every place I have been so far had good A/C. Tomorrow I head back for PA which I suspect will be my HQ for a while – again in air conditioned latex luxury! Looks like I may have a little work near NY – but again the temperature is going to be perfect. So if I have to work away, it appears I have chosen the right time of year for the places I am working…

Sealed

Sunday, 04 December 2005

2005-12-05T01:23:00.000Z

As always Dark makes some interesting and thought provoking points in his recent comment. Thank you, I am flattered by your interest. But it suddenly occurred to me how difficult it might be for others (even regular rubberists) to see why I believe that extreme total enclosure would be the ideal normal state for me – my own personal holy grail. For a long time I had assumed that ALL rubberist might dream about spending all their time in rubber from head to foot, if only they could acclimatise to it, get past the physical & psychological barriers and have a personal lifestyle that allowed for such unusual/total existence/behaviour in our repressive society.

There are really three parts to my desired lifestyle, the rubber, the TE (being as hermitically sealed as possible) and the length of time I wish to be in this state. Looking at the comments from Dark and comments and emails from others leads me to realise that these are not even universal fantasies, even less so personal aims.

Before I go on, I really must say that I would not denigrate those who follow the practice of just wearing latex for a particular fetish session, party or just for fun, and then strip when it is no longer needed. I feel this is a totally legitimate rubberist / fetishist / TE ist behaviour. Please don’t think I believe this is a hierarchy - there is nothing clever, brave or noble about aspiring towards a dedication to a rubber TE lifestyle. It’s just a personal preference that some of us have.

It seemed to me that Dark’s mental exercise only went part the way to explaining my “holy grail” of “full perfect encasement”, even though I could relate to all his points. It is true that I think that rubber feels great, skin tight better and the more coverage the better. But interestingly, I thought Dark’s term Full Perfect Encasement did come close to summing up one of the missing elements in the reasoning very well – that’s exactly how it feels to me when the encasement is as full/total/complete as I can make it - Perfect. Anything less is “imperfect” to me. For me, TE or FPE is not just about the feeling of rubber on every inch of your skin – there is another extra physical aspect the nearer you get to TE and something more yet again when you achieve a totality hermitic seal – which is more than just a physical sensation. In addition I prefer that my air supply is not too direct – even when I am not embarked on a session of breath play. This can be anything from wearing a simple filter mask to more elaborate masks and tubes – but the base line is that not even my lips / teeth / tongue are outside my total encasement. Again. the enclosure is not strictly total for me if my eyes are not covered in some way (e.g. rubber blind fold, goggles or full face mask).

As for the extended length of time I whish to be in this state – that is a little more difficult to account for. Lets start with the time it takes most people to perform a specific fetish session which may result in sexual climax. This is going to be different for everyone and different each time - but just try to imagine a long session by your own standards. My guess is that many have never made it past spending double this length of time in rubber (unless they fell asleep post coitus and woke up in the morning still in rubber or maybe were out partying all night). This period of say double the period strictly needed to achieve a fetish session is, in my mind, just the starting point for a whole different TE experience I desire. Problematically, it is also usually during this period when you get the strongest desire to strip from what suddenly feels like the restrictive grip of the TE.

Now, imagine it’s a good day and you have stayed rubbered for a time when you have had multiple sessions with rest session between and are now convinced you have had your fill (a session that could keep you happy for days). Now imagine resisting the now very strong desire to strip and just take a rest for a while instead. After a time, what would happen for me is that the desire to strip fades and suddenly I start to feel very comfortable again. Presently, I get a feeling of being very special and the feeling is both great and reassuring. Lets call this the beginning of Phase 2, which feels like I have entered an almost symbiotic relationship with my encasement. If I can come to accept the (mainly) minor inconveniences and restrictions of staying in rubber, I start to reap the true benefits of long term TE, this time without the “torture” of needing to repress my pent up sexual drive and over stimulation (or alternately the need to do something to relief the strong desire to come). Many of the benefits of Phase 2 get better over the hours and even days and I would say is a much deeper experience than just a quick phase 1 bang.

That’s half of it – the “why extended session” part, but again there is another part. Why should it become your default day to day existence? Well this is even more tricky to describe but partly it is because it is a just an important part of the technique of achieving Phase 2. And this is where the explanation gets a little recursive, but bear with me…

Now in a perfect world, if this TE Phase 2 is something you wanted to do even fairly regularly as part of your life, it would be better to get to Phase 2 as quickly as possible rather than “endure” Phase 1 for hours of each session (with all the time and mess involved!). One of the handful of techniques I use for this is to literally achieve phase 2 as regularly/constantly as I possibly can. Like a self fulfilling prophecy, the nearer you get to Phase 2 being an every day for most/all of the day experience, the easier and quicker it is to achieve Phase 2+. I call it 2+ because it has all the advantages of Phase2 without the daily inconvenience of involuntarily losing control for half the day, plus the advantage of still being susceptible to becoming highly sexually stimulated (usually) at a time of your own choosing, rather than in the first hour of TE. This becomes important if you want function in any way outside of just sex while wearing rubber.

I know this is going to sound difficult to believe, but the part of the fetish experience that most people aim for (that I call phase 1) is one of the single biggest nightmares of my latex lifestyle for me. The amazing rush, massive sudden increase in libido, the transition from mundane life to an exciting fetish dream existence are like crosses I must bear for my belief in Phase 2. To me Phase 1 has become associated with ordeal, torment and even suffering. Believe me, if you don’t get to choose the time it happens, holding back from over sexual stimulation day in day out, hour after hour does feel very much like a physical agony. It’s still enjoyable for me – but only in a very masochistic way. Luckily for me the cure is to try to minimise time spent in Phase 1 to minutes and not hours, partly by basically staying in Phase 2+ day in day out. (Other controls I use to deal with phase 1 are “ritual”, state of mind, time of day, diet, activity before and after being encased, use of toys and use of poppers… But I think the most potent would be to never spend more than a few minutes unsealed).

In addition to the above purely practical (if cyclic) reasoning, there has to be a more fundamental personal motivation to want to aspire to lifestyle of Full Perfect Encasement. This is almost as difficult for me as describing why you want to be a man or woman (I guess I am talking gender not just biological sex here). My current self image is wrapped up in the whole idea of TE as being a perfect (normal) state for the ideal “being”. It’s difficult to be certain, but I think this has always been the case for me since childhood. I don’t think anything will shake my desire to aspire towards this idealised (self) image.

Back to a more physical reason – rubber feels great on day 1 and still feels great on day 30 and this whole notion of recalibration of senses may have been overplayed, or perhaps poorly explained by me and others. Recalibration is a reality for me – basically you not only get used to the feeling of TE, but you actually adapt to it to some degree. Rubber does become less taxing to wear when it is your “norm”. In fact, after a month or two, it becomes significantly more comfortable to be in rubber than to wear anything else. But for me, you never feel like the rubber is not there for very long and it never feels anything other than very special – sure you sometimes forget for a short while if extremely pre-occupied – but the idea of rubber TE becoming a normal non-stimulating feeling is ludicrous to me (not that Dark claimed quite as much as that). I think of recalibration as being like taking a mild pain killer - taking aspirin may make your sore knee easier to live with, but if you touch your skin, or knock your knee, it still feels exactly the same as normal. If that can be true of pain killers maybe you will believe me when I say that rubber is ALWAYS stimulating to me, even when I don’t want it to be, even after several days of 24/7 encasement. For example, I have been in rubber constantly since Friday PM and I am still having difficulty controlling myself now on Sunday evening when I come to describe my rubber lifestyle, 48 hours later…

Maybe it’s not as intense for me as it is for other who ration themselves – I can’t measure that. For sure it is not as frantic involuntary an experience – but that’s not to say there are not deeper sensual elements to compensate. What does seem to happen over time is that the reasons and impulses to end a TE session lessen fairly constantly and the reasons to want to carry on stay fairly constant after the first few high/lull cycles – thus a tipping point can be reached were the balance of reasons to stay rubbered outweigh the reasons to go vanilla. I have been slightly worried when this has happened – as I have occasionally got to a stage where it’s be too strong a wrench to go vanilla and so affected my other work/life commitments…

As for the calculus of the fetish TE – I think this particularly well observed. For me there are always two sides to the equation which I have to balance. It also explains why some people are more able and willing to go for the lifestyle. For example, people who are gregarious with vanilla friends and family, don’t have personalities that like to shock, like doing very physical sport and/or work, get still crazy if they don’t regularly get a dose of outdoor life are going to find it more difficult to balance the equation than a book mouse, non-physical types who are very self contained.

For me, I tend to fit somewhere towards the type of person where a fully enclosed latex lifestyle does not sufficiently prohibit me from the life I want to live to stop me living in rubber the majority of the time. Admittedly I have manipulated the other part of my work & personal life to quite an extent to make them compatible with rubber. I expect I am done manipulating them – but suspect I have left it a little too long in my life to totally commit to a 24/7/365 rubber lifestyle – but that shouldn’t stop me trying.

For me, once you given yourself the opportunity to experience TE day in day out, it only gets easier to deal with the challenges and yet also becomes more pleasurable. The real answer as to why I would want to spend each day like this is that it’s better in rubber and I often cannot find any reason not to be.

It’s interesting to think that many like Dark try to acquire the next fetish level with money. I sometimes do the same, but my main investment is not monetary – it is something you never want to squander - namely time. Contrary to how it may sound, I find I cannot be judgmental about other people’s journeys to personal happiness and just whish everyone who is true to their dreams well.

It seems that rubberiest who aspire to and actively pursue a fully total enclosure lifestyle are in a very small minority. Those who write about even fewer. So it seems I am more alone in this endeavor than I thought. I hope to come to terms with this fact, but can’t help feeling very keen to hear from anyone who even has it as a dream – but be warned I always encourage people to make there dreams a reality…

Sealed

Thursday, 24 November 2005

2005-11-28T10:32:00.000Z

Building on previous years, this year I have been lucky enough to be able do virtually all my work from my home office and so spend ever increasing time encased in rubber. Well, all good things come to an end and I have to come to terms with the next phase of work life.

As of next week I will be working away from home, probable spending a couple of months in foreign parts (mainly in the USA). If all goes to plan, this sacrifice will be rewarded with more work which I can do from home next year, so perversely its all part of my rubber life plan. I have found that often, you have to speculate to accumulate…

All this means a pause to my ambition of spending day after day encased in rubber. As regular readers will know, I have been finding this ambition ever nearer to being a reality as time went on this year. I am now convinced that it is perfectly feasible to wear only rubber clothes, if that’s what you chose to do, and that the real challenge is organising the rest of your life to be compatible with this aim. So it is all the more disappointing that I have to put my encased life of hold at this stage.

Now I don’t want anyone to think that rubber will not be part of my life at all. I am planning long weekends fully encased in rubber and evenings/nights in TE. But I feel that all this is going to seem quite mundane compared to my usual life.

Then there is the challenge of adjusting to spending long hours every week day not protected by my rubber skin. I decided that a sudden change may be psychologically too much so have spent the last week spending more and more time in vanilla. Although physically no massive deal, the odd thing is that it has possibly been slightly more uncomfortable coming off rubber than going on it. Very difficult to explain – but its a little like growing a beard or your growing your hair long – the transition is not exactly life threatening, but not something you would chose to go through very regularly.

Physically, there are lots of prickly sensations, itchiness, and some actual minor skin blemishes. I think this may be partly because of the challenges of the weather conditions here with extremes of temperatures and humidity that I have been cocooned against since summer.

Anyway, onward we go …

Sealed

Wednesday, 23 November 2005

2005-11-23T17:02:00.000Z

Imagine you were totally hermitically sealed, every inch of your body air and water tight, covered by a thin close fitting rubber membrane. What issues would you hit straight away? And if you wanted to stay like that for as long as you could, what would test you as time went on? Well, given my particular fetish, this is something I have often thought about but I have never seen a comprehensive list of all the problems that would hit you at each stage of the process, so I thought I would start one.

I have draw up this list partly from personal experience as I have hit many of the issues on the road to trying to achieve my own optimum level of total enclosure. As you might expect, the longer the time you want to spend sealed, the more items you need to deal with and yet, many of the most fundamental issues are encountered in the first few hours.

By understanding the issues I think it is possible to prepare to deal with them. Some things may be easy to fix while other require some personal sacrifices to be endured, but this will depend on what your views are on various levels of compromise to your closed environment. For sure, some compromise to the perfection of your encapsulation is always necessary if you want to survive beyond a few minutes being totally sealed - as you will need to breathe eventually! It’s up to the individual as to what concessions will result in them still feeling they are sealed enough / for long enough to be acceptable for them.

Rather than include my solutions / compromises / personal endurances here, at this stage I will just identify the issues in the order in which I think they occur. I would be interested to hear comments from anyone who has actual experience or even just an opinion…

Assuming a totally hermetically sealed starting point, with absolutely no respite, this is my hierarchy of challenges for a totally enclosed person, with a rough estimate of when I think they first become noticeable:

1. Immediately:
a) Putting on tight rubber (Ingress) / sticking to skin (lubrication & chlorination)
b) Breathing
c) Some loss of dexterity (particularly fiddly manual handling through gloves)
d) Partial impairment of senses of smell, hearing, touch and possibly sight.
e) Difficulty speaking clearly enough

2. Within Minutes:
a) Condensation – Vision
b) Temperature Control / Overheating / Perspiration
c) Possible spontaneous / involuntary sexual over stimulation (men only?)
d) Hair snagging / pulling – mostly only if long haired

3. After a few hours:
a) Urination
b) Condensation – breathing mask / tubes / equipment
c) With some hoods/masks, face can get damp from either saliva or condensation from goggles or breathing

4. Within a day (or maybe a little longer):
a) Circulation (unless rubber good fit)
b) Dehydration – particularly if perspiring.
d) Skin/suit can become badly saturated, if you have been allowing yourself to perspire.
e) Leaking / leaving puddles. Some suits leak when they become saturated.
f) Trouble sleeping – particularly if mask causes breathing trouble
g) Temperature control while asleep

5. Around the 24 hours mark:
a) Defecation
b) Nutrition
c) Pressure points / chaffing (unless rubber v good fit)

6. Sometime 24 or 48 hours plus:
a) Start of a general build up of moisture in suit (even if not been perspiring)
b) Various secretions (e,g, mucus from nose, semen from sexual organs…) may start to build up.
c) Oral Hygiene

7. Within a week
a) Lesser secretions may start to irritate or even impair (e,g eyes, ears)
b) Difficulties with general personal hygiene may start to cause risk of skin irritation – this will certainly be worse if saturated

8. Sometime within a week or two
a) Growth of Nails
c) Men - Facial Hair may cause mask leak / fit issues or cause skin irritation
d) Social exclusion leading to seclusion & isolation

9. Longer term:
a) “Wardrobe Malfunctions”
b) Risk of pressure sores
c) Women – Menstrual cycle and other female hygiene issues
d) Probable increased risk in some types of infection (UTIs and the like)
e) Vitamin D deficiency (due to lack of UV on skin)
f) Cardio Vascular & general / weight problems (difficulties of Physical Exercise).
g) Hair length
h) Dental care (and even eye or general health checks)
i) Difficulties dealing with some (even minor) ailments while in total enclosure
j) Isolation leading to loneliness and possible psychosis
k) Becoming totally dependent on / addicted to your rubber encapsulation…

Did I miss anything?

Hope I haven’t put anyone off trying longer sessions of total enclosure by concentrating on the just the down side. Most of these issues have remedy and there are also the up side of the fetish to consider.

Have fun with your rubber limits,
Sealed

Monday, 14 November 2005

2005-11-14T15:03:00.000Z

Following comments and messages I received, I just want to clarify about the 24/7 thing, before posting on practical observations etc…

Sorry if I have led people to think otherwise, but I cannot claim to be a 24/7/7 rubberist, let alone spend my whole life in total enclosure with breath control. Although I probably wear rubber for more of the time than most people wear non-rubber (day) clothes, I am not as fastidious (or as I think of it: “dedicated”) - or as brave as those who spend all there time totally sealed in latex, such as the lifestyle documented by Ladyll. I look on that kind of life of rubber commitment as an ideal to aspire towards, but not one I have achieved, yet…

That’s not to say I just wear rubber as and when I feel the need, and then only for a few hours until I have “fixed” my need. That’s not me either.

It’s more accurate to say I routinely wear just rubber on most days. The amount of time I spend sealed up depends on what I need to do and where I need to be. I wish that rubber was suitable for every situation – but I find it just isn’t. If I go to a business meeting I wear business clothes. If I want to go up a mountain, I wear outdoor clothes. If I go sailing in the north Atlantic I wrap up in tons of sailing clothes! Sometimes I manage to wear these with rubber underneath but it’s sad to say that, for me, the 24/7/7 is not compatible with all the things I currently have to do with my time.

Luckily, and through some perseverance, I have been able to tailor a substantial part of my life to minimise the “out of rubber body experiences” - something I am keen to maintain and expand on. This is the real challenge – before I worry about the practicalities I have to constantly endeavour to maintain an everyday life compatible with my need for long periods of rubber encasement. I have to optimise the mundane life to give me the opportunity to realise my dream existence. This has not been without some sacrifice and risk to my financial security – but, up to today, things have always worked out in the end.

Now there is the question of the degree of my everyday enclosure. This is where I feel I would like to do a little better and be more rigorous for more of the time.

My current situation is that, assuming there is no need for excessive exertion and there is no heat wave, I feel completely comfortable wearing my normal suit all day, every day. That’s a medium thickness, close fitting cat suit with feet and hands plus a pair of black surgical gloves inside the suit and two pairs of similar, but different sized gloves outside the suits gloves. The gloves are a critical part of the setup as I need to get them exactly right to enable me to type at a computer all day and yet not cause any circulation problems. The same goes for the fit of all the rubber – but the hands, feet neck and head seem to be the most critical to get right.

With this I typically wear a hood which is either part of the suit or has a substantial overlapping seal. The hood will either be one with built in mask or, more often, it may be one with small openings for mouth, nostrils and eyes – over which I can wear separate goggles and a respirator mask over the mouth & nose. A hood with open mouth makes it easier to quickly switch to a configuration compatible with talking on the phone.

The hood and attachments remain a physical endurance challenge for me, even in situations where the rest of the suit seems very comfortable and the natural thing to be wearing. I used to have the same thing with my hands, but having integral gloves in my suit for years has meant that uncovering just my hands is not an option and I have had to adjust to the experience.

Sometimes I wear the whole lot for more than 24 hours at a stretch, but more typically I would change the head configuration through a day. In order of things that I normally want to remove or replace as I become uncomfortable are: any re-breathing kit, then goggles, then anything I can remove from the face and then finally the whole hood in extremis. After that I am usually fine, but it’s not long before I start to feel uncomfortable with a bear face – so it all starts to go back on again.

Now that the weather is cooler here, I am forcing myself to keep totally covered for a minimum of 8 hours a day and then only exposing the mouth / nostril holes for the rest of the day. Eventually, I think this will feel as natural to me as being sealed in latex from the neck down does now. At the moment I start feeling a little restricted half way through the days and get a strong desire to strip to the neck by evening. These feeling seem to be more habitual or psychological than physical discomfort and just removing the mask covering my mouth can pacify the feeling for a while. Eventually though the feelings to uncover the face can return and sometimes I find my will crumbling and I take time out of the hood.

If I take a few minutes out, no big deal you may think, but I see it differently. I want to get to the stage where wearing rubber all over is the norm and from past experience I know that part of the way this will happen is to stop thinking of it as something you wear for a particular reason and to not have an association with taking it off at a particular stage. For example, the first hurdle all lifestyle rubber fetishists have to overcome is the instinct to strip after sex - and the way I deal with this is I NEVER remove my rubber suit after sex, for at least one hour, no matter what! Once into this habit, the rubber suit becomes so much more than just a route to an orgasm.

Another important stage for me was wearing rubber every day it was compatible with what I planned for the day – even if I didn’t feel any desire to. I admit I am still working hard on this one and occasionally do fail. Why is this one important? Well, for one, I have never regretted being in latex once I forced myself to, and the consequences of not wearing rubber for a few days are being totally over stimulated when I do wear it on the first day back. Sounds great to be so totally sexually over-stimulated, but not when the aim is being sealed in rubber as just part of your everyday existence. When you are trying hard to catch up on work or whatever, holding back the orgasms hour after hour, it can be a total torture. It can almost feel like an agony. The only cure for me seems to avoid spending a day or more out of rubber, if possible. Wearing it every day, I still feel very stimulated but not to the extent I am out of control.

So how does this apply to my hood / mask issues? Well I think that if I can get to the stage where I only uncover my head when there is a practical reason to, rather than because I desire relief from enclosure, I can start to adjust to the experience as I disassociate the feeling of psychological endurance with the wearing of the hood.

Some people desire to be tested by the feeling of endurance. But for me, the wearing rubber as an arduous endurance you must suffer is not compatible with wearing it on daily basis. I think that with that mind set I would fail.

I am hoping that one day, wearing rubber over every inch, regularly 100% totally enclosed for long periods of time will be at least as comfortable for me as most people find wearing “normal” clothes for the same period. From my experience so far, I think it is totally feasible to adjust to this, but know that I am not there yet and that I will need to be very committed to achieve my goal.

For me the journey continues…

Wednesday, 26 October 2005

2005-10-26T11:38:00.000Z

It’s been a while since I made and entry. Thanks to Dark and all who have been keeping in touch (here and elsewhere) and feeding back on fetish lifestyle subjects.

On the one hand things have been wild and unpredictable in my personal and work life – and on the other things have been sort of “settled” in my fetish lifestyle. I have been lucky to have been able to spend most days in rubber and the familiarity of this experience, along with the very TE-compatible autumnal temperatures here, mean I just don’t find it uncomfortable or exceptional to spend most of my time in rubber any more. Being so intensely busy in vanilla activities (while in rubber) means I have not had the mental energy to peruse many new fetish ideas or progress things any further than before – but it has meant that I have been able to consolidate the fetish lifestyle I have. And now things are calming a little, there is time for some reflection.

Although now it’s routine to be busy working in my rubber suit, this is not to say it has become in any way a mundane. Yes there are times that I have been so wrapped up in an activity or conversation that I may briefly have completely forgotten the unusual nature of my totally encased clothing – but this really is the exception. It’s important to me that people don’t think that because I wear latex rubber over 100% of my skin, totally encased with breathing masks and goggles, day after day, that it has ever felt normal or dull – even if I have lived like that (for most of the time) since January! On the contrary it feels very special.

Yes, I do believe that my skin, body and mind have all been able to change to adapt to my lifestyle to various extents. Yes I have paid a little more attention to the quality and fit of my rubber clothing and other seemingly limiting factors over the years in light of daily usage. Yes I do have some tricks that help me deal with the remaining challenges (more on this later). Yes I do feel more comfortable now wearing rubber than other materials. And yes rubber TE may be becoming nearer to my normal “steady state” than any other mode.

Has the experience changed at all from a sexual perspective? It had to, to some extent. When I started out I found I was heavily sexually excited and stimulated from the moment I got into my suit to the moment I peeled my way out – but given I was trying to wear rubber all day, this reaction would effectively be totally paralysing! Am I no longer sexually stimulated by rubber? No – it still stimulating – but maybe a little less exciting. Others have reported the transition to the sensual rather than sexual – and I think there is some truth in this. But after spending any time out of rubber, on getting dressed there are all the same feelings again when the last zipper is pulled.

But could rubber TE ever be a mundane state or be anything other than feeling special? I don’t believe it will be for me. Yes, the novelty goes – but never that special feeling…

Is it addictive – well maybe sort of. The physical side starts off very difficult but I seem to start to adjust after just a few days. But it’s a funny addiction as, once through the initial physical barriers; I could probably spend weeks away from rubber if I needed to -yet I think after, say a month, I would start to miss it more and more every day. It would be those quite times when I would start to feel the strain.

I don’t think I would feel I was fully “me” if I didn’t think of myself as that person in rubber. Time I spend in vanilla feels like time I am me – but temporally out of my rubber skin. Sounds pretty weird when I come to write it – but my identity cannot be totally disassociated from my normal state (sealed in a rubber skin), along with my actions, beliefs, reactions etc…

Monday, September 26, 2005 Back and straight into rubber TE.

2005-09-26T12:00:00.000Z

Only just caught up enough at work to find time to report back on my “marathon 7 days without rubber” (sic). Most people are probably already smiling at this challenge – but it seemed like a real challenge to me at the time!

There was the physical side and the emotional/psychological challenge.

The physical challenges were getting used to the vanilla clothes for long periods and getting used to not being protected by rubber from the environment. I can report that I did find vanilla uncomfortable – but this was mitigated by the fact I was able to acclimatize by starting off by wear just walker sandals, shorts and t-shirt once I got to my destination.

The down side to this was all the weather, dust and insects that had free access to my skin. Not used to it – so found myself a little more sensitive to these – particularly the sun! I was always well oiled with very strong insect repelling sun lotion – which turned out to be essential. I don’t have a fair complexion and don’t have sensitive skin, so it was interesting to note I was still browning and being occasionally eaten with my Factor 25 / 50% DEET lotion – despite regularly being topped up by my at tentative assistant!

Then there were the light levels. I guess it would have seem very bright to anyone from the UK, but I normally wear tinted goggles all day with my hood– so the light levels outside seemed painfully strong (from the moment I woke up) without my sun glasses.

Then there was the heat. The odd thing was I found on the first day I was not sweating very much at all. I tackled this on subsequent days by never letting myself go more than 15 minutes without drinking water. I think I have sort of “trained” myself over the last few months to minimize my perspiration. The first few days – I could hardly function from about 11 am to 2 pm. All this with actually quite modest temperatures - usually only around 28C in the shade!

In fact being so reliant on my glasses, packs of water bottles and over-applied oil, if I wanted to leave our villa, seemed slightly kinky in itself…

Anyway, I did seem to start acclimatizing to all these physical effects by the end of the week.

And then I even found something that would help with the emotional / fetish needs in the second half of the week – namely snorkeling. I had my latex flippers, mask and tube to help! Hanging there, in the clear warm water, breathing through a tube and holding my breath was perfect. We were both soon snorkeling addicts. Being together with just the sound of our breathing was most stimulating….

Snorkeling being a good substitute to my fetish was not something I consciously planned on – but it does show how powerful your sub-conscience is at shaping your conscious actions.

So after a week I retuned to my TE lifestyle – and its almost like I was never away. The vanilla part of my brain enjoyed the vacation a lot –while the fetish part of my brain enjoyed just the snorkeling.

At one time my fetish alter-ego was something I would need to regularly satisfy while leading a vanilla life. If I let things go to the natural conclusion I can see I would end up with a vanilla alter-ego requiring just very occasional free rain while leading an essentially fetish lifestyle – but I wonder if I would want to let it drift to that extreme.

Sealed.

Monday, 05 September 2005 Getting SPAM on Holiday?

2005-09-05T16:26:00.000Z

Re: SPAM

Thanks Xevious for reporting the SPAM and I am Sorry - I am also disappointed about these freeloaders. To protect my readership from having to waste their time reading rubbish, I have chosen to have zero-tolerance from now on. Gratuitously off subject posts will be deleted (and have been). I really object being forced to act as the despotic censor on what I view as being a “community thing”, but it falls to being a responsibility of owning a blog.

I would like to assure readers that I do NOT have a problem to people posting links to other sites – as long as they are relevant and of interest. I have deliberately left critical posts online in the past, although I would prefer constructive or well communicated criticism. Don’t worry if you do (briefly) go off topic, I am not going to delete your post as long as you spend some time either on subject or replying to any of my off-subject posts!

We all know what constitutes a malicious or SPAM post – and I will do my best to protect you from them. I have tightened up a little so that only registered blog users can post and put in a word verification option, which may stop automatic / robot posts.

The downside is that this antisocial behavior by the few, means it is just that little more troublesome for the many genuine people who which to comment – which is a shame. If anybody has trouble posting PLEASE contact me via emailing me at:

e m a i l @ v u l c a n i s e . m e . u k

(remove the white spaces from the email address)

Re: 7 Days without latex

I have finally decided the I am definitely NOT taking latex with me on vacation. It’s just going to be far too hot to wear all day and this is not a challenge I am interested in (too many bad experiences with high core temps). I am not that interested in shorter latex sessions these days, so I am going to attempt a different type of challenge…I fly tomorrow and will have to endure 7 days without any latex enclosure…

For most, including many rubber fetishist, this may seem like no real problem. And from a physical standpoint, it’s probably no big deal – I imagine it akin to the challenge of going to a nudist colony for the first time and/or walking bare foot all day. We are all designed to do it, but it’s going to feel very strange if we are not used to it.

Like Xevious says, it is going to be the emotional impact. Although latex CAN feel a little like a physical addiction resulting from excessive habitual exposure, I have always gambled on it being more like an emotional dependency. More like a cuddly toy is to a child than tobacco or heroin is to an addict. Bereft without it, but not exactly life threatening!

To put you in the picture, I do NOT spend 24/7/365 in latex (unlike Latax Lady) but I do wear latex as regularly as, and for at least as many hours as, most people wear the (vanilla) clothes they wear to work. This is my minimum aim. I have not been able to be too fixed in this rule and my level of exposure does vary from one week to the next (weather temperature, work / social commitments etc). However I do spend as much time as possible in latex TE and, when averaged out since the beginning of the year, have basically been spending much more time wearing latex than any other material.

Getting used to wearing latex most days for between 8 to 16 hours between changes (occasionally 24+ hours) was NOT easy for me. I had spent many years “practicing” regular long exposures, including regularly spending my working day in rubber. Still, the first few months I found it very challenging to reliably meet and then break beyond the 40 hours / week target, week in, week out. It felt like a physical limit, but once through the physical adjustments the real challenge was again a mental test.

Even now, I still find it a mental challenge to regularly attain my ambitions of long periods in Total Enclosure and often find I feel like I want to remove the goggles, face mask or even the whole hood of my rubber enclosure. Total coverage of the head seems an order of magnitude more difficult than just wearing one piece rubber on the rest of my body.

At least I have got past the point finding it easy to wear a suite with integral gloves (usually with extra pair(s) of surgical gloves, for snug fit). Having gloved hands for more than a few hours used to be challenge beyond just wearing a cat-suit. Now I would not think I was really wearing latex unless the hands were fully integral to the suit. Years before that I went through the same thing with feet.

Anyway, I still have a way to go before absolute TE (wearing hood with googles & mask over the mouth) for long periods feels completely normal - and yet something else has changed. Wearing non-rubber no longer feels comfortable or normal – in a way very similar to early rubber exposure – OK, but odd thing to be doing for very long. The loss of the micro-climate between rubber and skin, the way that different parts feel different amounts of air movement, different levels of insulation etc, the way it doesn’t feel consistently like a second skin, the way many materials are not at all stretchy – all as equally as odd to me as rubber would be to a vanilla.

This non-normality of wearing vanilla started off as a mild and very temporary effect but seems to gradually have become more noticeable and longer lasting as I have gone on. Now, due to the proportion of time I spend in rubber, I never seem to get used to wearing vanilla.

In addition to this is the emotional dependency. Just like being at home can be more reassuring than being away (or your own bed, own country, own tribe, being with your loved ones etc), being in rubber TE does come to be comforting due to the familiarity of it’s ever-present and very noticeable all-over feeling. This seems to have become even more significant than the physical comfort – and the feeling seems to get more intense the longer I have been out of latex TE.

The longest I have managed for the last few months with zero rubber is probably a long weekend. Then the whole of the last 24 hours my mind is full of anticipation of the fix of rubber TE I will shortly have.

As of tomorrow morning, I am going to be away from any chance of latex exposure for 7 days and nights. I have been preparing for weeks, so don’t think it will come as a shock to the system. Still, I am nervous I will not be able to sleep…

I will be out of contact for this time, but will report back on my experiences when I get back. Could it be as mentally challenging as going for a rubber lifestyle was? I doubt it...

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Saturday, 03 September 2005 – Skin irritation!!!

2005-09-03T01:20:00.000Z

My working life is going well. I landed some work that is allowing me to work from home most of the time (so far anyway) and wear latex most/all day, almost every day.

I have had one business trip where, obviously I had to don vanilla. Unexpectedly, I ended staying over and spending a second day working on site. Luckily I had thought to take toiletries and spare office clothes with me just in case. Unfortunately, I thought it so unlikely that I would have to stay over that I took absolutely zero latex with me. Woe is me! I could have cried when I got back to the hotel room. Such a sudden change was like a rubberist equivalent to going cold turkey – not at all pleasant.

I didn’t know what to do! Unwind and watch TV? No way that was going to work for me. As for sleeping – forget it! Only those who have got used to a rubbery routine will understand how difficult it is to suddenly have to do without.

It’s actually oddly a little like an occasional rubberist suddenly thinking they should try sleeping in rubber TE – complete with restrictive mask, which they are not able to take off in the middle of the night. Chances of a getting comfortable, let alone sleeping well for the first week(s) is unlikely! You just get used to whatever is normal for you – and a whole day without rubber is fairly non-standard for me!

If it had been more a matter of choice, I think it would have been easier as I would have mentally prepared to adjust. If it wasn’t a fairly stressful day – again, I think it would have been easier to cope. But, out of the blue I was going to have to go 48+ hours without any rubber, rather than the 8 hours I had planned, just when I wanted it most.

When I did finally get back home, the relief was amazing. The feeling of security when the last latex item finally donned tangible. It was a pleasant experience only marred by one thing – on dressing I had discover a number of areas of itchy skin irritation! The vanilla business clothes I had worn were so scratchy that they had caused my skin to come out in red blotches. Not nice. It was probably just that they we new brand clothes from the shop which I wore in a v.dry air conditioned environment, but a lot of things vanilla seem scratchy compared to my usual latex.

Anyway a few days of being back in my (chlorinated) latex and everything was back to normal. The injustice of it did seem ironic however. Received wisdom is that you can get skin irritation from wearing latex – not from abstaining from it! Truth is, you can get skin problems for many reasons, one of which may be a sudden change the material it in contact with it and in immediate environmental conditions.

I have another big challenge coming up. I am off on vacation to a hot climate for a week, where I will be unable to wear rubber for more than a short period. I think that it will be easier as I am mentally prepared and will have lots to otherwise occupy me. I am even wondering about leaving all my latex behind on purpose this time, so I enjoy it all the more when I get back…
A whole 7 days without rubber - whish me luck then!

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Monday, 15 August 2005 – Plumbing Problems…

2005-08-15T16:07:00.000Z

Well today’s trial involved fine tuning the sheath flushing pants. This has only been half successful. I have refined the fit so that it reduces the chance of coming out of the sheath,
by using various straps and bands by that hold the base of the sheath against my body. This is important to me as I have no access to reinsert myself once in my suit. This aspect whent OK.

This was all linked up to the collecting bag and bag emptying plumbing I proved recently during the catheter trials.

However, some hours ago I suffered a “plumbing malfunction” and I find myself here committed to being locked in my full TE suit until tonight, with several pints of urine sloshing about…

It’s not that I am in any discomfort, but it’s not ideal! The suit is totally water-tight so from the outside I look (and smell) as if nothing has happened. Urine feels just like warm water (or loads of sweat) has accumulated in the suit. None of these r ideal, but not the end of the earth. From past experience I know I am probably unlikely to suffer any skin irritation from a day or so soaked, as long as I don’t repeat the experience too often.

There is a perverse side to my nature that can even see the fun side to the situation and I certainly intend to play on the submissive in me to make the most of it. But all said and done, I would sooner be able to stay dry and am determined to achieve this end.

As I am now more limited in what I can do, I have had some time to analyse this issues. The main problem is the fit of the sheath and the forces of gravity. When erect, the sheath fits reasonably well but you find yourself urinating up hill. When flaccid, you have some gravity on your side, but the fit is terrible. In a suit it is difficult to arrange for the pipe runs to always be below the bladder & penis and difficult to avoid kinks and restrictions.

Now some people are able to get sheath pants to work well for them, but my personal preferences are making things more challenging. Most have access to their sheathed penis, to adjust the fit and arrange for downward flow when pissing – while I do not (neck entry suit). My sheath is totally inaccessible and prone to being squished in the wrong position.

Solutions? Well obviously I could go back to suits with zip access below the waist, so I could arrange things just before using the flushing sheath pants. I could go back to suits with built in sheath for the same reason. I also have seen other designs of pants that are drained from the lowest point (so I am not fighting gravity). Not going to make a snap decision today, but surf for inspiration. In the mean time I am going to slowly think this over while waiting for the time when I can get out of this sodden suit, bath and get into something dry…

Squelch!
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Friday, 12 August 2005 - Catheterisation – Suitable for Rubber Enclosed People?

2005-08-12T16:24:00.000Z

(answers for Dark in comments section of last post…)

If Catheterisation is something that interests you, I think you should try hard to find time to read this entry to the end. It could save you a lot of bother…

I have never considered medical equipment part of my fetish, but faced with the realities of being sealed up in rubber for hours/days, they start to appeal where they are conceivably a means to an end.

BTW My suit of choice is a neck entry type with no zips or other access to the groin area - making it wonderfully comfortable and water proof / air tight, but this does give rise to the obvious difficulties in body function. I do own suits with 3 way - zip access etc, but I find there are down sides to these including:

1. Being less comfortable (zip runs by sensitive region and is not as stretchy/soft as latex)

2. Feeling less “sealed” (suits with no zips make you feel almost vacuum packed)

3. If you do get to hot, you can end up leaving puddles of sweat everywhere!

4. Because zips run over an are requiring bends / stretch and of item 1 (above), I find that the zip is under strain and is usually the first point of failure in a suit.

My trials with urinating sheath pants from fetish shops and condom-type catheters from medical suppliers have so far been unsatisfactory. Neither could handle the change in shape and size over prolong wearing that is inherent in normal male cycles of erection and flaccidity. So here I am trying out a Foley Cath.

I have the catheter linked to a small collecting bag (via non-return) inside my suit; this in turn is plumed up to exit via my neck, so it can be pumped empty.

Insertion (with lube) was unpleasant but not painful. It chose the smallest diameter size (FG12) to make it easy to insert and wear. The cath was a Bardo-matic – which means it is easy to deploy self retaining balloon that lives in the bladder.

Wearing it, I could not say it felt very comfortable. Not really what you could call uncomfortable, but for me “almost uncomfortable”.

Function worked very well. The flow into the bag was slow but kept my bladder completely empty. I managed to fit all this plumbing inside the skin-tight suit and yet keep it secured / comfortable. When there was sufficient fluid in the collection bag, it was very easy to empty via the second pipe (I used simple symphonic method in this trial).

Now, like I said before, I didn’t embark on these trial for any other reason than for the potential to solve some mundane practical issues associated with my chosen kink, but what do you know – I found there was a kind of thrill to all this. It felt quite perverse (even by my own standards), but I found myself liking things about my catheterisation. I really liked the losing of all control of my bladder functions and effectively handing control to my suit’s plumbing equipment. It literally felt like a release at some level. All the plumbing pipes added to a sort of cyborg type mental image – the new kit enhancing the idea of an amalgamation between body and fetish (suit).

In the interests of the trial I had to try out everything I wanted to be able to do while wearing the cath. Moving about was no problem. The cath stayed secure and did not limit my ability to move around at all. The rest of the plumbing was only really a first lash up – but actually felt pretty good when sitting/lying/standing/stretching/walking and stayed securely in position (I had augmented the supplied rubber belts). In fact the little resistance or pull offered by the kit was just enough to make you aware of your situation, which I found weirdly stimulating.

Next was the obvious erection test and that was the end of the good news. On the plus side, cycles of erection did not present any problems to the function of the cath, which stayed secure and functional. But I couldn’t say I liked the sensation. It wasn’t painful, but was very noticeable and verging on unpleasant. The masochist in me could get something out of it – and I found it could actually be a stimulating experience, but it was not the sort of thing I would like to endure every time I had an erection. Still, it didn’t stop me getting a thrill in the short term, so the test had to proceed to obvious climax….

DON’T TRY THIS AT HOME!!!! I knew there was some risk here before I started as, with a catheter in the urethra, there is nowhere for the semen to go (this is one reason why I chose the smallest diameter). Anyway - absolute explosion of agony. Some have said it enhances the experience, others have agreed with me – basically never again. Again, those into pain may get something out of this – but I would expect that this amount of agony is associated with real risk of damage.

Some semen did make it’s way past the cath, but the back pressure with all the fluid being suddenly being released was just too much for my kit to handle.

Luckily, the cath was easy to remove by deflating the retainer with a syringe and carefully withdrawing (no resistance felt at all). But this was not the end of the pain.

Urinating for a few hours after the experience was virtually too painful to consider. This actually did fade once I had successfully passed water. However, the initial sensation was unpleasant every time I urinated for the following 24 hours.

Summary

I tried this same experiment some 10 years ago with similar results. I spent the intervening time wondering if I had been unlucky the first time and building up the courage to try again. Now I know the truth - in-bladder catheters are not for me and will be more than a decode before I want to go there again!

Everyone is built differently and maybe I have a particularly sensitive or narrow urethra. Given how instantly I started getting a slightly unpleasant sensation, it is even possible that my urinary tract is allergic to latex (in which case there is always the silicone caths).

I could imagine some people may find Foley catheters comfortable to wear and even stimulating. However, I can’t see how anyone could comfortably or safely ejaculate without first removing the catheter.

Even if that were possible – Foley Catheter have their limitation and are only a partial solution. If the aim is to plumb away fluids so you can stay comfortably in your suit for extended periods, the Foley does not address the semen ejaculate. Admittedly this is less troublesome to an endurance rubberist than urine, but a perfect solution would deal with both.

For female rubberist the in-dwelling Foley really does offer some possibilities. Erections and ejaculation are obviously irrelevant here and I have heard some good reports. It probably would be worth considering as long as you take account of UTI issues associated with the shorter urethra and it’s proximity to unclean areas. Any female volunteers?!?! ;o)

Way forward?

On the plus side, the rest of the plumbing and collection worked a treat. I can easily see it being refined to a degree that would make it suitable and comfortable for constant wear every day. I just need a reliable & comfortable way getting stuff into the collection bag’s one way valve…

Next on the list for further consideration are proper medical appliances (e.g. McGuire Urinal), the Bioderm device and draining pants from fetish shops. Any feedback welcomed!

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Tuesday, 09 August 2005 The Inspiration and Challenges of 24/7 Rubber Enclosed People (or 24 Hour REPs!)

2005-08-09T14:17:00.000Z

Dark, your response was so wide ranging and comprehensive that it makes it a daunting to produce an adequately cogent, structured response…. But here goes nothing… For the others I apologise if we go a little deeper and long winded today, but my normal self gratifying superficial banality will return shortly ;o)

In examining the wearing rubber, there are the practicalities / challenges and then there are the positives aspects and thus inspiration we need to have the driving force to overcome the challenges. We better get some of the challenges out of the way first otherwise the motivations are merely theoretical.

Although interesting in the subject, I don’t feel I can contribute anything fundamental or staggeringly new on challenges of sociology or clothing politics (for want of a better name), partly because I generally only wear my fetish clothing in non-public manner and not for any “scene”, fashion or extroverted reasons.

Nevertheless in response to the assertion “rubber will never be mainstreamed for regular clothes because..” [comfort issues and fetish motives], I will say that “never” is long time! Some very strange things which are either uncomfortable and/or worn for (sometimes oblique, sometime overt) sexual motives have come to become mainstream fashion at one time or other. Things that would have been impractical or unthinkable right up to the time they suddenly became mainstream. At one end of the continuum you have (in the West) ever shorter skirts in the second half of the 20th century right, ever more dangerous high heel shoes, right through to body modification, which is routine and (to western eyes) extreme in some cultures (piercings, feet binding, neck rings). So I accept we are a way from any degree of rubber clothing being acceptable clothing in all situations, but I actually think this may change in time. Since my childhood I have seen it become acceptable for women dress more and more in “men’s clothes”, sporting short “men’s” haircuts and then there was the (near) fetish of the punk fashions that became widespread the late 70s.

How do I feel about it? Well it’s not going to affect my current activities, but yes I think it would be generally a good thing if people were not inhibited by society and able to wear anything that makes them feel good or allows them to express themselves. And, although it’s not what drives me, I think future generations of fetishist will owe the current trailblazers (e.g. Blackie and Latex Lady) a huge debt of gratitude when they feel at ease wearing latex in public.

That said, I do think that you are pretty much spot on in identifying the 3 fundamental aspect (or motivations) in wearing latex : physiological, social and psychological – although in examining the subject it is often difficult to talk about one without the other. For example, the impermeable nature of latex is equally applicable to physiological, social and psychological aspects wearing the material. You could put the argument that, for example, latex’s (often) figure hugging propensity, sensual nature, sexual “practicalities” and overtones all have physiological, social and psychological aspects. This is not to diminish the validity of examining all three aspects.

We all know there are challenges of latex lifestyle. The most obvious are the physical challenges and practicality of being totally sealed in an impermeable material for long periods. If we assume an aim of being as total encased in latex as possible, for extended periods, challenges would include:
- maintaining a safe and comfortable body temperature
- dealing with sudden changes in environmental temperature
- dealing with perspiration
- dealing with condensation (both in suite and on goggles / eye pieces)
- allowing for all the other body excretions
- providing mechanism for required nourishment
- having the desired access to breathable air
- ensuring the total enclosure kit is complete enough (to the desired level of encasement/bondage) while allowing the wearer to pursue any necessary activities.
- Avoid painful pressure sores after long periods.
- Ensuring that the suit does not impede blood flow to extremities while being sufficiently close fitting.
- Dealing with vitamin deficiency due to lack of sun-light on skin.
- Having some strategy to exercise enough to prevent atrophy and maintain a level of physical fitness while either not overheating while in latex or spending too long out of latex while exercising. For me this is the ultimate physical challenge….

A challengingly long list, but, if you take them one at a time, it is not that they are insurmountable; it’s just that they are challenges to be overcome. Some are much more difficult to deal with than others. They could be solved by engineering a way out, which might include throwing money at the problem or might mean a compromise in comfort v endurance v degree of encasement.

How an individual deals with the challenges may depend on the nature of their desire to be encased and on how long they are aiming to spend in latex. I don’t claim to have dealt with them all to the extent of making them all a non-issue in all circumstances, but I am merely on the road to finding successively more effective ways of coping with each challenge as and when I chose to increase the latex to non-latex ratio of my lifestyle (and the degree of my total enclosure).

While some of the challenges require a specific strategy, others require adaptation or familiarisation. For instance, I notice that when I visit very hot climates the locals have acclimatized and are not sweating as profusely as I am (despite common biological ancestry). The same is true in cold climates, at sea, at high altitudes, dry climates… Part of this may be strategy (to quote Coward, in some countries “…only mad dogs and English men go out in the mid day sun…”) but there is also an element of the body adapting to the new norm. It is my contention that, given the right “training”, the human body has the ability to adapt to a degree where it can noticeably perform to increase comfort levels when perusing the goal of a latex lifestyle.

Of course no amount of acclimatisation is going to be enough to overcome all these challenges in all situations. So the question is, are you looking to endure the worst the latex enclosure has to offer to satisfy a submissive desire? For some (like Blackie) the endurance is the motivation and a sweaty challenge is the aim. I can understand this and have sometimes deliberately gone for this and more in making life hell in rubber. But my current aim is to wear rubber for far longer periods than my skin could tolerate being regularly saturated with water and bodily waste, not to mention being uncomfortably hot / cold. I also want to be able to adequately function (e.g. work, play) while wearing latex and the key to this has to be to stay comfortable and (for me) above all stay as dry as physically possible.

So after taking what physical steps I can, my next step has been to adapt my routine behaviour in order to stay within the margins of what is practical with a rubber lifestyle. For me this means modifying my WHOLE lifestyle so that I can use my behaviour to control my metabolism (or my response to rubber encasement) and therefore my body temperature, perspiration and bodily functions. This is ongoing and being refined day by day. Some of it is controversial, others common sense. For example, avoiding some foodstuffs and stimulants that contain ingredients that increase your rate of perspiration, excretions, urination and general metabolism. Even the actual moment I chose to first get into latex is critical (time of day and what I was doing beforehand).

However, the most fundamental impact of a latex lifestyle is the pattern of behaviour that I find sustainable once in latex. On the positive side there are lots of things that I spend the bulk of my life doing that are totally possible while in latex TE, even if not quite as easy as when in vanilla. Much of my work is quite possible (basically thinking, using a computer, talking on the phone) and the bits that are not possible are mainly to do with how clients and fellow workers (society) would react to me where I to visit site in latex TE! Most other housebound activities are totally possible, including sleeping, eating, listening to music, reading and of course sex... And if this were all that I wanted to do, I am sure I would already be on course for 24/7 latex lifestyle…

And this is were it gets difficult for most of us. A decade ago I think I would have been more than willing to give up virtually all outside activities to achieve a latex lifestyle, if I had only had the courage, dedication and knowledge needed to attempt what everyone said was an impossible dream… Now I find that despite my best efforts (!) I have accumulated some of the usual vanilla interests and attachments that give me an extensive set of reasons to want to be out travelling, socialising or playing (backpacking, photography, and sailing). These activities are (often) impractical while in latex TE for either social or physical reasons.

So, my latex lifestyle is about dealing with the physical difficulties, finding the right balance, making sacrifices and taking control. If you are serious about a latex lifestyle you first need to think about how you are going to sustain yourself financially such that you get the opportunity to wear latex most/all the time. If you have an independent means or have a partner who will support you, that’s ideal! For the rest of us, you really have to take control of your career to give you the latex lifestyle and living standard you want. I am (currently) lucky as I took the necessary risks to become freelance long ago and now work mainly from home. Others will have to make their own tough decisions which make take years to accomplish. There is little I can do about the time the customer requires me to spend working on site, but the rest of my life is about the hard sacrifices I chose to make. I find that I cannot spend 24/7/365 days in latex and have great social, family and outdoor life (maybe others can). But given that I am truly dedicated to latex, I can endeavour to find the mix that gives me the least possible time out of latex while staying sane and happy.

To achieve a latex lifestyle I therefore now hit the biggest challenges. The physical stuff is almost the easiest to deal with – you just need to come up with a technique or strategy to deal with it. Ultimately, if you can’t do 23/7 everyday, do 20/7 - whatever the limitation, just find the limit and go for the max that is achievable. One day, one day off, Three days on, two off – whatever. But for me, when I have spent 48 to 72 hours continuously in rubber, it is often not my physical condition that makes me want to strip off but that I want / need to go achieve something out in the real world that would be impossible while dressed in rubber.

Just before I move on, Dark says “People such as LadyII, whose circumstances might allow this could attempt it...99.9999% of the rest of us it is impossible.”. I find it interesting that you accept that a lifestyle like is 100% achievable (I hope everyone is OK for me to round to 3 decimal places ;o) ) – many ruberists not only do not believe her, but think the whole idea of 24/7 is “impossible”. (Incidentally, I find the term 23/7 to be splitting hairs when you examine LadyII protocols). I have no idea if she is for real (and have no idea of how anyone could categorically prove it to my satisfaction) but am convinced from her writing and my experiences that a rubber lifestyle technically possible if very, very difficult. If she is for real, then she has shown unbelievable dedication as a submissive and rubberist. In fact if she cheated one whole day once a month, it would still be massively impressive to me.

I hope she is for real, and, while keeping an open mind, I actually chose to believe there is much more than an element of truth in here story, mainly as I can think of no motive for her to deceive that seems compatible with what we have grown to know of her character. If I was in her position I know the biggest challenge would be the social isolation – but we are told she has a constant companion, a very organised fetish master, a rubberist son and a circle of fetish and s/m oriented friends that they meets up with. Well if all that was true, the biggest physiological challenge (the “latex isolation” effect) wouldn’t be such an issue and suddenly the whole thing becomes believable to me.

Now for the motivation…. You certainly need a strong motive to find the necessary inspiration to even attempt a latex lifestyle.

Dark invented a term “platonic notion of enclosure...” - which sounds fascinating and would like to here more about…. I wonder if this is this linked to the transition from (instant) sexual gratification to the sensual experience that 24/7 REPs have reported?

To go into all the reasons for “the psychological need to enclose in rubber” now would make this already long entry unbearably long, but can agree there is probably lots of reasons for lots of people. Some that are less strong in me are the social counter culture stuff or (I think) a direct need to be perverse. I am not into this for peer approval (although not being alone does help!). Dark also mentions sexual need, sensual need and these seem more applicable to me.

I have one further (rather ill defined) theory to put forward. Motivations for some people to have alternative lifestyles, appearances, sexual behaviour (as well as physiological disorders!) is in some part due to a specific strong personal identify or body image issue that may be at odds with reality. How this stuff gets into your head I cannot say, but maybe some of us have a strong image of themselves that includes a latex covering. Being in a non-latex state would cause an unpleasing mismatch between the personal self image and reality. As for what aspect of the (idealized) self image would be missing, for some it might be the shiny appearance, the figure hugging appearance, the flattering/firming “hand” of skin tight rubber on the form, the sensual feel, the perverse mode, the loss of human identity, the objectification, the idea of being hermetically sealed, the feeling of being “the other”, the overtly kinky sexual association, the breath control associations of masks or even just the smell! For me I think it is all these thing in different measures and something more. My fetish really does include the love of what is obviously (to everyone else) an inanimate object. Some people have worshiped trees, rocks or fellows. This Looney is dedicated to the latex that gives me so much back and spending long periods in TE involves dedication and me making some sacrifices. All disturbingly common human behaviour patterns maybe...

Now the footnotes…

BTW – the powerful desire to strip off latex after sexual climax seems to be very common, but I can report that it is also eminently curable! I used to get around this by being physically locking in with no access to the key (!), but Latex Lady & others gave me the necessary encouragement and hints on how to overcome this and now I often don’t even get a slightest impulse to de-rubber. Overcoming this impulse really is possible – assuming you have at least the slightest interest in seeing what happens if you stay rubberier for a few hours longer….

BTW2 - One thing I didn’t deal with was the comment “and train your psyche to deal with the social issues.”… That’s because this is still work in progress for me!

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Monday, 08 August 2005 – Physical And Mental Issues of becoming a Rubber Dependent fetishist.

2005-08-08T10:15:00.000Z

Dark and others have talked and asked about both the physical and mental challenges associated with the possibility of becoming “rubber dependent”.

The physiological or physical effects on de-rubbering was a surprising for me when I first noticed them. After weeks of spending much of every day in latex, building up my exposure day by day, followed by a few days spent in rubber 24/7, I did notice that I felt very strange when wearing non-latex clothes. All sorts of sensations – some of discomfort – that you spend years acclimatizing to were suddenly apparent.

It reminded me of childhood sensations of being asked to wear “fancy” clothes to go to special events (weddings and the like). The first time I wore any new type of clothing as a child was always a challenge. Typically you were being asked to wear itchy, scratchy things that were too tight or too lose or that pinched somewhere. I just got through such things by looking forward to the massive release when I was back home an allowed to return to my normal clothes.

It was very much like for the first few days after returning to non-latex after my 24/7 latex experiments. The cloth of my chinos felt scratchy against my legs – like they were made of wool. I tried several different pairs to check this out but they all felt the similar. All the clothes seemed to be binding or knotting on areas that needed to move, such arm-pit / shoulder and the top the legs. They needed to work their way up a limb to allow the movement – which felt very odd compared to the rubbery stretch of my “normal” second skin.

The most uncomfortable thing was getting used to the brutal way the non-latex clothes felt around the crotch area. If I wasn’t being chaffed, then I was being squashed or cut into by the seams as I moved about. I found it impossible to resist the impulse to re-arrange myself to get comfortable. This was something that made it a bit challenging to be in public for a few days.

It wasn’t that my skin had been damaged during my time in latex. I am lucky to rarely suffer skin irritation due to long exposure to latex. Anyway, this felt different. My skin felt OK, it was just that everything outside felt odd. Even having air moving over my skin at my ankles, wrists and collar felt noticeably odd.

As I wore the non-latex for longer I noticed something else that I would normally only have been vaguely aware of - a lot of vanilla wear is not very breathable! In addition to this the usual solution is to wear socks / underwear – which, along with other areas can get sodden as the day goes on. On a hot day I found it very strange to think that I was being “vanilla” by wearing an extra soggy layer under my outer clothes. The way I found to help with the transition was to switch to mainly wear climbing or sailing base layer clothes that were specifically designed to wick away the moisture.

On a similar subject, another thing I became aware of is the smell. At the start of the day you clothes smell of the material and the perfume of the detergent and by the end of the day all the items have their own strange character…

In summary, after the first 24 hours out of latex, I don’t think I could have felt more uncomfortable if I had been wearing a canvas sack! Ironically, a lot of the physical challenges of wearing latex that had taken months/years of perseverance to acclimatise to had their parallels in non-latex clothing.

The skin physiology seems to adjust to life in latex, but possibly more importantly, the nerves and brain seen to slowly get adjusted to certain patterns of stimulus in response certain movements or even being motionless in latex (or vanilla). In anticipating these sensations, they become less noticeable and more a background factor. After days in latex, it still physically feels nearly the same as it did after an hour in latex (which is handy when I am looking for stimulation), its just that my brain does not constantly remind my of the feeling to the same degree (unless I want it to). The interesting thing is that my experience seems to indicate that it works for all clothes, not just latex. As a child, you have to adapt to feeling of wearing shoes, cotton, wool ….

Luckily for me, this uncomfortable effect on going vanilla has always been bearable and easy to overcome after the first few days. This is undoubtedly due to the relatively short periods I have managed 24/7 in latex. Also I have found that a good cure is to never go more than 24 hours out of latex!

The interesting question for me is, how physically difficult would it be to bear to go back to wearing non-latex clothes after spending weeks/months/years in a (near) 24/7 latex lifestyle?

And this is all before examining the psychological impact! I wonder what people think about this…

To be honest I still have some mental challenges after just a few days in 24/7 latex to overcome before worrying about the physiological barrier that would stop me taking off the latex. However, as others are noted, going several days without getting back into rubber does steadily become more difficult once you start on down the route to a rubber lifestyle. I think I might examine this whole area after some feedback and further reflection.

As for my future latex lifestyle, I am still at the tantalising stage of being very close to having secured a latex lifestyle friendly chunk or work. I should know in the next few days. If things work out, I will have some international travel (New York) but should also have plenty of time to work in rubber at my home office.

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Thursday, 28 July 2005 – Searching for reasons to get out of my rubber TE?

2005-07-28T12:24:00.000Z

Blackie (& all),

Chlorination would certainly help with your elaborate / extensive gear. Particularly with items that are worn close to the skin. I don't know if chlorination aids getting into subsequent layers as I have not tried that. I can say that there is still fairly hard to get (disposable) non-chlorinated black surgical gloves over my chlorinated suite gloves (this is an advantage once on as they stay put).

The chlorination process is fairly unpleasant and I would be interested in less aggressive methods. The problem I had was with the volume of chlorine gas released in a short period. As far as I can see, short emersion times are not a prerequisite - so a slower reaction should work just as well. In fact a slower process would help with difficult items which require turning inside out.

One thing I would like to try is to add diluted acid in stages to slow things down. Some say that a 24 - 48 hour soak in bleach works just as well - but leaves a stronger bleach smell for longer. I would worry about leaving it in for that long as the bleach would have time to soak into the latex (which is slightly porous) and effect it. Having said that, I have soaked latex for 3 hours without any ill effects. Like you say, bleach is great for cleaning up heavily "used" latex anyway...

Be v. interested in your experiences.

Been reading your blog (& posts elsewhere) extensively. Your approach is different from mine. Your experiences seem more intense and physically demanding. Although my lifestyle is often physically and mentally taxing - I usually try to structure my sessions, and in fact whole life, to make it easy as I can to stay in rubber for as long as possible. You deliberately seem to go out of your way to make it as challenging as possible "in there" - putting yourself into hot locations, places where you have to walk long distances, situations where you cannot easily control the experience - and then manage to stay sealed up for hours and hours in many layers of thick heavy duty latex. Respect! No wonder it sometimes takes you a few days to recover...

Different though the approach is, I can see where you are coming from. Your tales are of pushing your personal limits and endurance, and are certainly "hot" (both senses). To me it seems like a submissive agenda, almost as if you are submitting to the rubber. I admire the dedication and perseverance in your chosen life style.

I haven’t perfected my breathing apparatus yet, so cannot claim to be wearing it all the time, but my lifestyle of rubber TE with frequent sessions of electro stim, poppers, rubbery orgasms and breath play is fairly fantastic! Like I said, my dedication to my lifestyle can take a heavy toll, but chlorination is just one of the things that can help with the burden.

Xvious & all,

Finding a reason to get out of my (chlorinated) rubber is starting to become more and more of a challenge now the weather here in the UK has dropped back to the low 20s.

It used to be a challenge to stay in for just a few hours... Partly for physically difficulties, but mainly because there were so many things I wanted to do that were incompatible with wearing rubber.

Over time, I have found methods & processes to cope with many of the physical limitations and I have adjusted quite a few things in my personal life to make it easier to find the time to stay encased in latex for longer.

Now, I find that being out of latex is LESS comfortable both physically and mentally than being totally encased. Time out of latex now feels physically strange and have often found I have the thought “this is a waste of my time” nagging away at the back of my mind. Relaxing and sleeping out of rubber is often a challenge now. This all seems to get worse, the longer I am out of my normal latex suit. It’s like I have developed a dependency wearing rubber and/or for my fetish lifestyle – or maybe I have even a mild addiction…

Up until now I have been “saved” by my remaining work travel commitments – where I had to be on the client’s site, I am only able to wear latex while not at work. There has been a fair bit of working away since late spring, but on the horizon, I can see that I am probably going to land a huge bit of work which can largely be done from my home office – and therefore I will have one less reason for not achieving my desired lifestyle. This period of constant home working should coincide with lower temperatures so making the wearing of rubber even easier…

Strangely, I feel slightly apprehensive as well as excited about this (prospective) longer lifestyle experiment. What if my fetish lifestyle dependency becomes pathological? I am not worried about the physical effects, but how much of a mental grip will it get? Will I be able to “handle it” and be able and willing to re-enter the “normal” world at the end of the project? In (say) 6 moths, would I be able to deal with needing to spend 8 hours a day “unsealed” and without my various fetish “supports”?

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Thursday, 21 July 2005 - Forget talc and lubes?

2005-07-21T12:29:00.000Z

The claim is “Forget talc and lubes, chlorination of your rubber items could be the way to go…”. The question I set out to discover was does it work and is it worth the bother? After all, I was quite happy using my particular brand of Silicone…

Chlorination – what’s that? Well it’s a DIY chemical process to give your latex clothes a “non-stick” surface. The process is described elsewhere, so I will concentrate on reviewing the outcome of the process.

I carried out the process on a Cocoon neck entry latex suit with attached gloves and feet and I also processed a mask. Once processed they were very clean and smelt more like a swimming baths than rubber. The chlorine smell is not overpowering even when wearing, just clean a smell which does seem be fading.

Then the feel test... On touching the surface with my fingers, I did notice it being slightly different - sort of silkier. I am not sure what I was expecting but it did not feel dramatically different and still felt very "rubbery".

However, then I tried on the suit and – unbelievable! It’s going to be difficult to describe the experience in words, but the practical upshot is that putting on a cat suit is EASIER than putting on a pair of cotton jeans. Pulling up the legs, I was reminded a little of the feeling of pulling on lycra / spandex. Chlorinated rubber just glides over the skin (as long as both are reasonably dry) with zero resistance.

There is an important time saving here. Even with the practice of wearing rubber almost daily for years it normally takes me some time to get into my outfit. There is carefully applying just enough lube to just the right places in the suit, then doing the same to myself. As I use minimal lube, there is then a careful process of easing myself into the suit so as not to strain or damage the suit (which becomes more important when you are wearing your rubber daily for long periods). Sometimes the are some “gymnastics” needed towards the end. Once on, I then normally have to spend the first few minutes, tweaking the fit to ensure the fit is comfortable around the areas of stretch and sensitive areas. With a chlorinated suit, you just pull it on and zip up and the suit sorts itself out in the first few minutes while you walk around and move about. When you come to take off a chlorinated suit, there is no lube to wash off or get dust stuck to. Usually we are talking no more than a quick wash under the shower if you got it dirty and leave to dry.

This time saving has an important physiological effect. Putting on chlorinated rubber is no longer a chore and something to plan. It can be a snap decision. It’s no more taxing than any other clothes. Several cycles of changes to and from mundane clothes are possible as and when needed. I have noticed another side effect – so far my suit does not leave the faint rubber odour on my body that others can sometimes detect. Not sure if this is a permanent effect, but at the moment it does mean I don’t need to shower after each and every change if otherwise clean and pushed for time.

What’s it feel like to wear? Wearing it actually feels better than normal, particularly at first, as you don't have talc or lube getting in on the act. Just you and your dry-feeling rubber. The garment hangs differently and even sounds a little different.

At first the latex just glides over your body like silk. Frictionless. It’s almost like you are not wearing rubber at all – but some sort of stretch material. However, after a time, this effect slowly fades as moisture levels increase in the suit. As this happens, the suit starts to feel more rubber and a little stickier (like normal rubber). This is not a bad thing as after a time you want to be reminded that you are wearing rubber after all.

What is it like for longer periods / latex lifestyle? Well I haven’t had the opportunity to wear the suit for very long periods yet – a single 8 hours session has been the max so far. But even for this relatively short period I can tell it has only enhanced the experience. At the end of the session, I felt as comfortable as when I entered the suit.

I can see it being particularly relevant to those embarking on a lifestyle of extended, constant or near-constant latex encasement. Finding lubes that are compatible with such a lifestyle and their skin can be a challenge for some. Also keeping clean can be challenge. The time and effort involved every time you need to change can also be a trial with non-chlorinated latex.

Problems with chlorinated latex? Well the initial process is unpleasant and nerve racking but on the other hand it is quick and once done its supposed to last the lifetime of article. Other down sides… Well it can affect the finish - and other than that… well if there are any I will let you know!

At the moment, the only problem is finding any reason that I would want to take off my suit…. And finding the time and opportunity to stay in there for longer… And I am making some progress with this issue too!

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Monday, July 04, 2005

2005-07-04T11:27:00.000Z

One of the aims of this blog (along with promoting the idea that latex can be worn everyday) is to communicate with people into bag play and other re-breathing and breath control scenes. There is less on this subject on the web than other kinks, possibly due to the legitimate safety concerns, but possibly also because it still taboo. Lack of communication due to taboos can make people feel isolated in their obsessions, so I would like to openly declaring that I am one of the many people who have an obsession with breath play, and occasionally describing what I get up to on my blog ad how I feel about the experiences…

A projects I have been working on is a re-breathing kit that I can use while working (or surfing) on the computer. I wanted something that can control the amount of fresh air entering the otherwise closed system with some accuracy. It would then be possible to set it up for fairly “light” amounts of re-breathing which would be comfortable for prolonged periods (like hours).

Previous crude configurations usually involved all-over face masks or bags. The trouble here was the inevitable fogging up which made reading impossible. But lessons from these systems would prove useful in a designing system where mouth and nose are contained separately from goggled eyes.

I have found that there are two possible routes. The easiest is to design a closed re-breathing setup with a small opening that relies on the pressure/vacuum from the lungs to expel a small amount of the total volume and allow a small amount of clean air to be drawn in. The crudest example of this is a plastic bag to be placed over the head, drawn around the neck with a loop of cord, drawn to the required size with a toggle grip (a bit like a climber’s stuff-sac). The toggle grip can then be adjusted over the first few minutes to adjust the intensity of the effect. A good starting point for which is to have the neck cord set to about the size where it can be pulled to be a lose fit when drawn up to the chin. When the cord is allowed to settle around the neck, it will result in the bag having a fairly generous gap around it’s collar, allowing air to gradually makes it’s way into and out of the bag on each breath. The point here for me is not to set off a frantic session, but to adjust the cord to produce a slight but noticeable shift in breathing patterns. Fine tuning allows for hours of fun…

The other route is to have systems where a set amount of fresh air is pumped mechanically into an otherwise closed system, to which I am attached to. Again, a simple example of which is an electrical air pump or compressor delivering air via a tube which is attached to a plastic bag which is placed over the head and sealed around the neck. In such a setup, consideration has to be made to how a controlled amount of stale air can be allowed to escape from the system to make room for the pumped fresh air (for example a thin exhaust tube) and stop excess pressure developing. One advantage of these pumped systems is they can be more consistent and potentially more controllable. Good design can ensure that the fresh and stale air are sufficiently well mixed, well away from the face, that you get a consistent blend of O2 and C02. It is usually easier to achieve consistently the same result from one session to the next than with non-pumped systems. Down sides are the necessity of carrying breathing equipment around and ensuring its reliability.

For the purposes of this experiment, I have chosen a pumped system. I am still at the prototype stage, but this is what I am using…

Air is supplied by a battery operated air pump. This delivers enough air volume, but is not capable producing dangerous pressures. This is delivered along a medium/large bore pipe to a rubber bladder (the same sort you see on medical anaesthetic apparatus). The pumps pipe attaches to the bladder via a union with wide bore pipe – which is my breathing pipe. A third thin bore pipe is connected to the bladder via a small hole made at the far end of the bladder. The thin rubber pipe prevents excess pressure in the bladder by allowing some of the stale air out. It also allows the inevitable fluid build up from condensation to drain out. All the connections to the bladder are glued and camped securely and airtight.

The breathing tube connects the system to a securely attached mask. It is important for me that the system is deliberately well secured and not too easy or quick to remove. It’s all part of the fetish that I am reliant on the mechanism. It’s not that the system could never be made safe in case of a sudden failure, but that it would not be too quick and easy to whip the system off at whim.

At the moment, the mask is improvised arrangement of a face mask made secure by food grade thick cling film (AKA food wrap?), forming a seal around the nose and mouth. I am looking to improve this part of the arrangement. The film in turn, is held in place by tape. I usually wear a rubber hood over the whole head, which has openings for the eyes and a hole where the mouth should be where the breathing tube exits. I often wear goggle over the top of this so that there is not a single millimetre of me exposed to the outside air.

What’s it feel like to wear? Amazing. You have to start up the pump first, so you hardly notice it whirring away by the time you are “fully dressed” (by this stage I would always be already wearing an all-over latex suit). As soon as you finish sealing up the mask you are aware of that the air is getting staler. You need faith in your system (to provide sufficient air) at this point, as your senses tell you that you need fresh air. Past experience with this kit tells me that if I make it through the initial period when my body is adjusting to the changes, that there will be plenty of air. Keeping calm and being very careful not to exert myself, I proceed with the last stages of sealing myself up. Once done, I find somewhere to chill out while my body makes the necessary adjustments to be able to breathe this mix. This usually only takes a few minutes, but can take much longer depending on what the time of day is, my physical & mental state etc. The usual cycle during this period is an increase in speed of respiration and heart rate Also there is a slight desperateness to the breathing and slight feelings alarm – and these last two symptoms are the ones which I am aiming to illuminate as much as possible during the chill out. With this particular set up, this does not take long and the respiration and heart beat are not too far behind in returning to near normal.

Once I have adjusted, the set up provides lots of breathable air, so the physical effects are mild compared to normal bag play. There is a large psychological effect though, as I am now completely sealed up and totally reliant on the system to supply my air. Although it should be possible to cut my way out fairly quickly in an emergency, this is not something I would like to have to do. With no direct contact with the outside world, I become very aware of the senses I have and the sound of my own slightly stained breathing is dominant - and I find it compellingly exciting…

By now (spurred on by a well documented strong physiological suffocation reflex) I will probably be in possession of a rock hard erection and increased (often desperate) libido. Controlling this (usually welcome) by-product will be the next big challenge.

Improvements? Would like to have better control pump of the pumps output to better fine tune things. Would like to improve the endurance of the system – the battery life is the limiting factor at the moment – the actual time depends on battery make, but normal batteries last less than 2 hours while the best batteries last much longer (seems to be at least twice as long). Would like to improve redundancy - in case one pump/battery fails it would be good to have a hot standby. A even wider bore pipe between the mouth and bladder would be good, so that rapid breathing is effortless.

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Friday, 24 June 2005

2005-06-24T11:28:00.000Z

Before updating you on what is happening in my rubbery breath play world, I have a couple of outstanding items to resolve. I said some time ago that I would report back on what I thought of various lubrications and also electrical stimulation.

Lets do Lubrication first….

Well like most people I started with talcum powder. This I found it OK as it made it easy to get into my suits and is easy to get hold of. It has a nice dry silky feeling once you are in there. It doesn’t stain and is latex friendly. The down sides are that it is difficult to administer just the right amount and you tend to end up with too much of it and it getting everywhere. It is usually scented. It is a very fine dust so can irritate your lungs. Also, I tend to feel the talc as much or more than the actual clinging rubbery feeling that I am after in the first place.

J-Lube – This is the most recent thing I have tried. It has gained a lot of friends recently and got a lot of coverage on the web. It was purpose designed to work well with latex (in the veterinary world) and it’s supporters think it is the best thing in lubrication.

I don’t think it’s that simple. J-Lube certainly has amazing properties. It really is incredibly slippery against rubber. It comes as a powder concentrate that you are supposed to mix with water. And that’s a big problem for me. Being in a rubber suite for long periods, covered in a water based lube is like staying in a hot bath for too long for me. Finger tips go wrinkly first and the usual pink soft skin symptoms just spread slowly around the body.

As an experiment I placed a small amount of dry J-Lube in the suit and it worked like talc while getting in. Once in, it slowly “melts” into any moisture in the suit. It seemed to me that not only did it absorb moisture; it actually seemed to draw it out of my body. Soon I was swimming in there with progressively more and more moisture. Fun 4 sex, but not good if you want to wear you gear all day.

One other thing to consider is that J-Lube is quite difficult to get off your skin or rubber. Basically prolonged washing in the shower is needed. Some recommend salt. I used herbal bath salts, which helped (but did not dare to try on my suit).

In summary – it is a fantastic lubricant. It seems perfect for fisting or a shorter wet and slimy experience in a rubber suit. For longer term rubber enclosure, I would not recommend it due to it’s water base and being very difficult to move around in - it’s just so slimy!

Silicone – This is a group of semi-inorganic polymers, the inorganic part being Silicon. Silicones are usually odourless, non-toxic and the stuff I use is designed for matting rubber plumbing joint. It is relatively cheap, comes in a bottle with a small pourer and I only use the smallest amounts, mostly around the entrance for the feet, knees hands, neck, buttocks and inner groin areas. Just enough lube to get in without straining the suite and enough to prevent chafing. The stuff I use is a little sticky and much thicker than water, so tend stay were you put it. I have been using this stuff for years.

As I wear it, it may spread around my suit a little, but it does not absorb into the rubber or my skin. This property makes it great for wearing for longer periods. It does just the right amount of lubrication and the feeling does not change much over time. As long as you don’t apply too much, the rubber stays feeling like rubber and not of lube.

Silicone is very water repellent, so it doesn’t seem to dilute as the moisture levels in my suit increase. In fact, I have found that it not only protects the rubber from water moisture, it seems to inhibit sweating a little.

Despite what you may have heard, it is easy to wash off and you can get most of it off your rubber clothing with quick wash in warm water. I can report no skin problems or difficulty keeping items clean.

Silicone is therefore my favourite so far. I haven’t really tried many others as I am so happy with cheap Silicone. Specialist ones tend to be expensive and water based. Anyone found a reason to choose something else?

Of coarse the ideal situation is to not need lube. That’s were I will be researching in the future. One development is chlorination or rubber suites. Anyone had good or bad results with chlorination?

Electrical Stimulation

This is something I have been trying over last few months and I am a convert. Basically they are boxes with probes that send a tingly electrical sensation through an area of your body. Typically anal, vaginal or penis.

I have an ElectraStim Em32 with “Electraloops” and “Side Contact Anal Electraprobe”. The Em32 is a fairly new small, budget end device and is fine - but really needs more power and ideally two channels (so you can stimulate both groin and butt). However, it a good start and has variable intensity and a series of different stimulation programmes – which vary the current in different ways.

The Anal Electraprobe is straightforward and fun. It is easy to insert and remove and relatively small. I think I am relatively small in the anus dept. but unlike most plugs, I find it Ok to wear for hours and hours. The sensation on one of the alternating programs was a little like a shaft gently entering and leaving. I did find that the plug tends to burrow it’s way deeper and deeper into my body over time (particularly if I sit down). There is never any difficult removing it, due to it’s clever design, but I found that I am less sensitive the deeper it sits and the Em32 is then not powerful enough to do the job. The best option is to either never sit down while wearing it or periodically, fish it out a little (when all hell tend to break lose as it is usually on full power by then – very nice).

The “Electraloops” are soft rubber loops designed for use on men’s genitals and penis. They work OK, but can be tricky to wear for longer periods if buried in a rubber suite. As with all these devices, an understanding of basic electrical principals is handy. The Electraloops are of high resistance and I have found that you need to arrange for a short end of the loop to plug in to or insufficient power is delivered. Also, electricity tend to take the easiest path, so if your penis is against your body or a moist suit, some or all the power takes the alternative routes, tracking down the lower abdomen or wet suit. More power please!

I look at the Em32 as a proof of concept for me and I am very satisfied that this is a route worth exploring.

ElectraStim do a SensaVox which is slightly larger, more powerful, has two channels and has the ability to vary the effect according to sound (either a mic or from a CD). However, most people on the internet seem to recommend the products of Eros-Tek, the monster ET312 in particular. Eros-Tex machines tend to be powerful and with loads of programs and options. They are not cheap, but one day I think I will get one.
Anyone any experiences they want to share?

Sealed

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

2005-06-14T09:49:00.000Z

To all that have been waiting – apologies for the delay and lack of update of this blog. My life is deliberately very unpredictable such that I never know how things are going to turn out from one month to the next. Recently, I have never known beyond a few days and sometimes a few hours what opportunities and challenges were coming my way. Great for keeping boredom at bay – but means finding time to write it up is limited.

In summary, since my last post, I have been away from home much of the time and so not been wearing rubber during the working week very often. However, only a part of my time has been spent working and I have had some excellent long sessions of breathless rubber and plastic enclosure...

The hot weather about a month ago did start to make things a little difficult for longer sessions. Things have cooled down significantly lately, which I am very glad of. When the temperature get above the mid 20s C (~ 80F) I find it less and less fun to stay in rubber for more than a few hours. Now it’s back to the low 20s C in the office, I could weep when I finally have to take off my rubber skin!

As for the future… Well typically I am in a time of great uncertainty with a mixture opportunities, some of which may - or may not - happen. My normal freelance work has almost dried up – but hopefully this is temporary. There are rumors of a big chunk of work from an existing client that may be arriving – all of which may be done from my home office – and therefore in rubber… On the other hand I am starting to get more work via my alternative career of photography. I have often wondered if there was any demand for professional quality portraits of people in their fetish outfits – private commissions for their own exclusive use. Well apparently there is, even if it is very niche. I guess people want to be immortalized in their prime or in their best outfits.

I am running out of time, but want to tell you of one of the things that I have been playing with. Once in rubber, I sometimes climb into a PVC hazmat style suit. Coupled to this is battery powered air pump. To make the suit air tight I then gaffer-tape up the entry zip. The “down” side of the tape is that getting out of the suite can be a fairly slow process. The air pump does not deliver a huge volume of air – in fact only just enough…

Part of my fun is the reliance on the small pump and it’s battery power. I have to carefully monitor the time in the suite in order that I don’t suddenly run out of battery. I have already had one dangerous incident where the batteries fell out of their compartment. I found that I was running out of air and the pump was strapped in a rubber back pack. Because the pump runs the suit’s environment at near suffocation levels normally, things started to get out of hand quickly…

Thursday, March 24, 2005

2005-03-24T17:19:00.000Z

Busy day today, so will be only be able to dedicate part of the day to my rubber life. No goggles and mask today, but still had time to fix up electro stimulation loops on my genitalia and a fun session in place of lunch…

Will be reporting on ElectraStim and Poppers when I have more time – maybe next week…

9 through 3pm gave a weeks total of 1320 and a balance of +45.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

2005-03-24T17:18:00.000Z

Back to the more normal latex working week. I am only able to work in latex for 2 days this week so I am setting myself a pro-rata target of 1275.

I am trying out some new things though. For lubrication I am trying out J-Lube rather than pure silicone or talc I have used in the past.

I now have Electrical Stimulation devices and am trying out being electrically “plugged” today.

Also, I am trying out different brands of poppers for comparison purposes.

So if you read this fully enclosed in latex, goggled, masked, with a electro stimulating plug banging away relentlessly, while you are sniffing the sweet vapors of poppers, then you know what it feels like to be me. Welcome to my world…

Managed 9 to 5 today, so with a comfort break that’s 820 so far with 455 needed by the end of the week.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

2005-03-17T21:42:00.000Z

09:15

Been +28 hours now in my sealed bubble. Been working remotely via my workstation, set up in the bubble, through the small hours and so not had much time to monitor and record how I feel till now.

Pulse 70BPM, which is slower than it was midday yesterday. Breathing rate is somewhere near normal – at least when I am at rest. Although far from gasping or panting, I am more aware of my breathing and there is some irregularity to it’s pattern. I often feel like I am taking a slightly deeper breath, along the lines of a yawn – the impulse for which feels good – sort of cross between exciting and sexually stimulating.

When not at rest, even moderate movement can cause some feeling of breathlessness. Again, this is far from difficult to control and recovery is reasonably swift. However, the feeling is still very noticeable and quite delicious.

My body has a strange ache in it from head to foot, which is most noticeable at my extremities and down my sides. It’s not at all unpleasant and can only describe it as the feeling you get just before and during the time you feel you need to stretch (and yawn) when waking first thing in the morning – only this is a near constant feeling. I absolutely love this feeling.

Other than that I feel OK, although in need of some rest and possibly sleep. Of course all the above contributes to a near constant rock hard erection…

My ‘captor’ has now actually locked me in a couple of hours ago and will not return for some hour (hinted at early afternoon). I think surviving in here for a few more hours will be fun! Of course if things get desperate, I could always call them on the mobile, but then I would have to wait for maybe 30 minutes for them to make there way back. False alarms would not be kindly taken to. The element of calculated risk, danger and dependence is quite a turn on.

12:00 +29:45

I caught up on some sleep and had some nice dreams… Even when awake, I found it easy to be in half awake state with daydreams not far from my mind.

Pulse approx 70BPM

Been through several more periods of what I call re-adjustments. Where my body increases it respiratory rate to deal with the changes in the atmosphere and then gets used to it and returns to normal. The last time I was aware of this last evening, but these were slightly more noticeable.

I have entered another longer period reprise where everything returns to normal. Not sure if how long this will last. This pattern is fairly typical from my experiences, a series re-adjustment session going on to a full-on continuous breathlessness and gasping, increasing in rate. The fun start to wane somewhere in the later stages and that’s the time to bail out – while you still can!

14:15 +32hrs

Went through longer period of re-adjustment and now again in a lull – but this time the reprise is not quite as to the same extent as before.

Rather unexpectedly my captor rang (rather then call by) to say that they would not be returning until 18:30 unless things had got desperate [I said they had not] and that they would only call once more to check in hour or so. Committing for such a long extension was quite a decision to have to make. Not that I was given that much choice!

One strange thing is dealing with being so detached from the daily cycles. I went into this small lightproof airtight bubble just before dawn and spent over one and a half days and 1 full night in here while working very unusual hours and untypical sleeping patterns. My only window on the world is my computer screen. To say I am messed up and confused would be a major understatement. This has led to several times wanting to leave, so I can re-sync. So far I have avoided this temptation – but (surprisingly) it has been much harder to deal with than the current levels of O2 and inevitable CO2 build up.
16:30 +34:15hrs

My respiration rate has very slowly been increasing since last entry. Not the cycles of increase and decrease as previously. Still well under control and far from frantic, but noticeably constant and increased above the norm.

I have been able to do some quite reasonable work over last few hours, but starting to find it difficult to concentrate. Other than that I feel ok – as long as I don’t move around too much. Think I will have a rest now and maybe meditate about my situation. I will have to know in a couple of hours what to tell ask captor – do I want out, or should I ask them to keep me in for another two hours. Even if I want out, I wonder if they are going to make it that easy?

18:15 +36:00hrs

Although not completely out of control, my respiration rate is increased and I generally have a feel that I am suffocating (which you could say has been true for some time!). But know, I am feeling like I am on a slow downward cycle that will end in unconsciousness. I feel very drowsy and cannot concentrate on anything other than my breathing for any length of time and moving around is difficult. The sexual thrill is still there but probably well past it’s peak. I don’t think I want to take on another 2 hours, so will ask to be let out soon.

18:30 +36:15

I knew it was possible, but didn’t really believe it would happen. My captor will not let me out “just yet”! No word on when I will be let out, so I will have to conserve my energy, in case it turns out to be another 2 hours – which would be desperate.

19:00 +36:45

My situation is quite desperate. I don’t have energy or concentration for anything other than very gently pleasuring myself. Even with minimal effort, this keeps me just out of breath and the fear of using up all the air before I am let out stops me using sufficient effort to come.

I have considered tearing my own way out early – but this bubble is made of very strong plastic (much much stronger than the thickest plastic bag you see. Even stronger than those designed to carry rubble) and I am very weak. I have no tools and my rubber clad fingers are useless for gripping or tearing, even if had the strength. Getting out of my rubber suit would be very expensive on energy and I don’t think it would do me any good…

On the whole I am going to have to trust my captor’s judgment and just enjoy the ride. The rides not bad after all…

19:30 +37:15

My captor returned about 10 minutes ago and said I would be let out in 10. Suddenly I had plenty of energy to use up some valuable air. I did get very frantic and out of breath in the following few minutes of ‘going for it’. Knowing I didn’t have to ration the air, allowed me work myself up into a frenzy. Slapping my rubber clad form & rubbing myself into the strong material of the bubble. Really getting off on the achievement and relief. Making the most of my last chance for fun in the bubble. I was almost weeping by the time my body released it’s last load.

Now I have had time to recover, I find my breathing is just about under control and not that much above normal rates. I feel washed out, but realize that I probably would have managed to make it if it had been two hour – or even longer. The bubble is so big, the atmosphere depletes in O2 and become polluted with CO2 so slowly, that you don’t get that sudden desperate speeding up of breath, but a slow spiral of adjustment that ware you down. So, although I could go on for hours, the fun is all behind me and I am looking forward to seeing the outside world. Staying awake is the major challenge now.

I hear them coming, better late then never…

Written After The Event…

Lessons learnt.
1. 250 Micron plastic is very heavy (18Kg or 40lbs) and will squeeze air out of any microscopic holes in the seams or seam tape. So maybe supporting the weight from above with guy wires would help (as I previously tried).

2. There is a max size that is fun in practice, this bubble’s golden period was the 8 hours around the +24 hour mark, even though it was a only a quarter full after the first few hours.

3. Dehumidifiers really works well in a bubble if you don’t want to be dripping in condensation. Essential if you are going to have electrical devices in the bubble (like heating or computer terminals). Not an ounce of condensation was seen on the bubble and there were pints in the dehumidifier’s container.

4. You really do need surprising little volume of air to survive for even long periods stretching into days. Will aim to actually quantify this some time by looking through logs and experimentation.

The 37 and quarter hour experience was great and you rarely get that amount of contiguous time to dedicate to your sexual fetishes. Being captive in the bubble I had lots of time to relax, contemplate and use my imagination.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

2005-03-16T08:52:00.000Z

05:15 Bubble #110

Finally finished preparation and building new bubble. Entered and sealed air lock exit for a trial run.

This bubble is a little more robust in style than ones I have made in past and so is a little bit of an experiment. It’s made from 250 micron thick black membrane. This is totally light proof and so lighting is laid on inside.

The main structure of the bubble is made of 3 sheets of the membrane with taped seams. In addition there is a air-lock structure made from a 4th sheet, which forms a 4m entry tube which can be sealed at both ends.

The nominal dimensions of the main structure are 2.75m x 4m x 2.25m, giving a volume of more than 24 Sq M. I don’t have an exact system of estimating endurance for a given volume, but looking at earlier log entries, I am hoping for 2 to 2.5 days.

Will write up more about the other trial items in this bubble later one…

09:15 +4 hours

Overnight the bag lost most of it’s volume. There must be a leak. Given the length of seams this is not that unexpected – particularly given that most are only taped on one side.

Later I will re-inflate and go over every seam and fix all the leaks. In the mean time, I think I will continue with what I have to see if there are any other things to learn.

The air is still very breathable and comfortable. The built-in thermostatic heating and the dehumidifier are keeping things pleasant so far.

12:00 +6:45

Sometime mid-morning I couldn’t help myself from getting turned on in my rubber suit, inside my plastic bubble. I was really trying to last out till later but just couldn’t stop myself filling my suit with semen… Didn’t help that someone mailed me a link to a new (commercial) breath play site (www.o2extreme.com).

By the way, I should point out that the bubble is large enough for my work desk monitor etc to fit in here with me. So I am actually able to work while slowly suffocating…

Speaking of which, only very early signs of any change to the quality of air in here. Pulse 76->80BPM (have not measured it recently, so not sure what it normally is, but this seems just a little high for me). Breathing is near normal.

19:15 +14hrs

After working through the day, I knocked off early and spent the last few hours catching up on sleep. During this time I was aware that the air quality was starting to change. This went through the classic pattern I have seen before when it happens when I am resting and not moving about. What happens is over time your body adjusts to it, so you get periods where your respiration rate increases slightly and then returns to normal, all by itself. During these periods, you can start to get strange feelings in the rest of you body, such as a sort of ache in the limbs or tingling deep in your abdomen. I go through several of these periods and then you can even get a long reprise where you stay apparently unaffected for a long period. This is roughly were I am now.

Incidentally, I never carried out the repairs to the bubble, which has leaked out much of the air until it formed a dome and could support it’s own weight without forcing the air through the small defects in the seams. So, I am in just a fraction of the volume of air the bubble is capable of – say a quarter. Even so, there seems to be plenty for a fairly long session and may even make 18 to 24 hours yet. The full bubble would have been able to support me for days – maybe longer than I have time available this time.

Speaking of time, it just so happens that I am going to working unsociable hours for – i.e. overnight and on call. So what better way to be deploying my software than doing it from my desk in my fetish bubble! I only hope the air doesn’t get interesting (run out) when I am too busy to appreciate it...

Monday. March 14. 2005

2005-03-15T05:47:00.000Z

Ok, this weeks going to be different. I am still going to be working from home while wearing rubber toe to foot, but I am also going to be trying out a few other ideas that are going to consume a fair bit of time (I am avoiding calling them endurance tasks as this is only part of the idea) and so commenting more on my non-work time than usual.

A lot of planning, buying and construction is necessary, so unfortunately today is not a rubber play day. However, I should mention that I spent yesterday evening playing in a PVC Hazmat-type fetish suit from PVC-u-like – to acclimatize to the breath control I will be undertaking this week. The suit can be coupled up to an air pump or you can use it without and regulate the amount of fresh air that is let in via the entry zip. I have done both, but chose to spend the night in the suit with a gap of between 2 and 3 inches in the zip. It’s quite possible to go down to 1 inch, but that is too intense for longer periods.

It got very wet in there with all the condensation from breathing, but was OK other than that. The controlled re-breathing felt great and I managed to sleep for some of the night. I find the thought of waking up, struggling for breath to be very stimulating. The calculated risk of never waking up at all, also adds a certain something too.

I managed to make the night out without submitting to my near constant erection. During the night I dreamt very vivid dreams about meeting up with one of my fetish correspondents at some sort of sex club or private orgy or suchlike. Anyway, when they came across me panting away and struggling for air in my suit, they were turned on and proceeded to mount me and have fun with my virtually helpless body.

In the morning I did allow myself to re-live the dream and it was intense.

During the day, I gathered the materials for the big bubble experiment. In the evening I started construction, which would take me through the night.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

2005-03-08T13:30:00.000Z

The good news is that my rubber home working lifestyle is back on. I have secured a good month’s worth of work I intend doing from home. The only thing is that this week is just too complex to plan and so I will probably not be able to set targets. I am working from home all week in rubber, it’s just I have all sorts of trips out, meetings and other commitments that mean it’s tricky to predict. However, when I can wear rubber I do wear it. Yesterday, I managed to find time to work for about 4 or 5 hours in rubber and today I will probably have 5 or 6 hours to do the same.

Before next week everything should be back to normal. And speaking of next week, I am still planning on some sort of “Marathon” session. If all goes to plan I intend to attempt to beat the 28 hours I did the other week. I have done several longer sessions than this before, but never during a working week.

I want to add breath control / bagging into the mix for the long session too. I have always been into plastic bags and various types of bag play. It’s all connected to the core fetish – the desire to be in my own sealed world. The dilemma of wanting to be sealed up to such a degree that you have very little scope for endurance (or long term survival!) is incredibly erotic for me… I find seeing others (men or women) in this state a huge turn on too.

One of my oldest fetishes is the idea of living in a large rubber or plastic bubble, totally sealed so no air can get in or out. I have even lived out this notion in a large number of experiments over the years, some of which I documented in a Log book. Looking back through the book gives me new ideas to try out and is also very stimulating. As the O2 runs out and CO2 builds up, the entries change. The hand writing often changes and the experience recounted gets more intense. Many of these logs document sessions well over 24 hours and some of my enclosures allowed survival times of over a week!

One day I may write up some of these log books (if anyone is interested), but in the mean time I am planning such a session in next week or two and so watch this space…

It interests me that I found relatively little written on the web about such sessions and yet we know lots of people are into this sort of thing. Maybe someone reading this is into bag play and will comment back…

I know some of my readers will think that I am advocating very dangerous practices and I am going to say right here that they are 100% right. There is no safe level of suffocation and many people die every year performing milder sessions than the ones I suggest. The chances of falling unconscious and dieing are significant. I am not going to justify it and can just say it’s my choice. If it makes it easier to understand, maybe I get off on the dangers (a bit like thrill seekers and extreme sports enthusiasts). It’s more complex than that, but it’s certainly become part of the excitement. Anyway, there is plenty already on the web about the dangers, so I intend concentrating on the “what” & “when” side of the subject (which is underrepresented) rather than dwelling on the “why” and “why not” aspect.

Friday, March 04, 2005

2005-03-04T11:06:00.000Z

Things have changed in my working life for a while, which may bring a temporary end to my rubber working life style. It also delayed writing up last Friday – which basically went like this ….

…It was going to be tuff to meet the target today. I didn’t think I would manage it, but with a session from 9 to 5 in full suit, including goggles and mask, I just scraped home with +6 points! It didn’t fit my plans for the day to stay in rubber till gone 5pm, but when I saw the opportunity to get back on track, I had to take it. So I just about managed to work off my deficit in one week – which was just as well…

Anyway, back to the present and as I said, things are on hold for the rubber working and I don’t have a date for when things will get back on track. However, if all goes to plan, it looks like I will have the opportunity for a one-off special some time during the next couple of weeks or so. Not sure what form this will take, but probably be an extended latex session, or some opportunity to wear latex while out, or some long duration breath play (maybe a combination!).

One idea is to repeat some of my long term “big” bag play session, where I construct a huge bag – as big as a room, inflate it and seal myself in to see how long I can survive in there. Some of the sessions went on for days! Dangerous stuff, but that’s maybe half the point of it…

Thursday, February 24, 2005

2005-02-24T16:47:00.000Z

Going to be a short entry today, due to pressure of work. I did manage to get into my rubber for 9AM, but am having to bail out at 4PM as I need to go out…

Had a comfortable day in rubber, if busy (with work). Did get some brief time to play at lunchtime and tried out some new breath play and popper play ideas that I will develop, and report on some day. Staying in rubber after climax is still the most difficult part of the experiment, but somehow I just manage to keep true to the rubber lifestyle…

The running totals show that a current balance of -846, which will be tricky to make tomorrow with all else that I need to do… Slightly worried I may miss my target again and incur more rubber interest!

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

2005-02-22T17:51:00.000Z

0900

Wow – a whole week without rubber. Not nice. Had a very successful week from a business point of view, but felt like I could cry by Friday. The extra exposure the previous week helped for the first few days, but I am certainly glad to be back in rubber today.

Speaking of the week before last, it’s time to reckon up. I actually spent well over 28 hours in rubber. For the majority if this time I was in total enclosure with not an inch of my body exposed. However this did not in itself make for a good points score. In fact I actually came out of it with a deficit of 185.5 points!!!

Now in retrospect, it seams that there ought to be an incentive for spending whole days in rubber – while not being to great as to be a disincentive for spending my working days in rubber. I think there should be a 24 hour bonus in addition to the consecutive work day bonus – but am hoping that you (my readers) will give me some suggestions as to the number of points which should be allocated.

But for now – I must stick to the rules which I set for the week. Here is how it worked, from a points perspective, Wednesday did not count as I was not working in my rubber – despite spending 8 hours before midnight. Similarly, Thursday midnight to 08:30 did not count as it was recreation time and not work time. However, I did qualify for the 100 point contiguous day bonus. Also, I did not need a comfort break during working time. I did get massively turned during the session, but only one time did I lose control during work time and actually came. I did manage to do an extra long work day (11.5 hours) – probably spurred on because I would not be able/willing(?) to spend time in rubber the next day.

Totals for week before last:
Suit & Hood = 11.5*100*=1150
Goggles =10*11.5=115
mask 5*11.5= 57.5
re-breather 25*0=0
Temp Bonus (above*(1+(0.25*0))=0
Contig. Day Bonus=1*100=100
Comfort Breaks=-50*0=-0
Ejaculation= - 100*1= -100
So far today= 1322.5
Week before today= 550
Total for week so far= 1872.5
Target=2058
Balance= -185.5

So what about this week?

Well, if I don’t make my target there has to be some consequences – while recognizing that my opportunity for staying in rubber is, unfortunately, not limitless. The first thing that happens is that any shortfall is carried over to the following week(s) with 10% interest added on. However, because the target was not reached – it was probably too high. So the following weeks target is reduced by 80% of the shortfall. So that if the target was 2058 and I miss it by 185.5, the new target is 1910 with -204 carried over. This means I would have to earn 1910 points next week as a minimum and hopefully earn 2114 to avoid yet more interest on the remainder.

Now, you may think that this may not sound like enough of an incentive to meet the target but that’s now really the point. Firstly, I am having to publish my failure to my rubber peers – which is the real punishment. Also, am not going to want to continually run a deficit, as there is 10% interest, as well as the indignity to consider. So although I am going to have work hard to pay back the deficit in the next week (or two), at least the target will be achievable once I have paid off my rubber debt.

16:00

Really enjoying today. It’s been easy to get used to being back in rubber and it just feels wonderful. Maybe, too wonderful, as I don’t seem to able to get enough of it. I had an excellent bag play session during my lunch break, going wild in my steamed up bag. Managed to make it last a fair while, but ever since, rather than being satisfied, I have been wanting more …

1700

Enough for today… Points summarized: Total for week so far (with all bonus and charges carried over)= 496, Weeks Target= 1910, Balance= -1414

Thursday 10:30

2005-02-11T15:05:00.000Z

The urges get to great for me and I find myself turned on by my own predicament. More than 18 hours in here and just seems to get more erotic over time. I break off work and sort myself out. Taking to poppers this time to complete the rubbery trip. They send my respiration wild and I lose any ability to slow things down. Intense.

16:00 (24 hours)

Earlier in the afternoon, I decided I would only have to last to 1600 before I could leave and get on with other aspects of my life. I really felt I had probably had nothing more to gain in staying encased in rubber. I really wanted out so set myself the 24 hour target.

But now it’s here, I just don’t want to leave. It’s interesting how I have these occasional lows where I want to bail out. As long as they are not near a time where I would feel justified in getting out of the rubber (like at the end of the working day, before I go to bed, meal times etc) I seem to be able to deal with it by setting a target a few hours away.

My libido is back again and slowly taking over from my work. It’s nice having that drive there and trying to keep it off the boil, while I try to concentrate on my work.

I have not eaten or drunk anything since yesterday (it’s just not possible when sealed up, without breaking the “seal” so to speak). It’s interesting to note that I have only needed to relieve myself a couple of times and not at all in the last 8 hours. Things seem to be slowing down for my body.

The rubber suit is staying quite comfortable still. It seems that anything that may be uncomfortable will manifest itself in the first 8 to 10 hours It feels relatively dry in here, despite everything. So, I think I am good for a few hours yet I think.

20:00 (+28 Hours)

The last few hours has been a challenge – just from exhaustion and a head ache (that is actually coming from my neck) that has steadily increased. I think I have reached my limit for this session so am bailing out. The limit seems to be mainly physiological – pretty much a desire to get out and meet some people…

Post script – on removing the suit I found that it was indeed fairly dry. Considering the time I had been in there I was surprised. Also, I had not developed any skin irritation or major redness from pressure points and the like. Just the odd temporary skin impression from seams you would get from wearing any tight clothes (like underwear). The only other thing I notices was my hands were very pale – but not at all wrinkled as they would be if wet.

So in these types of conditions (winter in a temperate zone), the real limits on the length of time you can wear rubber is going to be physiological and to some degree personal hygiene. Although rubber does not take on odor like normal materials (or emit it), there is going to be a personal limit on what state you want your body to be in.

The physiological aspects are difficult to pin down. They seem to be partly the isolating affects of TE. For example, going out to the restaurant is a not an attractive or practical possibility if you are 100% enclosed in latex for me. I guess this would be helped if you lived with other rubber centric people.

I think there are other things too – which I could characterize as more cultural or habitual associations. There are things you grow to take for granted in life, like the routine cycles of your day or things you day every week, which may be disrupted by wearing latex TE. I suspect these things could be overcome if the dedication to an entirely rubber life was total. But the question is, when you can have a life which could afford a generous amount of dedicated quality rubber time, would you really want a totally 100% rubber life if one was possible?

I for one am still not sure of the answer…

20:30 (+4:30) (Wednesday, February 09, 2005)

2005-02-10T10:25:00.000Z

20:30

I gradually turned up the amount of re-breathing I was doing during the first few hours and reached a the maximum I felt that can be sustained for longer sessions at about 08:00. I love playing around with re-breathing masks & bags. Something I have been regularly practicing since childhood.

There are different styles to this sort of play. There is the frantic short sessions, right through to the longer sessions. I generally have a preference for long sessions with milder levels of re-breathing. The trick is to adjust things so that you are constantly forced to take deep breaths at an above average frequency, but let in enough fresh air into the system that your breath does not go out of control.

00:00 (+8:00)

I had a great evening of being fully encased and breath play. I had a powerful erection for hours. I particularly remember a 4 hour segment where I was constantly on the edge of orgasm. Holding back the ejaculation was very deliciously difficult – and it felt like a big disappointment to me when I finally failed to stem the flow, so early in my first evening (around 9 or 10pm). It felt like nothing would be quite the same in my rubber encapsulation for the rest of my time in my suit – but of course this feeling started to lift within the hour and, a couple of hours later, I felt so comfortable that you would have had to pay me to get out of here.

While “recovering”, I had time out from the bag play, but now it’s time to don another fun hood and go to bed. The hood is a black rubber, loose fitting, re-breathing hood. It has no eye holes and just a group of small holes around the mouth area to let some air in. A rubber belt secured it around the neck. All this went over my normal hood I have been wearing for 8 hours now.

The hood is fairly tame when worn as intended, but for more extreme breath play I often wear it so the air holes do not directly line up with my mouth. However, I intend to sleep in it so I am going to wear it lined up correctly. [Obviously breath play while asleep can be very dangerous and should only be attempted by experienced people, with supervision of another and with very mild levels of breath play. Don’t write in warning me – I already know the risks and have for many, many years now.]. Now mild as it is, I know from other attempts it will be plenty enough to try to sleep through. For me there is nothing better than the feeling I get of falling asleep or half waking with my respiratory system gently working away at making the most of the re-breathed air (for best effect, it needs to be just noticeable that it is having to work at it – not gasping).

Thursday 08:30 (+16:30)

Here I am starting work and I have already been in my suit for effectively 2 man days. I will tale the advice of Blackie and work out the points later…

I had a reasonable night, considering I was totally encased in rubber and wearing two hoods, the outer one being the re-breathing hood. The inner hood did cause me some problems as it pulls my lower jaw in slightly, which causes me some periodic breathing troubles as I fall asleep. The re-breather was plenty effective enough to keep my respiration rates up on normal. I countered this by forcing myself to stay awake till the small hours after a tough day, so that I would be ready to sleep heavily. This worked and I soon dropped off.

However, it was never going to be an uninterrupted sleep and several times and hour, my inner hood would win the elastic battle to bring my jaw in and would start restricting my breath – this was like a time-bomb attached to a snore. I would wake just enough to notice the “snore” and reposition my jaw or whole head to get free flow again. While this was happening, I would be aware of the effects of re-breathing – which was perversely delicious, although I could have done without the inner hood restricting my air flow.

Next time I will allow myself to take off the inner hood if I am going to wear the re-breathing hood to bed.

The erotic cycle of gagging, waking and finding myself in my rubber situation became more stimulating in the early morning. I found myself in a half awake state, working hard to breath and this dangerous erotic state became unbelievably stimulating. Eventually I could take no more and found myself writhing about uncontrollably and, as I came round, I erupted ferociously in my suit.

It was about 5am, so I decided to take off the outer hood as I had the feeling that I was so stimulated that I was ready to repeat the performance before day break and I needed at least some sleep.

Now I am up, I can report that I am quite comfortable in my suit. I am wearing goggles and filter mask over my hood, so totally sealed in and feeling ready for a day in latex. The only problems I have to report is that I have right ear is feeling the pressure of the hood and is a little painful sometimes. I hope this does not get worse as the day goes on.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005 - a one off experiment.

2005-02-09T17:37:00.000Z

16:00

People have been asking about my rubber life outside of the time I work in rubber, so here is a one off sampler.

It’s unusual for me to start a new entry at 16:00, but it looks like I have the opportunity to have an extended latex session that I thought people may be interested in. The time available to me could probably stretch into Friday and there is the likelihood that this may include a 24 hour + session or maybe a single long uninterrupted session. So here I am all kitted up, complete with hood, goggles and re-breath mask – so not an inch of me is exposed. There is so much time available for fetish activities, that I am already getting energized.

Now the interesting thing, that people may find difficult to understand, is that this may well not directly affect my points target for the week. In fact it may make things more difficult for me. You see the points targets and my blog entries centre on maximizing the time I spend during my working life in rubber. The way things stand, the time I spend at night just doesn’t count (other than the contiguous day bonus). This may seem a little odd – but when I set this blog up, I decided that I never had an issue spending my private life enjoying my fetish, but that my track record in spending the time I worked from home in rubber was a little patchy. So thus the points and blog.

However, now I am here, preparing for a longer session, I see there is some potential unfairness and possible conflict of interests. Spending a long time in rubber today and tomorrow, may make working in rubber tomorrow and Friday much more challenging. It could easily be more uncomfortable. I may well be less motivated. There could be more psychological challenge – either going stare crazy or maybe getting depressed though the loss of connection to people and the real world. These entries could well be my best contact with anyone or anything before the weekend.

Like I implied, now I am here, it seems unfortunate that I have not come up with a way of giving an incentive for not buckling from the meeting my work day targets when under the pressure of longer session outside of work. I’ll post this now, before I change my mind about combining the two objectives...

Monday, February 07, 2005 - Start Of Week 4

2005-02-09T16:19:00.000Z

Last weeks target was 2700, which I exceeded by 85 points over 4 days. This week I able to work from home 3 days max. That means that this week, I am aiming for
2743/4= 685.75
x 3 = 2058 points.

I just looked over the figures for the last 3 weeks and I got:
Week 1 2365 against target 1800, which is +31% (over 4 days)
Week 2 2625 against target 2500, which is +5% (over 4 days)
Week 3 2785 against target 2700, which is +3%(over 4 days)

Things seem to be converging, so I started wondering where my natural level might be. I think there may be a glass ceiling somewhere well before 3000 points in 4 days…

16:30 Finished for day.

Totals so far:
Suit & Hood = 100*7.5=750
Goggles =10*0=0
mask 5*0=0
re-breather 25*0=0
Temp Bonus (above*(1+(0.25*0))=0
Contig. Day Bonus=0
Comfort Breaks=-50*2= -100
Ejaculation= - 100*1= -100
So far today= 550
Week before today=0
Total for week so far= 550
Target=2058
Balance= -1508

Friday, February 04, 2005 - end of week 3

2005-02-04T14:59:00.000Z

09:00

Start with a balance of -440. This is with the contiguous day bonus that I get if I have spent 5 or more hours in latex within 24 hours of starting a given day that I will also spend 5 or more hours in latex. So with the bonus, I will have exceeded my target in 5 hours. If I don’t want to qualify for it I would have to get out of the suit sooner than the 5 hours – but then without the bonus I would not reach the target. A mini-catch-22 situation where I will either exceed the target quota or not meet it.

In reality, I will probably choose to exceed the target quota and have points in hand for the various demerits.

Just to make sure I bust the target I am again wearing total enclosure suit including hood, goggles and mask. Every millimeter of me is sealed up safe.

10:00

As an aside, I just remembered something from last night. I noticed for the first time how slightly strange and a little uncomfortable “normal” clothes are to wear. It was a mild feeling – one that I could easily ignore if I busied myself, but there it was. They were inflexible and either too baggy or to constricting. They were not comfortably smooth and even, but course which felt odd and slightly itchy.

I couldn’t help noticing that even though my “normal” clothes were only on for 6 or 7 hours, some of them were not totally fresh when I took them off. This just doesn’t seem to be the case with rubber. I wear my rubber for 8 plus hours from clean and they don’t seem develop a bad smell – even the hands and feet. I have come to the conclusion that “normal” clothes are just a bit unsanitary.

13:00

By my rough estimate, I could have reached my quota in the next half an hour or so. Will I be getting out of the suit then? I don’t think so. It’s just too wonderful a place to be on a Friday afternoon! We will see what happens, but I am inclined not worry about exceeding my quota and setting myself up for a difficult week next week. The way I have the points system play list set up, I am hoping it will regulate itself (and me!) over time.

15:00

So I am going out with a surplus of 85 points. I am surprised it was not more.

I got to do some real world things now. Going to miss the rubber for two days.

Totals so far:
Suit & Hood = 100*6=600
Goggles =10*5=50
mask 5*5=25
re-breather 25*0=0
Temp Bonus (above*(1+(0.25*0))=0
Contig. Day Bonus=100
Comfort Breaks=-50*1= -50
Ejaculation= - 100*1= -100
So far today= 625
Week before today=2160
Total for week so far= 2785
Target=2700
Balance= +85

Thursday, February 03, 2005 - Week 3

2005-02-04T08:59:00.000Z

9:00

Much warmer in office today – the thermometer says 25C!– so maybe a sticky day ahead. The heating in this place has to be set the night before – so it’s never the right temperature… nightmare…

Got 1510 points to do before week is out – so must do at least 755 each day. In fact I would prefer to have some in hand as Fridays are often short days as I will need to go out to chores and socialize. So I am aiming for at least 800 today – which may not be possible if I have comfort breaks or enjoy myself too much…

At least I start the day with a 100 point bonus, as it is less than 24 hours since I was last in rubber.

12:00

One thing I have mentioned before is that I think you should earn more points for staying fully enclosed in rubber when the temperature is higher. This is because temperature is something that concerns me and, in fact, I don't really know what will happen in the summer, if things get really hot. I am not good in hot temperatures and suspect I am going to find it torture. I may have to make the best of being soaked when things warm up, but I always feel happier being just moist enough to "stick" to the rubber rather than feel like I am swimming about in my suit. I really wonder if I will be able to take it…

Anyway, I think I will need an incentive when thing hot up. So here is what I have in mind. Each degree centigrade (Celsius) above 26C will earn an extra 25 percent on top of the clothing points, per hour. So if it is 30C (very hot for a UK citizen and about 86F for those using the imperial measurement) and I am wearing all over suit with integral gloves and feet and an all over hood with just mouth/eye/nostril holes, I get 100*(1+(0.25*4))=200.

200 points and hour too much? I don’t really know how easy it would be to do a whole working day in rubber with pints of liquid in the suit, day after day – but suspect that I may not manage that at 30C – so maybe a half day bail out would be in order. There is plenty of time before spring and summer arrive – so what do you all think?

17:00

It’s time to peel my second skin away for another day. I managed the whole day with goggles and mask on – so not one millimeter of me was exposed. The goggles were probably the most uncomfortable thing to wear for long periods but expect that I will get used to them like everything else.

On weird thing today, is that I have not felt sexually aroused in the rubber, apart from a short period this morning when I felt mild stimulation. On the one hand this is very encouraging - rubber being more than a masterbastion device and more of a way of life. On the other hand, it’s king of spooky to not be trying desperately to keep myself under control. Is this just a natural off day for me (I have been burning the candle at both ends) or is this something more serious – rubber losing its special-ness through being worn more often than not? Plenty of people have hypothesized that this could occur and that rubber would no longer be a turn on. I still doubt it, and time will tell. I think that it was not that I didn’t feel special in the rubber (as I did), but that my between the legs physiology/libido was after a day off today…

Totals so far:
Suit & Hood = 100*8=800
Goggles =10*8=80
mask 5*8=40
re-breather 25*0=0
Temp Bonus (above*(1+(0.25*0))=0
Contig. Day Bonus=100
Comfort Breaks=-50*1= -50
Ejaculation= - 100*0= -0
So far today= 970
Week before today=1190
Total for week so far= 2160
Target=2700
Balance= -540

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

2005-02-03T11:49:00.000Z

9:00

Good start. Temp low so should be a easy day in rubber… This is crunch week, so got stacks of work to get through. Good news is that I have more than enough work to keep me busy at my home office for rest of this week. Working in rubber is great…

12:00
CBreak

13:00

Going well. To busy to be distracted by my rubbery world much…

As I mention previously I think you should get more point the more you “sealed” you are from the outside world. So today I have been wearing goggle and filter mask – so every inch of my body is covered or has not direct contact with “outside”. True, a small area around my eyes is not totally covered by latex – but on the other hand, neither is it touching anything outside my suit – including unfiltered air… I will undoubtedly work on this, but for now I am awarding myself an extra 10 points per hour wearing the goggles and 5 points for the mask. If I wear a re-breather, then I think this ups the anti to 25 points and hour for the re-breather mask.

You may feel this too generous (feel free to comment) – but try imagine being this enclosed every day and still being able to function. Also bear in mind the idea is to provide an incentive to stay sealed up as much as much as possible, for as much of my working life as possible.

15:00
CB & took off my goggles and mask to make some calls. At the moment, they are very difficult to get used to wearing for longer periods. Some adjustment was needed to stop them digging in over time.

17:00
Really good productive work day in rubber. Although no real quality rubber time for any fun today, my rubbery persona still felt obliged to reward my weak mortal body with the sexual release it so needed. With the work pressures against the instinctive base drives, it seemed an almost mechanical process today – almost if I was an outside observer, watching man and rubber joining. Weird.

On this occasion I did allow myself to get out of the rubber suit not too long after the act – which now felt a bit like a betrayal. I think I will try not to do this in future as it sets a bad president.

Totals so far:
Suit & Hood = 100*8=800
Goggles =10*6=60
mask 5*6=30
re-breather 25*0=0
Comfort Breaks=-50*2= -100
Ejaculation= - 100*1= -100
So far today=690
Week before today=500
Total for week so far= 1190
Target=2700
Balance=- 1510

Monday, January 31, 2005 – Start of week 3

2005-01-31T21:36:00.000Z

09:00

Back in rubber on a cool 24C day. Perfect. Felt slightly odd/exciting for first half hour as I have been out since Friday. This very soon passed and now I just feel comfortable, safe and just a bit special!

This Weeks Target = 2700

I expect to work from home for 4 days this week (with, say a 10% chance that it may be only be 3 days). Last week I made the 2500 target over 4 days, with a surplus of 125. Now the way it works in this situation is that I add half the surplus on to get 2563. Because there are the same expected days this week available for rubbery activity, no further adjustments needed. However, I am allowed to adjust up to challenge myself, so have decided that 2700 would be a good target. This may seem a bit of a jump, particularly given how challenging it seemed to me to achieve last week, but this week I am hoping to benefit from the adjacent day bonus. That’s worth 100 points for a day where at the start of that day, you had previously spent at least 5 hours in latex within the previous 24.

11:30 (comfort break).

12:00

Been reviewing things and consider that I am starting to find things that little too comfortable and normal. Wearing rubber should not be anything like putting on a pair of comfortable carpet slipper. So I need an incentive to be that little bit more adventurous. So, I think that more points should be earned if eyes and mouth sealed up. Also, there has been very little mention of bag play / re-breathers since I started this experiment. This strikes me as very untypical of my fetish life.

Of course, the challenge will be doing it so that I can still work... So the first step was to put on large ski goggles. Next I re-breathing kit to the mouth of my rubber hood. Every time I breathe in or out the air is only passing to or from the bag to my mouth - so it becomes essential to balance this with breathing in through my nose – which is mainly getting clean air. This experiment should give me some information on how these things can be added to the play list.

1330 All this bag play has given things a bit of an edge and I am getting over excited. Every breath of stale air is a turn of from me. Being so completely sealed in is also a turn on for me…

1430
I took my hood off because I was expecting to be making and receiving phone calls and wanted to feel confident when speaking. However, after a short period it started to feel strange – and quite distracting – so I had to put it back on again! This was a very strange experience. I think that if I really had a good reason to not wear the hood I would have managed it, but I felt cold and uncomfortable without it and just felt I needed to be back inside it. It’s not that it’s a particularly comfortable hood – being heavily made with very thick rubber and lots of overlapping strengthening patches and seams. But it now seems to be totally correct to be in rubber when at work…

I will just have to work around the phone and remove my hood only if I get into trouble hearing or speaking.

15:00 EJ1 & C.Break2

16:00 Time to be out of rubber and out of here…

Totals so far:
Suit & Hood = 100*7=700
Comfort Breaks=-50*2= -100
Ejaculation= - 100*1= -100
So far today=500
Week before today=0
Target=2700
Total for week so far= 700
Balance=-2000

Friday, January 28, 2005 (End Of Week2)

2005-01-28T15:46:00.000Z

9:30

A bit later getting into rubber today. Was up till 2AM fixing the computer again. Some sort of interaction between Norton Internet Security and Cisco VPN client. Anyway, although have been up since 7, I have been waiting for my body to catch up before sealing it away for the day.

I only have 275 pointz left to get this week and am very happy that I will probably make it. The 22 hours I have spent totally encased in rubber so far this week, might not sound that impressive, but I found it fairly challenging to fit into roughly 2.5 work days. That works out at nearly 9 hours per work day – which I think is possible close to my limit, given my other real-world commitments. Of course I have nobody to judge against, except Latex Lady at http://latexlifestyle.blogspot.com/, who has spent weeks in latex 24/7 – and so is just in a different league. I would love to here from anyone who is recording how long they are spending in rubber, while having a non-rubber life on the side. Maybe there really are so few of us – but I find that hard to believe.

10:00 Wearing latex on consecutive days (3rd day today) really does make a difference for me. It is far easier to get through the first few hours in all respect. It’s easier to control my sex drive (although still erect) and the temperature control thing is much easier. It’s 23C and I feel a bit cold. In fact I have been feeling cooler than expected since yesterday morning. I think my body used to get over stimulated in the past and consequently over-reacted by speeding up it’s metabolism. Maybe I am so used to it, my body has adjusted to this as the normal thing to be happening to it at this time of day.

I wonder if in weeks to come the rubber will lose it’s special feel to me and become so normal that it is no longer erotic to me. I am hoping that the erotic nature of rubber is more than the novelty of feeling something very different against your skin. But we will see…

12:00

Things going well so far today. In theory, I could be out of the suit in half an hour meeting the weekly target. However, that does no take into account the fact I may well want to stay in here a bit longer – which I do. Got to be careful here, as I am going to start basing my new weekly targets on how much I exceed the previous week’s totals. I have written up the details of how this would work, but rather than put a very long description here, which is only provisional, I will summarize the basic concept:

Exceeding the target: a proportion of the excess will be added to the week’s target as the basis of next week’s target. (There is also some scaling necessary for short weeks.)

Missing the target: There has to be some consequences – while recognizing that my opportunity for staying in rubber is, unfortunately, not limitless. So basically I carry forward any shortfall – with interest! However I also slightly reduce the target by a percentage of the shortfall.

Now you may think that this may not sound like enough of an incentive to meet the target but that’s not really the point. I am going to have to publish my failure to my rubber peers – which is the real punishment. Also I am not going to want to continually run a deficit, as there is interest to pay

I suspect the details will unfold as each eventuality arises. What do you think? Fair? Any constructive suggestions welcome.

12:45

Now I am ahead of the target, I can spend some hard earned pointz – this time on a comfort break.

14:00

It’s been a very pleasant and productive day. Conditions were good in the suit and I felt very comfortable, working away hard at the computer. Absolutely no problem with over active libido today, with just a cycle of semi-erections every now and again, occasionally getting just pleasantly distracting. Could have easily gone the day with a totally dry suit, however…

Friday can be fun, because you get to earn extra point and reward yourself. In fact there is a bit of an incentive to spend. If you have met your target and want to spend just a little longer in your suite, you run the risk of setting yourself up for an impossible week the following week. So, despite the fact that I am in no big need, it is time to have some fun with a 100 point purchase.

15:00 Time to leave the suit. On the whole, a good week!

Totals so far:
Suit & Hood = 100*5.5=550
Comfort Breaks=-50*1= -50
Ejaculation= - 100*1= -100
Bodily waste in suite: 50*0=0
So far today=400
Week before today=2225
Target=2500
Total for week so far= 2625
Balance=+125
Sealed

Thursday, January 27, 2005 (of Week 2)

2005-01-28T01:21:00.000Z

12:00

Your going to have to take it from me that I have been in rubber since about 9AM – as I was not able to make a log entry due to computer trouble. Usual boring conspiracy of incompetence by Microsoft (IE6) and Norton (IS2005) had me spend a whole morning cleaning up the mess that was my “blue screen”.

Now I have that out of the way, back to rubber… Looking at my running totals for the week so far, I can see I am far from home and dry yet. Doing 2500 points sounds easy until you actually try it. Just finding time to do the 16.5 hours of latex during business hours so far this week was tricky – when you have non-rubber personal commitments. I reckon that at a minimum I am going to have to do two more days in rubber – but luckily it looks like tomorrow I will be working from home in rubber again. Things would be a lot easier if the new contiguous day rule applied yet – but that does not come in till next week and the target will probably be increased by then!

Totals so far
Suit & Hood = 100*3=300
Comfort Breaks=-50*0= 0
Ejaculation= - 100*0= -0
So far today=300
Week before today=1200
Target=2500
Total for week so far= 1500
Points needed=1000

If, for example, I have 2 comfort breaks and 1 ejaculation per day, I would actually need 1400 points so would need to stay in TE for another 14 hours, say 5 hours today and 9 tomorrow. Now I am sure that would be perfectly comfortable, but I just don’t know if I can find that kind of time to dedicate to work or rubber at this point. The only way I think I am sure to make the target is to lose some/all of the comfort breaks and not go mad on the joy stick (masturbation)….

13:30

Now I have been lucky so far today as neither has been an issue. It was a subtle change in my state of mind that got me though the first few hours without too much distraction from my penis. I think this was helped by the fact that it was less than 24 hours since I had last been in latex – so the impact of the transition into rubber had been lessened. Also keeping off popper this morning meant I was more focused and so kept control better.

As for comfort breaks, I have previously posted the I think that poppers may be a diuretic and so far I have not had to go today – so maybe there is something in it. I have also been coming off caffeine drinks which I believe also make you sweat and piss more. Normally I need to go at about 11 to 11:30 and I am only now starting to want to go. When I do have to go, I think I will not be able to afford to do it the dry way…

So it looks like coming off the poppers has helped and maybe I no longer need them to ease me into my rubber day. Watch this space to see if this turns out to be true.

14:00

I had to urinate – but had insufficient points to take a comfort break. Still at least I earn an extra 50 pointz an hour for my discomfort. I will have to find a better solution in the long term. It’s s really nice feeling that I don’t have to get out of the suite to urinate, but all this liquid negates what little lubrication there is in here and, although I am fairly well used to it, is bound to cause chafing and skin issues if have it to do all day, every day.

14:45

It’s strange how something so unpleasant as urine can affect you. All that gushing warm liquid in the groin area ended up giving me the erection from hell (or heaven depending on your perspective). Not something I am particularly drawn to, pissing in my suite – it’s just a necessity. But somehow it’s very kinky. Needless to say it was too tempting and I ended up squelching away like mad. I don’t think the extra liquid will make much odds in here, but suspect I will be a little raw by the end of the day. I am down 100 pointz on the deal, but suspect I can last today without a repeat performance.

Strangely, the impulse to get out of the suite was not too difficult to handle today. Even though I felt far from comfortable in here, straight after the act. Having a challenging target just seems to concentrate the mind, such that getting out of the suit no longer registers as a real option. I just curl up and have a quick power-nap until everything feels better again.

17:30

Well it’s not really idea in here but I better get out as I have places to be, people to see… Not a bad pointz recovery, these are my day end reckonings:

Totals so far
Suit & Hood = 100*8.5=850
Comfort Breaks=-50*0= 0
Ejaculation= - 100*1= -100
Bodily waste in suite: 50*3.5=175
So far today=1025
Week before today=1200
Target=2500
Total for week so far=2225
Points needed=275

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My perfect rubber suite...

2005-01-26T16:08:00.000Z

A special extra post today, to try to make up for the mere 5 hours I spent in TE today. I hope this stimulates some comments…

My perfect rubber suite.

Wearing my current latex outfit(s) for longer periods, more regularly, has given me a new insight into the shortcomings of suits that were perfectly adequate for long sex sessions. I thought it was time to start to catalogue these issues and so start the process of defining “my perfect suit”.

My idea of perfection will probably be different from other’s, as you have to start off with the wearers personal objectives before getting on to practical issues. However I suspect there will be probably be significant overlap between my ideas and other peoples, so let see.

As you will have seen by my Pointz Play List, the target is to be as totally enclosed as possible for as many days of the working week as I can manage, for my entire work day – ideally without ever getting out until the end of the session. So I want to be as totally well sealed as possible / practical - maximum coverage being the obvious aim.

Where possible that would mean air/liquid tight. I don’t want to be leaving a trail of liquid behind and I don’t want to feel the air (or anything else) from “outside” on my skin. Now there has to be some compromises here as I have to be able to work effectively at my computer / phone and I have to be able to breath. Although completely at odds with my general aims, I can just about rationalize these two compromises, as they are the key to allowing me to continue with the experiment!

So, I am ready to start on defining some of the characteristics a suit would have to be considered ideal for my purposes:

1 Close fitting

2 Durable (I will wear it most days)

3 Comfortable (& stimulating)

4 So possibly custom made.

5 Minimal zippers – Each zip will only be as big as it’s function requires. I specifically don’t want one long zipper from crotch, round back to top of head. Long zippers ruin the suit’s ability to stretch properly, they rub, cause wear and they leak.

6 Look sleek

7 Fairly easy to get into / out of

8 Lockable – I may want to lock myself in…

9 Have attached hands & feet

10 Have permanently attached hood – but only if it can meet my hood working requirements detailed below, otherwise I would have to have a separate or detachable hood, which would have to meet another set of requirements, also below

11 The perfect hood (or mask) would
o Be as totally encasing as possible.
o Allowing me to use the computer, so I would need to be able to see clearly most of the time (detachable lenses or blindfold a bonus).
o Be comfortable for longer periods.
o Have some way to let me confidently talk on the telephone, so

12 Allow me to hear clearly some of the time (detachable sound insulation bits would be bonus).

13 Talk clearly as required (optional gag would be a luxury bonus).
o Ideally it could be plumbed up to a mild or controller re-breather apparatus when talking not required. Perhaps via a detachable face mask over mouth?

14 Any separate/detachable hoods would have:
o Be fairly quick to remove to take phone calls.
o Have sufficient overlap or be joined in some way that meant no join gap between hood and rest of suit would be visible. Ideally this joint should be fairly air/water resistant.

15 Suit would have facilities to allow for bodily functions, with minimal exposure to “outside” air or other non-rubber contact.
o As a minimum, it would have facilities for urinating without exposing penis to outside air. In this respect, I would consider flushing pant or external catheter or other pumped and electro mechanical solutions…
o If liquid waste is collected, then capacity for 2 or 3 typical water passing session would probably be sufficient, as long as it could be emptied
o If possible, solid waste facilities with minimum exposure to outside. Not a hard and fast requirement this, as I would typically spend enough time out of the suite to sort this type of thing out – but it would be a major bonus and afford an increase in flexibility into my schedule!

16 I do not require the ability to eat while wearing the suit, but some system for the occasional drink would be good.

17 Would consider a daily work outfit that was comprised of more than one layer – e.g. a thin layer plus a thicker layer over the top, if this helps meet all the requirements.

This is not necessarily the definitive list, but a good first stab to get people thinking about it. Any comments on the requirements or a suite that may meet these would be welcome. I suspect I may be saying more about this in future posts. Once we have this TE suit sorted out, I am going to want to talk about suits to wear under street clothes – but that’s later….

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